‼️TW: talk of death, suicide and domestic abuse‼️

The next day, you wake up sometime around 11am. Since it was Friday, you didn't have any classes so you got to sleep in.

You spend the day "studying" and by "studying" you mean having your laptop and notes out but scrolling through tik tok the entire time.

Around 4, you begin getting ready to go to the fair as planned at 5.

You decide to just wear a pair of denim shorts and a white baggy knitted sweater.

You're grabbing your stuff and when you grab your phone off the charger, you have three new messages.

Sasha 🍓
Sasha: outside!

Big head
Big head: Hurry up girl

Unknown
Unknown: u have 10 seconds or we leave u here

It's only right to assume the last text is Eren since you don't have his number saved. You slip on your shoes and head out the door.

You make it to Connie's car where Sasha accompanies him in the front and Eren in the back. "Hey." You huff out, you were out of breath from running down the stairs since they were already rushing you.

"Hiiiiiii." Sasha sings. "Sup." Connie says, pulling out the parking lot. Eren does a little head nod.

He points at your phone. "Save my number." You hand him your phone so he can do it while you finish tying your shoes. Which you instantly regret once you see the smirk on his face while he's typing his name in.

He hands you the phone back and you look at the newly saved contact.

Daddy Eren 😩

"Oh hell no!" You begin to erase his name but he stops you. "Okay, okay! Wait." He grabs it back and just changes it to E 🖤

You scrunch up your face when you see the heart. You make note to take that off later.

"Why is it called the end of summer festival if we are in August already? Didn't it already end?" Connie asks, sticking a stick of gum in his mouth.

"Summer doesn't end until September 22. That's when the Fall season begins." You laugh. "Even I knew that." Sasha says proudly.

Connie scratches his head. "So you're saying we basically should still be on summer vacation?!"

After a semi long car ride of Connie asking a million questions about how seasons work, you finally make it to the fair.

You weren't sure what you were expecting. But it definitely wasn't this.

The fair was more like a carnival type thing. There was a ton of rides, a small rollercoaster and a massive ferris wheel. There was hundreds of booths that sold food or had little carnival games. There even was a petting zoo.

"Let's go get our wristbands." Sasha says as you all step out the car. When you walk up to the ticket booth, all of you begin to take your wallets to pay when Eren stops you. "I got it." He says taking out a bill. "4 wristbands, please." He says to the lady working the stand and hands her the money.

Connie throws his arm around Eren. "Awww Jaegerbomb, you're the sweetest." He plants a huge sloppy kiss on Eren's cheek and Eren pushes him off and wipes the saliva away. He acts disgusted but he's smiling a little.

You admire the boy for a second. He had his hair up in his signature style man bun and wore a plain black tee with a black leather jacket and jeans. If he wasn't such a dick, you'd be all over that.

The first ride you all decide to go on is The Cyclone which is a ride where you get in this egg shaped thing and there's a big ass steering wheel in the middle so you can control how fast you spin.

While you're in the line waiting, Connie and Sasha sing the lyrics to Cyclone by Baby Bash and even add choreography too. "SHE MOVE HER BODY LIKE A CYCLONEEEE." Connie sings. "AND SHE MAKES ME WANNA DO IT ALL NIGHT LONGGGG!" Sasha continues.

They sing at you pushing you to dance and you get a little shy especially with Eren's piercing eyes watching you but you go ahead and do a little spin anyway, moving your hips. Connie and Sasha cheer you on and Eren grins watching you intently.

Finally, you make it to the front of the line and before you cross the line, Connie turns to look at you and Eren with an evil look. "Let's see who can make theirs spin faster."

"Oh, you're on." Eren rubs his hands together. You're actually so relieved he is being open and fun about stuff like this. You were kinda scared that he would be boring to be around, like he'd be too cool to get on stuff or to have fun.

You and Eren hop into one of the little spheres while Connie and Sasha hop into the one beside you. "Prepare to GET FUCKED!" Sasha screams. A group of kids stare in horror in a car beside them.

Eren looks at you and smiles. "Don't throw up cause we gonna make this thing spin spin." You laugh. "I don't like losing so I'm ready."

The ride starts and you and Eren begin pulling on the wheel rapidly. Right off the bat, Connie and Sasha are spinning insanely fast. What did you expect from the duo that literally radiates crackhead energy?

But where they had energy, your team had strength. Once you see they're going faster, you and Eren decide to give your full effort now. The car is spinning uncontrollably and every time it does, you and Eren bump heads a little and you start laughing.

The ride ends and you have to sadly, give the win to Connie and Sasha. I mean, they literally almost spun off the fucking platform! You were genuinely scared for them at one point.

They hop off the ride and scream. "LET'S GOOOOOO!" They chest bump each other. "Yeah, yeah. You only won because you guys almost broke the fucking ride." Eren says hopping out. He holds out his hand for you to take. When you do, your head is still spinning and you trip. Luckily, he catches you.

"Oh yeah? Let's see what excuse you come up with in bumper cars." Sasha challenges. "Except bumper cars it's every man for himself." Connie declares as he turns to Sasha and points at her. "You're the enemy now." Sasha gasps. "Damn. It's crazy how quick they switch up."

