The next day you go to work as usual. You actually woke up in a good mood which was weird considering yesterday.

You felt well rested and ready to take on the day. Not to mention Hitch made some super yummy breakfast.

You opened up shop and began setting down the chairs and doing the rest of your opening duties. Your coworker Floch comes in just a little after you. You totally forgot you work with him today. Regardless, you're not gonna let that ruin your mood.

Once you're open, surprisingly, one of the first people to come in is Historia. She had her pretty blonde hair in a high ponytail and wore a hot pink Juicy Couture tracksuit. You were jealous how she always looked super cute even when she wasn't trying.

"Omg hey! Goodmorning y/n!" The blonde bounces in. "Hey! Feels like I haven't seen you in forever." You reply.

"Oh my gosh, I know right? I've just been so busy but we should totally hang soon!" She jumps up on one of the stools to sit at the bar. "We should. I'm in desperate need of a girls night." You sigh.

"Ugh, me too. Boy problems?" She asks while looking up at the menu. "You have no idea." You lean back on the counter and wait for her to make a decision.

"I think I'm gonna get the french vanilla iced coffee." She says finally. "'Kay." You begin making her drink when she gasps.

"Oh! Did Sasha or anyone tell you yet? We are going to go camp out at the lake this weekend! Remember the lake? There's a summer camp we all used to go to when we were kids and we rent it out sometimes!"

You pour ice into a cup and look up at her. "No, I haven't talked to her today but I'm down to go." She drums on the bar top. "You should! It's gonna be sooo much fun. We're leaving on Saturday and come back Sunday."

You finish her drink and hand it to her and she immediately takes a sip and exhales. "Ahhhhh. So good. Oh! But if you wanna have just a girls night before we go camping, what you doing tomorrow night?"

You wipe your hands on your apron. "Well, I was gonna hang out with Jean but he said he's busy so I guess nothing."

Historia makes a confused face but minds her business. "Okay, well then we should all hang out, go to the movies or something." She hops down from the stool. "Okay, yeah." You answer.

"Hi Historia." Floch says once he comes out from the back room. She cringes and looks him up and down. "Floch. Bye y/n! Text me, k?" You nod and the pretty girl skips away and out the store.

You look at Floch and laugh. Looks like you're not the only one who found him annoying.

About two hours pass by and your shift goes painfully slow. Your energy slowly decreasing little by little. You wish Sasha was working with you today because you knew she'd somehow make the time go by faster.

The shop slows down so you decide to make yourself a coffee and get on your phone. As soon as you get on it, you see you have a message from the group chat you have with the girls.

pussy poppers 🤸🏻‍♀️🥳
(can you tell Sasha named it)

historia: y/n, when u asked Jean to hang what did he say again?

y/n: ??? he said he was busy

historia: busy doing what, exactly?

y/n: don't know; didn't ask

historia: *sends pic of jean kissing a girl on the cheek*

sasha: ??? who is that

historia: some girl i have on snapchat posted it 10 min ago

ymir: 💀 well he wasn't lying he definitely is busy

mikasa: she's pretty.

historia: eh. y/n's prettier.

annie: thought u two were a thing, y/n?

historia: yeah they are that's the point

ymir: it's not official he can do what he wants

historia: shut up ymir

mikasa: that's true..

sasha: maybe they're just friends?

y/n: ymir is right, he can do whatever he wants and so can i

sasha: 😳 purrrrr

ymir: see historia, im right

historia: whatever

You were beyond pissed. The picture was him kissing the girl from the lake on the cheek. You wouldn't be surprised if she was the one he took to the fair either.

All that bullshit he fucking told you about wanting to make you his and letting the whole world know he wants you, what was that all for? If he was just gonna continue being a fucking whore, he should've just kept his mouth shut.

You were shaking. You leave to the back room and grab your jacket and scream into it. You then start punching a couple cardboard boxes.

"What the hell? Are you okay?" Floch asks peeking his head in. "Fuck off Floch!" You yell as you begin to angrily type of your phone. "Damn! Okay, geez." He backs up.

You felt so fucking stupid. You were done being nice. Subconsciously, you were trying to be this kind girl who forgave people and looked for the good in them. You were trying to be more like Sasha. You wanted so badly to forget your past and be this brand new person.

BUT FUCK THAT. You were done. Fool me once...

The old you would've never let yourself look that stupid. You let your guard down for the first time in forever and instantly regretted it. The way he was bragging about getting with you to his friends yet taking another girl out on dates. He probably bragged about her too! They were probably all laughing at you and you wouldn't even have known if you didn't drag it out of Eren.

You were fuming. You save the picture Historia sent and send it to Jean.

y/n: this is "stuff u gotta do" on friday right? you're such a piece of shit. if you're gonna lie atleast be good at it

You press send and impatiently tap your foot as you await his reply. You bite hard at your lip and accidentally bust it open but you have so much adrenaline you barely even feel the pain but you do taste the bitterness of the blood.

You see the typing bubble pop up and your heart begins to pound. You couldn't wait to see what stupid ass excuse he was gonna come up with.

He's typing and then stops. Types again, then stops. You start roaring with laughter. The crazy kind of laugh you do when you're angry and about to fuck someone's shit up. He couldn't come up with a decent excuse. You could literally see him struggling. He knew he was caught.

You're waiting and waiting and then it's hits you. FUCK THAT. You block him while he's typing so he doesn't even get a chance to say anything at all. "Shut up bitch." You say to his contact name and shove your phone back in your pocket.

You cover your face with your hands and take a deep breath to pull yourself together and get your customer service voice back on when you see customers come in. You punch a box one more time, tighten your ponytail and then step back out the front.

The rest of your shift goes fine. You try not to think too much about it because you'll only end up making yourself mad all over again. You tweet some subliminals and take your frustration out on Floch every time he messes up or says something stupid.

You have about an hour left on the job so you relax a little. Then, your anger returns all over again.

"Oh shit, hey Jean." Floch says. You spin around and see the tall boy standing awkwardly at the counter. "Oh hey. Uh, y/n, can I talk to you?" Jean says softly.

You ignore him. "Hey y/n, Jean is call-"

"I fucking know that, Floch. Do you think I'm stupid? I just don't want to talk to him." You snap. Floch shrivels into himself. "Damn. I'm guessing you have something to do with her attitude today?" He turns back to Jean.

Jean rubs the back of his neck. "Yeah...kinda. My bad bro. Do you think you can just step to the back? It's obvious she isn't gonna step outside for me." Floch nods and goes to the back.

"Y/n." Jean calls out to you. You were so glad there was a long bar top counter in between you two because you wanted to be as far as way from him as possible. You ignore him again and unbox some cups.

"Okay. It's clear you're not gonna talk to me so just listen. I know you're mad and you have every right to be. But I made those plans with her before what happened on Saturday and-" He starts.

You snap back around. "And you can't fucking cancel them?!" Customers walk in so you clear your throat and walk toward the register.

He steps in front of it so it looks like he's in line and about to order. "I could but I already had left her hanging at the fair so I felt bad."

You were right. It was the same girl. You start laughing and shake your head. "Order something or get the hell out." You threaten in a low tone for only him to hear.

"I was gonna cancel but-" He begins. "You have three seconds." You warn.

"I'm sorry she just kinda guilt tripped me and I-"

"Next!" You yell.

Jean stutters. "I wasnt done talking."

"Well, I am and you're in the way of me making money so move. Next!" You don't stutter once.

He sighs in defeat and leaves.

You didn't even realize that Levi was the one standing behind him. Cause... you know... okay, okay, I'm done.

When Levi approaches the counter, he looks at you. "Bad morning?"

"You have no idea. You heard all that?" You cringe. You begin ringing up the usual for him.

"Mmhm." He says, taking out his wallet.

He hands you the American Express card and you swipe it. "Boys are stupid." You sigh.

You begin to make his tea and when you come back with it, you hand it to him.

"You don't need to be dealing with boys like that. You're much too smart. Don't let go to waste." He says, taking a sip of the drink.

You're speechless. That was probably the nicest things he's ever said to you.

He begins walking away and you yell after him. "Enjoy the rest of your day Le- Er, Professor!"

He lifts his cup up in the air and walks out the store. Your mood was surprisingly ten times better now.

Finally, your shift comes to an end and you never clocked out so fast before for two reasons. One, you wanted to go home and rant to Hitch. Two, Jean might still be lurking around waiting for you to get out of work.

You also had class but you were in no fucking mood to pretend to care right now so you decided you were going to skip.

You speed walk to your dorm, receiving weird looks from the people you pass by but you didn't care.

You luckily don't bump into anyone you know and make it safely to your dorm and you're disappointed when you see Hitch isn't home.

You go to your room and the first thing you do is do some detective work. You go to Jean's twitter profile and then go to his following list and scroll down until you spot the blonde girl.

After a couple swipes of the thumb, you find her. Cassie. Of course her name is fucking Cassie. Her profile was just as bimboesque as her. Her bio saying "why you lurking? but since you're here, hit that follow button 😇"

You go scroll down to look at her tweets and you don't even have to go down far because she just tweeted two hours ago. "Can't wait for tomorrow night 🥰"

You stand up with a laugh. You stomp to your closet and yank out the two jackets he let you use. You peek out your window and see his car is still here so you head to the kitchen and grab a bottle of ketchup and an almost empty bag of chips that was mostly crumbs.

You run downstairs and to his car while no one is in the parking lot. You lay the two jackets on the hood of his car and begins to spray ketchup on them and dumping the bag of chips on it as well. He's either getting a shit ton of bugs or birds. Either way you were fine with it.

Then you write "bad liar" in ketchup on one side of his car and "can't keep it in his pants" on the other side.

You throw the evidence in the trash nearby and dust off your hands. He's lucky that's all he's getting. You finally understand why all those girls hated him so much.

On the way back to the dorm you bump into the one and only. Cassie. And you mean quite literally bump into her because she has her eyes to her phone not watching where she's going.

"Omg! So sorry! Wait... hey, don't I know you from somewhere?" She says.

"Nope." You say and begin walking away.

"Wait! You're one of Jean's friends right?!" She yells after you. You stop in your tracks, your back still facing her and hands forming fists.

"I remember you from the lake." She continues. You turn your head slightly to side eye her. She had a stupid smile on her face like looked like ☺️

You couldn't tell if she was good at acting dumb or if she really was just that dumb. "Yeah. I'm also the one he ditched you for at the fair." You say flatly.

