Imagine #61: Nobody Wants To Hear You Sing About Tragedies

{Suggested by: Musichearted_ (I just changed some details...so im sorry)

Quite long imagine too and I don't know it this is feels worthy. But still, ENJOY!}

"So, okay, go easy on me okay?! I'm telling you the truth I don't know anything about him or his band." You said while you're on-air in the radio station you are working at.

You were one of the most famous radio DJ in your country and you just found out that a particular someone will be joining you in your show for a month. You heard that this guy is quite popular yet you have no idea of who he is and that's making me embarrassed right now.

"The only information that they gave me is that he's a part of a 4-member band called Fall Out Boy, which have greatest hits like 'Thanks for the memories' and weirdly all vowels in that title are missing, 'Sugar, We're Going Down', 'My songs Know What You Did in The Dark' and 'Centuries'. Yeah, I've heard some of these songs and I think it's quite amazing." You continued talking. He was gonna join you starting today and you're somehow nervous, you've always been in a solo flight with your career in the radio but now someone popular is going to join in.

Suddenly, the door to the live room opened and you glanced at that way seeing a short guy with a genuine smile. He was wearing a simple shirt and jeans and a fedora hat on his head, his also wearing a pair of glasses which really suits him.

"Well, look at that, I guess he has arrived!" you said excitedly and gestured at him to sit on his side of the room then smiled at him. You have to admit, he's very good-looking. "Let's all welcome, Mr. Patrick Stump! Um...did I get your name right?" you asked him shyly and he just gave a chuckle.

"Yeah, you did good." His voice was angelic. He's seems to be a nice guy too. This was really the first time you saw him. "Um, hello everyone! My name is Patrick Stump and yep, I'm the guy from Fall Out Boy. I'll be here for a month to join Y/N at her show and I hope I'm really not intruding or something." He said and gave a nervous laugh.

"Oh no, hell no. Trust me, the ratings of this show will go up top because you're here." You told him and gave him a thumbs up. "So, people in my twitter account are asking, why are you here? Well, that's not in the rude way of asking, okay?" you continued.

"So I'm here because our band has accepted the Alternative Press' challenge 'where will you be if you're not making music?' So It was always my dream to be a DJ, so here I am...pretending to be one." He answered casually, he really seemed enjoying now.

"Oh please, you're already doing great, Mr. Stump." You told him.

"Please, just call me Patrick, besides were DJ partners now, no need to be so formal." He said. "And yeah, what she said earlier is really true. I just learned that she's really not familiar about my band and about me at all, which is really cool!" Patrick added excitedly and he just looked at you.

"No, it's not! Look at my twitter feed, I'm already getting all the hate for not knowing anything about you." You told him while laughing lowly and you're sure that you are blushing. "But really, I promise over the course of the month, I'll get to know this guy so much further so just bear with me." You said then smiled confidently.

"Well, that may be the same reason why I chose this radio station and your show. Not to introduce myself to you, but it'll be exciting to work with someone who doesn't really know me and also I get to tell you some of my jokes that I always tell the people who knew me." He said like a cute kid and you're really enjoying your time with him now.

"Well, there you have it folks! It's true, he's really going to stay on my show for a month so stay tuned for more, but for now...let's all enjoy this track for his band 'Centuries'." You said then pushed some buttons.

Finally, you're both not on-air anymore. You stood up and shook hands with him. The vibe around this guy is really positive, you can really get used to him being here.

"I'm finally able to meet you, Y/N. I swear, I'm a big fan." He said which made you shy.

"Geez, this is so awkward. I should be the one who's telling you that, but no." you said while you blush. Both of you walked out of the live room for a while to get to the lounge area.

"No, it's okay, and what I'm telling you is the truth. You're the all-nighter here in this station and I always listen to you. You're funny, your life advises is pretty amazing and I know you're such a jolly person." He said excitedly and you can't contain your happiness, someone this popular is acknowledging you.

"You're really making me blush, I can't explain what I'm feeling, it's like the tables have turned here." You said and Patrick couldn't agree more.

"It's definitely okay for me...I really chose your show too for that same reason, I mean...I've always been acknowledged as the guy from that band, the guy with a freaking soul voice, the cute short guy from that band and many more. Well, it's not that I don't want it, being appreciated is a good feeling. What I mean is, I need a break from all that too and just be known as Patrick Martin Stumph, that was the challenge all about and I can't do that if people around me keeps acknowledging me for being THE PATRICK STUMP from FALL OUT BOY." He explained and you quickly understood everything he was trying to tell you. You smiled at him and nodded.

"Well, Patrick. You really came to the right place...partner." You said and lend a hand for a handshake. Patrick smiled brightly and he shook your hand.

"Partner." He said and you really feel that this is going to be a good partnership.

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*2 weeks later*

You're right...your collaboration with Patrick is perfect...everyone loves your duo and the both of you are very close now too, in a very special way.