Once you make it to the bumper cars, you jump into the purple one, Sasha in a yellow one, Connie in a green one and Eren, of course, in a black one.

You're actually kind of scared. Two crackheads and an aggressive emo boy against you.

All three of them look at you and grin at you like sharks and you realize they're all planning to gang up on you.

The buzzer starts and your first instinct is to run away. You drive away as far as you can, Connie and Sasha chasing you from behind. You're a screaming laughing mess.

You're too busy watching behind you that you don't even see Eren in front of you. You realize that he's there much too late and he crashes into you head on. He laughs and flicks you off.

"Ohhhh, you're dead." You say and then both Connie and Sasha ram you from the back on both sides. "YOU GUYS ARE LITERALLY GANGBANGING ME RIGHT NOW?!?!" You yell. You instantly slap your hand over your mouth when a little girl next to you looks at you wide eyed. Whoops.

Connie chases kids around the rest of the time and Sasha chases him, shouting at the kids that she'll protect them. Meanwhile you and Eren both go back and forth between chasing and being chased by each other.

You have yet to hit him the entire time cause he dodges you every time but finally you get a clear shot and you charge at him. When he sees you coming right for him, his eyes get big and he yells "Oh shit!"

He flinches and shuts his eyes but before your car even touches him, the cars stop moving. "ARE YOU KIDDING?!" You yell. He bursts out laughing hysterically. "Oh thank God."

The next ride is the Ring of Fire. A giant circular rollercoaster that goes upside down and even stays like that for a couple seconds.

Sasha and Connie get in the seats in front of you and Eren. Your heart is beating out your chest and you grip the handles of the shoulder restraints.

"You scared?" Eren asks, leaning his head forward so he can see you. "A little." You lie. You were actually shitting yourself. He laughs and lets go of the handle bar. "Wanna hold my hand?"

"No way! I'm not that scared." You fight. He laughs again and leans his head back again. "Alright if you say so." Sasha and Connie shout out excited whoops in front of you.

The ride begins and it's not so bad at first. It's goes upside down so fast that you barely even notice it. It helps that your eyes are squeezed shut.

After about four times of going round and round, the fifth time the coaster stays at the very top of the circle, staying upside down. "Oh my god, I'm not looking, I'm not looking." You announce.

And for some dumbass reason, you look. You scream once you see your whole world is upside down and you see your hair dangling over your face.

You instinctively grab Eren's hand out of fear. "We're gonna die, this is how I die, this is how I go out." You panic, squeezing your eyes shut again. Eren squeezes your hand. "Relax. I'm right here. If you don't wanna look down, just look at me."

"No, no, no, I don't wanna open my eyes." You cry. Connie screams. "I'm gonna pass out! I'm gonna pass out, holy fuck!" Then there's silence and Sasha bursts out laughing. "Oh my god! He actually passed out?! What the fuck?!"

It was funny he was the one to pass out considering it was his idea to get on it. "I'm next. I'm next. I'm gonna pass out. Or throw up. Or just die." You say. Eren can't stop laughing at you.

Finally the coaster moves and does a full circle before stopping at the top again. You squeeze Eren's hand even harder as if your grip on him would save you.

He loosens his grip and lets go of your hand and you panic and grab it again. "Don't let me go!" You scream. He's having the time of his life watching you freak out.

Finally, the ride is over and Sasha has to slap Connie awake. When he wakes up, he snaps his head up quick and whoops. "WOOOOOOOO!" Sasha looks at him dumbly. "The ride is over buddy."

You finally open your eyes and take deep breaths. "That was literal hell." You pant. The restraints come up and you look at Eren who is perfectly normal. "You gonna let go now?" He asks. You gasp and yank your hand away once you see they're still intertwined. "Sorry."

After you guys get off and come back to earth, Sasha complains that she's starving and suggests to get some food. "I'm not really hungry, besides, if we plan on getting on more rides, I don't wanna throw up." You say. "I'm not hungry either." Eren says.

Connie and Sasha leave you two there while they go to the booths where all the food is to choose what they wanna get.

You turn to look at Eren and he's looking around at all the other rides with his hands in his jacket pockets. He catches you looking at and speaks up. "What?"

"Nothing. I'm just surprised." You say rocking back and forth on the heels of your feet and your hands in your back pockets. "Surprised?" He asks. "Mmhm. You're actually kinda fun." You reply.

He chuckles. "I'm offended." You laugh. "You're just always so serious all the time with your whole I hate the world persona."

He smirks and looks you up and down. "Yeah? What's your persona? I hate Eren Jaeger?"

You giggle. "Pretty spot on." He runs a hand through his hair. "Maybe if I was more like Jean Boy, you'd like me."

You roll your eyes and step closer to him. "Or maybe if you were just nicer." He looks down at you. "I can be nice. Wanna see?" You look up at his lips and they curl into a smile.

You start getting intrusive thoughts and you push him away. You almost lost yourself for a second. You refuse to be seduced by him. No way.

He laughs and looks away. "You get so nervous when I look at you."

"Only when you look at me like that!" You insist. "Like what?" He counters, still looking off in the distance.

"You know what." You assert. He doesn't respond and keeps his eyes on something far. "What?" You ask.

"My brother is here." Eren says. "Your brother? You have a brother?" You ask astonished. You learn something new about this boy every day.