She covers her mouth and walks closer to you. "Oh my god. Jean told me about that. He said your abusive ex boyfriend came and he had to save you from him right? I'm so sorry."

You were gonna lose it. Don't tell me he actually made it seem like he was the hero in the situation so this girl could forgive him for ditching her.

"Is that what he told you?" You bark out a laugh. She frowns. "Well, that's what happened, isnt it? Don't worry I won't tell anyone. He's so sweet for helping you. That's just like him." She smiles.

"Are you two dating?" You force yourself to fake a smile. "No, not yet. But he says he wants to soon! He even brags about me to his friends and says he can't wait to let everyone know I'm his. So cute right?!" She beams.

"Was that before or after he ate my pussy in the restroom just the other day?" You laugh. Her smile drops and her eyes turn cold. "You're lying."

You cackle. "I wish I was. He also didn't wash his hands after he fingered me so he could smell me on them all day. You probably kissed him right after or held that very hand."

She looks at you disgusted. "Kinda pathetic you're that jealous you had to come up with something. You're delusional. Get well soon babe."

You grit your teeth. "God, you're dumb." You step up closer to her. "Watch what you say because you already caught me in a bad mood. Would be a shame if you got your cute little face beat in before your big date tomorrow."

Her mouth drops open and she struggles to come up with something back. You could tell no one had ever talked to her in that way before. You chuckle and look her up and down. "Your shoe is untied by the way."

She looks down and her face gets red when she sees it really is untied.

You walk back to your dorm and slam the door behind you. You were so beyond frustrated and needed to let your anger out but Hitch wasn't here to vent to so you just had all this pinned up hostile energy in you. It took everything out of you not the hit that girl.

Your phone begins to ring and it's Sasha facetiming you.

"Hello?" You say once the call connects. You walk to your room and sit on the bed and you slip off your shoes.

"Hey! Has anyone told you about the camping trip?" She asks while putting on her work uniform. "Yeah. Historia came into work this morning and told me." You say bringing the phone with you to the restroom so you can shower.

"Oh, okay good! You're going, right?" She uses the her reflection in the camera to fix her ponytail.

You weren't sure if you were anymore. Jean was gonna be there for sure and you did not want to see him at all. You're pretty sure he's not gonna wanna see you either once he sees what you did to his car.

"Hey, are you okay?" Sasha asks bringing your attention back to her. "Yeah. I'm fine." She looks at the time and frowns. "Shouldn't you be in class right now, by the way?"

You sigh and turn the shower on. "Yeah. I'm not going though. I'm not in the mood." She begins exiting her apartment and walks down the stairs to her car. "Ah, so something is wrong. Spill."

You take a seat on the toilet and slide your pants off. You take a deep breath and explain everything to her. She jumps in her car and slams the door shut.

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?" She screams. She sets her phone up on the dashboard and punches her horn and it bleats loudly. "I'm gonna fucking kill him."

You finish taking off the rest of your clothes. "I just thought I should let you know especially since we're all going camping."

She stays quiet and just shakes her head as she drives. "I'm so fucking...UGHHHHHH. I'm so sorry, y/n. I knew he was a flirt but he's never ever been that bad before. It seems like he's getting worse."

You stick a hand in the shower to test the water. "Probably the whole Mikasa thing at Eren's party." You mention.

She smacks her lips. "Most likely. God I hate that he's still stuck on that! Like get over it! You think Mikasa is gonna want you when you're sticking your dick all over the place? He's only making it worse for himself."

"I'm just mad he tried to use me as a way to get over her." You say switching the temperature to a little more on the hotter side.

"Wanna know what I think? He was using you to make her jealous. And honestly? I think it worked. I've noticed she talks to him a lot more now. I caught them texting the other day he was at my place." Sasha pieces together.

You felt your heart tear. You had such high expectations for him since you met. He was such a gentleman from the start and made you feel so special and pretty but Hitch was right, that's his speciality.

"Well. I hope they end up together then so he can quit fucking with girls heads." You say trying to bring the conversation to an end so you can shower.

"Yeah. Me too. Don't worry I'm gonna get on his ass. You're still coming though, right? He's gonna be there but you don't even gotta look or talk to him." She says in a whiney voice.

You laugh. "Yeah I'll go. It'll be awkward but I'll have you guys and Eren." You freeze up. Did you really just say that?

You look at the screen and Sasha is quiet. "Eren has been different lately." She finally says.

"Has he? Didn't notice." You lie.

"Yeah.. it's so weird. He's still a little piece of shit but he's nicer and seems happier? Idk. Maybe I'm just tripping but he seems like he's going back to how he use to be." She answers.

She pulls the car in park and leans back. "Maybe he just needed some time to get over all the stuff that happened. You know get it out his system?" You suggest.

She looks out the window in deep thought.
"No I think it's something else but I can't figure out what it is. I think it's a girl."

You almost shit yourself. "A girl?" She nods and takes off her seatbelt. "Yeah. I noticed he doesn't go out with girls anymore. I was with him and Connie the other day and he never got on his phone the entire time and he's usually always texting girls. Also, Connie asked who is latest victims were and Eren said he hasn't had sex in a while that he's been grossed out by everyone."

You play with the shower curtain. "Maybe, then."

She sighs and opens the car door. "Maybe we can get some info out of him at the lake. Anyways, I'm here at work so I'll talk to you later, k?" You nod. "Bye."

After your shower, you decide to take a nap but end up sleeping way too long and waste the rest of the day in bed. Not like you had anything else to do anyway.

The next day, Friday, you don't do much. The girls night doesn't actually end up happening because everyone's schedules didn't match up. You were kinda glad though because you knew they were just going to question you about Jean.

Instead, you spend your Friday getting mani pedis with Hitch because she insisted you needed a spa day. "I'm glad I get you all to myself today because you're gonna be gone all weekend." The strawberry blonde pouts.

You were so glad you had her. You had heard so many bad stories from other people about getting room mates from hell. You and Hitch have gotten along since day one and have yet to fight about anything.

Yet.

After the spa day, you guys go home and do mud masks and eat cookie dough ice cream, drink wine and watch romcoms and talk shit about how men like that don't actually exist. The two of you practically pass out on the couch together after the third movie. And that was your Friday.

The next morning you wake up, it's officially camping day. You had no idea what to pack or even how much to pack.

You pack a swimsuit just in case because obviously at some point you're gonna get in the lake. You pack a sweater in case it's cold, some sweats to sleep in and some casual clothes just to hang around in. You throw in a hat and sneakers too.

You really wondered what exactly you were going to do there. I mean, what else was there to do besides go in the lake?

You never went to summer camp before so you don't even know how a camp looks like to begin with besides what you've seen on TV or movies.

You laugh a little when you think about how many horror movies start off like this. A bunch of teens/young adults going camping by a lake and spending a weekend there. The chances of anyone dying are slim. Unless Jean pisses you off again.

Once you're done packing, you facetime Sasha and she seems to be doing a million things at once. "We're taking this big ass bus that I have at my family's farm. It's a school bus that we painted and wrote all over in high school. It's the only thing that will fit all us."

"A bus?" You laugh. "Yeah, Connie and Eren stole it as a senior prank and got in so much trouble with the police but Eren's parents paid everything off so we got to keep it." She says.

Of course. It does not surprise you at all that those two did something like that.

"It's at my parents house so we are all just meeting up there, I'll send you the address, okay?" She says before hanging up.

You were hoping you weren't gonna have to drive because you hated driving to places you've never been because your sense of direction was terrible.

It's even worse when Sasha drops the pin and you see that it's wayyyy out in the country side.

You sigh and toss your bag over your shoulder. You wave bye to Hitch and make your way to the car and after a good 45 minutes and hitting a million potholes, you make it to Sasha's childhood home. You wouldn't be surprised if you had to visit the car shop soon because your car was making some questionable noises now.

Sasha's parents house was way out in the country surrounded by tons of land and trees. They had all kinds of animals from horses, chickens, pigs etc. Sasha's slight country accent made so much sense now.

You park your car and you're astonished when you see it's quite literally an actual school bus.

The bright yellow bus sat perfectly in the sun, covered in graffiti and pictures. You walk closer and see that there's even more stuff inside too.

You see phrases like 'Jaeger sucks dick' and 'Sasha's soul lives here forever" written along the outside of the bus.

There's doodles everywhere and cuss words all over the place. Definitely the work of some high schoolers.

Sasha steps down from the bus and waves at you. "Pretty cool, huh?" She places her hands on her hips and admires the bus in it's entirety like if it's the most incredible thing she's ever seen. "A lot of memories in this thing."

Armin pops out from the bus and hands you a box of colorful sharpie markers. "Can't ride it if you don't write your name on it somewhere." He smiles.

You laugh and climb up on the bus. It was actually pretty fucking cool inside. They had added LED lights and there was velvet curtains, a long fuzzy wine colored carpet down the center walk way, a pair of dice hanging from the drivers rear view mirror, a naked hula girl on the dashboard, and some of the seats were replaced with tables. It was like a homemade party bus.

"Holy shit this thing is actually insanely cool." You say in awe.

"It took us an entire summer to do all of it. Bertholdt was honestly the mastermind. He's really good at architecture and stuff so he made a blue print and we made it happen. The girls did the decorating while the guys did the whole taking out the seats and adding tables." Sasha answers.

You look around and see all the different things on the walls. You see a self portrait of Connie, song lyrics, a massive drawing of a dick, polaroid pictures that were stuck to the walls with chewing gum, Historia's name in pink with hearts all around it, Long Live Eren Jaeger in green and a drawing of a crown on top, and so many other things.

You search from an empty spot and when you finally find one, you sit in front of it and try to figure out how exactly you're gonna write your name. You want it big enough for everyone to see it.

You look around and notice that the bus has a groovy vibe to it so you end up drawing a massive lava lamp in a purple color, with blue as the lava and write your name at the base.

[don't judge my drawing LOL i did it with my fingers bye just pretend it's neater and actually pretty]

"Whoaaaa, that looks dope!" Sasha coos. "Thanks!" You say standing up. When you stand up too fast, you end up dropping one of the markers so you have to crouch down under a table to pick up and you accidentally hit your head.

