🌙 all the traumatic shit that happened last chapter but from eren's pov + what happened after. i cried writing this so if u cry whoopsie

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Eren opens up his drawers and hands you a pair of sweats and a t-shirt and then plops down on the bed face down.

He was gonna sleep so good tonight. You literally sucked the life out of him and he was drained. His whole body felt relaxed.

He feels you sit on him and run your hands along his bare back, softly scratching it. Now you were really about to put him to sleep.

And almost like you read his mind..

"Damn. I put you to sleep?" You tease, moving hair out of his face. He chuckles softly. "Something like that."

He feels you drag your fingers along his back making shapes and what he assumes is your name with a heart.

"Hey. You better not fall asleep on me. You promised me snacks and a movie, remember?" You say, shaking him.

He groans. "Just a little nap." You hop off his back and lay down beside him. "No, come on." You say brushing more hair out his face.

"I just nutted. My body needs to recover." He defends. "Well I didn't so I'm wide awake." You reply back, bitterness in your voice.

He laughs. He did feel bad you didn't get to cum but it wasn't his fault. It was your period. If it was up to him, he would've made you cum a million times.

He notices you're a little jealous and he smiles. "Don't worry. I'm gonna fuck your brains out the second I get the chance." He reassures you.

He watches your frown turn into a smile and a giggle escapes your lips. "Promise?" He sticks his pinky out and you link it with his. "Promise."

You hop off the bed and tell him you're gonna go get snacks and that he better be awake by the time you come back. "Yeah, yeah." He says switching the TV on.

His phone vibrates and he lifts it up and sees he has a message from Armin.

Armeen

Armin: hey, have you talked to Mikasa?

Eren: no. why?

Armin: oh. she's been really sad lately and i was wondering if you knew what was up. It's pretty bad.

Eren has known Mikasa forever so it's obvious he cares for her. Even though he doesn't ever act like it.

He figured she was probably sad about him and part of him almost felt bad.

You return back and set your stuff down but he continues to text Armin and doesn't notice you giving him an annoyed look.

Armin: just shoot her a text and ask her if she's okay, alright? maybe she'll tell you

Eren: fine.

Eren sighs and goes to Mikasa's contact name and texts her.

Mikaka

Eren: hey, you good?

"Hello?!" You shout waving a hand in front of him. He lifts his head up. "What?"

"I've been talking to you this whole time." You respond. "Oh. Sorry." He says setting his phone down face down.

He didn't mean anything bad by setting down his phone face down but he knew if he had it face up that Mikasa's name would pop up once she replied and there was a chance you would see it.

It's not like he was hiding anything or doing anything wrong. He was just checking up her because Armin asked him too.

But he still didn't want you to see it because knowing you and your anxiety and horrible habit of overthinking everything, you would immediately start going crazy.

To make things worse, you're on your period so your emotions are everywhere and you're more sensitive than usual. Not to mention it's also your dad's two year anniversary.

You had a long, eventual day already. You went to your dad's grave for the first time. Ran into your mom who you haven't seen nor spoken to in forever. Saw your old house which probably brought up so many memories. Argued with them at dinner.

He really didn't want to add more stress to you than you already had. He wanted to make you feel better, not worse.

"So which one between these two?" You ask him. He looks up at the screen and sees Superbad and Scott Pilgrim vs The World.

He points at Superbad and you click on the movie. His phone vibrates again and he picks up and sees Mikasa replied.

Mikasa: yeah. i'm fine.

Eren: don't lie if something is wrong tell me. Armin is worried about u

Eren hears you take a deep breath and exhale. He looks at you and you face the TV but your expression looks irritated. He sets his phone down again. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." You say shoving peach rings in your mouth. He wants to laugh at you but he knows you're already mad so he think he better just keep it to himself.

"Come here." He says from his side of the bed. He lifts his arm up so you can cuddle up beside him.

He assumes you're mentally drained after the day you had and need a hug. You hesitate at first but scoot closer to him in which he wraps his arm around you.

He loved the feeling of having you in his arms. It was quite literally like having the whole world in his hands.

You smell like lavender and it makes even feel even more at ease. He wished you came over more often. That you slept here more often. He was gonna make sure to remind himself to ask you to do it more now.

His phone vibrates again and he feels bad picking it up since he's spending time with you but he needs to figure out what's going on with Mikasa so he can tell Armin and he can fix it because there was no way he was going to.

Mikasa: I don't feel like typing it all out

Eren: ok well i need to know

Mikasa: wanna meet up?

Eren: can't rn

Mikasa: ok. tomorrow?

Eren: fine

He was replying to her as quick as possible so he can finish the conversation finally and return all his attention back to you.

He turns to you and you're watching the movie and eating snacks. He studies your face as he sees you look fine but like there's something bothering you.

He doesn't even wanna ask because he doesn't know how you'll react or if it'll make things worse so he just sets his phone down and begins to eat snacks with you and watch the movie.

The more the movie played, the sleepier he got. He felt his eyes closing and he turns to you and sees you doing the same which he takes it as an okay to go to sleep.

He gets comfortable and closes his eyes, his body immediately shutting down. He hears you mumble something but doesn't understand it because he's half asleep. "Mmhm."

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The next morning, Eren wakes up to a pillow smacking him in the face. He jumps up agitated and confused.

"Idiot! I told you set an alarm!" He hears you yell.

Aint no way shes yelling this loud this early in the morning.

Eren rubs at his eyes and wipes some drool off his cheek. "What? No you didn't."

He doesn't recall you telling him that atleast.

Ohhhh, so that's what she said last night. Whoops.