"Half." He corrects you and begins walking to said brother. "Oh. What's his name?" You follow behind him. "Zeke."

Zeke? Zeke Jaeger? Why does that sound so damn familiar. You walk up to a man with golden hair and a nice beard with glasses. He was extremely attractive which came as no surprise considering he was related to the gorgeous boy beside you. You definitely have seen him before but can't put your finger on where.

"Little brother!" Zeke exclaims, arms open wide. He reaches for a hug but Eren just pats him on the back. "Lovely day today, isn't it?" He grins.

He was the total opposite of Eren. Where Eren was dark and gloomy, Zeke was bright and friendly. Their hair colors matched perfectly with their personalities.

"And who is this?" The golden boy asks grabbing your hand and bringing it to his lips. Eren yanks it away before his mouth makes contact. "This is-"

"My little sister." A voice says. You know that voice all too well. Your heart drops and your tongue grows twice as big causing you to you cease any communication.

"Sister? You didn't tell me you had a sister, Pieck." Zeke says, looking you up and down.

"Step." You correct them both.

You eye the girl beside Zeke. Pieck Finger. Your step sister. She was small and had a somewhat petite figure but had curves in all the right places. She had long black hair that was always a mess even when she threw it up in a ponytail. She had pretty droopy eyes that always made her look sleepy, her bedroom voice adding on to that illusion.

"Wow. Beauty runs in the family then. I'm offended you didn't tell me your sister was this beautiful, Pieck." Zeke winks. Eren growls at him. "How can it run in the family if they aren't blood related, you idiot. Keep your dick in your pants."

Pieck smiles and wraps an arm around you. "She is beautiful, isn't she? Come on baby sister, let's go for a walk." You glare at her and she smiles but you know that smile. You know it very well.

You hesitate at first and look at Eren, hoping he can somehow read your mind and find an excuse to drag you away. But sadly, he isn't Jean who always knows how to read you.

"Go. I'll be right here." He says. Zeke throws an arm around him in the similar manor Pieck has hers around you. "Don't worry. I'll watch him for you." He grins.

Once you and Pieck are out of eye sight, you squirm from out under her arm. "What do you want Pieck?" You ask her crossing your arms over your chest.

"Ouch. I haven't seen you in almost a year and that's how you greet me?" She pouts. "You can quit the caring older sister act, no one is around." You snap.

Her innocent smile drops. "Why are you hanging out with Eren Jaeger?"

"Why do you care?" You scoff. "Because believe it or not, I actually care what happens to you." She replies.

"Yeah right. You just wanna report everything back home. I know you." You fight.

She chuckles. "I see your attitude and smart ass mouth hasn't changed. Along with your taste in men."

"Shut the fuck up, Pieck. I'm not playing." You warn.

"I was hoping you leaving home would help change you but looks like you're still make the same dumbass choices." She snaps back.

In a blink of the eye, your hand slaps her across the face with alarming speed. Her face spins to the side and she brings a hand up to her cheek. "See what I mean, you're still the same bit-"

"I bought you funnel cake." Eren says. You have no idea how long he was standing there but you're so grateful for the interruption.

"Thanks." You mutter while taking the plate from him. "Let's go."

Pieck steps in front of Eren. She's much more smaller than him but still looks him right in the eye with no fear. "Stay away from my sister."

He laughs harshly. "Or what?"

She steps even closer, squaring right up to him. "I know the kind of boy you are, Jaeger. I hear the stories."

"We're just friends, you idiot." You say trying to break apart their intense stare off.

"You think I care what you think of me?" He scoffs.

"Think? Oh no. I know. I'm close to your brother and you're just like him. Sleeping around and tossing girls to the side once they get boring. Except you're way worse." She smirks. "Must run in the family or something. Grisha raised both of you after all."

Something about that name strikes a cord with Eren because his cool, tough exterior fades and his eyes grow cold and his hands turn into tightly closed fists.

"Fuck off Pieck. Unless you're trying to get bitch slapped again." You say stepping in between them. She looks at you and laughs. She throws her hands up in air with mock surrender. "Fine."

She turns away to head back to her group. "I'll make sure to let mommy know you said hello." She calls back as she walks away.

You turn to face Eren. "You okay?"

"Yeah." He says. You rip a piece of the funnel cake off and bring it to your mouth. "Come on. Let's go to the ferris wheel, the sun is starting to set."

You approach the ferris wheel and reach the front of the line surprisingly quick. "Sup Jaeger." The guy checking wrist bands says. "Sup." Eren responds while grabbing your wrist to show the wristband to the man.

You can count how many times people greeted him using both hands. Everyone seemed to know him and you weren't sure if it was a good thing or not.

You step inside the car marked number 3 and Eren follows behind you. "Should we have waited for Connie and Sasha to get on here?" You ask taking a seat on the left side. Eren sits on the right side across from you. "Nah. They like the faster rides, the ferris wheel is boring to them." You laugh. "Of course."

He leans back into the seat, spreading his arms across the head rests. "So, why did you slap your sister?"

"Step. And because she's annoying." You grunt.

"Annoying is accurate." He agrees. "Can't believe you bitch slapped her though."

You shrug. "She had it coming. She knows how I am and she still kept pushing me to that point."

