You know, life is a tough things.

You think you can manage, but sometimes it's too hard to handle. You need help, but you can't ask anyone because nobody would understand how you feel. They can imagine, but they will move on quickly. It's not their life you know, they have to solve their own issues. Human is selfish, I can't pretend to be better.

So, you're alone, thinking too much. Like always, your thoughts don't belong to you anymore. In fact, depression and anxiety are your only friends. The oldest doesn't feel concern any longer, and the new one's... I wish I could tell them about my feelings.

However, how I could let them know if I don't know how I feel ? I need to focus, express myself like this to understand them.

I just feel completely stupid, as always.

At last, I don't know why I'm writing all of this in english.  Sometimes, words come that way and for once I didn't try to limit myself.

If your are in the same situation, I can't give you an advice. I'm not sure that my way to handle this is better than an other one. I'm juste trying my best, and this is maybe a kind of therapy.

Don't give up, please.

Xx