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" This or this ....uhmm this or this ? " Jimin asked to no one while trying different earrings with the beautiful black outfit he had on. He was glowing with happiness and looked too bewitching to look away from. The gorgeousness, handsomeness and beauty he possessed, were very hypnotizing.

He looked at the mirror, then at the clock then at his phone . It was 6:55 and Jimin was ready.

( A/n. His outfit 🥀 too ethereal for the world, right ? )

" Do you think I look good enough little one ? Do you love me ? Cause I already love you so much and your Dadda will love you more. " Jimin said touching over his belly as once again a sudden happiness washed over him.

He rushed downstairs and sat on the couch then again got up cause he couldn't sit still while continuously checking his watch again and again.

It was 7: 15 and Jimin started to get paranoid. Jungkook was never late when he promises Jimin. After they became boyfriends , Jungkook became more and more promising each day and kept each and every word of his. Jimin never had a chance to complain when Jungkook wrapped him up with all his love.

Jimin checked his watch again and it was 7:20. He was too tensed by now.

" Where is he ? He's okay right ? Should I need to look out for him ? Is it only traffic? Calm down Jimin calm down... he's on the way.... okay? Don't be paranoid . " Jimin soothed himself but how long? Not more than few minutes.

It was 7 : 45 and Jimin knew something has to be wrong. His heart was pounding against his ribcage. He was tensed, scared but he didn't cry. Cause he knew if anything is wrong he has to save his Jungkook.

He dialled Jungkook's number while trying to fix his voice. He shouldn't sound dissapointed or scared or something. He will understand.

The number you've called is currently switched off.

Jimin couldn't be more scared than this . Jungkook's phone was switched off ? Where was he ?

Jimin called him back again and again but it said the same this time. Jimin blinked away his tears before calling another number.

" Hello Jiminah ! Are you ready ? Do you need- "

" Tae where is Jungkook? " Jimin asked hastily.

" Huh what ? He should be with you by now ? He still didn't reach ?

" No ! He told me he'll come to pick me at 7:00 but it's already quarter to 8:00 ! Tae is everything okay !? Did anything happen today ? Any complications or anything !? Where is he !? " Jimin asked with a aggressive paranoid voice.

" Jiminah calm down a bit please . Nothing wrong happened today. He left to pick you up- uhmn God ! He should have reached- wait just wait a little.. May be he's on the way ? " Taehyung's voice was tensed as well. He also didn't had any idea about what happened. He and others were so busy with the special event of today.

" He can't be ! 45 minutes ? You know whatever happens he'll not be this late for no reason!? He may have got into some problems ! He just came back last night and may be..may be anyone was waiting to att- no no ! Come to work mansion! Everyone. I'm coming. " Jimin ran upstairs after cutting the call.

He took his gun with a distressed face. He had decided to not take it with him today nor wanted to use it today....it was a special day yet.... wiping away a lone tear from his eyes he ran out of the room.
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" Where were all of you and him all day? " Jimin's authorative sheering voice boomed through the thick silence of the room.

Taehyung, Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon, Jin, Hoseok, Jackson all stood silent. What could they even say ? It was supposed to be a surprise for Jimin ! Jungkook was going to propose Jimin today.

" He gave us some purchasing tasks..."
Hoseok said while glancing at others.

" Don't fucking lie on my face. Every lies of you all will only distress me more ! I'm sick of it ! Whatever the reason is, just fucking spit it ! It is not the old time anymore where I'll just consider every single thing cause it was for fucking good ! " Jimin screamed slamming his hand on the table, making everything Shake along with everyone.

" Jiminah...we...we really - he wasn't with us all day. He came one hour ago before he left to pick you up... " Taehyung stuttered out.

" Then where the fuck is my Jungkook !!! It's been damn so many hours ! We searched every single corner of Seoul ! Every where ! Are any other mafia groups still alive after today !? Huhh !? What can possibly happen !? He- he was supposed to- be.." Jimin couldn't complete his words as his voice broke and he looked down on the almost broken glass table .

It was past midnight and The Park Jimin had already turned the entire Seoul into chaos. He just wanted to see his Jungkook... but couldn't.

Everyone knew how Jimin was feeling. They were too worried yet couldn't utter a single thing. Telling the Park Jimin to calm down in this situation means straight jumping into fire. But they knew Jimin definitely wasn't okay..nor mentally nor physically. They were worried cause just one week ago they saw Jimin fainting...only if they knew more.