"Ugh! Yes I did!" You change back into your clothes and grab your stuff. "Hurry up, I'm already late for work."

Eren groans after you toss his jeans at him and he throws them back on the ground. He lays down again. "Why can't you just stay here?"

He tries to convince you to just call in or even quit and that he'll pay for your classes but you're stubborn and don't take up the offer.

He gives up and stands up as he over exaggeratingly yawns and stretches. He ties up his hair and slips a shirt on, not even bothering to get out his sweats. "Okay, fine let's go."

He follows you down the steps and slips his shoes on once he's at the bottom and grabs his jacket.

Eren tries to drive fast to the school to get you there as quick as possible. You race out the car to your dorm to change and he waits outside for you.

When you walk out, he can tell you weren't expecting him to still be here when you look at him confused. "You haven't gone home yet?" You say speed walking down the hall.

"No. I have class soon so might as well stay here." He replies trying to catch up with you. It's true he did have class but not until 11 so he still had two whole hours since it was barley about to be 9.

Normally, he would've gone home and went back to sleep. Those two extra hours would've been amazing.

But he wanted to get the Mikasa thing over already and he figured it would be best to do it while you're at work just in case you wanna hang later.

He walks behind you as you run into Brew N Bake and spew out curse words. "Shit, Shit, Shit!"

You pause out of breath once you're inside. "Oh my god, Floch. I'm so, so, so sorry you had to open by yourself."

"It's no big deal." Floch says. "Hey Jaeger." Eren gives him a head nod and sits down on one of the stools.

He whips out his phone and texts Mikasa.

Eren: hey, i'm at the school. You free?

"You...covered for me?" He hears you ask Floch.

Eren notices Floch turn bright pink. "Well, yeah. You're never late so I figured something happened. It's not a big deal though."

Eren narrows his eyes at Floch. Does he.. have a crush on her? He wouldn't be surprised if he did. You're gorgeous after all. "That's awfully nice of you."

"Shut up." You tell Eren as you walk up to Floch and put your hand on his shoulder. "Thank you Floch. I owe you one for real."

Eren's phone vibrates again once Mikasa replies.

Mikasa: I have class. Come by later?

He lets out a deep sigh. He could've just stayed home and slept after dropping you off. He looks at the time and sees that he can still get a good amount in. "Okay well I'm gonna go now." He says hopping off the stool.

He smiles at you and then begins walking out the door before he turns around and says, "Don't go flirting with my girl Floch."

He didn't really see Floch as a threat so he was partially just joking. He didn't really see anyone as a threat. Not even Jean anymore cause he knew you hated him with a passion now and that there was no way he had a chance with you again.

Eren returns home and kicks his shoes off before plopping into bed. It was strange how much bigger the bed felt without you now. He was so used to sleeping alone so he found it weird that this time the side of the bed you slept on felt lonelier than usual.

He rolls over to that side and rests his head on the pillow you used. It smells just like you and he smiles. It kinda felt like you were still right there.

He realizes he didn't even hug you goodbye. Just smiled. But he's still not use to it. It's sorta awkward.

Do the two of you hug or kiss bye now? Or is that a wait till it's official thing? He has no idea.

The fact that you're not a hug kind of person made him stress out even more. But then again, you never really complain when he touches you.

You were the first girl he's ever liked. The first girl he wanted to date and take seriously. He's never had a girlfriend so he doesn't know the rules to relationships. It made him feel like a kid all over again.

Eren sets an alarm and then before he knows it, he's fast asleep.

He wakes up an hour and a half later to his alarm and he gets up and heads to school for class.

He gets out at 12:45 and starts walking to his math class that starts at 1:15. Since he has a little bit of free time, he decides to take the long route.

He passes by Brew N Bake and sees you at the register smiling and laughing with a customer. He can't help but smile looking at you. Your smile was contagious to him.

"Jaeger! What's up, bro?" Eren hears a voice call. He turns and sees Samuel, a guy he knew back in high school and who he also occasionally sees at parties here and there.

"Yo." Eren says back. "Who you checking out?" Samuel grins. He must've caught Eren admiring you and how he was smiling.

Eren nods to your direction. "Her."

Samuel looks at you. "Damn. She's bad as fuck." Eren glares at the boy. "I know."

Samuel notices Eren's look and laughs. "That's your girl or something? Never thought I'd see the day." Eren turns away from him and looks back at you. "Shut up."

Samuel looks at you now too. "I always thought you were gonna end up with Mikasa for some reason." Eren snorts. "Why?"

"I don't know, she seemed like the only one who had even the slightest chance I guess." Samuel admits. It's quiet for a moment as the two look at you through the glass window.

"I see why you chose her though. She's hot as-" Sam starts but Eren stops him by putting his large hand on his shoulder. "Stop talking."

He walks away and heads to his class. About an hour and a half later, he's finally out and done for the day. He looks at his phone to check the time and it's now 2:46pm.

He also has a message from Armin.

Armin: did she tell you?

He completely forgot about that.

Eren: no but i'm gonna meet up with her in person later

Armin: ohhhh okay let me know what happens :)

Eren sighs and goes to text Mikasa since he's now done with classes and has the rest of the day off.

Eren: i'm out of class. ready?

Mikasa: srry im running errands rn but i'll be free about 6/6:30?

Eren: ok

He decides he's just gonna go pick up some food from somewhere and eat at home while he watches TV or he might even get on the game.

After driving around for a while trying to figure out what he wanted to eat, he finally arrived home. He ate, cleaned up his room a bit and then hopped on Valorant. Luckily, the guys were online at the same time.

