After kidnap Beverly and leave her unconscious in the sewers, pennywise is in the abandon house alone. Sitting in an empty room upstairs thinking about what just happen when he admits who he is to (y/n). It did not go well like he thought.

"I wish I could turn back the time... But there's no way." He said to himself. "I'm sorry (y/n)."

Penny notice and unused knife next to him and pick it up. He stares at it and see his own reflection. He's in a deep depression and pulls his sleeves up and begin to cut himself. He has hot tears escaping his blue eyes and finish giving his arms 5 cuts. He did this because it's the pain and he like wants more of it for no reason.

"(y/n)... (y/n)... I'm so sorry sweetheart. I wish I could of told you sooner... But I just couldn't... I miss you... And I- I... I love you..."

He drops the sharp blade and falls on the floor. And begin to cry in his hands.

"Please come back to me..."

***

The losers club guys and (y/n) are running to the abandon house because she said there's weapons there. Guns, bow and arrow, swords and knifes.

"Okay guys since this place is abandoned, the doors and windows are unlocked. And we found unused weapons in there so we're going to get them and be ready. And remember, of you see penny don't hurt or kill him just scare him with the weapons. But hurt him if you have to when he hurts you."

So the boys understood as they barge through the door. They found a wardrobe in the living area. When they open the doors they found swords, axes, 2 bow and arrows, and guns with bullets.

And as for (y/n), she's wearing mom's old outfit when she's her age. Its an adventures outfit.

(Pick one of these but both of them has the hairstyle and the cape)

"And (y/n), why are you wearing that?" Richie ask in a disgusted look. "This is a rescue mission not a fashion show."

"Because I want to. Because I like to be like mom so don't judge."

So they found a well that leads to Penny's lair in the sewers. So they found a rope, tie it to something heavy, and girl down to the sewer that smells foul. When they make it down, (y/n) starts to feel nervous. Like what would pennywise think about this when the sees her with the losers club with deadly weapons? And she starts to remember the good times with him.

(y/n) pulls down her sleeves and looks at the scars stain with blood on her arm. She made those after pennywise left the house. Plus everytime when penny is away, she just miss him so much, when penny hugs her, she feel butterflies in her tummy, and every time when penny calls her sweetheart, it makes her want to-

"Okay guys be ready to get Beverly and (y/n), be ready to talk to him. Will you be okay?"

Bill makes (y/n) get out of her head thinking about the clown and reply. "Yeah! Yeah, sure I'm scared but I'm ready." And she feel dumb about what she did to her arms. Pennywise will not be happy when he finds out because he wants her to be safe and unharmed. She whispers to herself before making her way to the spot with the boys. The tunnel to the lair has a light ahead.

"The scars are hard to heal... But I'll heal penny."