Imagine #158: Dare Me Not (Part 19)

*Patrick's P.O.V.*

"You knew? All this time, you knew?!" I asked Y/N while breathing heavily and she was already crying in front of me.

"N-no, Patrick...L-listen to me, let me explain." Mia said while going next to Y/N and holding her.

"No, Mia. Shut up, I already said that I'll never believe in anything you say again." I told her seriously.

Mia now didn't have that prideful look in her face, she was actually sincere now, but then again, I don't want to trust her anymore...Now, I just need to know what happened based on Y/N's perspective.

"Y/N, please...just fucking tell me." I said and finally, she looked at me while crying. I already told myself I'd never want to see her cry, but here I am now...making her cry.

Suddenly, Y/N began to talk and narrate everything from the start and I was right, she was a part of it all...She pretended to be Mia, she was the one that always talks to me and texts me. It wasn't Mia, it was her...everything she told me, every personality, every talent, every traits...everything. It was Y/N. That's why I always find her so familiar, that's why she reminds me of the Mia I know because the truth it...it's always been her.

Meaning...it's also her that I've fallen for before...not Mia.

"It's my fault...I was the one that made it all worse. I was the one that gave you false hope and I'm so so so sorry, I've always regret what I did, and not doing what I could have done to save you that day...I'm sorry, Patrick." she said between her heavy sobs and I'm shocked too that my tears fell as I hear the story.

But she's right, everything she just said is right...she was the one that made it worse, the one that gave me false hope. It was because of her why I became like this and thinking the fact that right from the start she knew me makes me frustrated, she didn't even say a single word to me about all this.

"So you're just planning to never tell it to me, then?" I asked her. "A year has almost passed by since the moment you came here, and yet you said nothing...you even let me in your life again even when you heard about the dare we're doing. Why?" I asked her.

Y/N just kept on brushing her tears away as Mia try to comfort her.

"Like I said, I've always regret what I did...and I chose to let you in again because I wanted to change you back. I saw how you changed because of what we did, what I did and I felt responsible...I never thought that that situation will turn you into something you hate and I know you...you wouldn't want to stay like that, that's why I said to myself that I'll change you back." she explained. "But it was hard on my side too, right from the start I've always liked you...and being with you again, those feeling lit up once more. I just look at it as my karma...that I'm always in love with the guy that I've done something wrong to...and it's just messing me up. I'm so sorry!" she continued.

"N-no, it's my fault. I'm the one that started it all, Patrick and I was just plain mean and selfish back then and I even dragged Y/N with this. I've always regretted what I did to you but I never really mean to harm you that much, my ex...the guy that humiliated you was the one that looked down on you and I tell you...I'm really planning to confess and apologize to you back then too. I swear. If you are still angry about this, be angry with me...not to Y/N, because all this time she's the one that suffers here..." Mia explained and I know she's sincere to her words now.

I'm still so shocked with the information I am getting now...I don't know what to feel too, I'm just plain furstrated here.

"Told you you'll just hate her." I suddenly heard and this is honestly the least thing I need now.

Elaine had showed up for some fucking reason and I just sighed and closed my eyes because I feel like exploding.

"You? You planned this?!" Mia asked angrily at her.

"I've always known you Mia...the one that ruined Patrick, it's just a bonus to know that Y/N is behind it all. So what better date to reveal all these beside her birthday? So here we are now...I sent you an invitation that I stole from Y/N and viola, let the past reveal itself." Elaine said then she walked next to me. "See? I told you she's hiding something...she just probably let you in her life because she wanted to take advantage of you again." she said and I just stared at her blankly.

"Girl, I don't know who the fuck you are but stop that attitude right now. I've been there and I've done that, and trust me, it'll just bring you no good." Mia hissed at her then she looked at Y/N. "I swear I never came here to ruin your night...or to ruin anything, I also wanted to apologize that's why I came here...I never thought that this will happen." she said.

Y/N have stopped crying the moment Elaine showed up here. She was just staring at her too.

"You might think that you should be the one to thanked right now because you exposed me, Elaine...but in fact, you should be the one thanking me. Because if it wasn't for me...Patrick will never be on your side, you would never have been his girlfriend, or worse, maybe he won't even introduce himself to you." Y/N said and her courage is back.

Elaine looked so pissed and was about to attack Y/N, but I held her arm.

"Let me go! Someone needs to pull this girl down, she's too--

"Elaine, will you just shut up! Let's just go." I said pulling her away...and I can't believe I'm chosing to be with her right now rather than staying and comforting Y/N.