Also they were too scared and tensed about Jungkook . Where was the younger? He was too desparate to reach Jimin today then what might have happened ? They were trying to muster up some courage to speak when Jimin looked up with red and glossy eyes yet his face was scary as a Devil.

" Just tell me where he is. Please. Just tell me what happened. What is the reason. I just want to know that he's okay. " Jimin asked with a stern cold voice while staring at them with a soul piercing gaze.

They blinked getting more scared cause they didn't know what to say or answer. They were as clueless as Jimin was at this point. They were more scared, thinking why Jimin was asking them like that.

" We really don't know ... please trust us Jiminah...if we knew- " they couldn't complete as Jimin clutched his eyes shut for a good second before raising up his hand.

" Enough. " Jimin said before walking away and exiting the room without sparing a single glance at anyone.

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4:00 AM. By now Jimin knew Jungkook himself was not wanting to get found. It wasn't possible to capture the Jeon Jungkook like that and anything. Still Jimin destroyed every possible opponents. He did every single thing to find Jungkook.
Everyone was still trying .

" Come back... Please.." Jimin said to know one as he stared at Jungkook's picture. His voice was badly broken.

" Whatever it is... just tell me... don't abandon me Kookie... you're my everything. " Jimin said looking down as he let all the silent tears fall.

" Your Jiminie is waiting... he'll die without you... you love me so much then why.." his broken words and voice were heart wrenching.

Falling on his knees while clutching his lover's picture close to his chest, Jimin let out the loud sobs which he was hiding inside him. Park Jimin was never able to show his pain outside. He appeared cold, ominously dangerous, too hard to break but his room walls knew how much tears he had sheded . And another one knew how broken Jimin can get ...and that very person was breaking Jimin right now....once again.

Jimin cried and cried while trying to call Jungkook hopelessly...only to listen to those "The number you've called is currently switched off. " again and again. His mind replaying all the beautiful moments they've shared together...the way Jungkook loved him like a crazy, the way he told Jimin every sweetest heart filling words of love, the way he cherished him..every single thing were hitting Jimin hard.

" Di-did I d-do som-something wrong Kookie.. ? And that's wh-why you're angry on m-me ? " Jimin asked himself with a scared broken voice. It made him break down more.

But he didn't know at the very same time someone else was hurting himself badly, crying and screaming miserably for all the guilt that suddenly wrapped him up.
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" Ahahahahaaaaaaa !! " A boy screamed with loud tears as he curled himself into a ball. The hot shower pouring over his sensitive skin continuously for hours that his skin was all red. The black tiles failed to show the stains of blood.

Continuous cries and screams for hours made his throat to pain badly but he couldn't stop. Never in his life he felt so much guilty and dirty. Right now he couldn't stand himself. His own decisions, lies and plans were making him sick of himself. He did just like that girl said to his lover. Cheated.

He lied. He pretended. To get closer to the person whom he loves. May be it wouldn't have hurt him this much if he didn't love his lover a little too much. He was crazy for his lover and that made him hate himself more. The thoughts of seeing hatred in his lover's eyes made him want to rip out his own heart. He couldn't stand tears in his Jimin's eyes. He couldn't stand the broken face and hurt look on his Jimin whom he loves a little too very much.
He was that crazy that he wanted to worship his lover. Bring every thing to his lover, Cover him with love and all.

But right now he felt too dirty to even stand infront of his Jimin. He remembered how hurt Jimin was for him. All his life he has only hurt the older. Now he realised how much it'll affect Jimin when he gets to know what
Jungkook did. He'll hate him for lying. He cheated with his wicked plan. Planned his own accident to get closer to Jimin. How much of a demon he is to hurt his lover like that ? His Jimin cried for him.. hurt himself .

Jungkook couldn't forget anything nor forgive himself. He was in the verge of ending it all. He couldn't help but imagine the same scene between him and Jimin like that couple of earlier.

He was scared. Too scared. He knew sooner or later Jimin will find out. Then ? What will happen then !?

All this thoughts made him almost end his life today. He hated himself more when everytime he wanted to shoot himself , his closed eyes imagined Jimin's beautiful smile, the moments between them, his voices played in his mind .... pulling him away from death.

So he decided to hurt himself, cut himself and he did. He knew he's also hurting Jimin right now....but he couldn't muster up the courage to face Jimin anymore. He'll break down, end up telling Jimin everything and then everything will shatter down in a blink.

