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Third person's P.O.V

     Jungkook's was too shocked, too fazed, too hurt.... For the first time he realises how much he wanted Jimin and how he already lost him.

"--ook ?"

"--kook? "

" Jungkook?? ",
Jungkook snapped out of his inner breaking down as he tried to blink away his tears before looking at his secret love.

" Ye-yeah...? ",
Jungkook's voice was breaking down, he knew he can't hold his tears for long if he stands there for another minute.

" Happy Birthday dear Best friend! ",
Jimin said with a smile while still holding his fake girlfriend in his arm. The winning smile on Rose's face was the proof of her delight .

" Thanks. ",
Jungkook's legs were trembling as he was trying hard to control his strong urge to fall there and cry ,scream ,beg.
" Liked my surprise a little too much?...I know you did.. ",
Jimin said not knowing that his words were causing exactly the same pain as bone crushing for Jungkook.

Jungkook looked down gulping as he closed his eyes. No one noticed the tear drops that left his beautiful doe eyes and fell on his black suit.

" yeah. Of course hyung. ",
Jungkook said with a sad smile as he looked up , his eyes travelled straight to Jimin's arm that was wrapped around Rose's waist.

Jimin's heart clenched as the words left Jungkook's mouth. Somehow he wanted Jungkook to deny it, argue with him, stop him from being with someone but it didn't happen. The moment Jimin knew.... Jungkook can never be his.

Jimin's P.O.V

    " Yeah. Of course hyung. "

You said those words so effortlessly Kookie...breaking my heart all over again.

So you don't care at all right Jungkookie?.. I guess you don't. You could have asked why I chose her.. When did it start.. She's not the right one.. You don't like her..... But you didn't say anything. Why kookie why!

Oh..  You simply don't care. Why will you.. Right? You see me just as a best friend.. But I don't! I Fucking love you with  every cell of my body! But you don't.....

" Happy Birthday Jungkook.. ",
Rose said and walked towards Jungkook and pulled him in a hug... And Jungkook hugged back.. With a smile.

" Thank you Rose.. And I liked the surprise very much.. Loved it.. ",
He said but didn't actually looked at Rose. He looked straight at my eyes, like he was mocking me with his words and smile.

" No problem! You are special for my darling so we planned to give this special gift to you! ",
Rose said smiling and Jungkook looked away before looking down. Why does his expressions are not matching with his words? Why is he looking... Hurt?

Jungkook suddenly walked towards me... I want to cry now.. I don't want him to go away from me...I need him beside me with every breath I take... I want him to love me the way I do.. I ...

Jungkook suddenly hugged me catching me off guard... But he hugged me a little too tightly. Wrapping his hands around my waist and keeping his head on my shoulder before pressing his eyes area there. I want to hug him back and never let him go.. But I can't do that right?... I will hug him with my desires, my love.. I will hug him as my lover but..... For him I'm nothing but a best friend.

Still I hugged back and patted his shoulder trying to tell him that I want to pull out from the hug but do I really want to lose the warmth.... No. Never.

" Very pleasant surprise hyung .",
Jungkook muttered under his breath beside my ear sending shivers down my spine before pulling out from the hug...  Making me want to run away from here and kill myself. So he's really happy with surprise ?

He must be.

" JUNGKOOK! JIMIN! ",
A loud voice made us startled and we all looked at the source of the voice.

" Why are yelling Jin hyung? ",
I asked trying to look disgusted as Jin hyung rolled his eyes at me. Behind him there was Namjoon hyung who is looking at Jungkook .
Taehyung is looking back and forth between Jungkook and me and Hoseok hyung's gaze is fixed on Rose.
Yoongi hyung is looking at us with judging eyes.

" We were searching for you two for a long time and you two are -----Rose? ",
Jin hyung asked as he noticed Rose.

" Yeah hyung... ",
Rose is hesitating to answer them cause she thinks they don't likes her as Jungkook.

" When did you came? ",
Taehyung suddenly asked looking like he's judging her presence.

" Just a few minutes ago.. ",
She looked at me helplessly.