I looked back and saw Y/N's expression when I told Elaine that we should just go...Y/N looked o broken and was just staring at me...I know she was feeling being left behind again. God, I swear that moment I just want to run to her and hug her...but right now, I need to gather my thoughts...I'm s o confused, I don't know what to do.

"P-Patrick...I-I'm so sorry...If I could just really turn back time." Y/N said and stopped walking and stare back at her.

"Sadly, we can never undo the things we've done." I said and I walked away while still holding Elaine just to get her away from that scene...

We walked out of the place and I finally let go of Elaine. She just walked next to me until we're in a place with no other people.

"Babe, everything is going to be alright now. I'm so happy so chos--

"Yes, I might be with you right now and we fled the scene, but that doesn't mean that I'm back on your side. I just chose to drag you away from that because I don't want to embarrass you in front of them." I told her while gritting my teeth. "I just want to tell you to stop what you are doing, because right now...you're the person that I hate the most, Elaine. You've become the person we hated, we've done enough, you've done enough so let's just stop this bullshit now. Everyone hates us! Aren't you tired of people avoiding us? Of being afraid to us? We've become so comfortable with this, but now it's time to stop...enough is enough. Please, don't make me hate you more." I told her and finally, it seems like she has been slapped with my words.

"I'm just tired of being taken advantage of Patrick, I just had eno--

"And now I realize that being tired of that doesn't give us the right to do that to other people. Just imagine if you're still on their end? It will all be unfair, Elaine. And I swear whether you stop this or not, I'm done...and it'll be better if we stay away from each other. We both bring out the negative sides of ourselves, and I've had enough of that and please stop this. Just stop." I said and she stepped away from me.

I honestly think that Elaine will cry in front of me, but she's still holding back. Fortunately, she didn't argue anymore. She just looked at me with anger and sadness on her eyes, before she stormed off...I can only hope for the best for now, but I swear from this moment. I'll never go back to her anymore.

Moments later, I realized that I was the one left in there. I sighed as I leaned on the wall honestly not knowing what'll happen next after this...

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*Y/N's P.O.V.*

I didn't realize how it would hurt me when I saw Patrick walking out on me with Elaine after he heard everything...maybe this is just really not meant to be and I should just accept it. I just hate myself for hoping so much.

"Y/N...I'm really really sorry. I was too selfish back then, I never considered your feelings." Mia said and honestly I appreciate her being here. She really changed too and I'm happy with that.

I brushed my tears and pushed myself to smile at her. I hugged Mia tightly.

"I forgive you, besides...Patrick is right we can't do anything more about that now. It has been done." I said and she looked at me worriedly.

"He loves you, you know. The way he looked at you earlier, it's like he wanted to be angry, but he can't...Patrick has reall--

"Mia, stop. Please, I don't need that now." I sadly said and she just smiled at me.

"I believe that everything will be fine now...look on the bright side, at least you're hiding nothing now." she said and I really agree with her. 

"Thank you, maybe I just really need to let all of it go too." I said..."What a birthday, indeed." I murmured and chuckled sadly after.

Actually, from this moment...I'm not expecting Patrick to talk to me anymore.

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*A week later*

I don't know if I'm glad that it's the semestral break or not. Maybe I'm happy because I don't have to see Patrick hating me, or maybe I hate it because I'm not seeing him. I'm really a complicated person right now.

I actually never left my dorm since the break started, I just decided to stay here and drown myself in books and music, I just needed to distract myself from my thoughts. I honestly think that I need help because I'm thinking so much.

Suddenly, after a week, I heard a knock on my door and it honestly made my heart jump a little. I reluctantly get up and opened the door, relief to only find Meagan outside my door.

"Hey there, Y/N. Can I come in?" she asked and honestly I'm feeling guilty, I haven't talk to her for a week.

I let Meagan inside and sadly smiled at her. "I'm sorry." I said and she just giggled at me.

"No need to be, Y/N. I understand you." she said. "I just came here to ask how you are doing."

"I'm perfectly fine. Maybe I just needed this break too." I told her.

We kept on talking about normal things, but I feel that Meagan is itching to tell me something too. I just smiled at her and finally asked her frankly about it.

"Say it, Meagan. I know you want to say something." I told her and she sighed.

"You really know me too well now." she said while chuckling. "Y/N...Patrick's leaving the university...he received a scholarship grant overseas, it was too big of an opportunity to ignore. He won't be there when the classes resume and I do think that you both should talk befo--

"T-then I'm happy for him, Meagan. He always wanted to be successful and I'm honestly proud of him." I said, trying to conceal all my feelings. 

He's leaving...maybe it's really mainly about the scholarship.

But I do believe that it's also because of me...it's really a golden ticket to finally stay away from me.

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