In silence, we both saw the magic unfolding on the screen, how the typical porn movie music played silently in the background as the two actors began their seductive play. I felt each touch from the tall, muscled man on my skin again, leaving gooseflesh behind where I felt the ghost hand touching me.

Once more, I was so bewitched by the lustrous act, that I forgot for a moment that Levi was present. As one shudder after another ran down my back, a barely sensible sigh came upon my lips as I laced my arms around my frame, brushing them against each other, hands holding onto my shoulders before I slowly guided them down my torso to fight against the prickling all over me, but it was to no avail. Each tremble went straight to my lower parts as the burning desire inside pooled down to my core once again as I watched the couple on screen making out so tenderly.

"That's really fucking hot," Levi whispered suddenly, his voice so quiet, I almost couldn't hear him. My eyes darted over to the right side of the screen, his steely grey orbs all locked on me.

"It is...I love how tender they are" I agreed, sucking my bottom lip between my teeth.

"I wasn't talking about the movie. It's you, baby. You're so damn sexy. Do you like what you see? Is this what turns you on?"

"When I'm in the mood for something like this, yeah." I could hear him panting on the other side, a hand tracing through his onyx colored tresses without taking his eyes off of me.

"Do you want to touch yourself? Don't be shy...let me see it." I watched as Levi moved to get comfortable, taking his computer with him before he leaned back in the pillows of his bed. Just seeing the redness spreading across his face from seeing how I react to the movie was enough to make me bold.

"A-Are you going to touch yourself too, Levi?"

"Huh. Hard to say without you giving me a good show first. Will you, darling?" He palmed his crotch with his whole hand, moving it a bit before he trailed his hand down his inner thigh. Even in the dark of his room, with the brightness of the screen the only source of light, I saw his hardened cock bulging through his boxer briefs. Shit...I was going to melt into the bed because of this man!

I wanted to touch myself so badly and to know that Levi is watching me... I have no idea from where this sudden boldness came, but I don't give a fuck. This was so exciting, that I couldn't hold back. I sat up, pulling my shirt above my head to throw it across the room.

"Yeah, baby. Just like that. Let me see those tits wiggle." His encouraging words, the seductive tone in his voice, poured oil to the fire. Leaning back, I reached for my slip and sleeping shorts alike to pull them down my ass and legs. I stretched them out into the air, letting him see what I do right now before I kicked the clothes away into an unknown corner.

With the next step, I was sure that Levi will become putty in my hands: I shoved the laptop a little back, keeping it between my legs, and parted them wide, tiptoes standing on the duvet, and presented myself to him. The light gasp that echoed through the speakers called to me, convincing and tempting me to reach down and stroke myself for his own private viewing.

"Do I look okay, Levi?" I asked breathy, holding back my sighs as best as I could. I wanted to be perfect for him, I wanted him to watch me and never stop. There was something naughty about stroking my pussy in front of Levi like this, all around me, the sheets, even the air, turned so much hotter than before. Levi's intense gaze heating me up even more without even trying. Finally...finally I could lay my hands on my aching pussy, but I kept the movements light and slow, but it was enough to make me throw my head back with a moan, imagining Levi would be the one working me like this. I pictured his long, slender and pale fingers brushing and gliding along my folds, just like now, how they slide in and out of my pulsing, slicked core, searching for that spot inside of me that would put me at the edge in an instant.

"You're beyond beautiful. Shit~...Darling. You're so incredible. Just look how wet you already are." Levi gasped before his hand reached beneath his boxer briefs to grab his erection.

Oh my...I couldn't take my eyes away from the screen as he eased his engorged cock out, finally giving me my first amazing view of him. He didn't lose any of the magic effects he has on me during his absence...not even a little bit.

The pale shaft, just like the rest of his skin, the tip colored in an angry red, precum pearling from the slit to drool down his massive length, demanding Levi to stroke his hand over himself, to finally give in to the pleasure and join me in this hot and sinful show. The sight of him, the girthy and veiny length of him had me drooling. Inside of me, there awoke the wish and need to wrap my lips and tongue around him and swallow him whole, just like back then when I watched the gay-porn movie, but Levi's cock looked so much more delicious to me.