"Ow, fuck!" You hiss as you rub at your head. You look up from underneath the table and see the initials J+M with a heart.

You stand back up and dust off your jeans. "Picture time!" Historia cheers. She has a baby blue polaroid camera with cute stickers on it in her hands and a pack of Bubbalicious gum in the other.

"Wait, right now?" You ask. "Yes! Everyone has their picture somewhere on here." She brings the camera to her eye. "Pose!"

You sit on top of the very table you hit your head on and bring your knees to your chest, crossing your ankles together and making a peace sign. She snaps the picture and begins to shake it.

"It's gonna be super cute!" She dances. Sasha cheers her on by singing the "shake it, sha-sha-shake it like a polaroid picture" part of Hey Ya! by Outkast.

Once it's done developing, the two girls squeal. "Omg you look so adorable y/n!" Historia passes you the pack of gum and you pop one into your mouth.

Once you've chewed it pretty well, you take it between your fingers and look for a place to put your picture. "Stick it here." Armin points at a drawing of the sun and you smack your photo right in the middle.

"Sorry to whoever's sun drawing that was." You laugh. All four of you head out the bus and see everyone arriving. You see Jean's car, surprisingly ketchup free, pull up and you can't hide your bitterness. You wanted to be as far away from him as possible.

You look around and see where exactly you can go to be away from him and your first thought is inside the bus but everyone goes in there to set their bags in. You look at the very top of the bus and start laughing. "Nobodies finding me up there." You say to yourself.

You climb the bus from the front and your dumb ass, of course, scrapes your knee when you try to speed up when you see Jean fast approaching but you finally make it up there.

The view from up there was nice. You could see the trees that stretched for miles and miles. You saw the horses that galloped. You saw the small pond Sasha's parents had in the backyard. It seemed like such a beautiful to grow up in. Explains why she's so down to earth and humble.

Luckily, no one has a clue you're up there and you take it as an opportunity to enjoy your alone time. You were gonna spend the whole weekend in cabins with them where you highly doubt privacy will be an option, especially with this friend group.

You watch Jean as he greets everyone and jumps on the bus to set his bag down. The next car to arrive is Marco, followed by Reiner, Mikasa, Connie, Ymir, Bertholdt, Annie and then finally Niccolo. You were surprised Eren wasn't anywhere to be found. You wonder if he was even planning on coming. You kinda just assumed he would considering everyone else was.

You felt a pang of disappointment. You cross your legs and pull out your phone to text him when you hear the sound of another car pull up. You couldn't help but smile.

The signature jet black man bun pops out from the driver seat with a nike duffel bag hanging from his shoulder. No one even notices him yet because they're too busy setting their stuff inside the bus. You take this as an opportunity.

"Hey Jaeger!" You yell from on top of the colorful bus. He looks up at you, shielding his gorgeous emerald eyes with his rough hands protecting them from the sun. He walks toward you. "How did the hell did you get up there?" He asks.

You shrug. "I have my ways." He chuckles and begins to climb the bus to join you. You notice his hands are wrapped up again. This time much neater so you can tell he's been practicing.

"Hey, it's actually easier over here." You state pointing at the opposite end of the bus. He climbs up his way anyways like nothing and ignores you. "Or not." You say as you move a strand of hair out of your lipgloss.

He holds out his hands and they're all dark and dirty from climbing the bus. He wipes it off on his pants. You crinkle your nose in disgust.

He rolls his eyes when he notices your face. "Don't be a baby. We're in the woods, you're gonna get real dirty here anyways. Get used to it." Allure dripping from his voice. You scoff and look away from him. You weren't really sure what to say. For the first time ever, you were nervous around him for some reason.

"How have things been?" He says once he realizes you weren't gonna respond. "You would know if you actually talked to me." You laugh.

He frowns. "I do." You turn your head and return the same facial expression. "Barely. If I didn't just call you over here right now, we probably wouldn't have talked this whole trip."

"That's not true." You can see him getting a little angry. But it was true, the two of you never spoke after the water park and didn't talk until Wednesday night when you bumped into him and didn't speak after that either. You guys never text, never call, nothing. "Okay, talk to me then. This whole trip. Don't pussy out."

That comment actually gets him angry. "Shut up." He says looking away from you. You shrug. "Or not, see if I care." You say jumping off the bus, hurting your ankle a little but you choose not too show it to keep the illusion of your dramatic exit.

Eren surprisingly jumps down after you and begins to walk behind you but stops once he sees Sasha and Historia approaching you and walks away.

"Jean is looking for you." Historia whispers. "I don't care." You say in a normal tone. You wanted it known.

Ymir approaches and crosses her arms. "He still went on that date even after you went off on him. I saw them together."

You shrug. "Like I said, he can do what he wants. He wants to be a whore, so be it."

Ymir laughs and Historia and Sasha exchange worried looks like they weren't fully convinced. But it was the truth. Yes, it hurt you. Yes, you were angry. But you got it all out your system.

You threw you tantrum at work. You went off on him. You acted coldly toward him when he came to see you. You vented to Hitch and Sasha. To top it all off, you even had a spa day. You weren't angry anymore.

Did you still feel stupid for even letting it get that far? Yes. But no point in dwelling on the past. He wants to be a dick, you can be an even bigger one. He wants to pretend you don't exist around other people, you can too.

Reiner, who you assume is the one who is gonna be driving, sticks his head out the bus doors and tells everyone to get on already.

You take a deep breath before going in just because you already know what's waiting for you. At the first seats are Jean, Connie and Marco. Jean looks at you with sad eyes and like he wants to say something but you keep looking forward like you didn't even notice he was there.

You walk all the way to the back where your picture was and sit there. Everyone else was either in the front or the middle. Historia, Annie, Bertholdt and Ymir sat across from the three boys in the front.

Eren sat with Mikasa and Armin in the middle section. Sasha and Niccolo followed you to the back.

Sasha carried the box of markers with her and set it down on the table in front of you. "I stole these so we can color." She giggles like a child.

You begin mixing through the box to find a good color when you feel a pair of eyes on you and you automatically assume it's Jean so you look up with a bitchy expression, ready to give the stank eye.

Your eyes soften once you realize who it really is. Eren looks at you and then stands up and makes his way to the back. Mikasa and Armin turn their necks in confusion since they were mid conversation with him and he just got up without saying anything at all.

He sits beside you and says nothing but begins to also look through the box. "You wanted to color too?" Sasha grins. He chuckles. "Something like that." He turns to Niccolo. "Congrats on the win, bro. Nothing but big moves from here on out huh?"

Niccolo smiles big. "Thanks! Yeah, I start Monday. I'm pretty excited. You guys are welcome to go anytime."

Eren elbows you. "Let's go."

You were in the middle of drawing the yin and yang symbol. "Like, together?" You ask looking up.

"No shit." He says biting the cap off a marker. You look at Sasha who is too busy drawing something to even pay attention. "Okay, sure."

"Cool." He begins to look around for a spot to draw something when he frowns. "Hey. That was my sun." He points at your photo that was now stuck to the wall. "Whoops, my bad." You laugh.

He bends down to look at the photo clearer and he smiles. "Looks kinda like you're saying she's your sun." Nic laughs.

You didn't even realize Eren's signature was under the sun in fine print. "It does, doesn't it?" Eren says. He sits back down and grabs your hand and begins drawing the moon on it. "Hey!" You yell trying to yank it away but he's much stronger so your effort barely makes a difference.

When he's done he lets go and you stare at your hand confused. "Now he's your moon." Niccolo points out. Sasha was still in her own world, extremely concentrated on what she was drawing, her tongue poking out her mouth.

You stare down at your hand and see the outline of a crescent moon with the letter E in it. You rub your thumb along the drawing. He drew it with permanent marker so it doesn't even smudge.

"TA-DA!" Sasha sings. She throws her arms in the air pointing at the direction of her drawing. It was a drawing of a large bobble head with blonde wavy hair and a chefs hat and uniform with a ribbon that said #1 CHEF on it.

Niccolo bursts out laughing. "Is that me?" Sasha nods. "You like it?" He nods and begins to draw her on the wall next to it.

You look around at everyone to see how they're passing the time and see that Armin and Jean traded spots so now Armin is with the guys and Jean is with Mikasa. It looks like she's comforting him or something because he has his head down and she's rubbing his back.

"That manipulative little shit." You mutter under your breath. You stand up fully prepared to charge over there when Eren grabs your arm. "Don't."

Reiner hits a speed bump and everyone jumps up in their seats, including you who loses her balance and falls right into Eren's lap.

For a moment you're caught off guard and you're stuck staring right at him. "Let me go." He shakes his head. "Don't go over there y/n."

You attempt to get up but he holds you down. "Why?" You snap. "Not worth it." He replies back calmly.

"Uh, why are you sitting on his lap?" Sasha asks abruptly. You gasp and stand up, returning to your seat. "Don't be such a cockblock, babe." Niccolo laughs.

"Babe?" You ask trying to quickly get the attention off you. "Oh yeah. We're kinda dating now." Sasha giggles. "Not kinda. We are. I asked her on Saturday at the dinner." Niccolo corrects.

"Awww! Finally!" You gush. Connie, Armin and Marco head to the back of the bus where you all are seated. "What about you y/n? When you and Jean finally gonna date?" Niccolo asks. Sasha slaps his arm. "Ow! What?"

Connie laughs and sits beside you. "Yeah when are you guys gonna start dating?" The boys begin to rummage through the box of markers which explains why they came back here in the first place.

"Never." You scoff. Connie squints at you. "Oh yeah? Then what happened on Saturday?"

You tense up but this was your chance to assert your dominance and show you weren't the one to be played with. Your old self was back and you were ready to show it. You shrug. "I just wanted some head."

Everyone's mouths drop open and Sasha starts howling with laughter. "Damn girl!"

"Sheesh. You gonna do my boy Jean dirty like that?" Connie winces. "He'll be alright." You respond.

"You know y/n..." Marco starts. "I give better head than Jean in case you know, you ever need that again." He winks.

Sasha shoves him. "Ewww!" He throws his hands up in the air. "Hey! Shooters shoot!"

You laugh. "I wouldn't be surprised if you do. He wasn't that good at it." This of course is a lie. He was actually really good at it but they don't need to know that.

Sasha's mouth drops all the way to the floor and the boys all wince in pain. "GAHHHH DAMNNNN!" They all yell in unison. Eren laughs his ass off.

