Imagine #153: Last Year's Wishes Are This Year's Apologies (ONE-SHOT)

{Let me make your heart feel feels! I got this idea from a Facebook post. Enjoy!}

*Y/N's P.O.V.*

This day will always be something especially painful to you, it's been three years and you know that you've left it all in the past, but still you can't control yourself from feeling the pain. At the back of your mind, he's still the biggest what if in your life since you both went off too soon.

"Remembering Patrick?" I heard someone asked that pulled me back to my senses. It was my six-month boyfriend and now I feel awful for being like this. I'm so insensitive for thinking about my ex-boyfriend while he's around.

"S-sorry, it's just...no, I'm really sorry, I'm so insensitive," I said while smiling sadly, putting away the Soul Punk album that I was holding.

"No need to say sorry, I understand and I'm not angry." he told me as he sat next to me. 

This is why I fell for this guy, he's so understanding. It's been years and he was the first guy that made me feel loved again...He makes every effort to make me happy and I really am glad that he's my boyfriend, that's why I feel awful. Don't get me wrong, I moved on from Patrick, I don't feel anything about the guy now...it's just maybe I'm still hurting, but my boyfriend is here to help me.

"This is the reason why I love you." I said while smiling and leaning on him. He just hugged me warmly which I just loved.

"Of course, someone told me you're so worth it, that's why I'm like this." he said with a smile then kissed my head. I looked at him curiously.

"Who told you?" I asked him playfully and he chuckled.

He stood up for a while and run towards his room to get something, when he's back he's now holding a piece of paper.

"I'm sorry I haven't told you about this, Y/N." he said while sitting down. "Someone gave this to me three months ago and I am really touched with what's in this and I realized more how worth it you are. When you read this, it might look like I'm just cheating by following this, but trust me, every effort I make is from my heart...This letter just guided me and I think it's the time for you to read this letter." he said, handing me the letter.

I just curiously opened it and read it aloud.

To the guy that will be next to me...

First of all, congratulations...you are now entitled to take care of one of the most precious girls in this world so please hear me out for these are the things you should know.

Her favorite color is _____, her favorite food is _______, and her favorite drink is ______. This girl also loves sleep so much, maybe even more than she could ever love someone. Don't worry though, you might be the next thing to that. 

When she gets mad at you and you have no idea why, don't worry...It's probably because she feels that you are not listening to her. Just calm down, she won't be totally mad at you, just give her a simple hug and a kiss on the forehead since that is her weakness, but trust me, that won't work if you did something out of the line.

Little things matter to her, she notices every little thing you do, every little change she notices, but she keeps quiet and not make a fuss about it until she had enough. She is not the kind of girl who likes to go out always, her likes are to binge watch series and movies while still wearing pajamas and looking like a burrito inside her bedroom. Trust me, she always loves it when you accompany her during that time. Always listen to her when it comes to her likes...obsessions, that girl is a HUGE fangirl and never act like you're just pseudo-listening, she'll get sad and trust me, you don't want that to happen.

She sings aloud sometimes, not only the main lyrics, but also the backup vocals and the instruments. Just go along with all of her wants, she appreciates every support you give her even if it comes to this crazy little things.

Also, this girl often doubts herself. She doubts her looks, her talents, her whole self and please please please NEVER forget to remind her how beautiful and important she is to you, that alone will cheer her up. Never get angry to her when she's like this, it'll only break her more. Just be with her, sit beside her, pull her in for a hug and just whisper all the good and true things you can tell her and she'll be okay in no time.

When both of you gets into a fight, just let it cool down. Never approach her, don't insist her to talk to you, she'll hate it and she'll get angrier. Trust me, this will work, you'll know when it won't. When she's ready to talk, just go slowly and talk out the problem.

Be prepared to lose your shirts and hoodies too, she loves to wear them every day. Get ready for a lot of cuddling, but really, it's worth it, most especially when she falls asleep while you are cuddling her, it's like seeing the face of an angel.

Don't ever try to tell her what to do if you don't want her to get angry at you, that girl is a strong independent girl. She can do things on her own, just be there to support her, she always knows what to do. ALWAYS compliment this girl, trust me, each smile she gives you after that is worth a million. Honestly compliment her appearance, her talent, her voice, her smile, her eyes...everything, just don't try to compliment her with a lie because she will know and that'll lead to a fight.

But most important of all, DON'T TAKE HER FOR GRANTED. It's so ironic that I am the one telling you this, but trust me, you don't want to feel the regret I am feeling right now. That girl is golden, rare, and beautiful and honestly, no one else is like her. She deserves nothing but to be treated in the best way and I'm a stupid jerk for doing otherwise. If you are reading this, again, congratulations. PLEASE don't make the same mistakes that I did. Because me? I fucked up, but you? You have a chance at something this rare, something this perfect.

SO don't fuck up...She's worth every second of your life. I promise.

-P. S.

I didn't realize that I was shedding some tears in there because I was so touched by letter, but no, of course, this didn't lighten up my feelings to him again. I was just thankful and now I realized that he really did love me back then.

We had a four-year relationship before and all that came crashing down when they started to tour around the world and there came a time when he was tempted and he sadly cheated on me and that made me break up with him. I was still amazed because he confessed everything and didn't even try to lie about it. He accepted my decision and it was really a mutual break up, but since then we never talked again. I honestly thought he never loved me, but this letter made me realize that he really did love me.

"I'm sorry, I was just touched." I said while giggling and wiping my tears away.

"I know, maybe I did tear up too when I first read that." he said while smiling at me then pulling me in for a hug. "I'm just glad that you and he are all happy now with your lives. Maybe that past is really meant to happen to strengthen the both of you...at least now, you're both satisfied." he whispered and I just smiled.

"You are so right about that." 

{thanks for reading!!}

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