"Knows how you are, huh? You two used to be close or something?" He leans forward, actually interested in listening. "Not really. We actually never really got along." You answer.

"Why not?" He asks. You sigh and look out the window. "Long story."

He throws his hands in the air. "We got nothing but time up here. Or would you rather we just sit here in silence?"

You sigh. "I wouldn't even know where to start."

"At the beginning. how are you two related?" He asks. You feel your body start to sweat, your hands clammy. "My mom cheated on my dad with her dad and now they're married."

Eren winces. "Damn. That's tough. What happened to your dad? How did he take it?"

"He killed himself." You say bluntly.

Eren's eyes basically pop out his head. You can tell he wasn't expecting that at all. "Oh." Is all he manages to mutter.

"Yup. Anyways, he dies and my mom marries the guy and I hated her for it. I blamed her and Pieck's dad for my dad's death so I was pretty shitty to them for years. Pieck never did anything wrong but since she was that guy's daughter, I took my anger out on her too. I did a lot of bad shit to get back at all of them. Some stuff I'm definitely not proud of."

"Sounds like they deserved it." He says. "I guess." You say looking down at your feet.

He eyes you carefully and gets up from his seat and sits right by you. "So you're a bad girl from Marley, huh? A city girl."

"Retired." You lift up a finger. "Lame. Being the bad guy is so much more fun." He smirks.

"Not when you find yourself constantly hurting the people you love." You state. He looks at you in your eyes and you do the same. It's like he's trying to read you but he can't. Your heart starts beating faster the longer he stares into your soul, those turquoise eyes piercing into you.

You're the first one to break away due to nervousness and you look behind his head through the window. "Look, the sunset." He turns to face the window too. "Oh yeah. You should take a picture."

"Already on it." You say grabbing your phone out your pocket. You open up snapchat and take a video of the sunset and make sure you catch all the rides below, their lights now glowing brightly.

You then double tap the screen and turn the camera toward you and Eren and you both simultaneously stick the middle finger up at the same time causing the two of you to laugh.

"Don't worry I won't post it." You say ending the video.

"Why not?" He wonders.

"Well I don't want your girlfriends to attack me." You respond. He rolls his eyes, "Send it to me."

You send him the video and to your surprise, he posts it on his story. "Want me to take a picture of you with the view in the back?" He asks. You're blushing. "Ah, you don't gotta do that."

"I obviously know that. I want to." He says holding a hand out for you to hand him your phone. You debate it and his impatient ass smacks his lips and takes out his phone instead. "I'll take them on my phone then. Sit more back."

He begins snapping multiple pictures of you while you pose awkwardly at first but then he makes photographer jokes like "Oh yeah! More of that!" or "Give me angry! Give me pouty!" causing you to loosen up and genuinely smile and laugh.

"You're so dumb." You giggle. He flips through the pictures on his phone. "You're pretty photogenic." He says.

"Please. No, I'm not." You say covering your face. Why were you blushing so much?

You bust out your phone and open up your camera. "My turn. Pose for me, darling." You say in your best french impression.

He laughs, leans back and does typical boy poses like the rock on sign or the middle finger. "Yes babe, give me absolutely nothing!" You tease.

"What do you want me to do? Take my shirt off?" He asks. "Smile. You have such a nice smile." You say, still holding the phone up.

"I can't smile on command." He grunts. "What? Just smile." You respond annoyed.

"I can't! You're gonna have to make me because I can't just smile on command, I'm gonna look stupid." He argues back.

You sit back and think about what you could possibly do to make Eren Jaeger smile. Crack a joke? Make a stupid face? No, that wouldn't work.

You lean forward and kiss him on the nose. A light pink color spreads across his face and his eyes soften. You giggle as you pull away and he smiles.

You quickly take the opportunity to take a picture. You look at it once you snap the photo and you're in awe. "Wow." You say out loud.

He's smiling brightly in the picture, the blush on his face complimenting his tan skin and his big eyes glistening.

"Let me see." He says scooting next to you, your shoulders touching. "Oh damn." He says. "You look happy." You say. "You need to smile more. If you get girls going crazy with that RBF you got, imagine when you look like this."

He laughs and shakes his head. "Shut up." It hits you that you now have like a million photos of him on your phone and he has the same of you on his.

Finally, the ride stops and you and him hop off. You begin to dial Sasha so you can meet up with her and Connie again when your heart ceases it's rhythm.

There's no way.

Why?
Why him?
Why here?
Why now?

Your face grows pale and you feel your mouth water like you're about to vomit.

"Hey. You okay?" Eren asks. You can't even speak. The knot in your throat is choking you and your stomach twists in all kinds of directions. Your feet are nailed to the ground and your eyes unable to break away.

"Hey." He shakes you. "What are you looking at?"
He follows your line of vision and spots the boy. "You know him or something?"

You snap out of your trance and grab his arm. "Let's go."He stands his ground causing you to jolt back. "No. Who is that?"

"Please." Your grip on his arm tightens, your nails diggin into the leather of his jacket practically ripping it. Your eyes are frantic and your body trembles. It looks like you've just seen the devil in person. And honestly? You kinda did.

He studies you and his face grows worrisome. "Fine." He removes the invisible weights from his body and you drag him away.