" Ohhh Tae.. Don't you dare ask her this much questions.. ",
Jungkook suddenly said chuckling. Everyone looked at him as he looked at Taehyung with that same smile.

" huhhh..? ",
Taehyung looked confused like everyone.

" Ohh you don't know too? ",
Jungkook's every words are sounding like he's mocking me.

" What do you mean Jungkook? ",
Jin hyung asked.

" Hahaha... Wow it seems like I'm really the very much lucky one to know it first.. ",
Jungkook said walking past me with hands inside his pocket .

He is truly gorgeous.... But.... Not mine... Never will be.. Cause I don't deserve him.

" Rose is my Jiminshi 's beloved girlfriend.. ",
He said twisting my heart.... He said 'my'..... Why Jungkook.... Why did you said 'my '.......why do you always give me false hopes... You didn't mean it the way I'm thinking right?... Of course you didn't.

Everyone looked shocked except Namjoon hyung and Taehyung... They looked worried and scared..

I can understand why Tae is looking like that cause he knows about my secret? Then why is he looking at Jungkook?

But Namjoon hyung? He knows too?

" Really? Oh my god how?when ? ",
Jin hyung's voice broke my chain of thoughts as Rose suddenly clung onto me.

" About few months ago.. ",
I said looking at Jungkook who's back facing me. As I averted my gaze from me I met with Taehyung's glaring eyes. I looked away, I know Tae is angry at me but what can I do right?

" how did it happen? ",
Namjoon hyung said asks looking at me like he's trying to find something in my answer.

Oh shit! I never thought anyone will ask it... What do I do now..

" I.. Ahh.. ---",
Jungkook stopped my fumbling.

" Ohh geez! I know they are a hot sweet beautiful duo but it doesn't mean you guys will be more interested in their relationship than my birthday!! "

" Yeah I agree with Jungkook. It's his birthday! I will tell our love story any other day.. It's a very long one... ",
Rose suddenly said before kissing my cheek .

" Long story... Might be interesting.. ",
Jungkook said turning around and looking at me, I looked down... I know I'll no more be able to hold the act if he looks at me like that..

" You have no idea.. ",
Rose said smiling.

" But Jimi--",
Taehyung was going to say something but Jungkook stopped him.

" Skip the questions and let's enjoy my birthday! ",
Jungkook nearly said with his domineering cold voice that is not matching the sentence.

With that he started walking towards the entrance. Taehyung is still looking back and forth between Jungkook and me. Jin hyung looked confused but smiled same like Hoseok hyung . Yoongi hyung and Namjoon hyung stayed silent.

Suddenly Taehyung walked towards me.... I knew what will he ask.. I can't answer now... Not now... Everything's will be worthless if start crying here.

" Let's go darling.. ",
I said and held Rose's hand and walked past Tae without giving him a chance to speak. Everyone followed behind me inside.

No one will ever understand how I'm feeling inside.... Never ever...

Third person's P.O.V

        Taehyung just wanted to scream and tell everyone the truths... He knew everything but couldn't do anything and he hated it. Whoever he is trying to talk with is ignoring him.

Jungkook was drowned inside his professional fake smile which he was showing everyone while his inside was bleeding..... His mind was blank just thinking if he should kill himself. It's the only option he could see to end the pain he's feeling.... He never understand his feelings and now when he understood..... He already lost everything.

Jimin was two much skilled with his powers to plaster his face with fake smile and hide his own feelings. He loved Jungkook for years.. First understood his feeling when Jungkook got a fever,Jungkook was 14 and he was 16....Jimin tried to confess his feelings when he was 18 but never did it as he seen Jungkook kissing a girl that day.

Jimin's heart broke into pieces, he cried all day, he threw away the flowers he bought for Jungkook and tried to forget his feelings.... But it was never possible... With time his feelings got more and more stronger for Jungkook.

Still he hoped Jungkook loves him and just naive to realise... But Jimin's every hopes got crushed everytime by Jungkook himself... Jimin spent numerous nights without sleeping... Crying in his pillow.. The times when he thought he's forgetting about his love for Jungkook... the next moment Jungkook unknowingly gave him hopes and again Jimin jumped on his imaginations of Jungkook loving him.

