✅Revised

I didn't write shit today and I feel useless :)

Alexa play Double Knot by 3racha, I need Chris to put me in place.

Get your hearts ready <8

Changbin cursed himself as he started crying, the surprised look Felix gave him as he looked up was enough for him to break down.

He had tried to hold it back, but after all that went down that night, hearing the taller say those things again had been just too much for the, already, overwhelmed boy.

Felix watched in shock as Changbin covered his face with a pillow, tears streaming down his face as he tried to muffle his sobs.

The taller reached to the pillow and pushed it away, staring at his face wide eyed.

"Shit, Changbin."

The shorter could have expected anything from him, but not a hug.

And yet, that was exacly what Felix chose to do. He leaned down, capturing the shorter in his arms and rolling them over to that he would stay on his chest, head on his neck as the sobs got louder and stronger.

"I-m s-sor-"

"It's okay, Bin, it's okay."

He started crying harder after that, his body almost convulsing at every sob while Felix held him tight, stroking his hair as he whispered things that Changbin was far from hearing. His heart melt at the nickname, but he knew that was not what Felix thought about him.

Slut.

That was what he was.

He was willing to sell his body for a grade and still got surprised when the buyer used him as he wished?

Disgusting, Changbin.

"Changbin, you're better?"

The shorter managed to stop his sobs. He puked away, sitting in the bed and whipping his tears away, gasping slightly at the pain on his ass.

"U-yes, Shit s-sorry." He smiled softly, turning to the guy and reached up to his member. "I can keep going now, sorry."

"What?", Felix grabbed his stretched hand and pulled him closer, cupping his face. Only then Changbin realized how worried the taller was. "Why would you want to keep going now?"

"B-because y-you haven't came y-yet."

Felix didn't believe what he was hearing.

"And why would that matter now? Bin what happened? Did I hurt you too much?"

"N-no.", he closed his eyes, feeling Felix's thumbs wiping his tears away. "I just..."

The taller pulled him even closer, making the guy sit on his lap.

"You just..."

Changbin bit his lip and stared at his lap, only then realizing they were still both naked and his stomach still had his cum on.

Ew.

"Please don't get m-mad, I know I-I don't h-have t-the right to-"

"Just speak, baby. What's troubling you?"

Changbin took a deep breath.

"I know t-this is literally me selling m-my body b-but you're so aggressive s-sometimes.", he didn't dare to look at the other's face. "I guess it scares me and..."

Felix pressed his forehead to Changbin's shoulder, tightening the grip on his waist.

"And you feel uncomfortable and I do hurt you.", he sighed, kissing his shoulder and making him face him, his own eyes saddened." Why didn't you tell me I was being an idiot? I thought you preferred it like that since we barely are friends, thought it would keep things simpler."

Changbin almost broke down again, his tears coming back.

"I don't h-have the right too I'm-"

"Oh my god. No. Shut up.", Felix turned them around in bed, hovering over him again and stared right into his eyes.

"You're not selling your body, you're not a slut and I'm sorry I ever called you that, baby. You're a person and you have fucking feelings and you have all the right to feel comfortable in this situations and to kick my face when I'm being a total idiot.", he cupped the shorter's face and a tear fell down his face, Changbin whipping it away with his thumb. "Please don't ever shut up about what's bothering you. I beg you Changbin, talk to me, tell me what I'm doing wrong, what you like or not, tell me your limits."

"But, this is supposed to relief your strees-"

"And I'm not doing it by hurting you. I honestly could literally just make your feel good and my life would be better. I say a lot of shit but I never lied when I said your moans are most beautiful sound I've ever heard."

Changbin hid his face at the comment, knowing he would blush.

Felix chuckled and grabbed his arm, getting him up.

"Come on, let's have a bath, shall we? You need to rest after this shit."

Changbin's heart raced as Felix dragged him to Hyunjin's guest room bathroom, pulling him inside the shower and turning on the water.

"Felix?", the taller hummed, staring to water Changbin's hair, slowly massaging his head. "Why did you do it, out of nowhere?"

"What do you mean?"

Changbin turned around and shook his head, making the taller laugh.

"You know. What we just did.", he bit his lip. "Why?"

Felix grabbed some shampoo and kept dealing with Changbin's head, the shorter thanking every god he knew they knew the owner of the house or else he would be really mad about this is the morning.

Then he remembered he would still be mad because no one could know about what had happened.

"Chan said you seemed stressed, and you did. I just wanted to clear your mind of things for a bit.", Changbin's mouth dropped and if he didn't have shampoo on his eyes they might have widened. "I guess the source of the stress was my dumbass.", he chuckled and turned the water in again, helping the shorter and cleaning himself after.

They left the shower and got into their clothes again, boxers and tshirts only, Felix pulling him to the bed and hovering over him as usual.

The taller placed a kiss on his forehead, shoting him a smile the second after. He made him get under the sheets and joined the shorter, pulling him into his embrace.

Changbin didn't know what to think as he felt the taller caress his hair and hugging his waist.

"I'm really sorry, Bin. Please, talk to me about these things, I mean it." The shorter nodded on his chest, knowing Felix had understood."Good night, baby."

"Good night, Felix."