Before he knows it, Mikasa texts him at 6:23 and tells him she just got home and is too tired to go anywhere so can they just talk at her place.

He's too tired to argue and just wants to get it the hell over it so he agrees. He gets up and makes his way over there.

Once he arrives to the dorms, he heads up to the third floor and walks down the hall to Mikasa's room.

He stands in front of her door and sighs. He really didn't want to do this. He already knew what she was gonna say. He was mostly doing it for Armin.

He texts her that he's outside but she doesn't answer so he ends up knocking. He sticks his hands in the pockets of his jacket as he waits for her to open up.

She finally does and she smiles. "You came." Eren frowns. "No shit. I said I was coming, didn't I?"

She rolls her eyes. "I'm just surprised you care enough to even check up on me." A smile still rests on her face. Why the hell is she smiling so much? Wasn't she supposed super sad and shit?

"Well, Armin told me to. He was worried about you because you won't tell him what's wrong so he figured you'd tell me." Eren clears up.

Mikasa bats her eyes and pulls Eren's hands out of his pocket. "You're not the type to do something just because someone tells you to. You do it cause you want to."

She starts giving his hand a slight tug indicating for him to follow her into his room. He was starting to feel uneasy.

He stands his ground and doesn't budge. Narrowing his eyes at her. She seemed way too good in a mood compared to how Armin described her. Something was up.

Mikasa rests a hand on his chest and looks up at him. "Come on, just admit you still care about me. You were worried."

"We've been friends since diapers. Of course I'd be worried but you seem fine so I'm gonna go." Eren says about to turn away but she grabs his arm again.

She continues to feel his chest. "I'm not fine. I've been feeling like shit lately. I feel so lonely." Eren sighs.

"Don't forget I was there for you when you were lonely." Mikasa reminds him. She steps closer to him. "Since day one. I was always there. Catering to your every need."

She flicks her eyes up to him. "You owe me." Eren stares at her. She smiles and tugs on his arm again but this time he gives in and follows into the room.

The door closes behind him and he instantly feels a wave of guilt. He knew he wasn't doing anything wrong or planning to do anything other than just talk to her but somehow it felt wrong even being here.

Eren sets his phone down on the kitchen table and he stands in the living room. Mikasa frowns. "Let's talk in my room."

Eren takes a seat on the couch. "No." She crosses her arms. "Why not? You used to loveeee being in my room."

He kicks his feet up on the coffee table. "Okay, not anymore." She walks over to him and stands in front of him. "You have a girlfriend now or something?"

Eren then sits up, unable to hide his irritation. "Mikasa, is there something wrong with you or not? I came here for one reason only."

Mikasa rolls her eyes and sits by him on the couch. A little too close.

"Yes. There is. I told you I feel lonely." She explains. "Okay? Lonely how? I'm sure you can get any guy to fill your needs. Like Jean. I'm sure he'd love to." Eren snorts. "Again."

Her face grows annoyed. "I don't want anyone else." She scoots even closer to him and plays with his hair. A thing she knows he loves and has a weak spot for. "I only want you."

Eren looks at her. "Why?" She tilts her head to the side, giving him a seductive look, her fingers still in his hair. "You know why."

Eren shakes his head. "Mikasa, we can't keep doing this anymore. I-" Mikasa brings a finger to his lips. She gets up and sit onto his lap. "Come on."

"Get off Mikasa." Eren warns. She laughs. "You can easily push me off, you know?" She leans forward and whispers in his ear. "You haven't because you don't want to."

Eren stays frozen for a moment. Was that true? Did he really not want her to get off?

Eren had a very high sex drive. Hence why he had a bunch of sex. But for the longest already, he hasn't with anyone. All because he was falling for you.

You were the only one he wanted to have sex with but everytime he tried to, something always happened. He barely kissed you for the second time ever yesterday.

He didn't want to rush you but it was killing him. He was sexually frustrated out of his mind. All he thought about was bending you over all the time.

You.

That's when it hit him. Yes, he's sexually frustrated but having sex with Mikasa isn't gonna make him feel any better. Having sex with anyone period.

He knew he wasn't gonna be satisfied with anyone if it wasn't you. He could try to fill the void but it would never work. Now he gets how Jean feels about Mikasa.

Eren feels Mikasa plant a kiss on his neck leaving a dark red lipstick kiss in its place and he pushes her off. "Are you deaf?"

He gets up and walks over to the kitchen. He grabs a napkin and runs it through the faucet water. He then rubs at the stain in hopes it all comes off.

Mikasa remains where she landed in shock. "Are you serious right now? Didn't you come here to make me feel better?"

Eren gives her a stupid look. "I came to check up on you. Not have sex with you." He throws the napkin away and fixes his jacket. "I really hope you didn't lie to Armin and make it seem like you were depressed just so he could be worried and tell me to come over here."

Mikasa checks her phone and her eyes grow wider. "Uh, hey. Let me show you something really quick."

She rushes over to him and grabs his arm. He defies it at first but she tugs harder. "I'm not gonna try anything, alright? Chill."

He follows her into the room and she closes the door. "I went to my parents' house earlier and found this old video from my 6th birthday. You come out in it." She smiles holding up an old video camera.

Eren looks uninterested and she sighs. "Your parents come out in it." His heart drops. "Let me see."

She sits on the bed and pats the spot next to her. He rolls his eyes and sits by her as she switches the camera on.

"Wait. It's better with earphones. The camera is old so the audio isn't too great." She whips out her wired earphones and connects it into the camera.