       Jin didn't know if he is happy for Jimin or not. He always thought there was something between Jimin and Jungkook. But his thoughts suddenly got hit with the reality.. That Jimin has a girlfriend. Everyone knew Rose had feelings for Jimin but no-one thought Jimin has too.

Namjoon was to disturbed with the situation. It was all going out of his calculation. He clearly saw how much tension Jungkook and Jimin always held between them... Jimin being with someone else seemed impossible for him.

Hoseok always thought Jimin and Jungkook are secretly with each other but the shock he got was too much to handle.

Yoongi was clearly pissed at the childish behavior of Jimin and Jungkook. He knows them from their childhood  as he attended the same orphan with them. He always saw how the two boys always went through everything together, always showed affection to each other,....and nothing was like just a best friend culture between them ever..
A blind person can tell how they always had the boyfriends aurora around them and still has. Yoongi knew how much desperate Jungkook can go for Jimin and same goes for Jimin.... Then why are they acting like this?
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" Happy Birthday Jungkook!!! ",
Everyone screamed in unison as Jungkook opened the champagne bottle starting the official birthday party.

But for the birthday boy it  was no where near being a HAPPY  birthday... Most likely the worst one... After years he is again remembering about his parents..... He never got the chance to miss them as Jimin was always with him saying he's here and Jungkook knew he has Jimin, his Jimin ,his only family........... He never felt like an orphan with Jimin always being with him........
........but now Jungkook felt all alone, he felt abandoned, felt helpless, felt left out...... He felt like an orphan... Cause his only family, his Jimin gave up on him.

Everyone was busy enjoying the party while Jungkook was busy stating at his lost diamond from across. Little did he knew his lost diamond is feeling the same... Even worse inside him.

" You are happy with her Jiminshi.. Can't I be she?  ..can't I be the person you will show the world and say... 'he's my beautiful baby, my
boyfriend ',,,,,the same way you said about her? ",
Jungkook was mumbling all these under his breath as many people's surrounded him, gave him all the attention but he didn't care.

The person he wanted the attention from is now looked happy with anyone else.

" I hope you are happy kookie... Your smile is all I want to see.... Please hate me... Push me away... Then one-day forget about me.... But I'll still be yours even after my death... ",
Jimin said under his breath as he looked at Jung from afar.

Jungkook couldn't hold it anymore as he ran upstairs Finding his room. Tears were already streaming down his face as he ran like a child... Sobbing loudly... Same like when he got the news of his parents death ...felt the same pain of being abandoned.
Soon after he found a room which has his nameplate on the door. As he entered the room he fell on the floor crying after locking the door.

Loud sobs left his mouth as he recalled his memories with Jimin, the memories he wants to replay again.. The chances he loose to be with his Jimin... If he understood a little sooner this day would have never been like this... Jimin could have been in his arms...he could have kissed his Jimin infront of everyone... Could have told everyone that Jimin is his... His lover, his world....

With every though Jungkook's sobs got louder and louder . He punched the floor numerous times while crying.. He wanted to just kill himself.. He blamed himself... For his own mistakes... If he could  realized sooner....
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Jimin was getting suffocated as he wanted to cry but couldn't ... He couldn't see Jungkook anywhere and knowing Jungkook he expected that he must having fun somewhere.... After all its his birthday.... Being with him in his bed was most of the person in the party looked for. Jimin ran upstairs without Catching anyone's attention .

As Jimin stepped on the private floor it was all silent. No one was allowed to come there except his friends, him and his Jungkook.

Jimin slowly walked to his room as tears were beaming down his eyes knowing that he officially lost Jungkook today. He looked at the room he decorated specially for Jungkook ,keeping every features Jungkook wanted in his bedroom..

Jimin stopped in front of Jungkook's room touching the door... He didn't know if Jungkook was there or not but he still wanted to knock.... But stopped when he remembered Jungkook can be there with anyone... The thought made him sob as he rushed to his room which was right beside Jungkook's room.

Jimin locked the room before falling beside the bed while crying silently.

Between the two lovers there was a single soundproof wall separating them.

Two lovers were hurting for same reason without knowing the truths......

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