*Y/N's P. O. V. *

It's 10 in the evening and I managed to sneak out of my room again. I made my way to the bookstore and forced myself through the small opening at the back, and now I'm on the rooftop.

I never stopped hoping to just see him sitting here and waiting for me, but days after days pass...nothing.

Everything is now so silent and dark.

This place used to be a cheerful one with us in here. Stupid talks, ugly laughs, crazy topics...anything that we can think and talk about. I never realized how sad and lonely this place could be. Well, I mean it is a rooftop of an old bookstore after all...what else am I expecting?

"I don't believe them," I found myself saying loudly as my mind remembers what the people around me say, "I don't believe them. I know you're real...just please, come back," I continued to say.

Now, I was losing it. I'm crying again, but lately, I've been trying to fight it. I try not to whimper, I try to make it stop, but honestly? It's no use. Something inside me hurts and I actually don't know what that is anymore.

"Why did you have to go?" I choked on my words. Crying is very tiring and I'm beginning to learn that now. Stupid human emotions for bringing me down like this.

I was just sitting there on the rooftop floor, all curled up and hugging my knees. By now, only my soft sniffles are the noise around.

"I'm waiting for you......" suddenly I heard a faint voice which immediately sent me on my two feet. I spun around to see where it came from. It's him...it's his voice.

"Patrick? Patrick, where are you?" I asked in panic, going around the area.

"Find me," I heard before silence became loud again.

I searched the whole place, but there's no sign of him. I'm getting so confused again, but right now, I think I'm more...scared.

All these are making me insane...literally.

~~~Time Skip~~~

I went back to my room before the sun rises. I managed to get two hours of sleep, which is already a miracle for me these days. I was just awakened because I could hear a number of people talking downstairs.

For some reason, something was urging me to go out of the bedroom which is weird. I didn't fight it anymore so I did my basic morning routine before leaving my room and going downstairs.

"Mom, what ---" I was about to ask her as I go down the stairs, but I stopped the moment I saw two male police officers, one unfamiliar woman around my mom's age in the living room who she was already talking to. All of them looked at me which felt horrible on my side, I just wanted the floor to swallow me, "W-what's happening?" I pushed myself to ask.

The unfamiliar woman looks like she had been crying a lot and then my mom looked so sympathetic and worried at her at the same time.

"Is that...Y/N?" the woman asked. She was just fixed on me while giving me a small smile.

"Y...yes, but please let me talk to her first. She doesn't ---

"Mrs. Y/L/N, we promise you, we won't overwhelm her. Besides, that's the part of the whole process. We can't interfere. We need authentic information." One officer said and I'm just looking at them with confusion.

"Mom...what's happening?" I asked again.

My mom stood up and walked towards me, "excuse us" she said to the guests and she gently led me back to my room.

"Mom, who are they? What do they want?" I asked, getting worried now. We sat down on the edge of my bed.

"Y/N, sweetie... I really really didn't want to do this to you, but they need your help." my mom was shaking as she holds my hand. Honestly, this is making me scared and worried so much. "You might have the information that could help those people a lot. I honestly don't want you to go through that again, but I don't want to be selfish too." she continued.

"Mom, you're not making any sense and you're scaring me. What is ----

"Just...just pack your bags. We're going back to our old house...we're going to try triggering your memories to come back," she told me.

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I feel like I could literally see all the questions in my mind going around my head like holograms. I have so many questions now and it's not doing any good to my anxiety.

"That's all we could tell you, Ms. Y/N. I know it seems stupid, but you have to trust us. We don't want to give you information that potentially alters your authentic memories. We'll just hope to god that you remember on your own," one police officer said, "We have also talked to a lot of professionals and they advised the same thing. Your mom told us everything about your case...it's still possible for you to remember so we have a chance."

We're already inside their car and heading back to our old house that I never even knew we have.

"We'll be with you dear...so don't be scared. We'll just stay there for a while and if you manage to remember the bits they need, we will leave immediately," my mom stated.

I have no idea what is going on, but for some reason, I feel like whatever this is...it's the right thing to do. Everything is happening so fast too, but at least now, I have something else to think about...to be stressed about.

Our drive continued and after two long hours, we finally slowed down into a town. If our current town was quiet and small, this one is a lot quieter and smaller. It's in the middle of the day but I could already tell the dead silence in here. Yes, there are people around, but I think a lot of the houses are for sale already.

We stopped at a small house which is similar to our current one. We climbed out of the car, the officers helping my mom with our bags. I looked at the house and it was indeed old, but still maintained. I think my mom still sends people to clean this place. All of us entered the house and I was already expecting something to happen to me, but nothing. I know they're all looking at me and observing me, but I'm just disappointed as they are.

"Trust us, Mrs. Y/L/N. It's been five years already and a lot has changed, but I can assure you that you and Ms. Y/N's safety is one of our utmost priority while you are here," the police officer that went with us said. The unfamiliar woman was in here too. She was mostly silent, but I know she's just holding back to ask me things.

"Thank you. I know this is hard for you to do, but thank you," she said to my mom. She's almost crying now and my mom too.

"I'm a mother too and I understand. I would do the same thing," my mom said softly, trying to cheer her up, "We'll figure this out together."

The woman walked towards me. She gently took my hand and I could feel that her hands are ice-cold and shaking. I tightened my hold to her to try and comfort her. Suddenly, I could see a familiar genuine look on her eyes.

"I'm so sorry in advance, sweetie. I hope you forgive me for bringing up the idea, but thank you. Thank you this really will help me a lot," she stated.

Earlier, I was only going with what my mom is saying and not really caring that much about what's happening...but now I genuinely want to help this woman. Whatever it is, whatever information in my memories are...I now know it's something very important that could really help someone. Now, I 100% want to help her.

"I'll do my best to help you, Ma'am," I told her as she hugged me.

By my mom's words, and even the officer's, I already deduced that a part of my past may be a nightmare. I also remember my mom always saying 'I don't want anything bad happening to you again' so something might have happened already. Besides, why would it be such a big deal to ask me to try and remember? Of course, that would only be the case if things happening before should just be forgotten for good. But here I am...attempting to remember again.

"Please, find him." The woman pulled away from the hug and I wasn't really sure if I heard her correctly, but whether correct or not, that sentence is already repeating inside my head. It's just echoing and I could hear the woman's voice...except for the last one.

Find him.

Find him.

Find him...
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'Find me'.

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Sorry if this seemed confusing or too mysterious. I hope it doesn't turn you off for reading more. Just stay tuned and everything will be cleared up.
Told you this will have something different!

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