Since the day that Patrick came in, everything just went perfect. The show got funnier, the advices got more helpful and you have a buddy now, or maybe more than that. Patrick had been asking you out lately and you're just seeing it as a friendly date, but recently, things just change. You have to admit, its hard not to fall for the guy. He's such a sweetie, he's very nice and kind too and you've known the different side of him...not the popular one, but the one you want to fall in love with.

You're both currently on-air, trying to figure out an advice to give to someone who opened their problem to you. It was your daily job, to do this kind of thing, give advises to people that needs support from anyone. You're trying to be cheerful and all for almost every day, you need to, the show needs you too and this is also your way to cope up with your own struggles.

Not many knows that behind your smiles, your positive attitude, and your bright aura lies a very depressed persona.

"Dear Y/N and Patrick, First of all thank you for this show, it has been really my strength for some time now. I don't want this to be long and all, I just want to know what advise can you give me when I always feel like...like it's the end for me. Like all, everything in my life is going down with me and I can't do anything to make it right? Like, out of all the effort, out of all the tries I did to be okay, to be happy...life just keeps dragging me down? Yeah, this might be a serious one, but I just need help and I know I'm not the only one who's facing this. Again, thank you so much." You read.

You really tried not to shed a tear or not let your voice crack, this letter...it also says what you are feeling right now. You're very good at pretending, but this time this letter almost blew your cover. You're just lucky Patrick was there in front of you, you held back from breaking down...they don't need to find out.

"Whoa...t-that's a tough one." You said, again saying everything you are feeling.

Suddenly, you saw Patrick staring at you and he seemed worried. You just gave him a reassuring smile and he did gave the same respond which make your heart pump fast. You thought he was going to answer, but he suddenly took his guitar and sit right back on his seat. He faced you and before speaking, he smiled at you again...he knew, he saw right through you, he's not only doing this for the girl who sent the letter, but also to you too.

"Listen.very.closely." he said with his soft voice while he's staring right into your eyes.

"'Cause it's gonna get better, it's gonna work out
Give it a minute, it's gonna turn around
Cause it's gonna get better, better
It's gonna get better, better

It's gonna get better before it gets worse
We never have to come back to Earth
Cause it's gonna get better, better
It's gonna get better, better

We're gonna keep living
We're gonna get by
We never have to lay down and die
Cause it's gonna get better, better
It's gonna get better, better

'Cause it's gonna get better, it's gonna work out
Give it a minute, it's gonna turn around
Cause it's gonna get better, better
It's gonna get better, better

We're gonna keep living
We're gonna get by
We never have to lay down and die
Cause it's gonna get better, better
It's gonna get better, better

So just coast with me" he began to play the guitar in a mellow tune and his voice was so soothing. It was a different version of his song, this one seemed like a lullaby and every words keeps hitting you.

You realized you were locked staring at him and you just suddenly jumped when you felt a tear fell from your eyes. You immediately brushed them off and cleared your throat. You looked panicked in there too, there's only one thought in your mind right now, 'he doesn't need to know.'

You just quickly pushed some buttons that let's music be played on the radio for a while. The light on the on-air sign was taken down too and you just scrambled out of the live room without saying anything. Patrick, on the other hand, was too worried. He saw the way you acted while reading that message. He began to follow you but a close friend of yours stopped him.

"Is she...d-did I...--" he couldn't speak he was just trying to look over you.

"L-Let's just let her be for a while. Can you come and talk to me for a while?" you friend asked him and Patrick just agreed.

The both of them went in the parking lot for a while.

"Y/N's a pretty amazing girl, isn't she?" he asked Patrick and he just nodded.

"What happened, did I do something that –" Patrick asked.

"Yeah, you did...you did saw right pass through that brave girl...those mesmerizing smile, her hilarious jokes, her optimistic attitude you saw something past those traits and you touched what you saw with your song Patrick." He explained. Patrick understood everything, he's really right about what he saw earlier. "Patrick, each one of us has our own fears and demons, and Y/N's been brave enough to fight all of those by herself. She's been alone for a while now and I must say, what she's going through right now is quite...depressing and you...out of all the people she was close too, you were the first one to impact her that much. And please, don't let that opportunity go, this just indicates that she needs you..." he said.

"Y/N." Patrick murmured and right that moment, he knew what he needs to do.

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*After another week*

After that night, everything just went the way it should. You acted like nothing happened that night and just got back to your old happy self. You're glad too that Patrick really didn't make any fuss about it even if you know that he might know something know, you really appreciate him respecting your privacy. But somehow you're feeling guilty, sooner or later, he needs to know.

"Hey, Y/N, do you want to come over to my house? I mean, to bond?" Patrick asked you shyly and you just excitedly nodded at him.

"Well it's the the Netflix and chill kind of bond, right?" you joked and Patrcik just laughed.

"No, of course not, silly." He said and with that you both went off to his house.

His place was pretty cozy, it's not much from what you'd expect from a famous musician's house but it's still grand.

"You have a very amazing house, Patrcik." You said while you look around and then you spotted a grand piano in there. "Whoa, that's amazing! This cost a fortune!" you excitedly said.

