Author's Note:
Double update and the next one will also be published in 24 hours

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I crashed on the floor after he left. I hugged my knees and cried out loud. Why is this so hard? Why is love so hard? And why should it end like this? Why should this end so early? Why? I held my head and sobbed out loud. I hugged my dairy so hard. Living without Taehyung is the worst nightmare that is coming true. 

I remembered the evening, the most dreadful evening in my life.

"Nazeera", Baba yelled as he entered the house. Ammi and I were shocked at his sudden yell and he looked really furious. He looked like he can spit fire with his eyes and we were really dumbfounded at his anger.

He then walked to me and held my neck. I was struggling to breathe and begged for his mercy. His hold was strong and harsh. Never in my life, Baba behaved like that. Ammi was trying to take his hand from my neck but Baba pushed her.

"Ammi", I shouted as she fell to the ground. I tried to free myself but Baba looked at me very seriously.

"Who is that guy?", he yelled so loud and I now knew why he is like that. He removed his hands and I held my neck taking heavy breaths. Ammi rushed to me and rubbed my back. Tears welled up my eyes at his act and my body was shaking that he already got to know of us.

"Who is that guy with whom you walked all the way till the colony and even hugged him", he glared at me and tears streamed down my face. Ammi held me and squeezed my hand.

"Tell me his name I say?", he yelled and I flinched at his tone.

"Kim Taehyung", I blurted and he called someone.

"Is he from your academy?", he asked me and I nodded in yes. I held my mother and tears rolled down my cheek. 

"I want all his details in ten minutes. He is in the same academy. And make it fast", he barked on the phone and it made me scared. Please! Don't do anything to him.it wasn't his fault in the first case.

But I still wonder how he got to know of us. He doesn't usually come before 7 and doesn't usually work in the streets where Taehyung takes me. Did he intentionally follow us?

"Wondering how I got to know of your secret lover?", he asked and scrolled down his mobile.

"Look", he showed the video of me along with Taehyung, Jimin, and Jungkook who were dressed in burkhas, and Farhaz's sister by our side. 

"I got the doubt looking at your bracelet though you covered yourself completely", he spoke making me gulp down my throat. We didn't really think about it. We didn't really think he would check the cameras at the entrance and be so careful about such a minor detail.

"I checked the list of outgoing and incoming, but I wasn't convinced. So, I just checked the cameras. Your sister betrayed me so I just couldn't go easy on you. And see, what I have found. Even you are doing the same. I am not at all surprised. Both of you carry the same genes", he mouthed. 

"How many days were you out? Will you tell me or should I call that jerk Farhaz over here?", he yelled and I looked down. I don't want to trouble him for the help he had done to us.

"5 days", I blurted and he held my neck raising my face. He raised his hand to slap and I closed my eyes. But I didn't feel anything, I looked up to see Ammi holding his hand.

"Please don't do it. She is a grown-up girl. You can't hit her", she was begging him and he dropped down his hand. His phone rang and he released me, walking out of the door. I hugged Ammi and cried out loud.

"Ammi, I can't live without him. Ammi, I love him so much", I hugged her and sobbed in her arms.

"I know. I know you like someone. But I am so sorry, I couldn't help you this time.", she hugged me and rubbed my back. Her words are so true, now that Baba knows everything, she is helpless. 

We looked at Baba who came to us and sat in front of us. I just held Ammi's hand and looked down. 

"Kim Taehyung, member of the band BTS right? He has joined your academy very recently and is really young. What should I do to get rid of him? Warn him? Beat him? Or........ Kill him?", he spoke with a serious tone in his voice and I caught his legs.

"I will do anything Baba. I will not see him again if you want. But please, don't do anything to him.  You can hit me if you want but please don't do anything. He did nothing wrong. Please", I begged him/ I could see anything and bear anything but not him being hurt. He did nothing but love me. And in return, I am just a pain in his life.

"So much love for him huh? Fine then, will you do anything then?", he asked me and I nodded my head vigorously. I would do anything to protect him.

"Will you marry the guy I tell you to?", he asked me and my heart stopped at his words. Marry someone else? I could feel my blood turning cold and my body trembling. 

"What do you mean by marrying someone else? She is still young", Ammi shouted at him and he got up. He walked to her with a serious gaze.

"She is still eligible for marriage. Or what shall I do? Let her romance with that Korean guy?", he yelled at her and she looked down.

"She loves him", she mouthed and thud. Ammi fell down with his slap. I rushed to her and held her. Tears were streaming down my face at the sight. I feel so ashamed of myself to be a piece of trouble in everyone's life.

"Just shut up. Don't speak a word. I will kill you if you speak anything", he yelled at her.

"I will not let my daughter marry so early", Ammi spoke again and dad raised his hand again.

"Baba, I will marry. I will marry anyone you want", I spoke with the little life I had in my voice. My heart already shattered with the decision I have taken. It could only beat for one man and that is Taehyung. But I am scared if he will harm Ammi. I can't let her get harmed because of me.

"Great then. Pack your bags and tomorrow we will be leaving to Saudi tomorrow", he stated.

"Tomorrow?", my mother looked at him in disbelief.

"Why? She told that she would marry anyone I show. I have already talked to my friend, his son is ready for the marriage. We can marry her to him straight away. Moreover, the guy seems to be nice", he stated and I felt so broken now.

"But...", Ammi was about to speak but he shot a glare at her.

"Speak anything and I would kill you", he warned her and Ammi didn't speak anything further.

"And you. Don't you dare try running away like your sister. If you do that, you could never see your mother again. Go to your room now and do the prayer there itself. I don't feel like seeing your face anymore", he warned. I just nodded and rushed to my room closing the door. I crashed down and burst out.