Their dreams, their love, their hearts... every single thing will just break into million pieces . He was well aware that he's not in the place to ask for a third chance. He knew he didn't deserve it anymore. He didn't deserve to look, touch or think about Jimin anymore.

He dreamt a lot....a lot... from their
' Yes , I do ' to their first kiss as husbands to their happy life, to his Jimin's winning smile afterwards, to every single thing.....a child of theirs whom he'll give everything they never had...to when they gets old and die together.

All these thoughts made him feel more guilty . The thought of his dirty impure hands touching Jimin and taking away his everything and with the very hands he had poisoned his own food for Jimin to trust him.

And that's where he started to hate himself more. Whatever happens he'll not be able to think of Jimin's love for him anymore. He will just scoot away and fade... cause he didn't deserve his Jimin.

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" -in ? "

" Jimin ? "

After calling for atleast 20 times for Jimin, Taehyung was utterly tensed and now was banging his palm on Jimin's bedroom.

" Jimin open the door please ! Please!"
Taehyung called again and again but there wasn't any answer. His mind could only imagine bad things at this point. Jungkook was missing and now Jimin wasn't answering at all.

" Jimin please ! Ji- " Taehyung stopped when the door suddenly opened and the sight was quite too hurtful for Taehyung. The person whom he always thought as his own brother and a soulmate , the strongest person he knows was standing infront of him... looking all broken.

" Jiminah ! " Taehyung called but Jimin didn't answer and walked inside his room again. The taller followed behind him .

" Jiminah what have you done to yourself !? Look at me ! " Taehyung said and got shocked when Jimin dryly chuckled.

" It's been two days . He's no where. I can't find him. I can't talk to him. I don't know if he's okay or not .... what else should I look like Tae ? " Jimin answered with a distant voice . He wasn't crying nor he can cry infront of anyone anymore. But his voice was enough for Taehyung to know that Jimin was too broken inside.

" He'll come back. He has to Jiminah ! You know how much he loves you right ? " Taehyung tried to soothe Jimin who just walked away to the balcony .

" I know he does. He loves me so much . But do I deserve him ? I did something very wrong right ? It's my punishment. Now I understand how much it hurt him when I left him...all alone here.... when I told him to not show his face again... I know it well now ... that it fucking hurts...too much" Jimin said with his voice quivering as he looked away. His eyes glistening.

" That was another time Jiminah ! You did nothing wrong! " Taehyung said aggressively. He couldn't hold himself when Jimin is thinking so down about himself.

" He's angry on me for some reason... isn't he ? You too know that he isn't coming back cause he doesn't want to. I know him very well Tae.. very well"
Jimin chuckled sadly as single tear drops rolled out of his eyes.

" He can't be angry on you Jiminah ! He can never. I believe he'll come back soon ! Whatever it is it'll be okay! " Taehyung said and Jimin just looked away.

" Jiminah look at me..you need to eat something, drink Something! You'll get sick this way. He won't like to see you like this . " Taehyung said and Jimin wiped away his tears.

" Won't he come back after seeing me sick ? I know he is watching me.. I know he is.. then why aren't you coming back Kookie! Huh !? " Jimin screamed clutching the railings of balcony.

Taehyung couldn't see Jimin like this at all. He just wanted Jungkook to come back and ask why is he hurting Jimin like this. If he's intentionally not coming back like Jimin said... then why is it !? Everyone knew how much Jungkook loved Jimin. He was going to propose Jimin that day then what happened !?

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Everyone was distressed. It was already two days and Jungkook was completely out of the picture . They couldn't look up at Jimin's eyes anymore.

Jimin looked like a dead person. Tae and others failed in their every attempts to feed Jimin anything. This morning Taehyung freaked out when he touched Jimin's hand. Jimin was burning with fever but once again, his face held nothing. Litrelly nothing.

They couldn't see Jimin like this and wanted Jungkook to come back . They never stopped looking out for Jungkook but all in vain.

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" Should I just end everything right now ? .... I can't face you baby... I really can't. " Jungkook's voice was broken and hoarse from continuous hours of screaming and crying. Whatever he did...he couldn't forgive himself.

Currently he was standing beside the railings of a highway bridge while looking down. Just a step away from ending it all. He was going to return today... cause he can never hide himself forever. He has to face Jimin before scooting away. He wanted Jimin to hate him badly. He wanted to create a situation where Jimin himself will want Jungkook away from him.