You two walk further away until he grabs your arm and stops you. "Hey."

"What?"

"What was that about? Who is that?"

"Doesn't matter."

You begin walking again and he grabs your shoulder to spin you back around. "Who is he?" He repeats, sternness in his voice.

"Drop it." You growl.

"No. Why are you so scared of him?"

"I'm not."

"Dude. Come on. I've never seen someone look at someone that scared before." He insists.

"Let it go, Eren." You warn.

He stares at you angrily. Your eyes soften as they grow watery. "Please?"

He sighs and looks away from you. He can't help but to melt when you look at him like that.
"Fine."

You two finally meet up with Sasha and Connie who both have large turkey legs in their hands. "Mm, hey! Where did you guys disappear to?" She asks.

"Ferris wheel." You say in a low voice, clearly still shaken up. Sasha and Connie cease their chewing and stare at you. Sasha immediately runs up to Eren and grabs him by his collar. "What did you do?!"

He pushes her off. "I didn't do shit!" You raise your hand up to stop her. "He didn't do anything."

Connie takes a bite of the meat. "What's wrong then?"

"Nothing. I think I just got dizzy from the ride or something. I'm gonna go use the restroom real quick." You lie. Eren looks at you with judging eyes.

"Want me to come with?" Sasha asks wiping her mouth.

"No, it's fine. I'll be quick. Just wait here." You say and begin to walk away. Eren looks like he wants to follow you but lets you go.

You head to the building where the restrooms are and rush inside one of the stalls. You sit on the toilet and hyperventilate. Why out of all places and all people did he have to be here?

Your ex boyfriend. Your first love. Your first everything. Including heartbreak. The boy who turned you evil and made you turn to drugs. He was a horrible influence on you. You met him when your dad died and you were looking for an escape from reality. And boy did he give you that. You were vulnerable and weak and he did not hesitate to take instant advantage of that.

Your ex boyfriend. The boy who cheated on you with a mutual friend and then beat you when you tried to leave him.

Your ex boyfriend. The real reason you moved away.

Your ex boyfriend. The only person you were scared of.

Your ex boyfriend. The boy here at this fair.

You felt like throwing up. Your body was shaking tremendously and it felt like the earth was going to swallow you whole or like you were drowning in the middle of the ocean during a storm.

Perfect, an anxiety attack. Just what you needed.

You didn't know what to do. You didn't wanna leave this stall. It was your safe space at the moment. Like no one could hurt you here. This disgusting public toilet that smelled like shit yet managed to bring you so much comfort. You were safe here. Outside was the last person you wanted to see.

I mean come on, first Pieck, now him? Was the universe punishing you for something? You should've known better that you couldn't hide forever. The past always catches up to you.

Tears begin to fall from your eyes and you wipe them away aggressively. You swore to yourself that you would never cry because of him again. You hate how much a effect he has on you still. It makes you furious.

Your skin burns, it feels like you were tied to a stake and set on fire, unable to move.

You grab a fistful of toilet paper and dab at your face. You were no longer scared, you were angry. You hated feeling weak.

You were in such a good mood just a few minutes ago. You were supposed to be having fun with your friends. Not fucking having a panic attack in the restroom right next to someone who is having major diarrhea. At least there was someone else out there having a shitty day too. No pun intended.

You flush the tear soaked toilet paper down the drain and stomp out the restroom, a new sense of courage and boldness flowing through you.

And just like that.

It goes to shit.

"Hey y/n."

You stop dead in your tracks. The hairs on your body stand straight up. You haven't heard that voice in so long. You turn to face him.

"Anthony." The names leaves your lips.

He grins. He's leaning against the wall next to the vending machines. He was waiting for you.
"You look different, y/n. I almost didn't recognize you at first."

You say nothing. You want to turn and walk away but you know what will happen if you do. "I'm talking to you." He says coming off the wall and stepping closer to you.

Run. Run, you idiot.

"What do you want?" Is all you can muster up the courage to say.

"That's kind of rude. We haven't seen eachother in so long. I don't even get a hug?" He says.

You can't even look at him in his eyes. He brings his hand to your face to stroke your cheek and you flinch and shut your eyes. He barks out a laugh. "Don't tell me you don't miss me?"

His rough hands run up and down your cheek and then to tuck hair behind your ear. "I don't." You whisper.

"What did you say?" He asks, his voice getting louder. "I don't miss you!" You yell and he grabs you by your shoulders and slams you against the wall. You hit your head causing your vision to temporarily blur. "I don't believe that for a second." He says through gritted teeth.

You spit on him and he responds by slapping you across the face with full force.

It burns. It burns so bad. Your cheek stings and your eyes well up with tears. Maybe this was your instant karma for slapping Pieck in the face earlier.

He lets your shoulders go and grabs your face aggressively, his nails digging into your cheeks. "Aw, don't cry. You know I hate when you cry, baby." He pouts. You rip away from his grip and take off in a run, bumping into Eren who was just turning the corner.

"Shit! Oh hey. I was just coming to check on you, what took you so long?" He asks. You tug desperately at his sleeve. "Let's go please, please, please." You cry pathetically.

He looks at you and frowns. "Why are you crying and what the fuck happened to your face?" He realizes.

