Imagine #11: Used To

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It's really the worst feeling you ever experienced emotionally. You swore you really did try your best to make yourself believe that you're fine...that you'll be okay after all these, but it's just really been hard; knowing that someone has fallen out of love with you while you kept on loving that person...is literally killing you inside.

You understand it all, to be honest. He's a celebrity, a musician and a rock star, girls will and always be screaming for him. He's always on tour, with different girls from night to night...instead of next to you. You know that he loved you so much before, of course. Back then, it seems like you're everything to him but now...it's like you're nothing to him anymore and that thought breaks your heart, and honestly, most of you.

You were sitting in front of his porch while your things are already packed inside your car. You were just waiting for him to come home so that you can make it easy for the both of you. You know that Patrick's such an angel, he couldn't bring himself to break up with you, but also, because of that, the both of you are having these difficulties. It's better if you make the move before anything gets way worse than this.

You promised yourself that you wouldn't cry, but you're already failing at that, most especially the moment you saw him arrived in there.

"{Y/N}, why are you outside? It's going to get dark soon, stay inside." Patrick said while looking at you. You just stood up while brushing off your tears. "Hey, why are you crying {Y/N}?" he asked.

"See...you can't even call me princess anymore." You made a sound between a whimper and a laugh in front of him. You're really trying to make this easy as possible, but of course, it's hard for you.

"{Y/N}," he called out and he tried to hug you.

"Please, don't. Just make it easy for me...for us, Patrick." You said as you brush away your continuously falling tears. "I understand it all, and don't get me wrong...I-I'm not mad or anything at you." You added.

Patrick's already looking at you with guilt, but he doesn't want to say things that will give you the wrong idea. His movements just proved you more that he's done with you.

"I'm so...so...so...sorry, {Y/N}. I never wanted to hu-

"I know...I know. Come on, you're an angel, you can't hurt anyone." You told him as you look at him. You feel that your lips are trembling from preventing yourself not to cry too hard. "And just like an angel you can fall...fall out of love." You added. You put your hands over his cheeks and then you felt his tear fell in there.

"I...I really did love you, {Y/N}. You're an amazing, beautiful and stunning girl, of course, until now. It's just that...I don't know what happened. It's not because of you, {Y/N}, I-I just..." he stuttered in front of you and you took deep breath and smile at him, but still, the tears kept on flowing.

"I knew you fell out and I knew you can't bring yourself to do this...so I made the move." You said and laughed lowly.

"H-how did you-

"Oh come on, Trick! I'm not numb, I knew you got...cold." You told straight forward and he looked at you with guilt again. "And also...I saw the way you look at her." You said with a sad smile, remembering that moment when he was interviewed with Elisa Yao. "You look at her...the way you used to look at me back then." You said and sobbed in there.

You can't really explain the pain you were feeling, you really thought that Patrick was the one...was the guy you'll spend your life with till the end...but you thought wrong. You looked like a baby in there and you really hate that fact, you wanted yourself to accept the fact already...but god knows how it will be difficult for you.

"{Y/N}, I'm so sorry. I won't ask your forgiveness or anything, I just...I just need to make sure that you won't close your heart to anyone...to anyone who's better than I am. There will always be a person who'll take care of you more than I did, who'll love you more than I did. Please..." he begged as some of his tears escaped his eyes.

"I hope so...but I think I can't ever love another person the way I loved you." You whispered between your whimpers.

After that, you just let out a loud sighed then laughed sadly at yourself. You brushed your tears like you want to brush your eyes out from their sockets. You looked at Patrick with a sad smile...this is it...final goodbyes.

"Enjoy your life, Stump! I had the best time of my life when I was with you. Thnks fr vrythng." You told him. "So, it's really true huh? That sometimes...letting go is less painful than holding on." You said as you gave him your last wide smile before walking towards your car.

You tried to be strong...to be fine while you walk away, but you know you'll be leaving a piece of yourself with him that will never heal...You told yourself that you just have to accept it, life is cruel and it's not spoiling you right now. It just made you realize that...sometimes, if you love someone too much...you have to learn to let them go.

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