The video begins to play and it shows little Mikasa standing behind her pink birthday cake, little Eren to her left and little Armin to her right.

"Say hi!" Mikasa's mom sings. Armin and Mikasa wave while Eren groans. "Can we eat the cake already?"

"Eren! Wait, Mikasa still has to blow out the candles." A voice says. Present Eren's eyes immediately well up with tears. His heart ached.

Mikasa's mom points the camera to Carla. Carla laughs and shakes her head. "He gets hangry, sorry."

Eren brings his finger to the screen and touches where his mother's face is.

He refused to look at pictures of them. All the ones at the house he walks past them without making eye contact. If he saw some on his phone, he'd scroll right past. He didn't like the way it made him feel.

So this is the first time in a very long while he's actually seen her face. He almost forgot how beautiful she was.

The camera then points to Grisha who shrugs. "He gets it from me sadly." He laughs. All three of them laugh and the camera goes back to the kids.

Mikasa blows out her candles after everyone sings happy birthday. Everyone claps and Eren grabs a plate from the table. "Now can I eat some, mom?"

"Wait, Eren! Stop being rude." Carla warns. He whines and stops his feet. "But she blew them out like you said!"

Eren laughs as the baby verison of himself and his mom continue to argue. He missed the sound of her getting after him even though he used to always find it annoying.

The video ends and he takes out the earphones. "Thanks." He says clearing his throat. He stands up and Mikasa grabs his arm. "Wait. You're just gonna leave?"

Eren frowns. "Yeah. I told you I came to check up on you and I did that." She sets the camera down. "There's more videos if you wanna see them."

He shakes his head. "No, thanks though. It was nice to hear her voice again."

He reaches for the doorknob. "You know this is stuff she can't give you." Mikasa speaks. Eren turns to look at her, brows furrowed. "Huh?"

"This." She holds up the camera. "You and me have memories together. A lot."

"So?" Eren argues. "So. I actually know you. I watched you grow up. I know your family, they know me. I knew your mom. I knew your dad. They loved me." She argues back.

Eren felt himself starting to get angry. "Stop."

Mikasa stands up and smiles. "Even your mom wanted you to end up with me. She would say it all the time remember?"

Eren turns away from her and faces the door. He was getting pissed and didn't want to look at her. She got closer to him and kept going. "She would even call me her daughter in law."

His breathing gets harder. He had to leave. He was gonna explode.

"Everyone else says it too. You and me were supposed to end up together. We're end game, Eren. Everyone knows it. Our friends know it. My family knows it. So did yours." She continues.

"Don't you think it'd make your mom happy?" Mikasa asks. Then Eren snaps. He punches a hole straight through Mikasa's door causing her to flinch.

"I told you to fucking stop." He says taking his fist out the hole. He still keeps his eyes ahead. He didn't want to look at her at all.

"Okay. Sorry." She says. He takes a deep breath and opens up the door, stepping out into the living room.

"Wait!" She chases after him. "You're right. I went too far. I shouldn't have said that." Eren ignores her and grabs his phone praying that you're out of class and free to hang out right now. He just wanted to see you.

His screen lights up and he sees he has a missed call from you. Now he felt even worse.

"I'm leaving." He announces. He opens the door and before he steps out the hallway, he turns his head slightly to side eye Mikasa. "Oh and Mikasa. If this was somehow a set up, you're gonna pay for it."

She turns pale. "A setup? Why would it be a setup?" He turns forward again. "Because I know my so called 'friends'." He says before slamming the door shut.

He walks fuming down the hallway and facetimes you back but you don't answer.

He then knocks on Armin's door. He takes a while to open up but he does. "Oh.. Eren hey. What's up? Did you talk to Mikasa?"

Eren says nothing and just barges in. He grabs a water from the fridge and chugs it. "I need to use your restroom."

Before Armin can even say okay, Eren locks himself in the bathroom. He turns on the faucet and rinses his face with cold water to cry to calm him down.

He puts both hands on the ridges of the sink and looks up in the mirror, face still dripping.

[u guys know what scene this is based off ;) ]

He didn't know what to think. Either Mikasa tricked Armin until believing she was really sad so he could feel bad and convince Eren to help her or they both teamed up together.

He knew Armin was capable of manipulating up a plan so perfectly set up. He was all too good at it. And he only knows because of all the years he has known him. He has seen in first hand.

But he also doesn't think Armin would do something like that to him. They're bestfriends. But then again, Mikasa is also his bestfriend and Eren himself hasn't been the kindest to either of them.

But that shouldn't be mean they teamed up against him. Right? Not without good reason atleast.

He dries his face with a towel and steps out. He decided he was gonna play along with their game. Make it seem like he was oblivious to everything.

Armin sat at the table, his computer in front of him. "You okay?"

Eren sits with him at the table. "Yeah, she just showed me this old video of us at her 6th birthday party and my parents came out."

"Oh." Armin says closing his laptop. "I'm sorry." Eren shakes his head and takes out his phone. "It's okay. It was good to see them."

He opens up his messages and sends you a text.

My sun

Eren: my bad i'm barely seeing this i was busy

He sets his phone down while he waits for you to respond. "And Mikasa? Did she tell you what was wrong after all?" Armin asks.

"She said she's lonely." Eren responds. "Oh. And what did you say?" Armin says taking a sip out of his drink.

"Told her to suck it up and get a vibrator." Eren says dryly. Armin spits out his water and starts coughing like crazy. Eren smiles to himself. Karma.

Armin wipes his mouth. "Geez. That's kinda mean." Eren shrugs. "The hell do you want me to do? Pity fuck her? Why don't you go do it?"