"That hurt my feelings and it isn't even about me." Armin says. The boys all nod in agreement. "If someone said that about me, I'd end my shit." Connie shivers.

Y/n: 2
Jean: 0

Marco rips off the cap of a red marker and says, "In that case..." He draws a heart on the wall and writes "M+Y/n"

The boys roast him and you and Sasha laugh together. This was honestly way too easy. You didn't even have to try.

Finally after a long while of drawing all over the place, you finally arrive at the lake.

The campsite was quite literally a summer camp that was exactly like the kind you see in the movies. There was about 6 cabins and then two bigger ones. One was the main hall which was mostly the cafeteria and the other was the restroom with showers.

Once the bus is parked, everyone stands up and grabs their belongings.

You stand up and grab your bag and everyone walks down the aisle before you, you and Eren coming in last. Before he begins to walk, Eren grabs a black sharpie and scribbles over the M+y/n that Marco wrote when you're not looking.

He follows behind you and the two of you step down off the bus. "Okay! Let's talk about rooming set ups." Historia announces, clasping her hands together like a camp director. "I'm thinking girls with girls and boys with boys?"

The girls agree but the boys, of course, let out a couple moans of protest. Historia rolls her eyes. "Look if you guys wanna have sex, there's 4 cabins that are gonna be empty." The boys start cheering again.

The men go to their cabins to set their stuff down and so do the girls and you're about to follow when Eren stops you. "Let me show you around since you've never been here before."

You furrow your eyebrows. That's awfully nice of him. "Okay...." You say with a suspicious look on your face. He laughs and pushes your head. "Shut up. Come on."

You follow the boy and he walks you through the entire camp. He saves the main building for last.

"This is where we would eat. When we weren't eating, we would do activities in here like painting or making shit. All the other stuff was mainly outside." He says taking a seat at one of the tables.

"I've never been to summer camp before, it sounds fun." You say sitting across from him. He smiles and looks around, reminiscing. "Yeah it was pretty dope. I got in trouble a lot, though."

You laugh. "Of course. I'm surprised they didn't ban your ass from coming."

He snorts. "They almost did but my mom convinced them not to. Connie got banned though." That doesn't surprise you at all.

"Is this how you met everyone?" You ask.

"Kinda. Mikasa and Armin I've known since diapers. Sasha and Connie I met in first grade during Detention. I went to school with everyone else but we never got close cause we didn't have classes together until we all started going to summer camp in middle school."

"Ah, so this place brought you guys together and made you get closer." You say. "Yeah, I guess you can say that." He responds.

"Do you think we would've been friends if younger you met younger me?" You ask him, placing your elbows on the table and hands holding up your head.

"Probably not." He jokes. You gasp and hit him. "Rude. Your loss anyway. I made some mean friendship bracelets back in the day." You cross your arms proudly. "Oh yeah?" He laughs.

"Y/n?" You and Eren both turn to the entrance door and see Jean standing there. The two of you stare at him in silence.

"Can I talk to you?" He asks approaching the table. You look back at Eren. "Anyways, what were we talking about?"

"Look, I just want to say sorry. We're gonna spend this whole camping trip together and I don't want there to be any bad blood so please atleast let me talk to you just this once. Then if you decide you still hate me, you don't ever have to talk to me again." He continues.

You look at him again and his face looks sad and pathetic, his eyes pleading at you. You sigh and stand up.

Jean grabs your hand and before you can angrily pull it away, Eren speaks.

"You know," Eren stands from his seat, "I'm getting really tired of you hoarding her all the time."

You and Jean spin around at the same time with different facial expressions. His triggered, eyes narrowed and brows furrowed. Your eyes wide and mouth dropped open.

"What did you just say?" Jean asks even though he heard perfectly the first time, he just wanted to see if he had the balls to say it again. And since it's Eren Jaeger, you already know the answer to that.

" I said..." Eren takes a step forward now just a few feet from Jean's face. Jean steps in front of you, pushing you behind him, still holding your hand. "I'm getting really fucking tired of you always pulling her away from me."

Jean scoffs. "You jealous or something?" Eren stays quiet and just stares at Jean, his eyes cold. Jean bursts into a laugh. "You are, aren't you? Don't you have a million other playthings to bother?"

Eren's straight face turns into a smirk. "You're one to talk. Besides, I want this one." He reaches for your hand but Jean pushes you further back.

"This one is mine, actually. Sorry about that." Jean smirks back, proudness in his voice and adding strength to his grip on your hand.

You couldn't believe what you were hearing. What was with all the sudden confessions? And what the fuck is Jean talking about when he says 'this one is mine' as if he still has a chance with you after everything? He was really planning on manipulating you back into his arms and that's why he wanted to talk.

Eren barks out a loud, rough laugh that causes everyone in nearby hearing range to turn their attention to you three and you feel your face burn. "Is she now?" He grins deviously.

"STOP." You hiss under your breath. He finally takes his eyes off Jean and looks at you. His eyes piercing into yours. "What? You don't like us fighting over you princess?"

You feel your blood start to boil.

The two of them look at you and await your response but you're so shocked by what is happening in front of you that your mind is racing too much to even focus.

"How about we let her choose who she wants to go with?" Eren suggests once he realizes you're too stupid at the moment to answer, cockiness in his voice. He crosses his arms over his chest.

Jean laughs exuding confidence. "Fine." You look up and see the two boys paying close attention to you, searching for the answer in your eyes.

The answer was obviously Eren. You hated Jean right now so anyone was better than him at the moment. But if you say Eren, everyone would take it the wrong way and the entire trip would be a disaster.

You look around and see everyone else here now, staring at you. How did I end up in this position?

Your stomach turns and your knees grow weak. You were so embarrassed and flustered by being put on the spot in front of everyone that it almost made you angry. No, it did make you angry.

You turn back to the two boys and you feel your whole body temperature rise. You look down at your hand being held by Jean and you yank it away angrily.

"Neither, I hate both of you." You say, heat in the moment. You waste no time after that making an exit.

You take off running into the cabin you're sharing with the girls and slam the door closed behind you. You slide your back down the door and sit on the ground.

"What the hell is happening?" You say to yourself. You look up and see most the beds are called for already, the owner's bags holding their places.

You get up and set your bag down on one of the empty beds. A huge part of you wanted to just go to one of the empty cabins and stay there. The other half just wanted to go home.

You sit down on the bed beside your bag and stare down at your hands. One hand that was practically crushed by Jean and the other that had Eren's initial on it.

You were feeling a mix of emotions. You were so angry that they made a show in front of everyone. Now the entire trip was for sure going to be awkward.

And the fact that they were treating you like some kind of object. Then putting you on the spot and asking you to choose in front of everyone. You were so humiliated.

You ball up your hands into fists, your nails digging harshly into your soft palms. You try to focus on the pain but you're shaking so much you can't even concentrate.

You stand up and rush over to the small restroom in the cabin and turn the sink on. You angrily rub at the moon on your hands under the running water. "Come on! Get off!" You yell. You rub and rub until your skin begins to burn but the drawing refuses to leave the surface of your skin.

"Ugh!" You scream, as you push at the knob on the sink to turn it off. You look down at the raw flesh on your hand and how the black marking stayed, barely even smudged.

The screen door behind you opens and the girls enter the cabin. You clench your fingers around the edges of the sink, your head facing down. You knew what was about to happen.

"Y/n?" Historia stands outside the restroom door. "What was that all about?"

You look up in the mirror refusing to turn around. Historia stands at the doorway with the girls all behind her trying to look inside the restroom.

"Can you guys just leave me alone for a second?" You say in a low voice. "Why were Eren and Jean fighting over you?" She continues to ask. Your grip tightens around the sink and your teeth grind together.

"Maybe we should just give her space." Sasha says nervously. "No." Historia says. She crosses her arms and steps in the restroom. "Don't tell me you're messing with both of them?"

There's a ringing sound in your ears and your vision starts to blur. You were about to lose it. These were clear warning signs that you were about to black out and do something stupid. Just like when you slapped Pieck and did all that stuff to Jean's car and snapped at that girl. You never were good at controlling your anger.

"CAN YOU SHUT UP FOR JUST A FUCKING SECOND?!" You scream, spinning your body to face her. Everyone's eyes widen and the room gets silent.

You're breathing hard and your back grows sweaty. You felt like you were gonna have a panic attack.

"I'm sorry." You say when you see everyone's facial expressions. "I didn't mean to yell."

"Come out here and tell us what happened." Historia commands. You look at her with a bitchy expression for trying to tell you what to do. She doesn't back down. Sasha steps in front of her so she's now in between the two of you.

"Let's just calm down, okay?" Sasha says holding her hands out. "Y/n, come out here, okay?"

You don't take your eyes off Historia. Both of you staring each other down and feet planted firmly on the ground.

Finally, Historia spins around and leaves the restroom. The girls move out the way and then follow her. Sasha looks at you, her face strained.

"Come on." She pleads you. You refuse at first but eventually give in. You and Sasha walk out the restroom and join everyone standing in the middle of the room.

"So?" Historia is the first to speak. "So what?" You snap. "So, why are they fighting over you?" She clarifies. Both of your voices getting louder each time you speak.

"I don't fucking know! Jean wanted to apologize and Eren didn't let him." You say.

"Are you messing with both of them?" She repeats her question from earlier again.

"What? No. Me and Eren are just friends." You were getting frustrated again.

"Then why would he get mad that Jean was trying to fix things with you?" She says, hands on her hips.

"I DON'T FUCKING KNOW!" You yell, your temper getting lost again. "Maybe because he's a good friend and knows Jean doesn't deserve another chance."

"Whatever Jean did, I'm sure it wasn't that bad." Mikasa speaks up.

"Mikasa, with all due respect, shut the hell up." You spit out without hestitation. Her mouth falls open and Ymir bursts out laughing. "Oh, I like her." She says mid laugh.

"So then why were they making you choose between them?" Historia asks. You slam your hands against your face. "Goddddd, I don't know! I don't know! I don't know, okay?! All I know is I'm not fucking around with Eren." You insist.

"You know he's off limits right?" The blonde reminds you. You bark out a laugh. "Was he off limits after Mikasa messed with him, or vise versa?"