The both of you just talked over the usual things in there, laughing and joking at some point too, but you began to notice that Patrick's been worriedly looking over you.

"Patrick, what happened that night, I was just overwhelmed with feels and I –" you said and just trying to make the mood go light. Suddenly, Patrick hugged you.

His warmth radiated all over your body, it was a sincere and loving hug...the kind that nobody have given you for years. He didn't pull back, he stayed like there and he also began to brush your hair and you're stunned...he did it again, saw past through you and reached out for that persona hiding behind all the rainbows.

"I know you're a strong girl. You've proved that to everyone, your smile, your positive attitude and everything bright! You've helped a lot of people got through their problems and that's really amazing and they can never be thankful enough...but please, Y/N, just let me in. You don't have to hide it from me anymore, I SAW YOU...there's something wrong, there's something bothering you." He whispered so softly in your ears and all his words was heart-felt. "I know you're independent, I know you're full of courage, but it wouldn't kill you to show that you're having difficulties, to cry even just once in a while or even to express your feelings." He continued and with that you sobbed.

You sobbed into his chest, he pulled you out from that rainbow horizon, that depressed persona is now showing in front of him this instant. You sobbed so hard, you couldn't take all the pressure, all the anxiety and all the worry in you right now...and now that's Patrick in the picture, everything just got more messed up.

"You can't...I can't let you in. I just can't, I don't want to drag you into this, Patrick." You told him between your sobs.

"Y/N, we're partners now, right? And I'm taking that title seriously and I'm taking that into the next level. We're not only DJ partners, we're partners in life now. I won't...leave you. Since the day that I met you, I told myself that this is a golden opportunity to find someone who will fall in love with my unpopular side someone who I can call partner, but please, I can't do that if you won't let me in." he told you which made you sob more.

"Patrick, can't you see it? I'm falling apart at the seams, I can't...I couldn't even handle myself anything...all these things, I'm only able to hide behind my optimism, and that's what's only keeping me going before I...I die..." you told him and he stared at you in shock.

"D-Die...what do you mean...

"Patrick, I only have a year or two to live, I have a disease and there's no cure for it. All this, I'm just doing all this to fulfil my life, to help anyone I can before I go. I can't fall in love, I can't let anyone in anymore. I'm going away soon." You explained and he just looked at you...

"Then I'm going to boycott love out of you. I don't care Y/N, why would you count your days down? You should...you should just let yourself live. I know you're worried, I know you're scared, but it doesn't mean that you should keep all this to yourself. You just keep on torturing yourself." He said. "Please, I'm here, offering myself to you and I swear I promise you anything just to give you another shot at life with me. I'm telling you, I can't be a perfect guy living a perfect life without you. I know you don't want them to hear you sing about tragedies then let me help you turn those tragedies into good memories. Please." He pleaded.

He was so sincere to every word he has spoken, his eyes tells it the most. He was staring at you while saying all those things and it was all heart-felt. You finally have brought yourself to smile and look up to him, holding him on the cheeks then kissing him directly on the lips.

"I can't believe you did this to me in just weeks, I've been having this burden with me for a year now...and you just fixed everything in that short period of time." You told him.

Patrick hugged you then smiled at you. He was also looking at you like you're the most beautiful thing in the world for him right now.

"And I swear to you, you won't have to bring that burden just by yourself from now on, because from now up to the finish...I'll always be with you, princess." He said and with that...it seems all of your worry have been washed away.

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"Hey, everyone...I know it's a sudden decision and I'm really sorry for leaving the show." You said over the radio, you're really guilty for doing this but Patrick is right...you've been helping other for years...maybe it's time to give some time for youself.

"But really, guys, her presence will always be here! She started this legacy and let's all learn from this brave stunning lady for helping anyone in the most hilarious ways." Patrick said while smiling.

Your fans have mixed reactions but all of them respected your decision for resigning and also you just left out that disease detail out, you don't want them to be depressed and all of that.

"I'm really gonna miss doing this, but it's a good time to move on to the next chapter of my life too." You said, this is a bitter-sweet moment for you. "Just always remember to be yourself, don't hide behind the wonderful lies of this earth...life's too short for that. So once again, together with Mr. Patrick Stump...I'm Y/full/N signing out...Peace out, everyone." You said and with that you ended your show for good.

The radio station congratulated you and Patrick with all the achievements you've both done in a short period of time. You also gave your goodbyes to them, this time you'll be with Patrick...travelling around the world with him.

And you really can't wait for that to happen.

"Yes, I may only have a year or two to live. I don't know, maybe I can even die tomorrow! Who can tell? But now, I don't care...I just need to fulfil every dream that I have; love and be loved by someone really dear to me and just live life like a young volcano." You told Patrick as you both drive towards the airport...this long journey will start now and nothing can stop the both of you.

"Let's not sing life's tragedies...instead, let's show the world our lives best memories." Patrick said, reassuring you that everything will get better as he interlocked his hands into yours.

Yes indeed, life maybe unfair...but it's too short to contemplate on that thought.

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