Armin blinks at him. "I'm not saying that. Just saying you could've been nicer." Eren picks up his phone, annoyed of the conversation, to check if you've responded.

He's disappointed when he sees you haven't. He knows you're finished with work by now so that shouldn't be it. Knowing you you're probably taking a nap like you always do. Or maybe you're out the girls or something.

He opens up snapchat to see if you or any of them have posted anything but Sasha is with Niccolo, Connie posted a pic with his dog so that means he's visiting his family, Jean is with Reiner and Bertholdt watching some game. Everyone else hasn't posted anything.

Maybe you're with Historia, Ymir or Hitch? Maybe even Pieck?

He opens your snap and sees you posted two movie tickets. He doesn't think much of it at first if anything he's relieved that it makes sense you're not replying now cause you're watching a movie.

He slides up and asks who did you go with.

But then he finds the answer all on his own when he sees Marco posted the exact same picture from a different angle.

Really? Marco? Movies? Alone?

Eren lets out a frustrated groan. He sends you another text.

Eren: who u at the movies with

He obviously already knew who but he wanted to see if you would straight up admit it. He taps his foot impatiently as he awaits the three dots to appear but they never do.

Eren: ?

Then he hits him you're probably not gonna answer for a while because you're in the movie still.

"You okay?" Armin asks. "Yeah." Eren says. He taps his foot again as his mind races.

He knew you two weren't official but you are still his. You're his girl. He even said it this morning. So why are you going to the movies alone with Marco?

He doesn't want to be over controlling and say you can't have guy friends but come on. To the movies alone?

And Eren was fully aware that Marco had a crush on you. It was obvious.

I swear to God if he tries to make a move on her or something.

This whole having feelings for someone thing was really beating his ass. Why was he always so jealous and overprotective of you? Just like earlier with Floch. Then Samuel. Now Marco.

"Shit." Eren says rubbing his face. "God damn it. I hate this shit." Eren groans standing up and walking out the door.

He walks down the hallway debating whether he really is gonna show up at the theater or not. He doesn't wanna seem crazy or like a stalker but at the same time..

If the roles were reversed, he knows you would've showed up too and caused a scene.

He gets in his car and drives over to the theater. He has no idea when it ends or if it's even close to ending so he just waits outside, his back up against the wall.

After about 15 minutes of waiting, he sees you walk out the theater but he's surprised when he sees you come out alone.

He watches you as you take a deep breath. You looked worried or stressed. Either Marco did something or you finally saw his messages he sent you.

Only one way to find out.

"Hey."

You turn around and meet eyes with him. He expects you to look surprised or scared. Hell, even guilty but instead you look pissed.

The hell? Shouldn't I be the one mad? Not her?

He sees you turn to walk away but he grabs your arm to stop you. "Don't act like you didn't see me."

You turn back to him and give him the same amount of attitude. "Oh I saw you. I just don't want to fucking talk to you."

Okay so she is mad. But what the hell did I do? I haven't done shit.

"The fuck is your problem?" He asks, voice getting louder, no longer be able to control his anger. "You. You are my problem." You answer and try to walk away again.

He pulls you toward him once more. "The fuck? What did I do to you now?" You bark out a laugh. "Idk let's go ask Mikasa."

He steps back a little. Fuck. How the fuck did she...

"What the hell are you talking about, y/n?" You close the gap and step up to his face. "Don't act stupid. I know you were with her. In her room alone too."

His shoulders drop. How in the hell? Did someone see me go in there and they told her?

"I-" He wasn't really sure what to say. He was so confused and caught off guard. He planned to come here and get after you but instead it was the other way around.

"Don't even try to fucking deny it either. I saw it with my own eyes. I saw the way she was touching up on you and the way she pulled you in her room and you didn't even try to stop her." You go off.

There was his answer. No one saw and snitched to you. You saw yourself. But what were you doing there in the first place?

"How did you even see me go in there?" He asks. "I borrowed some notes from Armin and I went to his dorm to give them back to him and I saw everything." You say and turn away from him, leaving again.

I knew it. It was set up somehow. I knew it was too suspicious. Too planned. Way too perfectly set up.

Mikasa is smart but this was connived in a more articulated way. It had Armin written all over it. But why?

He steps in front of you. "Y/n. Stop. Nothing happened." You laugh. "Am I supposed to believe that?"

His face twists into an angry expression. He wasn't sure how much you saw but he knows it probably must've looked bad. But it made him angry that you didn't even bother to ask him, just assumed you knew what was happening. "Well maybe you shouldn't fucking jump to conclusions."

He watches your eyes get bigger and your eyebrows knit together. He can tell he triggered you with that one.

"CONCLUSIONS? I literally saw you go in there Eren! You didn't come out for hours. I called you and you didn't answer. I even knocked on the damn door and she didn't answer either. You too were clearly doing more than just talking."

He pauses. "You knocked?"

Now he knew for a fact this was Armin's handiwork. Mikasa used the earphones on him so he wouldn't hear the knock at the door.

He remembers she looked at her phone and then jumped up and brought up the video. He must've told her you were coming. It was all timed perfectly.

Now he felt bad. It definitely, definitely looked horrible. He can't imagine how you must've felt.

Seeing him go in there knowing the history. The missed call. The fact no one answered the door.

"Yeah I did. And the fact that you didn't even hear that I did just shows you were too busy doing something noisy." You snap.

Noisy? Does she actually think I would have sex with another girl after I specifically told her I wouldn't? After she literally gave me head the night before? Does she think that low of me?