Tears fell from his bloodshot eyes but after trying for millions of times...he couldn't end himself forever. Everytime Jimin's eyes, his voice, his smile... flashes over Jungkook's closed eyes and he fails to kill himself.

It was something like an invisible shield Jimin had created in Jungkook's brain without him knowing.

He turned around and walked towards his car as he once again remembered how hurt Jimin was and how he cried so vulnerably when he saw Jungkook getting shot. So if Jungkook now does anything suicidal and dies... it'll hurt Jimin to death and Jungkook knew Jimin will die as well. Then he has only one option... he'll make Jimin hate him and slowly scoot away.

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" JIMINAH ! " A very familiar voice called Jimin with a desperate voice while later had his gun muzzle pointed at someone's forehead who was supposedly a spy that Jimin himself caught.

Jimin turned around towards a panting Taehyung who rushed in the basement to inform Something.

" Jung-Jungkook came back ! Just now ! " Taehyung said panting and Jimin didn't waste any more seconds before running out of the room.

Jimin ran as fast as possible while ignoring the sick feeling in him. He couldn't think about anything other than his beloved lover. His eyes were red and his gorgeous flawless face was completely pale by now. Tears were threatening to fall when he reached the hallway.

And there Jimin saw Jungkook was already halfway on the stairs. Everyone was standing there and looking at Jungkook's back with a shocked, startled face but Jimin really had no energy left to look at them and ask anything.

Jimin straight ran behind Jungkook .

" Kookie ! " Jimin called but it was like Jungkook didn't even hear him. He called again and again but Jungkook never turned back. Still Jimin didn't care and followed Jungkook in the corridor towards their room.

" Kookie Please wait ! " Jimin called with a desparate voice and Jungkook entered their room. Jimin was about to enter the room when Jungkook slammed the door shut on Jimin's face.

Jimin stood there out side the room with a blank face and tears running down his eyes. What just happened ? Jungkook came back and from a far view Jimin can tell Jungkook didn't look okay at all. But what happened to him !? Why did he-
Jimin chose to stop thinking about that.

" Kookie ? Baby Please ! Open the door. Please ? Tell me what happened please. " Jimin said knocking on the door repeatedly . He was hurting badly. He felt sick and tired and Jungkook's behaviour towards him was the most painful. Yet he chose to ignore himself and cried cause he knew Jungkook wasn't okay.

On the other hand Jungkook fell upon the door inside the room and placed his hands on the door..... once again tears effortlessly ran down his eyes. Jimin's voice....the pleading love filled hurt voice was making him weak on his decision and he couldn't hate himself more than ever. The person who is the king of his life...was hurting for him... and he was intentionally causing it.

Jungkook rested his forehead on the door and clutched his mouth to silent his sobs and cried hearing Jimin calling for him again and again.

Jimin was panting hard as he cried. He slammed his palm on the door repeatedly while calling Jungkook.

" Open the door Please... please Kookie..let me be there with you.." Jimin said and knelt down before the door .

He called and called but when his cries became more painful ..he rested his forehead on the door right where Jungkook had his behind the door.

" Please tell me what happened..." Jimin said with a silenced sob and Jungkook bit his bottom lip to stop his loud tears.

" You know how much I love you right Kookie....and I know you love me much more... I know... then please let me look at you..tell me what happened... Please. " Jimin said and Jungkook had to cover his entire face to muffle his cries.

Jungkook had never felt This much guilt in his entire life. First time when Jimin left him...he felt lost but somewhere he knew he had to make Jimin his and beg for a second chance cause no other person can love his Jimin like he does. He can die with a smile for his Jimin.

But now.... when Jungkook felt like he didn't even deserve to look at Jimin..it hurts more. Now when he knows that their's no obstacles between their love other than the devastating lie that he created... broke him more.

Jungkook couldn't sit there anymore. He got up and locked himself in the bathroom .... again finding the sharp metal object which gives him pain which he thinks he deserves.
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Taehyung, Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon,  Jin rushed upstairs cause they too understood theirs Something really really wrong happened when Jungkook didn't look back at Jimin.

They couldn't help but get shocked and scared when they saw Jimin sitting infront of their room .

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It was already evening and Jimin wouldn't move away from infront of the door. Everyone failed to make him understand anything till he scared them away.

Jimin's head was throbbing badly and he felt like fainting but still stood there.

