Social Anxiety.

Social anxiety was something I unwillingly possessed. Most people presumed me proud and arrogant but, most of the time I simply didn't know what to say to people and was super scared I probably had an annoying voice. I felt I was too fat and would inconvenience a lot of people with my presence, and probably my ugly face. So, I mostly stayed on my own and wished people wouldn't talk to me.

But, people would always talk to a person no matter what. Jon was the only person who really spoke to me and paid me attention. It was strange how he managed to be friends with me when he was so handsome and had lots of girls rushing him. I love talking to him and spending time with him but, his friendliness and friendship still scared me all the time. At times, he'd try to talk me into talking to people and making more friends but, the last time I tried, I was asked 'What are you doing with all those extra fat?' It still rings in my head like it was only yesterday. Sentences like that, made me hate school and class, but each day I pushed hard and moved on.

I've had people directly tell me I had an annoying voice, and how uncomfortable I make them feel with my presence. But, words are words, I still tried to move on. And, Jon was always of help.