"Nothing, please let's just g-"

Anthony yanks your arm and brings you back toward him. "Sorry about my girlfriend. She can tend to be a bit dramatic." He says.

"Girlfriend?" Eren asks, his face confused. Then he connects all the pieces together. From your reaction when you saw this boy earlier to your scared, tear stained face.

"That's not your girlfriend." He says stepping closer. "Oh?" Anthony says gripping your arm with three times more force. He could snap it in half right now if he wanted to. You knew for a fact there would be bruises there tomorrow.

"She's mine." Eren says. Anthony begins to howl with laughter. "Really?" He releases you and pushes you harshly to Eren like a rag doll. Eren catches you mid fall and brings you closer to him.

"Is that your boyfriend, y/n?" Anthony asks. You nod. "Yes."

"Really? Because I've been watching you since you got here and he doesn't seem like your boyfriend. He doesn't even touch you. Barely even looks at you actually." His lips twist into a sinister smile causing you to get goosebumps.

It's quiet for a moment and you think it's all over. You got caught in the lie.
But then...

But then, Eren twists you around and kisses you. And kisses you hard.
One hand behind your head pushing you deeper into him and the other behind your waist.

He kisses you passionately. His lips were soft and wet. His tongue even makes an appearance causing your eyes to jolt open. His hand slides down from your waist to your ass and he grabs a hand full of it and squeezes it hard. Your first instinct is to push him off you but then you remember why he's doing this.

While still kissing you, he opens his eyes and glares at the boy that is fuming with anger in front of you.

Eren pulls away and uses his thumb to break away the string of saliva that connects your lips to his. "Like I said.. she's mine."

You look around, completely flustered and embarrassed but luckily, there's no one is around.

Except one person.
Jean.

You totally forgot he was gonna be here tonight with someone. He was just exiting the restroom when he saw everything. Eren shoving his tongue down your throat and his hands grabbing your ass.

You look at him and his face look sad and disappointed.

"See that ferris wheel right there?" Eren points at the giant lit up wheel several feet away. "I just fucked her brains out in there. Car number 3 if you wanna check, my cum is probably still in there somewhere." He smirks before finishing. "Most of it is inside her though."

Both you and Jean's mouth drop open and Anthony runs up to Eren with murder in his eyes. He swings at him and misses horribly as Eren dodges it.
Everything after that, was nothing but red.

Anthony swings at Eren but misses, his balance being thrown off and almost falling forward. Eren takes this opportunity and punches him hard and with full force in the stomach.

Anthony falls to the ground and he weakly attempts to catch a breath, pathetically grabbing at his stomach but before he can even properly inhale, Eren kicks him in the stomach again causing him to spit up blood.

You think he'd stop there but he doesn't.

He crouches over Anthony's already weak body and begins to pound into his face. Hard. There's a horrible crunching noise and you know it's the sound of his nose breaking.

He still doesn't stop.

He beats his face bloody to the point where he's not even recognizable anymore. "Stop." You croak.

But he doesn't.

He hits him again. and again. and again.
He's gonna kill him.

You know it's bad but a part of you doesn't want him to stop. He deserves this more than you can even explain.

Watching Eren beat him brings you flashbacks to when the roles were reversed and it was Anthony beating on you. How you begged him to stop and he didn't.

You know it's wrong.
But you enjoy it.

"Jaeger! Knock it off, you're gonna kill him!" Jean yells.

But he doesn't listen. You know it's because right now, he doesn't hear anything. He's blacked out, filled with rage seeing nothing but red.

Sasha and Connie come running and their eyes widen with horror. Sasha drops her turkey leg on the floor and races to grab Eren. Connie follows her.

"Eren stop!" Sasha cries trying to grab at any part of his body but he's moving so quick that she can't even grasp anything.

"He's done, Eren! You won. Stop!" Connie yells. Jean runs up to Eren now and tackles him. Eren screams angrily. "Get off me!" Jean sits up on top of him and punches Eren square in the face. "Enough already! You won!"

The punch had deeper meaning in it. It wasn't a punch that was thrown to wake someone up from a trance but a punch like when you're pissed at someone.

And you know it's because Eren kissed you. Eren pushes Jean off and sits up straight, wiping sweat off his forehead.

Sasha, who is crying her eyes out, kneels down and pushes him. "You idiot! What is wrong with you?!"

"HE HIT HER!" Eren screams back at her while pointing at you.

You're frozen in place, tears swimming down your face. Your cheek burning intensely and your arm throbbing in pain.

"What?" Jean's voice cracks. Sasha looks up at you, her face soaked with tears. "He hit you?"

Connie runs up to you and turns your face to the side, revealing a big hand print. "He did." His voice shaking.

You turn to see the limp body that lays on the floor beside you all. His face beat beyond recognition and blood pooling around him.

You fall to your knees and begin sobbing uncontrollably. "I'm sorry." You cry out. Sasha runs up to you and hugs you, sobbing along with you.

Jean walks up to the body and checks his pulse. "He's still breathing, thank God, but he needs to get to a hospital asap."

He lifts his fingers up that he used to press against the unconscious boy's neck and they're soaked in blood. "Jesus Eren, you really fucked him up."

Eren growls and jumps up. "I don't want him to be breathing. I wanna kill him."