The room gets quiet again. "That's different." Mikasa speaks. "Yeah? How?" You snap. The two girls look at each other in silence.

You laugh through your nose. "Look, whatever fucking weird ass unspoken agreement you got going on, that's cool but don't take that shit out on me."

This was it. You had finally snapped. "I'm not some random girl you're gonna bully into not talking to Eren. He's my friend and he was there for me when I needed someone. Whether you like it or not, I'm gonna hang out with him."

Sasha looks at you, her eyes shaking rapidly. She figured it out. You were the girl.

Ymir looks impressed. Annie has a blank expression. Mikasa and Historia both look at you like they couldn't believe the words coming out your mouth.

"But." You go on to say. "That doesn't mean I'm fucking him. There's nothing romantic going on between us. We relate to each other on things you guys don't understand. I love all of you. You're all my friends. But there's times you need to vent to someone who has been in your position. And that's him."

As the words come out of your mouth, you're just now realizing it too. You actually considered him your friend. He helped you with Pieck, and then with Anthony. He understood what it felt like to lose a parent and to find them that way. He was someone you've come to care for.

"So then, it's just platonic?" Historia's face softens. Yours does too. "Yes. I never intended to get close to him, or even be friends with him period, trust me, but he helped me when no one else was there so it just kinda happened."

Historia looks down at the ground, disappointed in herself. "I'm sorry y/n. I shouldn't have assumed." You shake your head and walk up to her. "Don't be. I'm sure it looked sus as hell. I'm pretty sure he was just protecting me like he did at the fair."

She nods. "I'm still sorry." She hugs you and you freeze, not really sure what to do. Like previously stated, you weren't use to this kind of affection. You bring your arms around her and lightly pat her back awkwardly.

When she pulls away, she wipes a tear from her right eyes and shakes her body head to toe. "Whew. Okay, glad that's over!"

She clasps her hands together and smiles widely. "Who wants to go swimming?!" Her instant mood flip freaked you out. It was as if nothing happened.

"I'm down." Annie says, grateful the entire situation came to an end. Ymir laughs and shakes her head. "Girls are so fucking weird."

All the girls begin to scavenge through their bags for their bathing suits except Sasha who has stayed in the same spot, eyes fixated on you.

You make eye contact with her and you try to read her mind but you can't. She has her lips sunken in like she's confused and trying to figure something out.

"Come on. Let's swim." You say linking your arm with hers. "Don't overthink it." You whisper to her. She looks at you, her worried expression fading. She smiles and nods. "Yeah."

After all of you are changed into swimsuits, you exit the cabin and see all the boys outside. Reiner, Bertholdt, Marco and Jean playing football and then Eren, Niccolo and Armin watching Connie attempt to climb up the flag pole to hang up a pair of underwear. It was like nothing happened with them either. You wondered how they're conversation went and if it was as heated as yours.

"Hey!" Historia yells at them. "We're going swimming!" The boys all turn and their mouths fall open, drool practically spilling out when they see all of you in bathing suits. They automatically charge to their cabin to change, causing all of you laugh and make fun of them.

You and the rest of the girls begin to walk to the lake after you decide you'll just meet the boys there.

The day was beautiful. The sky was crystal clear and the prettiest shade of blue you've seen in a while. The weather was the perfect temperature, a little on the warmer side but the breeze made up for it.

As soon as you guys make it to the lake, you hear a bunch of chants and whoops coming from behind, getting louder at an alarming speed. You spin around and see all of the guys literally sprinting, passing right by you all and jumping straight into the water.

It was really like nothing happened and you were so relieved. You thought the trip was for sure gonna be a disaster after what happened.

Everyone begins to do their own things. Most of the guys run to the cliff to jump, minus Armin of course, Historia lays out in the sun to catch a tan, Mikasa and Ymir swim in the water and you sat down on the grass and just tried to let yourself relax.

Armin approaches you and sits beside you. "You're not gonna swim?" He asks. "Yeah, in a bit. Just enjoying the day for a second." He nods and admires the scenery with you. "Such a pretty day, right?"

You agree and start picking up your hair to put in a ponytail. "Is that a tattoo?" Armin asks, pointing at your hand. You flinch and cover your hand. "Oh, no. Eren drew a moon on me. Payback for me sticking my picture on his sun." You laugh.

"Oh that's right. Eren did draw that sun. I forgot." He says. You narrow your eyes at him. You felt like he was lying. He probably planned that all along.

"Come on, Armin. You don't gotta keep up the innocent act with me anymore." You eye him carefully. He panics. "No, I didn't know, I swear!"

"Mmhm." You mumble while still studying him. "Just kinda weird out of all places, you told me to put it there."

He shrugs. "I thought it would've looked cute there."

You laugh. "Okay Armin." He laughs nervously and tries to take himself off the hot seat. "Speaking of Eren, you okay?"

You look at him again. "Yeah. I was kinda pissed but I'm over it now." He smiles at you. "That's good. They didn't mean any harm. Just two guys attempting to assert their dominance, you know how that goes."

You look away from him and turn your attention to the cliff and see all the boys standing up there, Eren and Jean included. "They made up or something?" You ask.

Armin brings his attention to the cliff. "Ah. Not really. Kinda just decided to stay out each other's way. They both feel bad for putting you in that situation."

You stay quiet. "Jean especially. He told us everything that happened." Armin adds. You flinch. "Even the car part?"

The blonde frowns. "Car?"

You sigh with relief. Seems like Jean left that part out, thank god. "Nothing, nevermind. How did the conversation go?"

"We had to separate them for a while and then Jean explained what happened and how he just wanted to apologize to you because he doesn't want any bad blood. Eren said he thinks it's better if Jean just leaves you alone." Armin answers.

You say nothing again and just watch the boys jump off one by one. "Are you gonna forgive him?" Armin continues.

You let out a deep sigh. "I'm not sure what to do anymore. I guess we can be friends eventually or something. But he still played me and lied to me so I don't think i'll ever see him the same or trust him."

Armin nods. "I understand that. You have a reason to feel that way. What about Eren?" You turn your head back to him. "Eren?"

"Yeah, you gonna forgive him?" He questions. You laugh a little. "I didn't mean to say I hate him. I was just mad and in the heat of the moment. Why? Does he actually think I meant that?"

"Yeah, he was pretty beat up about it. He didn't show it obviously but I know him better than anyone. He looks disappointed in himself like he crossed a line." Armin clarifies.

"He was just looking out for me like he did at the fair." You explain. Atleast, that's what you thought he was attempting to do.

"You two have gotten pretty close, huh?" Armin asks. You smile and look back up at the cliff. Eren stands at the edge and then turns around to run and does a front flip off the cliff.

"I don't know if close is the word but nicer to each other than we were at the start, sure." You state. "He has been there for me a lot lately though. It's funny cause I used to hate his fucking guts."

Armin laughs. "Yeah. That's how it usually goes. But I told you he just needed to warm up around you." He looks around. "In this exact spot actually."

You look down at the grass the two of you sit on. "It was at this spot, wasn't it? That's funny, we came full circle."

The two of you laugh and fall into silence, watching as your friends throw themselves into the water from above.

"Armin?" You say breaking the silence. "Hm?" He responds still looking at the cliff divers. "Eren doesn't...like me, right?"

Armin looks at you, his face confused. "What do you mean?"

You shift uncomfortably. "Well, he said something kinda weird when he and Jean were arguing. Something like 'I want this one'. But I'm sure he was just saying that to get Jean to go away, right? Like how he did with my ex?"

Armin blinks at you. "I don't know, y/n. That's something you're gonna have to ask him."

You groan. "That's not the answer I wanted to hear."

He chuckles. "I'm sorry I can't be more help but I've never seen Eren have a crush or feelings for someone before. I mean he's dated girls and stuff but he never was really interested in them, I don't think. It was always like he was bored or trying to see if he could feel something for them but it never worked out."

You lean back. "Like ever? In all the years you've known him?!" Armin nods. "Damn. I understand after his parents died but even before?" You finish.

"He's just never really cared for relationships, I guess." He says, running his fingers through the grass at his feet.

"Didn't him and Mikasa date at one point?" You ask.

"Nope. That's one sided, sadly. They have... you know.. but they've never dated." He comments. You giggle when you hear him refer to sex as "you know..."

Sasha, who pulls herself out the water, approaches you and Armin. "Come on, let's jump!" She says as she tugs on your arm. "Okay, okay." You give in.

She drags you up the cliff and you see Connie and Marco up there. "Y/n! You're gonna be the judge, okay?" Connie yells. "Marco here thinks he can dive in better than I can."

Marco slaps Connie's bare, wet back hard making a loud noise that makes you wince. "I know I can. Y/n, watch."

Marco stretches and gets into position. He then takes off running and jumps off the cliff and dives perfectly into the water. You and Sasha stand at the edge and watch him.

"Weak." Connie scoffs. "My turn." The boy jumps up and down and then takes off full speed and does the same.

"They looked pretty much the same." You say to Sasha. She laughs. "You gotta pick one or else they'll never stop bugging you."

You hear a snap of a twig and turn to face the noise and see Jean climbing up the hill. He looks up and see you and instantly turns red. "Oh. Hey sorry didn't know you were up here."

You say nothing and Sasha clears her throat. "What?! Oh! Connie's calling me sorry I got to go." You spin to face her and before you can even say anything, she's already mid fall.

You know damn well Connie was not calling her. You close your eyes and take a deep breath. You had two options, jump off to avoid Jean or just get the inevitable over with. If you wanted to keep hanging out with your friends, it was gonna happen eventually.

You turn to face him and he stands awkwardly besides you. The two of you just stare straight ahead waiting for the other to speak first.

"I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry about your car."
The two of you say at the exact same time.

You look at each other and laugh. "Sorry, you go first." He offers.

"Uh, I was just saying sorry about your car. That was immature of me and I'm not sure why I did that. It was really impulsive." You stick a finger up in the air. "But in my defense you did deserve it."

He chuckles. "Yeah, I did." The two of you fall silent again. Jean sighs. "Look, I know you don't believe me but I really am sorry, y/n. I didn't mean to hurt you or get you mad. I tried to keep everyone happy and in the end it bit me in the ass."

You say nothing. "If it makes you feel any better, Cassie cut me off after you told her everything." You laugh. "As she should." You think back to the poor girl. You regret going off on her too. She was probably just as clueless as you.