Jimin's blurry dazed off state broke when he heard the door opening finally.

" Kookah ! " Jimin called with the same worried tone and rushed towards Jungkook who's face was just expressionless.

Just when Jimin was about to touch Jungkook, the later turned around while saying " Come inside. "

Jimin entered the room and closed the door behind him before walking towards Jungkook who had his back turned towards the older.

" Kookie...? " Jimin softly called holding Jungkook's right hand and turned him around . The later still had no expressions on his pale cold looking face which made Jimin more worried.

" Look at me. " Jimin said suddenly cupping Jungkook's face and making him look at him . But Jungkook eyes looked so very different. They were cold and distant which made Jimin's heart hammer upon his ribcage.

" Where were you ? What happened ? You're not okay ! Baby tell me what happened ? " Jimin asked worriedly eyeing Jungkook's face and carresed his cheek carefully which made Jungkook to clutch his hands to control himself .

" Don't be silent Kookie...you know how worried I was ? I looked everywhere for you but couldn't find.. I felt abandoned..." Jimin said with tears running down his eyes yet he was still holding Jungkook like he'll vanish.

" Did I tell you to be worried about me Jimin ? Do I seem like a kid to you? That you had to look after me ? Huh?"
Jungkook's sudden bone chilling cold harsh voice made Jimin blink repeatedly as he tried to understand what Jungkook's just said.

Jungkook had never in his life talked to Jimin like that. Never ever. It was the first time in his 23 years of life that he raised his voice over Jimin. And Jungkook was internally shivering in guilt cause the look on Jimin's face was heart wrenching for him.

Jungkook wanted to run away from there when he noticed how Jimin was looking.....His disheveled pale state and tired bloodshot eyes with dark circles, his beautiful face looking all tired and sick and he looked like he didn't eat anything for days..... Jungkook wanted to cry out and slap himself, made Jimin sit down and feed him, take care of him and everything. He was so used of taking care and being over protective of his boyfriend.....now he can't do anything for his own reasons.

If everything wasn't fucked up ... Jimin would have been his fiance by now. His King, his Beloved husband.... now it was all a dream for Jungkook which was crushing inside his heart.

" Ko-kookie ? " Jimin was trying to say something but Jungkook suddenly snatched his hand away from his face before walking away.

" I had some important business and I think I've told you that day when I was leaving. " Jungkook said in a monotone and turned his back towards his beloved.

Jimin gulped , still not believing what wasn't happening. His brain kind of stopped working cause never in his life he thought his Jungkook will behave like that. He was shocked and startled....and the pain in his heart overpowering everything.

Jimin was in pain. Mentally and physically, both ways. All the stress, restless hours and cries he has let out made himself dizzy. At the same time Jungkook didn't look okay at all. Who knew Jungkook more than anyone ? It's Jimin. And he knew this wasn't his Jungkook. Something definitely happened.

Jimin well knew what Jungkook was planning that day. Jungkook bought a beach along with a mansion and decorated everything just like Jimin had imagined from teenage days. Jungkook had remembered every single details of Jimin's imaginations. Jungkook was planing for this from 5 months . Jimin guessed it all and got sure that evening where Jungkook was supposed to pick him up.....and afterwards when he didn't return, Jimin found out everything.

The very next day when their orphanage ma'am called him to congratulate when Jimin was literally driving everywhere to find his boyfriend,..... then he got to know who Jungkook went to meet that day. It broke Jimin more thinking what might have happened to his Jungkook.

" Jungkookah.... don't lie to me. I know something happened. Tell me please.. you know how much I love you right? How much incomplete I'm without you ? Then please... don't lie to me... Please ? " Jimin said with with a very soft tone. By now he was sure Something really bad happened to make Jungkook act like this.

" Lie ? Where do you see a lie here Park Jimin? And Tell you fucking what ? Remember that I'm not obligated to tell you every single thing I do. Don't disturb me with this stupid questions. " Jungkook said walking towards their closet and obviously Jimin followed not knowing that Jungkook was basically trying to hide his sobs which were Lumping on his throat.

Jimin was again about to touch Jungkook's hand when the later scooted away harshly . Jungkook glared at Jimin before saying the words he decided to say.

" I think you're well educated to understand the meaning of space. So give me that. SPACE. GIVE ME SOME SPACE PARK JIMIN. "

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Hello everyone ! Here's another update . Once again not proofread and I apologise for all the errors in this chapter.

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