Connie jumps in front of him, stopping him. "Let it go. He got what he deserved. If you kill him, you'll go to prison. You got as far as you could without facing any consequences but you beat him any further it's over. You're done for."

Eren pushes Connie off him and breathes heavily. His entire body shaking with anger. He looks at you as you cry in Sasha's arms. He instantly becomes weak.

He walks slowly up to you and falls to his knees. "Are you okay, y/n?" You sniffle against Sasha's shoulder. "Yeah, I'm okay."

She pulls away from you. "Y/n. Who is that?" You wipe snot from your nose. "My ex boyfriend. He cheated on me and beat the shit out of me when I tried to leave him."

Sasha begins sobbing again and yanks you back into her arms. The three boys eyes tremble with rage.

"He-" Connie begins. "He beat-"

Eren races up again and heads back toward the body. Jean and Connie jump to stop him.
"Let me go!" Eren screams repeatedly. You see Connie and Jean struggle to hold him down so you get up and attempt to help.

"Eren." You say. He instantly stops thrashing. "Please stop." You cry. His eyes melt at the sight. The two boys release him and he hugs you. His arms wrapped tightly around you. Connie, Sasha and Jean all follow and hug you too.

It was an odd feeling. This group hug. You were never really an affectionate person. Not since your dad died. He was your favorite person. Your favorite person to give hugs too. After he died, you never really wanted to hug anyone again. Your mother was always cold and distant toward you. So there was no affection there either.

Your old friends were just as cruel and evil as you used to be. How does the saying go? You are who you hang with? And then there's your first and only boyfriend. Who clearly wasn't the kindest either.

It was a strange feeling indeed. These four people embracing you in a hug. All because they were worried for you. They cared about you. They felt sorry for you.

Is this what you've been missing out on all these years? Is this genuine friendship? Is this what it feels like to be truly cared for?

You heart aches in your chest. You felt like you didn't deserve it. Like you weren't worthy of their love.

Jean calls for an ambulance and once it arrives and takes the body away, the four of you agree it's time to go.

"Wait, aren't you here with someone Jean?" Sasha sniffles. "Yeah but who cares. I'm not leaving y/n." He replies.

"Relax. She's gonna be with us." Eren says. "Like I said.. I don't care." Jean snaps back. The two boys glare at eachother intensely.

"I just wanna go to sleep." You say. Your head was pounding and your eyes were burning furiously from crying so hard. Your arm ached like crazy and your face felt swollen. You were in no mood to be seen by anyone.

"Sleep over at my place." Sasha says grabbing your hand. Her hand is covered in snot but you let it slide. "I think I just wanna be alone." You say.

"Yeah, that ain't happening, toots." Connie says throwing an arm over your shoulders. Jean smiles at you. "Nope." Eren nods his head. "Agreed."

You sigh in defeat.

You walk along side the three of your friends. Eren to your left. Connie to your right his arm still wrapped around you. Then Sasha and Jean beside him.

"Um, I don't mean to ruin this perfect moment," Sasha stops, "but you can't just leave that girl here Jean."

"Oh right." He scratches his head. "I honestly don't even know where she's at if we're being honest." He takes his phone out and his eyes explode open. He had 12 missed calls from the girl.

"Shit! She's gonna be so pissed!" He whines while calling her back. He nervously jumps up and down.

Once the phone stops ringing, there's faint screaming coming from the speaker of Jean's phone. He flinches and turns the volume down. All of you burst out laughing and wait as he explains the situation to the girl.

Connie and Sasha lean onto Jean to try to hear the conversation and begin making moaning noises.

You turn to Eren and eye his hands. "Oh my god." You gasp as you grab them. "Dude! Look at your fucking hands!" They were worse than they were before by a long shot. His knuckles were all completely busted open.

He yanks his hand away. "It's fine. Quit babying me." You grab his hand again and use your sweater to wipe some of the blood off. "Hey!" He protests. He tries to tear his hand away again but you pull it closer to you. You bring it to you lips and kiss the cut knuckles. "Thank you."

His eyes widen and he stares at you in shock. "You..you..." He yanks his hand away finally. "You're gonna get blood in your mouth weirdo!" He yells, his face painted with blush. You giggle. "Why are you blushing?"

"I'm not! I- Shut up!" He babbles. You cover your mouth as you laugh. His entire face was red and it was the cutest thing ever.

Jean sighs and returns back to you. "Alright. I got bitched at but now we're ready to go." Connie and Sasha continue making moaning noises in his ear and he angrily pushes them off. "Get off me horndogs!" They continue to do that all the way to the car.

On the ride home, no one speaks. It's dead quiet except for the sound of a couple sniffles and coughs here and there. You figure no one is in the mood to talk, especially you.

You finally arrive at Sasha and Connie's apartment. When you're inside, you plop down on the couch, emotionally and physically exhausted. You set your elbows on your thighs and cover your face with your hands. You felt like complete shit.

When you realize it's all too quiet, you look up and see all four of them staring at you like you're an abandoned puppy.

"Oh god." You groan. The last thing you wanted was for them to pity you and start treating you like you were a piece of fragile glass bound to break at any moment.

"You can put your stuff in my room, y/n. That's where you'll be sleeping. You guys gonna sleep here?" Sasha asks the two boys. They both nod and then stare at each other.