"L-Levi...I wish you were here with me." I whined as I added my other hand as well, fingering my pussy, reaching deeper, while I rubbed my clit in addition. I tried to open myself up to him, begging for his dick, for him to take me, even though he wasn't here with me.

"Oh god...how much I wish these were your fingers. They always feel so good to me. Only your thick cock feels better."

That Levi wasn't with me physically, made me act more than bold today, my consciousness surely making me believe this was some kind of wicked game...And as if reaching the next level, I sped up rubbing my clit, keeping the constant pace with my hand that fingered my pussy.

"Fuck..." Levi hissed harshly, his hand stilling at the base of his rock hard cock as he came close to cumming all over himself too soon.

"Nina, darling...me too. God, I wish I was there to prep your tight and soft pussy for my cock. Look at me baby...let me see your beautiful face." I haven't noticed that I rolled my head to the side, mouth agape, heavy pants and sharp inhaling gasps spilling from it as I come undone on my own hands. With my legs set apart as wide as possible, still waiting for the impossible, for Levi to finally take me, I raised my ass from the mattress when my back arched into a curve, a sharp jolt of pleasure shot through my spine and into every nerve ending inside of me.

"Levi...fuck me... please~" A mewl of desperation slipped over my tongue, a deep growl droning from the speakers in return.

"Fuck, baby. I wish I could. Your pussy looks so fucking delicious. I can almost smell it. I cannot wait to bury my face between your legs to devour you in whole." His words really did it for me and pushed me so close to the edge, that I had to slow down my ministrations, even though I didn't want this feeling to end. I felt so good again after such a long time, so spirited, almost as high as a kite from the intoxicating feeling of doing something forbidden.

My breath hitched in my throat, the emptiness of my denied climax taking over, huffing and panting fast and harsh because of it.

I brought my head up again to look at Levi, checking if he was still watching, but what I saw almost robbed me from the rest of patience that was left inside of me.

His free hand roamed up his stomach, bringing up his tank top and pulled it up to his abs, giving me the view I'd seen so many times, but I would never get tired of. Sweat glistened over his muscles, his abdomen, glimmering in the soft spotlight of the laptops bright screen and painting his skin with sparkling drops of his growing need and urge for release, giving his toned and delectable stomach even more depth.

"Baby...Does it feel good?" He asked breathlessly when he stroked slowly over himself to keep the pleasure burning, washing over him in small tidal waves. "Having my fingers inside of you?" Levi sucked his lower lip between his teeth, biting down softly to keep a groan hidden as I sped up my fingers again at his words.

"Yeah...yeah...fuck...yeah~... Levi~...YES!" I cried out, my back arching from the bed once more like my head sunk deep into the pillow when my fingers finally brushed over my g-spot. Pleasure shot right through me, bringing me so dangerously close, I could almost taste it.

"Oh god, Levi...I'm so close." I rubbed my swollen, erected clit with everything I'd got, picking up the pace as I completely gave in to my own selfish demand to cum.

"Fuck! So am I, baby. Cum for me!" Levi groaned out, and that was all I needed. At the highest peak I could reach, the thin barricade that separates my sanity from madness, the moment when I'm the most vulnerable, I shouted his name when I dove into the deep, dark abyss of passion as both my hands worked quickly when I gave in to my orgasm, letting it consume me, let it take possession of my entire being. My walls clamped down around my fingers fast and hard, pulling them deeper with each pulse as I rode out my release, my hand still working on my clit to savor the aftershocks of this very overdue session. Tired and exhausted, I lowered myself on the mattress again, legs dropped to the side.

"FUCK!" I heard Levi groaning out loud and my eyes darted up to meet his intense gaze. I saw him working on his engorged cock like crazy, pumping it with strong and fast strokes, the grip around himself so firm, I could see the foreskin sheathing around his deep red tip. Levi was desperate to cum. Sweat pearling from his forehead to his nose and chin, dripping down from his raven hair that stuck to his skin. The view was incredible. I sat up and wiped my hands on my thighs before I grabbed the laptop with both hands, bringing Levi closer to me for a better view.

Like in trance, I brushed with my fingers over the screen, waiting for the vortex to open to take me to him.

"Baby...You want to touch it, yeah? You wanna suck it? Oh, I bet you will! It's written all over your face. Watch me cum, baby. I'm cumming!" With that, Levi was undone. A few more pumps were all that's needed and I watched him cumming as well, his hips bucking up to thrust into his hand as jets of white painted his chest. He looked so beautiful, so sexy like this. Head thrown back in ecstasy, a few drops of sweat flying through the air in the process, my name rolling from his lips like a prayer, I couldn't look away from it. To see Levi pumping himself really did it for me. And he was right: I wanted to touch him, suck him, so bad, I had no idea why, but I know that I wanted it now more than ever before. Why searching for reasons?

"Levi...That was amazing." I said between heavy breaths, my chest still hovering up and down fast from my workout that had become way more intense as I expected. I retreated from the laptop and laid back again, one hand resting on my belly. My thighs were all sticky and grimey, but I tried to fight against the disgust a little more. Now that we both calmed down and had what we wanted, I expected teasing, mocking from Levi because of what we did, that he would make fun of me for acting so much out of my common character, that I allowed my needs to take over and all this, but I couldn't be more wrong:

"So incredibly amazing, darling." He agreed, also breathlessly, but smiling so divinely into the camera that I all I wanted was to crouch through the screen and cuddle into his arms. Of course, Levi would demand a shower first, but all I craved for now, was some after sex cuddling.

"I wish you weren't so far away." I murmured, looking at Levi through the screen with sadness tugging on my heart again. I wish I could keep this intense moment special, positive, but I couldn't. With two weeks to go, and miles separating us, and the knowledge that this night won't repeat so soon, there was no chance to think positively here.

I've missed him every single day, even without him being present in my mind every minute, there was always the gaping emptiness inside that made sure I would always know someone was missing.

"Me too, darling. Me too, believe me. Bear with me a little longer. I promise the next weeks will be over in no time." Levi replied, sadness and longing written all over his handsome face.

It made the situation so much worse. I just wanted to take his face in my hands and kiss it all away, to bring him home to me and never let go of him ever again, but now that I can think straight again, I remembered that there's another thing that needs to be taken care of very urgently.

The prickly situation I'm in together with Erwin still weighs heavy on my mind. What will happen once Levi knows? I wish I could see what the future will bring.

"Don't make such a sad face, baby. I promise I'll be back before you can blink with your pretty eyes." Oh, Levi, that's exactly what I want, to hold you in my arms again...yet, my heart can't help but feel torn. Part of me just wants us to stay apart for a little longer, to hold on to these feelings we hoard for each other because I know everything will change once he comes back. And maybe, just maybe, I could even lose him forever.

With a hum, I nodded a Yes to him as a sudden chill ran down my spine. Just now, I realized how cold it'd become in here. Sitting up, I curled my legs up to the side and wrapped my arms around my torso.

"You're cold darling? I understand... it's not as hot as it was moments before, right?" It was so clear that Levi couldnt keep at least a little tease for himself...

"Yeah. I'm freezing and I'm sticky. I can hear the shower calling for me...and... it's late. I have to get up early tomorrow. Do you mind if we..."

"No, of course not darling. I understand. You need to sleep. You'll need your strength for work after such a long time. And I guess I'll need mine as well. Still, have to deal with that shithead of a client. You sure you will be okay?" His voice was so soothing. He always becomes like this after sex. If I can convince him in the future to give me back rubs also, I have to marry him!

"If I will be okay? I'm more worried about you. Don't let that asshole touch you again, or I swear I'll be over there before you can shove your boot up his ass!" Levi actually laughed a bit at my threat and palmed his eyes.