He shakes his head. "Y/n. We were just talking. She asked me to come over because she wanted to talk so I went. I was gonna end things with her and tell her we can't mess around anymore."

"Talking? I'm pretty fucking sure you could hear your phone ring or even a knock on the door over some words, Eren." You cross your arms.

"Believe me or not but that's all we did. We talked." He says, his voice low. "Talked? For fucking three hours?" You laugh.

He was gonna bring up the fact that you and him talked for three hours once before but it probably wouldn't be such a good idea to compare the two.

"Yeah. Well no. I talked to her for like maybe an hour and a half and then I went to Armin's." He continues to explain. "Right." You scoff.

You turn away from him and he stops you again. "I'm being serious, y/n!" You let out a small scream of frustration. "Stop touching me!"

He lets go of your arm and sighs. "Okay." He watches as you step further from him. He couldn't stand the way you were looking at him. Like you were disgusted with him. Betrayed.

He had to convince you it wasn't what it looked like. "Look y/n. I know it looks bad as hell but I promise nothing happened."

"So you're telling me she didn't try anything?" You ask facing him again. He stays quiet for a moment.

"Well.. she did but-" He tries to explain but you interrupt him. "I fucking knew it!"

He throws his hands in the air. "I stopped her though!" He was starting to get pissed.

"Oh, shut up." You snap. "I did y/n, please believe me. I wouldn't hurt you." He pleads.

He could feel his blood start to boil. He hated that he was being called a liar for something he wasn't lying about. Getting in trouble for something he didn't even do.

"Regardless if something happened or not, you shouldn't have been in there with her. You guys literally have had sex so many times." You point out.

"No offense but you're not my girlfriend." He blurts out of anger. Fuck! Why did I say that?! Fuck, Fuck, Fuck. Fucking idiot.

You stare at him and start to cackle with laughter.

He gets chills hearing it. Aw hell. I fucked up now.

"Really?! Because you told my family I was but okay, you know what, you're so right. I'm not your girlfriend. Therefore, I'm free to do whatever the hell I want." You grin. "That's why I came on this date with Marco tonight."

"So that's who you're with tonight? Marco? A guy who literally hits on you in front of me all the damn time?" Eren asks, fuming.

You laugh hard. "Oh? Does that hurt you feelings? Hm, it is pretty messed up, huh?" You lift a finger in the air. "Not as fucked up as hanging out with your friend with benefits alone in her room for hours and not picking up your phone or answering the door though."

You were right. He knew it looked horrible. But what the hell could he do about it? He was set up! And he didn't fall for it either! He pushed her away. He wished he could just prove it to you somehow.

Eren groans and rubs at his face. "Do you want me to fucking ask her or something?! You want proof?!" You cross your arms. "Yeah actually. Do it right now."

He freezes. He didn't think you'd actually say yes. He didn't have a problem with asking Mikasa but he didn't want to for two reasons.

First off, he didn't wanna fucking talk to her after the shit she pulled. Second, if he asks, she'll know that whatever plan her and Armin cooked up together  had worked and she'd purposefully lie and say something did happen cause she knows you'll see it.

Fuck. There was really no way to prove it. You just had to believe him this time. "No. You're supposed to just believe me. You're supposed to trust me. I shouldn't have to show you proof."

You give him the stupidest look. "God, do you hear yourself right now? That is every fucking gaslighter's favorite fucking line! I'm supposed to trust you? Are you kidding? Do you know who I am? I have more trust issues than anyone I've ever met! And no offense but you have a horrible track record which isn't really helping you out much in this argument."

Now he felt even worse. He forgot about your trust issues. He knows they're bad. Not to mention you have extremely bad anxiety which was probably skyrocking at the time. Then there's the fact that you're on your period.

Fuck! What do I do?! How do I fix this shit?!

He spreads his arms out. "What the fuck do you want me to say huh y/n? That I'm sorry?"

You pull at your hair with frustration. "I don't want you to be sorry! I want you to not even do shit to even put you in this situation in the first place!"

He sighs. He didn't know what to say anymore. "Okay well, I'm sorry."

You push him. "What the fuck did I just say? I don't want to hear you say that! I'm so fucking sick and tired of people telling me sorry all the time like that's gonna change anything. Sorry doesn't fix shit! You people do such shitty things and just think sorry will make it okay."

Eren frowns. "You people? Who the hell are you comparing me with?"

You push him again. "You! You, Jean, Anthony, my friend, my mom. You guys do shitty stuff and then just say sorry like nothing. Like that's supposed just make me feel better. And then you guys make me feel crazy for not accepting it! Sorry is just a damn word!"

Eren just watches you, speechless. Completely and utterly disappointed in himself. He wanted so badly to prove he wasn't gonna be like everyone else who has hurt you. He still can. But he had no idea how to prove that he didn't hurt you the way you think he did.

"God, is there something wrong with me? Why does everyone around me fucking cheat or play me? My mom cheats on my dad and puts me through hell and just says sorry years later. Jean legit plays me and uses me to get to Mikasa and then just says a half assed weak ass sorry. Anthony cheats on me with one of my bestfriends and all either one could say was fucking sorry. I'm so damn tired of hearing that stupid fucking word!" You cry.

"But I am sorry y/n." Eren says. You push him again. "Shut the fuck up! Stop! I don't want to hear it!"

You're crying even harder now. "It's always fucking sorry. Why can't you just not do shitty things?! Then you won't have to be sorry!"

"Sorry." Eren slips out. He didn't know why that was all that he could say. He was sorry. Truly from the bottom of his heart.