"True. Anyways, yeah I'm sorry and you don't have to forgive me. I know we'll never go back to how we used to be but I really don't want any weird tension with us. Especially since we have the same friends and it's obviously gonna be really uncomfortable not just for us but everyone." He notes.

"I forgive you. But only because you didn't tell anyone about the whole car thing. Saved me from a lot of embarrassment." You mention. He laughs. "It rained right after so it wasn't too bad."

You slap your hand over your forehead. It did rain right after, you totally forgot. "Damn. Well, you owe me a bottle of ketchup then."

Jean cackles. "Okay deal." You smile and he smiles back. You were kinda glad you made up. You knew for a fact you'll never be able to trust him again or be as close as you were but you didn't hate him anymore. He was just... there.

"Y/n? Are you and Eren..." He starts. You look at him, eyebrows pinched together. "Are you and Mikasa?" His eyes grow bigger and he stutters. "I-"

"So! Who wins?!" Connie screams as him and Marco shove their way up the top of the cliff. You turn around confused. "Huh?"

Marco pants out of breath. "Who had the better dive?" You cover your mouth and laugh into your palm. "To be honest, I don't even remember."

The two boys groan and begin to argue amongst themselves on who they think the answer is. "Jean, be honest, who is better?" They ask, bringing him into it.

I guess we'll never know now. You sigh and decide this is the perfect time to jump while all three of them are distracted.

When you finally make contact with the water, you feel like can literally feel your problems wash away. You cleared things up with the girls, fixed things with Jean, things hopefully would go back to normal.

You try to stay underwater as long as you can. You had been heated and angry for the past couple days that the cool, fresh water made you feel sane again. Like your body was returning to normal temperature instead of always been on edge.

You swim up and come up for air. You tilt your head back and just enjoy this moment for a while. This is the most calm you've felt since everything started going downhill. Even when you had a spa day with Hitch and you claimed to be relaxed, your mind was still eating you alive. Now, you were finally at peace.

After a good five minutes of just floating in the middle of the lake, you swim back to land.

You look around and see Eren nowhere to be found. He was the last person you needed to clear the air with but no matter where you looked or went, he went the opposite direction, the two of you never crossing paths. Was he avoiding you?

Was he mad you didn't choose him? Or that you said you hated him? Maybe he was embarrassed. But embarrassed why? Because he confessed he wanted you? What if he wasn't just saying that and he actually meant it?

You start overthinking and to stop yourself you shake your head furiously. "Damn girl. You got lice or something?" Connie asks you, drinking from a red solo cup.

You shove him. "Fuck you." You laugh. "You tell me when and where and I'll be there." He winks. You roll your eyes at him and peek inside his cup. "There's alcohol? What the hell? Where?"

He takes another sip and points to an ice chest. "There's bottles in there with juice and soda to mix with." You nod and rush over to the large Yeti chest. You didn't even notice they had brought it on the bus.

You open up the chest and see there's a bottle of 1942 tequila, Grey Goose vodka, Malibu and Hennessy. For mixing or chasing, there was Coke, pineapple juice and Sprite.

You grab the bottle of Malibu and some pineapple juice and mix it into the red cup. You figured it was a safer option because tequila is makes you too loose, vodka makes you sloppy and Hennessy always makes people want to fight. Malibu was more to have fun.

Before you know it, you're on your third mixed drink. The sun was beginning to set and everyone started getting out the water.

A very drunk Historia wobbles her way up to you. "Let's do something fun!"

You wipe your mouth. You were starting to feel really tipsy already so everytime you drank from your cup, you tended to spill a little. "Okay, like what?"

"Let's play dodgeball." Reiner suggests, cracking his knuckles. "Who ever gets hit has to take a shot."

"That sounds fun." Annie chimes in. She was actually smiling which was rare for her and you know it's because she's been drinking.

Historia whines. "I suck at dodgeball." Ymir throws her arm over Historia's small shoulders. "I'll protect you, don't worry."

"I'll go get some balls!" Connie takes off running to the storage room in the main cabin. Everyone agrees to play and you see Eren by the ice chest making himself a drink and you debate going up to him.

"What do you say, y/n? Wanna play or are you scared?" Reiner teases while chugging the rest of his drink. "Can I choose what I take shots of?" You ask.

"Let's make things interesting. Whoever hits you with the ball, gets to choose your shot." Eren says now joining the group. You instantly stand up straight when you see him. You wanted to clear things up with him so bad.

"That sounds potentially dangerous as hell." Armin whimpers. Marco hits Armin on the back. "As long as you don't get hit by the ball, you don't gotta be worried."

"I'll play." You smile. The boys cheer. "What about the rest of you girls?" Reiner asks. "I guess I'll play. But you guys better not hit me hard." Historia slurs.

Ymir and Annie confirm their compliance. Sasha jumps up and down with excitement. "Let's start splitting up into teams! Are we an even number?"

Everyone begins to count heads when Historia frowns. "I know I'm drunk but we're missing someone, aren't we?"

"Mikasa isn't here." Armin says looking around. You count and realize there is another person missing too. Jean.

"Jean isn't here either." You speak up. "He said he was going to the restroom." Connie explains.

What a coincidence.

You begin laughing to yourself. From Sasha telling you shes noticed they've been texting more, to the J+M under the table, and the way he reacted when you asked if he was talking to her earlier. Now this.

"Let's just start without them. They can join after." Marco suggests. Everyone agrees and begins to discuss how to spilt up in teams.

"There's 12 of us not counting Mikasa and Jean. So 6v6, right?" Armin asks. "How do we decide who goes where?"

"On the count of three, put one or two fingers on your forehead QUICK! 1,2,3, GO!" Sasha yells. Everyone rushes to slap fingers onto their foreheads. You put up two fingers to yours.

You look around and see that Annie, Sasha, Nic, Reiner and Historia also have two fingers up to their foreheads concluding your team. The other team includes Armin, Eren, Connie, Marco, Bert and Ymir.

"No fair! You guys have more guys!" Historia cries.

"Shut up, you have Reiner's big ass and Annie." Connie taunts. "There's more guys than girls so no matter what way you put it, one side is gonna have more guys." Armin clarifies.

Ymir laughs. "Sorry Tori, looks like I can't save you this round." Historia pouts. "Fine."

You were pretty happy with your team. Reiner looks like he could throw a fucking house at someone so a ball should be easy. Annie was extremely athletic. Sasha has enough energy for an entire football team. And Nic is good with his hands so you figure he's gotta be good at throwing a ball.

On the other team, you look over at their strongest players. Eren was obviously strong and aggressive, so there's that. Connie is the same as Sasha and will probably accidentally knock someone out by throwing too hard. Ymir looks like she definitely doesn't go easy on anyone. Bertholdt was taller than everyone and you werent sure if that was an advantage or not but you count him anyway.

Everyone splits into their group and huddle up, planning their game plans.

"Try to take out the stronger players first." Reiner starts. "Wouldn't it be easier to take out the weaker ones?" Historia hiccups. "No because while you're too busy trying to hit the weaker ones, the stronger ones will get you while you're distracted." He responds back.

After explaining things more, the huddle breaks apart and the game begins.

Eren automatically takes out Historia which leads to her drunk crying on the side line. "Vodka." He points at her.

Annie takes out Bertholdt and tells him to take a shot of tequila. Sasha and Niccolo both aim at Marco at the same time and take him out. "Hey!" He yells. Sasha grins. "Malibu since you're being a girl."

You take out Ymir while she's too busy looking at Historia cry and she isn't even mad about it because she gets to be with her now. "Hennessy." You call out to her.

Connie aims for you but you dodge it, the ball hitting Niccolo instead. "Not who I was aiming for but fuck it, we ball." The boy says. Sasha gasps. "You did NOT just hit my man!" She throws a ball full force and it smacks Connie right in the face. He falls backward.

"Hennessy!" She smiles deviously. She kisses Nic on the cheek as he walks to the sideline. "I got you babe."

All that's left on your opponents team now was Armin and Eren. You, Annie, Reiner and Sasha remain standing.

Reiner aims at Eren but he dodges it. You aim for Armin but he jumps out the way. You see a ball fly toward you and you instantly duck. There's a loud impact noise beside you and you turn to see Annie got hit by a ball.

Her mouth drops open and you look at the other team to see who did it. Armin brings his hand to his mouth, biting his nails. "Sorry Annie! You weren't looking so I had to." Annie leaves after Armin tells her to drink vodka.

You couldn't believe Armin out of everyone was still standing. "Y/n. Aim for Armin, me and Sasha will try to get Eren." Reiner says low enough for only you and Sasha to hear.

You throw a ball at Armin barely missing him and he throws one back and you catch it. You pretend you're about to throw it at Eren so Armin looks away and when he does you throw the ball right at him and it makes contact. "YES!" You cheer.

Mid celebration, a ball smacks you rest in the chest and you fall back on your ass. "Hey!" You yell. Eren grins. While he's smiling at you, Sasha and Reiner both attack Eren and he tries to dodge it but they're much too fast and they take him out.

"LETS GOOOOOOOOO!" Sasha roars. Both her and Reiner chest bump each other but since he's much bigger than her and she's drunk, her balance is off. She stumbles back a little and trips over a ball and lands right on you.

"Owwwww!" You cry. She bursts out laughing and hugs you. "I'm sorry! I avenged you though!"

Niccolo runs up to her. "You did so good!" She stands up and dances. "Right?!"

You stand up and dust off your butt because you just knew it was covered in dirt and the last thing you needed was it looking like you shit yourself.

You walk over to the chest to prepare to take your shot. "Alright, what do I gotta take?" Armin sighs.

"Hmmm, tequila." You respond. He cringes, takes the shot and immediately brings a lime to his pink lips.

"Okay. What about me?" You turn to face Eren. This will be the first time you've talked to each other since the whole incident. "Which do you hate the most?" He says. You glare at him. Of course he would do that.

"Malibu." You lie. He laughs. "Nice try. I'm gonna say...." He lifts up the brown bottle of Hennessy. You immediately scrunch up your face. "Oh yeah. Definitely this one." He chuckles once he saw your face. He pushes the bottle toward you and you unfortunately pour the shot.

"You do Henny too." Reiner says, passing the bottle back to Eren once you're done with it. You hold up your shot and wait for him. He then holds up his and you both take it at the same time. His reaction was blank and unphased meanwhile you gagged and got the chills.

