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⇒ Levanter Apartments
11:55pm

Heart pumping uncomfortably fast against his chest, Felix puffed out irregular breaths, palms sweating as they stayed stuck on the clothed arm and chest of the bigger male beneath them. His lower lip almost bled from the persistent gnawing against them, and his eyelids became sore from the way he'd fluctuate his actions between squeezing them shut and widening them to their maximum. He shivered at each subtle stroke of veiny fingers against his back, and his toes wiggled restlessly while his legs stayed curled up in the most awkward yet somewhat comfortable position.

"Why are you so quiet?" Chan smiled as he broke the silence, lowering his head to have a full view of the small boy in his arms. "What's on your mind?"

Shifting a little in the older's hold, Felix hesitated before resting his chin on the male's chest, eyes finally locking with the other's. "Nothing," he spoke lowly, tense body somewhat relaxing when their eye contact only deepened, clearing the foggy nervousness in both their minds to allow a smooth, harmless path for their mutual emotions to be expressed. "I just- It's my first time cuddling someone like this."

Chuckling lightly at the mumbled statement, Chan lowered his head a bit more to plant a light kiss on his boyfriend's forehead, the way Felix's eyes closed with a smile beneath their sockets softening his heart even more. "Well, you deserve it, Lix. You need a break like this before your exam on Monday."

"I know," Felix muffled into the older's chest, sighing and twisting slightly to feel more comfortable. His mind was too caught up with the task of saving the sweet, addictive scent of the older's perfume in his memories to sensibly line up words for a proper conversation, and Chan's heavy yet soothing breaths over his head only made such task even more difficult. Swallowing thickly and sucking in a breath to keep from melting into the lovely scent again, Felix found something else to say- something random, yet still broad enough to open in-depth conversation. "C-Channie, you know, I've never- I've never seen you in the daytime?"

Stopping his petting along the boy's back, Chan sat up further against the armrest of the couch, brows lifted and lips pursed in thought. "Hm," he hummed, mind tracing over each of their moments together throughout their one-month relationship, and the realization that they really had never laid eyes on each other in the presence of sunlight troubled his conscience. "Wait... you're right? I've never seen those beautiful freckles under the sun~"

"Channie, you're making me shy," Felix giggled into the older's chest, hands finally relaxing enough to hug the man's torso more comfortably. "That's sad though... but I understand. I'm not complaining, Chan, so don't get the wrong idea. I understand and respect-"

"What if?" Chan smirked as he cut the boy off, tongue running loosely over his lower lip, and hand resuming its stroking along the younger's back, more sensually that time. He sucked in a deep breath before continuing, carefully analyzing all possible outcomes of the plan that had just been drawn up in his head- the plan that still managed to win the race between itself and true love, no matter how close the named rival was to winning. How close love was to solely coordinating the relationship before the younger agreed to have such an intimate moment with his boyfriend. "What if I spend the night?"

Shooting his head up from the man's chest, Felix anxiously scooted up from his position, innocently bracing his hands against the older's pecs while his legs straddled the other's clothed waist. His eyes gleamed with joy, hope, and skepticism, and the seductive yet adorable smirk on the latter's face teased the fluttering wings of butterflies in his stomach. "The night? That's possible? You can actually spend the night with me?"

Hands finding their way to stroke the slim waist of the blonde, Chan chuckled lowly, thinking twice before sliding his fingers up under the hem of Felix's sweater, stopping and monitoring the younger's reaction when he slightly but noticeably flinched from the gesture. Licking his lips again, that time with more saliva coating the soft skin, Chan spoke up, voice smooth, low, and teasing, "Of course, I can. Do you want me to?"

"W-well I mean if- if you want to," Felix struggled to speak as both of the older's palms found their way further up underneath his sweater, the unfamiliar sensation sending shivers down his spine and goosebumps all along the surface of his freckled skin. "Y-you're my boy-boyfriend so it's not a- it's not a problem."

Cocking his head to the side, Chan trailed his hands higher up the boy's torso, licking his lips as he brushed his thumbs over both nipples, smirking at how they already felt so stiff just from his light efforts. "Do you like what I'm doing, Lix?" He groaned lowly, the tightness in his pants increasing by the second, and it was clear that the blonde straddling near his thigh was receiving his own recognition of the older's erection. "If you want me to stop, just say it."

Felix stopped chewing on his lip for a few seconds to think, the feeling of veiny hands exploring his abdomen suddenly numbing, as well as the hardening tip poking against his butt cheeks.

Sex.

Chan wanted to have sex, and so did he but, considering the risks that it came with, he didn't think that he was, ready. And he still hadn't told his boyfriend that he was capable of having children- that he would have to endure the pain of heats after that one night of gaining sexual pleasure from another guy.

So sighing, Felix locked eyes with the smirking male below him again, parting his lips to speak but mentally swearing when only a broken moan sounded from his throat as the latter's hands made their way down to his ass, squeezing the soft flesh ever so lightly.

"Is that a yes?" Chan questioned carnally, lips glossed with spit from the countless amounts of licks over their surface. "You wanna ease your mind and body before that exam on Monday?"

"Channie I- I don't know..." Felix spoke lowly, hands reaching to take a grip on those that effortlessly attempted to rediscover his body. "A-are you sure you wanna do this? You're my first- I want to... but I don't know-"

"Lix?"

"Mhm..."

"Can you become pregnant, or did I judge wrongly?" Chan pulled his hand back from the younger's, resting them at his side and struggling a bit to sit up more comfortably. "Like are you really a hermaphrodite? Or are you normal?"

Heart dropping and eyes glossing under the dim light in his living room, Felix looked to the side, just the admission that his own boyfriend ignorantly thought that people of his kind weren't normal- weren't worthy of the regular title of a "normal" human being, forming itself as a justification for the cultivation of lies in his head.

He loved Chan. Felix loved Chan, genuinely, and he did not want to lose the only person that seemingly cherished him, made time for him, showed him that nothing was wrong with him and what he liked. So because he had already made himself vulnerable, and because the older had practically filled in all of the slots that he desired to stay in a healthy relationship, Felix didn't want to give that up just yet.

He didn't want to stop his heart from running its official race just yet. Maybe after the first time- after getting their bodies to connect in such a way- after he had gone through his first heat, he'd claim that he "did not know" that he could have children, and then both parties would be forgiving and understanding. Because apparently, he didn't think- didn't believe, that he could become pregnant so easily the first time.

So looking down at the clothed chest of the older, Felix slid his hands underneath the male's sweater, humming and drawing over the outline of those defined abs he had only seen over the internet and drooled over the night before. "I'm normal, Channie," he spoke lowly, voice shaky yet somewhat assertive. "To my knowledge- I can't have kids..."

"Good. Because I didn't bring along any condoms," was all Chan said before cupping the boy's cheeks, pulling his face closer, and smashing their lips together. The kiss was heated, sloppy, guided by mere lustfully-masked emotions. And the way Felix quickly melted back into the action was enough of a confirmation despite his lack of verbal response to the specified question.

Chan's hands found their way to the hem of the boy's sweater again, this time pulling the clothing off over his head, both whimpering lowly at the short moment of release between their lips. