Without drifting away again into my lewd fantasy, I finished washing my body and hair before I unplugged the bathtub to move to the next part of the day. Breakfast!

With a towel wrapped around my head and hair and my fluffy bathrobe tied to my body, I patted with wet feet over the floor, straight into the kitchen, where I prepared everything to make a meal I haven't made for a while: scrambled eggs with bacon and fresh buns.

I turned on the radio and let the music play while I went crazy on the stove, swaying my hips to the rhythm of the song that's currently playing. Singing, dancing, turning and waving with my cooking spoon, I enjoyed making my breakfast so much, that the buns almost burned in the oven.

They were a little dark brown when I was done, but still eatable. No reason to waste good food. A nice coat of butter on them and everything will be perfect.

When everything was ready, I sat down in the living room, turning on the TV and inserting my new game into my old friend PS4, letting it install the game as I focused on eating and a random show that popped up when I nestled onto my couch.

Something about marrying a guy you never met before and everything gets paid by the publisher of this show.

Not my thing for "dating"...but if they're that horny for fame, so be it. But the wedding dresses were really nice.

I wouldn't mind to try on a few on my own. Just for fun. I don't even know If I'm going to marry one day, but a woman never stops believing to find true love for the rest of her life and receiving the most heart-melting proposal of all time.

It's too early and too insecure to think about this now. Not as long as the shit with Levi and Erwin is going on and I don't know shit about the future of either relationship.

After I finished my more than delicious breakfast, I felt ready for the fun part of the day.

Once the dishes were cleaned up, I took care of myself, getting rid of the bathrobe and the towel, brushing my hair and tying it into a loose ponytail. Then, and ONLY then, I was finally able to put on my loungewear I picked for today.

The soft fabric felt so incredibly good on my freshly washed skin, and the smell of the laundry detergent, mixed with the one from the soap on my body and the lavender, hit my nose so hard, I actually caught me raving over myself!

That never happened before!

Another good improvement of mine since I met Levi and Erwin. I haven't noticed how much more I liked my own body and how I began to adore my curves. I haven't looked at me like this for....well, never, to be honest.

But enough with the raving! I want to play my game!

When I finally slumped down in my own corner on my couch, I picked the controller and discovered with pleasant surprise that "Spyro the Dragon" was installed and ready to use. Without wasting any more time, I pressed Start and let the virtual world consume me with all the bright colors and lovely music I haven't heard or seen for years.

~Later that day~

It became so late that it was almost time for me to go to bed. I spent hours and hours on that amazing game!

I was so enthralled to see my beloved purple dragon running and gliding over the screen again, that I couldn't lay down the controller. The bright colors, the high-definition renders, and smooth movements, the gems that I have to collect throughout the whole game and the enemies I have to fight. It all looked so amazing in the reworked design in HD.

Goddamn, they even kept the original soundtrack! I was so deep into my nostalgia, feeling like a little kiddo again as I finished level after level with precise orientation. All memories from when I was a kid were all still there. Every little detail and hidden corner were deeply etched into my brain.

By the time when I was halfway through the first out of three games on this disc, it was half to ten in the evening. I only paused to drink, eat, and pee. Any other actions were unnecessary and a waste of time. Not even my phone buzzed to distract me. This was what I call a perfect day.

Very unwillingly, I saved my game and turned off the console, plugging the controller to the recharging station before I turned out all lights in the living room. I only have one or two hours left before I should try to sleep, and I want to spend these hours in my bed, with my laptop on my lap to watch a nice and sweet movie to let the day end in the best way possible.

Just minutes later, I was stripped from my loungewear and replaced it with a fuzzy, long-sleeved shirt for sleeping with matching shorts. Even if its winter and fucking cold outside, I never was the type to sleep with long pants inside the bed. Not even when I was little. During the night, I would always shuffle free from any disturbing clothes around my legs. The only thing I need down there is a slip or a very brief shorts.

When my laptop was set up on a small tray to watch movies in bed more comfortably, I crawled beneath the duvet, soaking in my scent once more. What a shame that I had to change the sheets. Levi's scent is long gone by now. This would help to make me feel more comfortable. Even him not being here physically, his scent, the unique mix of muskiness, soap and aftershave is the perfect fragrance for me to get addicted. I could stick to Levi's neck for hours and sniff his scent into my nose without going tired of it, and I wouldn't even be ashamed to do it in public.

I stroked over the side of the pillow where months ago Levi was sleeping on, the night when we had our very first time. Since then, we only slept in his bed. I understand though... it's bigger and comfier than mine. Plus, the walls are thick. We don't have to be afraid of the neighbors hearing us or Erwin. More space and privacy to... to throw me around as he pleases.

I willingly let him pin my arms wherever he wanted. He pushed me around, ruffled my hair, turned me this way and that...

He kept me completely under his control. And his relentless rhythm pushed me further, harder, inevitably...And I wanted it. Relished it.

Waves of pleasure shot through my body that magical night as he thrust into me over and over again, without his stamina weakening, mercilessly driving me to orgasm as I clung to him like a snake to the only source of warmth on this planet.

Damn...that one night was enough to mess up my entire sex life. Years of abstinence erased within hours, and it still feels as if it was yesterday. I rolled over to embrace Levi's side of the pillow, burying my face deep into it as I recalled the memory of our first night into my mind. The longer I laid there, the more I remembered and the more details flashed across my mind, I felt my lower region tingling from excitement, heat rising in my abdomen and spreading through my entire body before pooling down to my quivering sex.

Maybe watching a movie tonight won't do it for me...if I want to find peace, I have to take care of this desperate longing first. One week without Levi, and some hard seduction from Erwin as well. It was just a matter of time until my body will demand what he wants.

I haven't touched myself in months, not as long as Levi was around to keep me satisfied. Now that he's away, I finally know how real longing and desire feels like.

The weight of his absence hit me with all its power and brought the familiar sting of hurting tears into my eyes.

I want my Levi back, now more than ever before, but I have to wait, whether I like it or not. Crying won't bring him back faster and it doesn't help me either.

So all I could do now is to feast on my precious memories and take care of my needs with my own hands until the time of his return comes...Two weeks. Just two more weeks of patience and endurance.

After I breathed away the sting of my tears, I raised to sit again, adjusting my laptop a bit to do something I haven't done for quite a while as well: watching porn.

I placed my favorite sex toy next to me, the Satisfyer Pro2, a truly magical thing that brought me more than once to my release, I switched to the laptop to look for something that might turn me on. As much as I would love it, only the memories of sleeping with Levi wasn't enough for me to get in the mood. I need...visuals. Audios. Watching others, faceless persons having their way with each other on the screen does it for me.

"Sooo....lets see what might get me in the mood today..." I murmured to myself as the familiar porn site build-up, the first dirty and lewd thumbnails already visible with the most of the time ridiculous pronounced titles.

Nothing that I saw there caught my attention. Just the same, as always. A guy fucking a nameless and blond slut from behind, as the title says, or a busty brunette blowing some random coworker his cock during lunch break.

All boring.

And then there are always the overhyped videos about a girl getting banged in her ass. I mean...what is so arousing about fucking someone into his shithole?!

I don't get it...I don't find this arousing at all. To stick your dick into something that's meant as an exit, not an entrance. I have no idea what so great about it.

I just hope that Levi will never ask me to do this...

Of course, I love to read and watch yaoi-movies and mangas, but I don't know. I think this is something different. I tried to watch some gay porn from time to time. The most tightly muscled guys there look gorgeous and sexy as hell, gifted with an amazing length and girth and enough experience to use this weapon to their advantage (and for the pleasure of their partner), but I wouldn't consider myself as turned on after watching this. Only one time, when I saw a sexy guy all tied up, another more petite one stroking, pumping this guys cock relentlessly, pushing him so damn close to his orgasm, only to deny it to him over and over again. To see this man moaning, squirming and begging his master to cum was really a turn on. Not to mention that this man's dick looked very delicious. That was the first time I caught myself with the will and need to have a dick in my mouth.

Unfortunately, I never found this video ever again, but there's still such a big selection here, that I sure will find something. Porn isn't just porn for me. Depending on what my mind craves to see, I might not get in the mood at all if I can't find the triggering images. The thing is: I don't know what I long to see to get me in the mood. I know it when I see it, but for this, I have to click my way through the spacious website, filled with tons of videos for every known kink, preference and sexuality.

I clicked my way through the dozens of thumbnails and the attached videos, binge-watching through them to check if they are worth my time, but nothing caused this intense and exciting tingling in my pussy that tells me that this is the shit I need to blow off my tension. Gay-porn with sexy men, close-up pussy fucking, with and without toys, pussy licking and fingering, even squirting and cumshots didn't do it for me. The more I tried, the more frustrated I became.

I was close to give up and call it a day, but at the bottom line of my latest video, I saw a picture that caught my eye. Reading the title, it says "Sensual tantra massage for HER".

I haven't watched anything like this before, so its worth a try.

I clicked the video, switched to full-view mode and leaned back into my pillow to watch the magic unfolding in front of me.

And holy fucking sexy godmother. I wasn't disappointed!

As the 40 minutes video started, I first wasn't so enthralled, but the man lost no time after the short written instruction to take care of his female partner. First laying on her stomach, the man gave her a slow and sensual massage, paying most attention to the region below the beltline. With big circular movements, he fondled her soft and full looking arse, spreading the cheeks apart as he covered her silky skin with oil. Her juicy ass bounced and wiggled slowly every time he let go of them and before he let his hands wander higher, going up her spine, then letting only his fingertips trail down her sides. Alone watching THIS gave me tingles and goosebumps all over.

Only Erwin knows that this is totally my thing. He gave me this special and very sensual treatment on his birthday, as we were both laying in his bed, he half-naked, and I partly undressed by him as his warm and eager hands unfolded all my weak spots to him. Since then, I wasn't able to ask Levi to do this for me, and I surely won't ask Erwin again. At least not as long as we're in this precarious situation.

As I watched further, the first ten minutes going by like nothing, I never found myself shook by so many trembles ever before. From head to toe, one wave after another, the pleasure flowed through my body as I watched the man taking care of his partner, feeling every movement of his hands as if they were on my own body.

The erotic and low moans, sighs and gasps that came from the female added only wood to the fire for me. I watched with growing excitement how she clenched her fists when the man touched a part of her body that was overly sensitive, how her body shuddered when he came so close to her core that I practically begged him in my mind to finally touch her.

The sparkle in his eyes, how he followed his own hands eagerly, mouth slightly agape, releasing heavy breaths and licking his lips from time to time: His burning desire was written all over his face and body, that he wanted to fuck his partner and quit the foreplay.

As the camera changed the angle, giving a better view from the side, I could finally lay my eyes upon his fully erected manhood. Compared to Levi, he was smaller but no less delicious looking. The tip looked thick and fleshy, swollen deep red from the denied attention and oozing droplets of precum. The strong-textured and veiny shaft had an amazing girth from what I could see. He may be small, but he was thick! He twitched and throbbed in excitement with every moan he elicited from his partner, and I couldn't get enough of this.

When 15 minutes were over, the woman finally turned around on her back, showing her gorgeous front to all viewers out there behind the screen.

She looked beautiful. Small, round tits like juicy apples with perky, brown nipples that build a smooth contrast to her slightly tanned skin, a flat but toned belly, long legs that would make every supermodel out there gape at her in envy.

A mane of long black hair that would make Levi jealous with ease, and a smooth and feminine face with a set of full lips, long eye-lashes and a few tiny freckles on her cheeks. She was flawless in my opinion.

Again, I saw the man's erection jumping after his partner turned around, his hands immediately traveling over her belly up to her tits. He poured the warm oil in his hands and lost no time to cover her skin in a thin coat.

His thumbs flicked and circled around her erected nipples and the camera moved closer to this scene, making a close-up of this treatment. From this near, it looked simply magical. Its almost as if I could feel his fingers on my own skin, wave after wave of goosebumps jolting through my body.

It suddenly became very hot in here. The inner heat that'd build up when I thought about my first time with Levi, burned up anew, hotter and more intense than before. Moving my hands underneath my shirt, I began to touch my breasts, fondling them in the same rhythm and intensity as the man does with his woman.

It wasn't the same without Levi, of course, but it still felt very pleasant. For a little moment, I closed my eyes and imagined Levi being here with me, how he would lay down here beside me, his curious and eager hands doing exactly what mine do right now. A sudden contraction inside my pussy elicited a low sigh from me as I felt my passion and excitement growing bigger by the minute.

With my other hand, I first turned the volume a little louder, listening to all the gentle strokes the male makes on his partner's skin, hearing the woman moaning, sighing...

When I was finally satisfied with the volume, I laid back again, legs set apart and angled, my other free hand slowly gliding into my shorts. Barely putting pressure on it, I caressed my starving clit with small, circular movements above the fabric of my slip.

It felt so good...I bit my lower lip, keeping my low sighs at bay first as I continued to stroke myself on and on, the sensual sounds from the video keeping the fire inside of me alive.

"Oh yes...Levi~.....more..." I moaned lowly into the darkness of my room, my mind picturing Levi here by my side, his voice echoing in my mind as he would answer me in his lustrous sound to pour oil into the fire.

Tired of caressing myself only above the fabric, I dipped my fingers underneath the slip, the tip of my middle finger barely ghosting over my exposed bundle of nerve ends as suddenly:

"Levi is calling..."

The melodious sound of someone calling me over Skype interrupted my alone time out of nothing. My eyes flung open and when I read the name, my heartbeat increased rapidly in shock, each and every beat hammering against my ribcage like a jackhammer as I frantically looked for the damn Pause-button!

"Shitshitshitshit!" I repeated in haste, pushing the buttons in panic to finally turn down the volume and stop the porn movie. When I finally paused it by pushing the space bar, arranging my clothes after that, I answered the call, and then, a picture popped up.

"Hello, darling. There you are. I saw you are still online and I couldn't hold back to call you. I miss you so much, I just....couldnt. It feels so fucking good to finally see your precious face again." His soft and emotional voice spoke to me as if he indeed was just here beside me. The moment when my eyes caught sight of his soft face, the raven locks, and ashen orbs, I thought I was dreaming.

"Levi..." I whispered inaudibly, holding my breath with both hands before my mouth as I stared at the monitor in disbelieve and big relieve alike.

All I received was a chuckle from the other side.

"Yes, baby. It's me. You missed me?"

I breathed in deeply, sniffing and gulping the lump in my throat as I nodded hastily, totally incapable to pronounce verbal words.

"Oh, my poor baby. I wish I could hold you tight right now. It sucks to be that far away, just surrounded by shitheads and annoying brats. How are you? How are things going over there? Is everything alright? You look a little flushed. Are you sick? Do you run a fever?" he asked with slight worry in his voice.

Oh-oh...