After that, everyone decides to sit around the campfire and just drink. When you're walking to the fire, you realized you still haven't seen neither Jean or Mikasa. Everyone is too drunk to notice.

You sit on a log by Reiner and Marco. You felt all fuzzy. Your legs felt numb and your face did too. You knew all the alcohol was gonna hit you as soon as you stood up so you told yourself it would probably be better if you stayed sitting down.

You listen as Reiner tells Marco a story but you're not really listening, you're zoned out. Across the fire, sat Eren, Armin and Annie. The log to your left sat Sasha and Niccolo. Then the one on your right had Connie and Bertholdt.

You look at Eren and he's in the same position as you. Watching Annie and Armin talk to each other but not listening at all. Just present.

Jean returns finally and sits by Connie and Bertholdt. "God damn, you have diarrhea or something?" Connie asks. "You missed an entire game of dodgeball."

Jean replies back to him but you can't hear what he says over Reiner and Marco laughing about something. "Right y/n?"

"Huh?" You turn your attention back to the two boys. "Connie's face when he got smacked in the face was priceless." Marco says. You giggle. "Oh yeah! There's probably marks from the ball on his face."

All three of you squint at Connie and cackle with laughter when you notice there is indeed marks on his face. Eren looks at you and watches you die with laughter but you don't even realize it because your eyes are closed. "Who hit him again?" You ask.

"Sasha. She did not go easy on him at all since he got Nic out." Reiner chuckles. "Oh yeah, the lovebirds." You say turning to look at the couple.

Niccolo was whispering something in Sasha's ear that made her turn bright red and giggle. "They're so cute, it's almost annoying." You sigh.

Marco grins. "I can whisper in your ear and make you blush like that, too. Watch." He leans into you and you lean back and giggle uncontrollably. "Stop!"

You jump and run away. Marco chasing you making kissing noises. You hiccup as you run, the alcohol finally consuming you. You turn your head back as you're laughing and bump right into Mikasa.

"Oh shit." You rub your head. "Sorry. Marco was chasing me."

She looks down, avoiding your eyes. "You're okay." She begins to walk past you but you grab her arm. "Hey."

She turns around and looks at you. You freeze for a second. You honestly aren't even sure why you stopped her. You were drunk and in a good mood and for some reason you wanted to talk to her.

"Um," You let go of her arm. "I just wanted to say sorry for snapping at you earlier." She shakes her head. "Don't worry about it. I deserved it, what happened with you two isn't any of my business."

It was your turn to shake your head now. "Still. I didn't mean to be rude. I was just in a bad mood." She shrugs. "It happens."

The two of you stand there awkwardly in silence. "Are you and Jean-"

"There you are. Damn, you run fast. Oh shit!Mikasa! Where the hell have you been, dude? We could've used you on our team!" Marco interrupts.

"Sorry, I had to call my mom about something." She replies. "Oh, everything okay?" He asks. She nods. "Just checking up."

"Oh okay. Well, come to the fire. Everyone misses you." Marco smiles. He takes off running back to the site and you and Mikasa stand there alone again.

You rethink asking her. You honestly didn't even wanna know the answer. Either way, part of you already knew what it was.

"Come on. Let's go." You say to her and begin to walk. She follows you.

The rest of night is just that. Everyone drinks around the fire exchanging stories or making jokes. As the night got darker, people one by one went to bed or just plain passed out.

You were drunk as hell. You found everything funny and couldn't stop dancing with your friends. At one point you couldn't even stand up straight.

You sit down on one of the massive logs and admire your friends dancing in the fire's bright light.

Everyone seemed so happy and you were so relieved. Just a couple hours ago, you were sure this whole trip was going to be a disaster.

You were so grateful that they were all so understanding. How none of them made it awkward after what happened. Just laughed it off and moved on from it.

You began to realize maybe you really were part of this group. I mean, they would tell you all the time you were one of them but you never really truly felt that way. You always felt like you were a guest in their crazy lives. Like your friendship with them was timed and ticking down.

You started getting emotional. If you hadn't met Sasha in biology, you would've never met any of them. Not her, not Connie, not Jean, not even Eren.

You begin to wonder how your life would be right now if you never took candy from her that day. Who would you be hanging out with all the time? What would you be doing right now?

Hitch's face pops into your head. You would've probably ended up going into her friend group. She would've noticed you hadn't made any friends yet and invited you out with her.

You start wondering how she truly feels about you always being with her old friend group. The people who tossed her to the side. She doesn't act like it bothers her but what if it actually does? Were you being a terrible friend to her?

No. Hitch is one of the most blunt people you've ever met. If she didn't like you being with them, she would've said. I mean, she warned you about them but never said anything again when she saw you continued to be friends with them.

I wonder what she would think about me getting closer to Eren.

Hitch might have been fine with you hanging out with everyone but if there was one person that she absolutely despised and didn't want you to have anything to do with it was him.

You remember her slamming the door in his face when he came looking for you and the way she gags anything his name is brought up. You get chills just thinking about what would happen if she were to find out. She was the last person you wanted to lose.

Once you realized you're way into your feels, you shake your head and stand up. "I think I've had enough drinking for tonight." You announce to no one in particular.

You stand up too fast and your vision blurs, your head spinning. You can't even focus on who is still awake and who already went to bed.

You try your hardest to walk normally back to the cabin but you're wobbling all over the place.

When you finally make it there, you push the door open and drag your feet all the way to your bed. You don't even bother to turn on the lights and because of that you don't even know who is in there asleep already or not.

You throw yourself down on your bed and grab your bag to grab some clothes to change into. Then it hits you. You need to shower.

You groan and get back up. You lazily walk back outside and go to the cabin where all the showers are, praying nobody else is in there.

As you approach the cabin, you stop in your tracks. Is that....moaning?

You creep past the door and you slap your hand over your mouth. There's the sound of a shower running and faint moaning. Who the hell is having sex in the showers right now? And especially when there's so many other empty cabins.

You chew on your nail. Do you check who it is or do you just leave? "Ugh, but I need to shower." You whisper. "Fuck it."

You walk into the showers and get in the one as far as possible from the one being used to avoid interrupting them. As soon as you turn your shower on, the moaning stops and then there's whispering.

You felt so bad for killing the mood but you really did need to shower. You were on the verge of knocking out and did not want to go to bed dirty.

Sliding the curtain closed behind you, you start undressing and began to shower. You start washing your hair when you notice the other shower finally turned off.

You wanna be nosy so bad and poke your head out to see who it is but you know if it was you in that position, that's the last thing you would want.

"Hurry before whoever it is gets out." You hear a whisper. Your eyes shoot up when you recognize the voice. No fucking way.

You yank the curtain to the side, using it to cover your body, your hair up in a shampoo soaked bun. You peek your head out and see the duo.

"Oh. My. God." You gasp. Historia squeals and freezes in place. A pink fluffy towel wrapped around her body. Ymir following after her.

"Well." Ymir laughs. You look at Ymir to Historia over and over again. "Historia, I didn't know you..."

She shrivels into herself, growing shy. "I didn't know either. It kinda just happened."

Ymir winks and tightens her blue-grey towel around her wet body. "I think she's pretty damn sure now though."

You laugh. "I bet. Sorry for interrupting, I really needed a shower." You apologize. Historia waves her hands in the air. "No, no. It's fine."

"Yeah, it's fine. We were in there for a longgggg time already anyways." Ymir admits with a smirk. Historia hits her. "Stop!"

The petite girl then turns to you. "Hey. Do you think you can like...not tell anyone about this? I mean, I'm eventually gonna tell them! I'm not ashamed of it or anything but I just rather they hear it from me, you know?"

You nod and stick your pinky out. She smiles and hooks her pinky around yours. They wave goodbye and leave the building.

You couldn't stop laughing. There was no way that actually happened.

After you finally finish showering, you wrap your towel around you and head back for the cabin. Once you're inside, you go straight to the restroom to change.

Once you're done changing, you literally go straight to bed and pass out face down. Then you were out for the rest of the night.

Well almost.

You wake up randomly a couple hours later because you feel your pillow vibrate and make a muffled noise underneath your head. You lift the pillow up and see that your phone is under it. You don't even remember putting it there but you're glad you didn't lose it.

Your phone vibrates and you pick it up, automatically getting blinded by the light. You turn your brightness down and focus your eyesight on the notification.

E🖤
Eren: u up?

y/n: i am now

Eren: outside hurry up

You sit up on the bed and rub your eyes. You quietly stand up and walk toward the window and see Eren standing out there in the middle of the two cabins.

You tip toe toward the door and turn around to make sure you haven't woken anyone up. Once you realize you don't hear any movements, you try your hardest to open the door as quietly as possible. The last thing you needed was for someone to see you sneaking out to be with Eren at 4am. Especially after today.

You close the door behind you and walk down the steps. "Hey." You say once you're in front of him.

"Cute pjs." He teases as his eyes scan you up and down.

"Shut up. Why did you call me out here?" You were still half asleep and wanted to get straight to the point.

"I wanna show you something." He says. He starts walking and then tilts his head signaling you to follow him. "Come on."

You follow the boy to whatever the hell he was taking you. It was uncomfortably quiet, the only sound was the sound of some crickets nearby and the grass crunching underneath your feet.

Eren takes you to very last cabin and you start to panic. Why was he taking you to an empty cabin that was the farthest away from everyone at 4am?

"Um" You stop in your tracks. "What are you doing?" You ask. He turns around confused and then laughs when he realizes what you're thinking. "Calm down, horndog." He points to the roof of the cabin. "We're going up there."

He hops up on some box thing outside the cabin that was probably the A/C or something and he climbs up onto the roof, extending his hand for you to take.

You take his hand and climb up onto the roof with him. He scoots over so you have space to sit. He sits a little further from you than usual but you try not to think too much into it.

"Okay. What did you wanna show me?" You say trying to get comfortable even though the wooden roof was as uncomfy as it gets. "You'll see in about..." He takes his phone out and checks the time. "Two hours, maybe three." He says casually.

"Huh?! Three hours?" You shout. "Shhhh. People are sleeping. And yes. Three hours. Maybe two." He says, his finger to his lips to shush you. You roll your eyes in defeat and decide to go for the ride.