"I bet that prick would even like that, don't you think?" Now it was my turn to snort from laughter. How could I fall for that trap so easily? But I love it! Smut- and gay jokes are always the best...can't help it.

"Well, if you do, make sure to leave a lasting impression. If he acts like this with all his employees or security staff, then he won't be in the business for much longer."

"I'll keep that in mind." Levi stopped talking and just leaned forward a bit, resting his face in the palm of his hand, elbow supported on his thigh. He said nothing, for quite a while. He just sat there and stared at me. I returned his intense gaze. How could I not? His eyes look so beautiful a subtle smile tugging on the right corner of his mouth until It became too awkward for me.

"Is something wrong, Levi?"

"No. I just want to etch every little detail from your gorgeous body into my brain stem, so I can feast on them while I'm still here. I needed that today. Not just to jack-off...but more the talk with you, the chance to rant and to see your face again. I missed that. I missed you." Levi sighed deeply and I did the same. He can be so damn sweet if he wants to. What a shame that he turns into this sweet cuddle bug only when we're alone. I just wanna squeeze him!

"Levi...don't make it harder as it already is. I cried my eyes out the last time I saw you, and I don't want to look like a zombie tomorrow." I hate to part from people I care about. The last time when I said my goodbye to Levi at the airport was like hell, and I don't want to burst out in tears now. Not after this wonderful evening.

"I'm sorry. So...thanks again for talking to me. And for...the nice show." Levi winked at me with a half-smile. I flushed a little, but I would lie if I say I didn't have fun with this.

"You're welcome. Thank you for calling me. And...also for the show. Will you write again soon?"

"You bet. I won't miss a chance to chat with my girl. Good night darling. Sweet dreams."

"Thank you. To you too. I hope you'll be able to sleep."

"Don't worry about that. I got the best drug I could get. Bye, darling."

"Bye, Levi" I blew him one last kiss with my hand and waved and Levi gave me the last wink before he clicked the chat close first. The sudden silence in here felt strange, kind of unreal.

My heart ached for so many reasons and I couldnt even point at anything to name it the worst. It was all the same.

Levi's shitty job with that perverted client, the shitty situation with Erwin.

This talk with Levi made me realize again how terribly and deeply in love I am with him. The emptiness inside of me felt so much bigger since he went offline and the heavy tug on my heart proved me right as well.

After Erwin confessed his love to me and after I admitted to myself that I'm in love with him as well, I began to question myself if my love for Levi had weakened. How should it be possible to fall in love with another man otherwise?

Truth is, the love I feel for Levi was still there, strong and pulsing like a steady heartbeat that pumps life into every little fiber of a living being.

Maybe the days until Wednesday will sort my mind and make me realize that I just hoard a crush on Erwin that Levis long trip caused. That I just needed someone to hold on to and to hold me in return, just to feel that there's someone who cares and loves me.

That at least would make sense. All I can do is wait for how it will be on Wednesday.

I put my laptop down on the ground, shutting it down and closing the cover before I stood up to head for the bathroom.

The warm water from above and the wet steam eased a lot of tension inside of me, helped me to clear my head and sort my thoughts. Plus, I finally could warm up again and get clean.

I kept the shower short, though. Its too late for that and before my neighbors will complain, I just do the most necessary.

When I was finally laying in my bed, the way I actually should, I once more thought back to what'd happened in here moments before.

Shit...I would've never believed that I had this in me - to masturbate in front of the camera, for Levi, my boyfriend. It may have been pure longing and desperation, but...I have to admit, I liked it. Not just the jacking-off, but more to get watched by Levi. It had something very exciting and arousing. The intense gaze that can undress me even without him laying a hand on me always had this effect on me. These eyes will make me do such naughty things someday...

I am surprised by myself.

I made sure one last time that my alarm clock was set and once I turned off the last little light on my nightstand, I curled up beneath the duvet and closed my eyes, ready to welcome sleep and a new period of work. Just two more weeks...then I'll be reunited again with him...two more weeks, and then I will finally get my answers.