I held my head and cried out loud. Just the thought of leaving Taehyung made me so miserable back then and now I am really going far away from him. It is like thousand knives stabbing into my heart all at once.

"Trust me Nazeera. You are all safe with me"

"I am so lucky to have you Nazeera"

"You are the best thing that has happened to me Nazeera"

"I promise I will never leave you Nazeera"

His words were swirling in my mind, making my heart wrench even more. All his words made me feel so loved and pampered, I am gonna miss them all. And I felt so fortunate that Baba didn't ask for my phone. He must have forgotten because of the anger and the sudden marriage arrangement.

I wanted to see him for one last time and couldn't control myself. So, I just called him without making any delay and he came. I know I will be seeing him for the last time. And I couldn't control my emotions in front of him. I wanted to feel him for one last time. 

Seeing my behavior, I am sure he must have got some doubt but I managed to convince him that I am not feeling well. I could see the worry in his face and the concern. I feel utterly sorry for him, for leaving him without even telling him a goodbye.

I remember reading this somewhere. The saddest part in life is saying goodbye to someone with whom you wish to spend a lifetime. And I now know that feeling. It's horribly aching my heart at the moment. 

Could there be any other option?

I wish to run away as my sister did but I am now scared about what Baba will do to Ammi. What if he really kills her? I held my head and sobbed. Why should it be like this? Why should this be so complicated?

 "I am feeling like you came at the right time for me, for me to fall for you"

"When I promised that I would never leave you, I mean it Nazeera. Even if kidnapping you is the only option I have, I will do that"

"You look so beautiful Nazeera and I am so happy that you are mine"

"Love need not have a dimension Nazeera. You just can't express your feeling in a certain place. If you feel like expressing it right here, you shouldn't stop yourself"

Tears streamed down my face remembering his words. He is the one who taught me what is love and made me feel its magic. His little efforts to make me feel easy and happy during the initial days, his confession, his protective nature, his way of making me realize my own feelings towards him, everything about him is so special to me.

His warms hugs could make me feel relaxed from anything. His deep kisses could draw me into another word effortlessly. His boxy grin which could erase all of my worries, his calm and relaxing words which could make my heart flutter, and his perverted talks, his friends, and their support that made me feel awed, I am gonna miss all of them.

I would miss playing with his long fingers and his long whining when he wants something. I would miss sharing lunch with him and walking home with him. A day without him is something which I couldn't imagine now and here I am under the decision of living my life without him.

I got up with my eyes still moist and cleaned up the room. I don't want any more risk now. I changed the sheets and also deleted the call from my mobile. All night, I was awake adoring his face while he was asleep because I know I can't see it again. I pretended to be asleep when he was awake to not make him suspicious. It made my heart break to digest the fact that I am going to see him for one last time. 

I pulled out my diary and started writing to him. At least I hope this will reach him. Wiping down my tears, and with the slightest strength left in me, I wrote to him. 

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"Keep your son in limits", Baba mouthed to Farhaz and his family while I lowered my head. The cab arrived and I looked at Farhaz in guilt. He gestured to me that it's okay and he doesn't mind. I controlled my tears and boarded the cab. I convinced Ammi to halt near a pharmacy to buy the after pill under the excuse of medicine for headache. 

This city gave me many memories

My last day in Seoul.

Ammi held my hand all the time and I just stayed silent. We reached the airport and with each step I took, my heart started beating even faster. I am scared to leave him. I don't want to go from here but I don't have a choice.

We completed all the formalities and were waiting for the flight. I looked down to control my tears. I still can't believe I am leaving him and marrying another guy in the next few days. One day, one evening crumbled all of our future. Our future of a family with love and kids. Everything was destroyed in an evening.

"Hyung, what did you buy for me?", I heard a voice so familiar and I know who it is without a second thought.

No, it can't be. 

It can't be him. 

Why would he be here? 

"We missed you a lot hyung", my heart pounded loudly at his words. I am doubtless that it is him. He was right in front of me at a distance and is with his members. I covered my scarf and looked down so I couldn't be seen. I don't want him to see me here. If he gets to know, he would do anything to take me from here.

Baba went away to check on the luggage and I squeezed Ammi's hand trying to control my urge to cry. I looked at him once again to see him smiling along with his members. 

"Ammi", I looked at him and hugged her.

"Is it him?", she asked me, watching in his direction him and I nodded. I clutched her more as it's hurting a lot. It's tormenting to let go of him just like that.

"Nazeera, go", Ammi spoke and I looked at her shocked.

"Nazeera, go to him. He will take you away. Go before Baba comes. Run away", she was urging me but I nodded my head in negation. I can't risk her life.

"Nothing will happen to me Nazeera. Don't kill your life Nazeera. I know you can't live without him. Go to him Nazeera, he will take you away", she was pushing me but I can't leave her. I am scared of what Baba might do to her.

"Please Nazeera. Go to him Nazeera. You will regret all your life that you missed this chance. Please run to him Nazeera. He has his friends, they can help Nazeera. Please run Nazeera", she begged me but I shook my head in negation.

"I am sorry Ammi, I can't leave you like this", I sobbed and she looked sad.

"Do you know who helped your sister to run away?" she whisper yelled, pressing my hands. I looked at her, dumbfounded as she nodded

"Ammi..."

"Please....", she was interrupted by Baba.

"Don't make a show in the public now. Come on now. The flight arrived", he spoke and we got up. I looked at him for one last time and smiled, seeing him laugh heartily. Thank you so much Taehyung for showing me a world that I thought I would never see. I am glad that I am leaving a part of myself behind with you and that's my heart. I hope you move on and find someone who deserves you, unlike me.

Loving you was the best thing and leaving you is the saddest thing. You are my life Taehyung and leaving is only making my life meaningless. I love you so much Taehyung. I love you enough to let you go

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