But that's all he could for now. Apologize for how it looked. Apologize for how it must've made you feel. Apologize for his stupid, shitty friends.

You push him away but this time you keep pushing him again and again. "Shut up! Shut up! You're so fucking annoying. Sorry, sorry, sorry. Shut up!"

He lets you push him. He knows you need to let it out. He knows you're hurting. You push him again and again until he finally stops you.

Eren grabs your hands. "HEY." He attempts to wraps his arms around you to calm you down but you push him away again. "Stop touching me!"

There goes his question from earlier about hugging you.

The worst part about being in love with a girl with so much trauma and pain and issues is the fact that she has her guard up so high and strong defense mechanisms. All he wants to do is hug you and you won't let anyone do it.

"You're the one who's touching me! You keep fucking pushing me!" He shouts back angrily. He was so conflicted. So frustrated. How could this get any fucking worse?

"Yo Jaeger."

Eren growls and turns to the voice, a pissed expression on his face. Angry someone is interrupting them at such a time like this.

His first thought was that it was Marco and he was ready to tell him to fuck off but when his eyes register the face, his mood completely changes.

Anthony.

Or atleast what looks like Anthony. His nose looked different and Eren knows it's cause he broke it. His face looks swollen and puffy. He has small scars all over his face now too.

For some reason, his eyes looks strange too. Like he was on drugs or something. They struggled to stay still as they fluttered up and down like he was falling asleep. His jaw grinding together.

Eren's first instinct is to look at you. He knows you had to have immediately registered the voice and he knows he's right when he sees the terrified expression on your face.

You haven't even turned around yet. He knew you didn't want to.

"Remember me? You fucked me up pretty bad. Broke my nose and gave me a concussion and everything. Doctor said I'm lucky I didn't go into a coma." Anthony says, his speech slurred.

He was definitely on something.

Eren laughs. He couldn't believe this idiot actually had the balls to show up here. It must've been the drugs that gave him the confidence.

"I'll hit harder this time so you won't be so lucky." He smiles sinisterly.

Anthony returns the same smile but Eren's drops first. His eyes grow bigger when he sees what Anthony pulls out from behind him.

Anthony cocks the gun back and laughs. "You won't even get the chance to touch me. You really think I was just gonna let you get away with beating the shit out of me like that? Nah. I'm coming for revenge."

Eren pushes you behind him. He doesn't think Anthony will actually shoot. If anything he just wants to scare Eren but he stills pulls you behind him just in case he is actually that crazy.

There was no way he was gonna let you get hurt over something he did.

"How did you even know we were here?" You ask. Eren was actually curious about that too.

"You should really be careful when it comes to posting where you're at, baby. You never know who might come looking for you." Anthony answers.

So Anthony found out the same way Eren did. But he knows you don't have him on any social media because he remembers you told him you had him blocked everywhere.

So someone you still have on there told him. Maybe one of his old friends or family members? Maybe even one of your old friends. He knew they weren't good people either.

Why did she have to hang around such annoying fucking people?

"You came all the way from Marley just to come see Eren?" You ask him. "I told you." He points the gun right at Eren and shuts one eye for aim. "I'm here for revenge."

Eren wasn't scared of death. He even told you that once when you got on his motorcycle.

"I'm only gonna be this young once. Might as well have fun while I can. What's the point of life if you're not always risking it all the time?"

He wasn't scared. But if he had to choose for a way to not die it would be with a gun. He refused to go out the same way his parents did. He refused to be the punch line of some ironic dark humor joke.

He especially didn't want to die in front of you. He didn't want you to have to see yet another dead body of someone close to you.

"Wait! Please stop." You say moving out from behind Eren with your hands out. "You don't have to kill him. Just stop."

Anthony looks at you. "Shut up y/n." You step closer to him. "Do you really want to go to prison for your whole life just because you lost a fight?" You ask. "I SAID SHUT THE FUCK UP." He yells and switches the gun to face you. You flinch.

Eren yanks you back. He might have done it a little too hard but he was pissed you would even be that dumb to get in front of a gun and also scared you were gonna get hurt.

"Hey! You're here for me. Not her." Eren says bringing Anthony's attention back to him. He brings the gun back to Eren and you step in front of him again.

"Wait! Wait! He's sorry, okay? He's sorry! He was just protecting me. You're sorry right, Eren?" You turn to ask him.

He looks at you and you're begging him with your eyes to take the high road and apologize. But he had too much pride.

You got me fucked up if you think I'm gonna apologize to the last motherfucker who deserves a sorry after all he's done.

"Nah. I'm not." He responds back.

Anthony growls and points the gun higher. "Stop!" You cry. "If he's not sorry, I am! Okay? I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Please stop. I'm sorry. I'll do whatever you want just please don't shoot him, okay?"

Eren was angry but wanted to laugh at the same time. You gave a whole speech about people who say sorry and how it's meaningless because it's just a word and here you are. Saying sorry.

But he understood why. You were trying to bargain for your life. Not even for your life. For his.

You hate the word sorry so much but you're repeating it over and over just to save his life. That's how bad you didn't want to lose him.

Eren yanks you back away from the gun. "Stop being stupid." He growls at you. You pull your arm away. "I'm trying to save your fucking life, dumbass."

You turn back to face Anthony. "Look. We're sorry, okay? Just drop it."

Eren laughs. "I'm not sorry. You deserved that shit and I'll do it again. I enjoyed every second of it."

You spin around to yell at him but there's a loud bang that causes you to jump. Both of you.

This is it. He shot me.

But...

Why don't I feel anything? There's no pain.

