Of all the feelings floating inside
I am not sure which are mine
And which are lies that I created.

Is it real to say I feel both nothing
And feel like I truly do
Feel something all at once?

Is what I feel truly me or
Is it what I feel dictated by society
Or is it faked as a way of fitting in?
Truly I don't know
And truly-

I don't think I want to

The lies of emotion flooding
Roses and rot occupying my mind
What am I?

And most importantly-
Do I tell him?