"So, you hate me now, huh?" He smirks.

"Shut up." You reply. "You know I didn't mean it."

He adjusts his legs. "Idk, kinda sounded like you meant that shit." You lean back, putting your palms face down behind you. "If I hated you, I wouldn't be out here right now."

He stares at you with his brows knitted together and brings his index finger to your bottom lip and pulls it down, making it bounce back up. "What happened to your lip?"

"Huh? Oh." You pinch your bottom lip and pull on it so you can see it when you look down. "I bit on it too hard when I was mad and it busted open."

He laughs. "Is that what you do when you get mad?"

You shrug. "I punched a couple cardboard boxes at work too." You shrink into yourself. "And some other really dumb stuff."

He turns his head, his interest peaking. "Yeah, like what?"

You groan and cover your face. "I don't even wanna say it's too embarrassing."

He scoffs. "You know how much stupid shit I do when I get pissed? I'm the last person to judge you."

You stare at him, studying his eyes. "Fine. I poured ketchup all over Jean's car."

He snorts as he tries not to laugh. "Ketchup? Out of all things?"

You throw your hands in the air. "It was the first thing that came to mind. It was really impulsive and in the heat of the moment. I was basically blacked out."

He shrugs. "I get that. Man, he must have really hurt your feelings for you to do all that."

You shake your head at yourself as you recall your actions and look off in the distance. "Yeah. I guess."

"I also bumped into the girl right after I did it and said some pretty nasty things to her. She probably didn't deserve it because she's just as clueless as I was but I was just so mad." You cringe as you continue to confess everything.

"Damn." Eren says. Even he was speechless.

"Yeah. I have a tendency to do reckless shit when I'm angry if you haven't noticed." You turn to catch his reaction.

"Like slapping your sister across the face?" He laughs.

You shove him with your elbow. "You're the last person to talk about anger issues."

He looks out in the distance, watching the tall trees shaking in the wind. "You know, I'm surprised you even let Jean do that to you." He says. The wind stops for a second and it's dead quiet.

"What do you mean?" You ask.

"When I first met you, you had this whole," He sticks up his fingers and makes air quotes with them, "bad bitch, feminist energy."

You let out a laugh. "Is that what I gave off?" You tease him.

He glares at you. "You know I mean. You weren't stupid. I know from experience because I tried getting with you and you completely put me in my place." He begins to explain.

You chuckle when you think back to that night. You and him in the cave and how you let him believe he actually had a chance and then laughed in his face. It's crazy how far the two of you have come since then. You actually didn't hate him now.

"I guess I just believed he was different. I don't know." You say. You honestly don't know what the reason was that it seemed you just allowed Jean to get away with so much. Even when you had know what kind of guy he was from the start.

"No. I don't think it was that. I think you knew since the start you needed to keep your distance from him but you got attached anyway. Why?" He points out.

You look at him alarmed. How in the hell did he just..

"I did know." You admit. "I knew better but I was just hoping it would be different." You begin.

"You were trying too hard to be someone you aren't." He finishes for you.

You were speechless. "Am I wrong?" He repeats.

You sigh and set your chin on top of your knees. "No. You're right. I was. I'm not necessarily proud of who I am."

"Neither am I but I'm rolling with it." Eren says, looking up at the moon. The current moon phase was a waning crescent that looks just like the one he drew on your hand earlier. "Who were you trying to be more like?"

You bring your knees closer to you and hug them tightly. You turn your face the opposite direction away him, completely ashamed of yourself.

"Was it Sasha?" He asks.

You snap your head around. "How are you..." He shakes his head. "I can tell. The closer you got to her the more smaller you became. You got quieter, nicer. Like you were trying to be as friendly as her but not overshadowing her."

You were officially embarrassed now. Was it really that obvious? "Sasha may be a little ditzy, but she isn't stupid. You think Niccolo is the first boy to try to get with her? She knows when to settle for someone who will treat her right and that's why she finally allowed herself to be loved by him." Eren speaks.

You felt so disappointed in yourself. He was completely calling you out on your shit. Part of you was glad though. You needed to hear it.

"You started forgiving people too much and letting things slide because you wanted to be a kind and pure as her but you're not Sasha. The closer I got to you I realized that." He admits.

Where was all this coming from? Did he really call you out here just to say all this to you?

"After I saw you slap your sister, after the night in the cave, the times I've hung out with you alone. You're not Sasha because Sasha hasn't gone through any of the stuff you have. Sasha comes from a loving home where she was raised by two parents and brought up to respect and love everyone because they are humble people. You have a different story. I don't know it all but from the little that I do know, it's not similar at all." He says.

You felt like crying. "I just wanted to start over. To forget everything that happened and be a new person." You say in a low voice. You weren't expecting any of this so it was hitting you like a truck.

"You wanted to pretend everything didn't happen but everything that happened made you the person you are. And personally? I prefer you the other way. I've had enough Sasha to last me a lifetime." Eren chuckles to himself with that last part.

"I just feel like no one is gonna like me if I'm myself. I mean look at whats happened so far." You sigh. "Disastrous things happen when I'm myself."

"Fuck em. I like you." He says with a shrug.

You spin your head toward him, eyes wild. "I mean I like you as person." He corrects. "I've seen how tough you can be and then I've seen the soft person you try to be. I prefer you the way you are."

You turn away from him and look up at the moon, playing with zipper on your jacket. You weren't really sure what to say.

"I'm a piece of shit and they're still my friends." He says lying back, arms crossed behind his head.

"They've also known you since fucking birth. They barely even know me. If they find out i'm just as bad as you, they'll..." You begin.

"They'll what? Stop being your friends? If they don't like you for you then they were never truly your friends in the first place." He finishes for you.

You turn your head back to look at him. "When did you get so wise?"

He laughs, looking up at the sky. "I'm just being honest. I'm amazed myself they haven't given up on me because I've done some pretty fucked up shit."

You lay back so that you're now on your back like he is. "You know, everyone kinda hates that I'm getting close to you." You mention.

He laughs to himself. "They'll live."

"By the way." You turn your head to the side so you can look at him. "Are you talking to a girl?" He looks at you confused. "What?"

"Are you talking to a girl? Sasha says you seem different. I noticed it too but I just thought you were warming up to me. I didn't know you were just in general being nicer." You clarify.

"What does that have to do with a girl?" He asks.

"Well, she said you also haven't been going out with girls or sleeping around. Like you might be actually settling down with someone." You say nervously. The way he was staring at you made you wanna crawl under a rock.

"There's no girl." He mumbles. He turns his face back to the sky. You do the same. "Sorry. I was just wondering."

The wind blows again and the only sound is the wind making the leaves dance in the trees.

"Thanks, by the way. For earlier in the cafeteria. You know, pretending to claim me again like you did with my ex." You say finally breaking the silence.

He scoffs.

"What?" You ask.

"Nothing. You're welcome." He replies.

You sit up on your elbows. "Say it." He shakes his head refusing to make eye contact with you. You scoot closer to him. "Say it or I'm gonna keep annoying you about it."

He glares at you. "You better not." You scoot closer. "Say it then."

You were now sitting up and he remained laying down so you look down at him and he looks up at you. "Go on."

He remains quiet and just stares at you. You stare back. You start poking his cheek repeatedly. "Say it. Say it. Say it. Say it."

"Stop y/n." He growls, visibly getting irritated.

"Not until you tell me." You continue to poke at him. You see his face getting more and more angry but you don't stop.

"ENOUGH ALREADY." He shoots up and twists his body so that he slams you down on your back and he's on top of you, your wrists pinned down with his hands. "You're so god damn annoying." He says from above you.

"I wouldn't have to be if you just told me what you were going to say." You snap back. He stares down at you, his large turquoise eyes staring right into yours.

Your breathing gets harder once you realize how close is he is to you. I mean, he's quite literally on fucking top of you.

He doesn't speak at all but you can see it in his eyes that his mind is going a million miles per hour. Deciding to say what he was gonna say or not.

You smile when you see him internally struggling which causes you to bring his attention to your lips.

He looks down at your mouth and licks his lips. Okay, now you really couldn't breathe. Your heart was racing so fast you were scared it was gonna burst.

He stares at your lips so intently like he's admiring them and can't look away. You laugh a little when you see sweat gleaming on his forehead.

"Are you about to kiss me, Jaeger?"

He looks back up at your eyes again. "What will happen if I do?" He says. Your heart stops completely. You were just teasing him. You didn't think he actually would take it serious.

"Don't." You breathe hard. "Why?" He whispers back. "You know why." You respond. Your heart started to ache. You felt... sad.

He takes his thumb and drags it along your lips. You wince when he touches the open cut on your lip. Both of you are breathing hard and slow. The tension was unreal.

He sighs and places his forehead on yours, closing his eyes. You close yours too, a tear falling down the side of your face when you do. You pray he doesn't notice.

He lays back down on his back besides you and looks up at the moon. You quickly wipe the tear away before he can see it.

He grabs your hand and lifts it up to the sky to compare his drawing to the moon above. "You did a good job." You say, clearing your throat in an attempt to get rid of the knot that rested in it.

He laughs but not a real laugh. A laugh that sound so painfully sad. "Thanks. I tried."

He sets your hand back down, his resting right by it. Your fingertips barley kiss the top of his. You wanted to grab his hand so badly but you choose not to.

The two of you stay up talking for hours and hours until finally it's time for him to show you what he called you out here for.

"Get up." He says as he sits up. You sit up beside him and follow his gaze to the horizon line far in the distance. The sun was coming up. It had to be like 6 something by now. The two of you really talked for two hours up here.

"Wow." You gasp softly when you see the sun rise and how it woke up the pastel colors in the sky. The stars above slowly saying goodbye.

"Yup." He nods his head. The two of you watch in silence as the sky grows more colorful. Going from a dark indigo to a bright red then fading into a lighter orange and then to a beautiful pink. The pink slowly growing into the blue.

"Thank you." You say, still keeping your eyes on the sky. "For showing me this."

He looks at you and smiles. Then he turns his eyes back to the sky.

"Come on. Let's go pretend we were asleep this whole time." He says standing up.

You grab his hand and he looks down at you. "Let's stay just a little while longer. They won't be up anytime soon anyway. At least until the last star disappears." You say looking up him.

He chuckles and sits back down beside you, even closer than before. "Okay. Til the last star disappears."