Well, this should be interesting.

Connie clears his throat. "Well I on the other hand, am NOT sharing my bed so enjoy the couch, boys!" He says smacking both of them on their backs before heading to his room to change.

"You guys don't have to stay here." You say to them. "Shut up." Eren says as he sits next to you. Jean sits on the opposite side of you and moves your hair out your face, being extra careful not to hurt you even more. "How you feeling?"

You stare down at your feet. "I'm okay. A little shaken up. My cheek hurts but not as bad as my arm. That's what really hurts."

You lift your sleeve and you wince as you do so, the rough fabric of your sweater grazing against the wound. Your arm is a dark shade of purple and blue with a little bit of green. Tears immediately flow down your face once you see it. The PTSD was real right now.

Eren begins fuming once again while Jean just looks away, eyes forced shut. You slide your sleeve down and turn to Sasha. "Can I borrow some clothes?" She jumps up. "Oh yeah, hold on."

"Sash. You have a first aid kit or something?" Eren asks. She scratches her head. "I think one came with the apartment. Check under the kitchen sink." She then leaves to her room to grab you clothes.

Eren gets up to check for the first aid kid in the kitchen and Jean gets up to follow Connie into his room for a change of clothes.

"Found it." Eren announces and you get up to meet him at the table. He opens it up and then softly grabs your face and tilts it to the side.

"Your face doesn't look too bad. You do have little cuts though." He says confused. "He dug his nails into my face." You sigh rubbing at the marks.

He takes a deep breath and shuts his eyes. Once he exhales, he takes a look at your arm. "I can put some of this pain reliving cream. That good?" You shrug. "Sure."

After he finishes wrapping it, he begins to close the kit when you stop him. "My turn." You open it back up and grab his hands. He tries to yank them away but you pull on them, hurting your arm but you don't care. "Please let me."

He sighs and surrenders. You grab a cotton ball and put hydrogen peroxide on it and begin dabbing at the cuts. You look up at him when it makes contact expecting him to hiss once it burns him but he doesn't even blink.

After disinfecting them, you apply the pain relieving cream and some ointment that claimed to be good for helping the healing process. Then, you begin to wrap them up with the bandage wrap. "Thanks." He mumbles. You smile. "Mmhm. You should put some ice on it."

Sasha returns back with a change of clothes for you and you ask her if you can borrow her restroom.

"Duh. Oh! Take that first aid kit with you, I think its better if it's in the restroom and not the kitchen." You nod and take the box with you.

Once you're in the restroom, you shut the door behind you and let out a deep rooted sigh. You slide your back down the door and sit on the floor. What the actual fuck happened today?

You run into Pieck and Anthony on the same day? At the same place?!

Not to mention the disaster that came from it. And to think Eren of all people was the one beside you for all of it too. You never saw that coming. Jean maybe, but not him. You begin to wonder how Jean would've handled either one of those situations.

Perfectly on time, Jean knocks on the restroom door. You open it up slightly. "Yeah?"

"Can I come in?" He asks. You open up the door and he slides in, closing it behind him. "You okay?"

"Yeah." You say looking down. For some reason, you were so embarrassed to face him right now. You hated the fact he saw you at a weak point like that. You wouldn't be surprised if he lost any feelings he had for you.

"You not gonna wrap my hand up too? I'm jealous." He jokes. You look down at his hand and see his is busted open too. You totally forgot he punched Eren.

You grab his hand and run your thumb along the cuts. His hands weren't nearly as bad as Eren's but they were still roughed up.

You open up the box and begins to repeat the same process. "I can't believe you punched Eren." You laugh. He chuckles. "Someone had to do it."

You concentrate as you clean the wounds and he watches you intently. The room extremely quiet. Right when you finish wrapping the bandage, he speaks up.

[play Bubblegum by Clairo to set the mood]

"Y/n?" Jean says softly. "Hm?" You reply, not looking up.

"I'm sorry I didn't kiss you in the rain that day." He says, disappointment in his voice. You look up at him, your eyes wide. His filled with sadness. "I don't want you to think I didn't want to. Because it's obvious I wanted to."

You don't know what to say. There's a knot in your throat again. "Eren got to kiss you first. All because I didn't. I wanted to be the one to kiss you." He continues. You feel his hands flex in yours.

"Jean.." You start. "It's always him." He says. "Every damn time."

He begins walking out the room and you panic. You did not want to lose him. "Wait!" You jump at him and he spins toward you at same time, bumping into eachother.

You look up out of breath and your noses are just a few inches apart. The two of you stare at each other and your hear your heart thumping in your ears. You bite your lip as you work up the courage and then reach up on your tiptoes and kiss him.

He responds by bringing both hands up to each side of your head, pulling you closer and kissing you back harder. You can tell by the passion in his kiss that he had been wanting to do this forever. You felt warm inside, your insides melting. Finally.

You look up at him and pull away. "I wanted it to be you too." You bring your hands to his cheek. "Don't get weird around me, okay?"

He smiles sheepishly. "Okay. I won't."

And as always he reads your mind he says, "Don't worry, I don't wanna lose you either. Don't plan to anyway."

You smile and nod and he walks out. You sit in noiseless room for just a little while longer with your thoughts.