Eren looks at Anthony who is now down on the ground. Marco and an employee sitting on top of him, pulling his arms back.

Did he... miss?

Eren looks down at his body and it's perfectly safe and clean. No blood. No wound.

He turns to look at you and you're smiling with relief. He smiles back at you but it instantly drops when he sees blood staining your shirt.

He panics and scans your body with his eyes for the wound. His mouth drops open and his eyes widen when he sees it's your stomach.

He must've gotten you when you were about to turn around to yell at Eren because it's not directly in the center of your stomach but more like the side of it. Like you must've been turning sideways when he shot.

He feels faint. How are you not screaming in pain? "No, no, no. Y/n." He watches as the blood spills out of you.

You look at him with a confused face and then follow his eyeline. You look down at your body and you watch as your white shirt get devoured in thick, red liquid. "Oh..."

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"No.." Eren breathes. You stumble backwards and touch the wound. You lift your hand up to look at it. Dark red blood coats your fingertips. "I'm...he...shot me."

Your breathing was getting slower and heavier already that when you spoke it sounded like you were out of breath. Like you just ran a marathon.

You look up at Eren, your eyes shaking rapidly. "He shot me." You have the exact same scared and frozen expression he has.

It's like looking at myself in the mirror.

"I'm calling an ambulance." The worker that was with Marco announces. "Eren! Help her!" Marco screams but it sounds a million miles away, like an echo in Eren's mind.

Why can't I move?

As soon as he saw the blood. As soon as he saw the gun shot wound. It all came swarming back to him.

The PTSD had him frozen in place in a state of shock. His mind was racing and screaming at him but his body refused to move a muscle.

Please don't die on me. I can't lose you too. I can't do this again.

Hurry up. She's gonna die. Please move. Why can't I fucking move? She's gonna fucking die. Hurry up!

"Y/n!" Anthony screams at the top of his lungs. "Fuck, get off me! I'm sorry! I meant to shoot him! Not you!" He lays under Marco still, trashing and kicking uncontrollably. "I'm sorry!"

Stop saying sorry. She hates it. Stop.

You stumble backwards some more as your legs give out on you and your body grows weak. You use the brick wall for support.

Help her. What the fuck is wrong with you?

What do I do?

Where the fuck is the ambulance? I would've gotten her to the hospital by now.

What do I do?

"Eren!" Marco screams again.

What the fuck do I do?

I don't want her to die.

Mom, what do I do?

You drop down to the floor and his heart shatters. "No, no, no, no."

The sharp pain of his heart snapped him out of his paralysis. He can move again. He rushes over to your limp body that rests on the cement.

"Hey, hey. Look at me." Eren says picking up your head from the ground. Tears run down your cheeks and he wipes one away. "You're okay, baby. Where does it hurt?"

"Everywhere." You choke out. Eren lifts up his hands and sees your blood all over them. He feels like he might pass out.

He immediately gets flashbacks of his parent's blood on his hands that dreadful day. The way he held up his mom's head just like this.

Eren presses down on the wound to try to stop the bleeding but there's already way too much. "Fuck! What do I do? Where the fuck is the ambulance?!" He shouts.

Why this again?

Why?

Why me?

It was a horrible sense of deja vu.

"Hey...It's okay." You croak. You bring your bloodly hand to rest on his cheek. Tears still leaving your eyes. He began to panic. Is she trying to say goodbye?

"Fuck this. I'm taking her." Eren says lifting you up carefully but quickly and rushing to his car with you in his arms. "Eren, stop!" Marco yells.

He gently sets you down in the passenger seat and straps your seatbelt on which was pretty stupid and ironic considering you were practically on the verge of death already.

He runs to the driver's seat and takes off as soon as the car turns on. "Fuck!" He hits the steering wheel over and over. "Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!"

He looks to the side and sees your eyes starting to close. "Hey! Don't go to sleep! Stay awake, okay?! Stay with me please. Please don't die on me."

You don't respond and your breathing gets dry and raspy like if someone's choking you.

"Fuck! It should've been me! I'm so sorry! I know you don't wanna hear it but I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Please wake up." He yells as he presses harder on the gas.

"Fuuuuuck." He starts to cry. "Y/n, if you can still hear me, I love you. I love you. I'm so in love with you. You can't die without knowing the truth. I love you, not Mikasa, not anyone else, just you."

He was driving way too fast that he wouldn't be surprised if he crashed and he was okay with it.

He thought you were gonna die and he was fine with dying with you. He didn't wanna have to go to another funeral of someone he loved anyway.

But, he doesn't crash and he makes it to the hospital safely. He carries you out the car and screams for help as he approaches the ER. The nurses bring out a stretcher and ask him what happened.

They lift you onto the stretcher and begin rolling you down the halls, Eren running along with them as he explains.

"I'm sorry, sir but this is as far as you can go." A nurse says stopping him. "No, no, no. I have to go with her. That's my girlfriend. I-I have to make sure she's okay. I can't leave her." He pleads.

"I'm terribly sorry but only staff is allowed beyond this point. We will update you as soon as possible." She says back.

"No..." Eren steps back, negative thoughts eating at his mind.

"Eren.." You say in a strained whisper and reaching for his hand before they take you away. "Tell.. my mom and dad.. I love them, o-okay?"

It sounded so painful when you spoke. He could see it was hurting you just to say a single word.

Your... Dad?

You were in the point of shock and blood loss that you were hallucinating. You were in another reality where your dad was still alive.

Fuck.

"Y/n.. your dad..." Eren starts but then rush you away from him.

Fuck.

I'm so sorry.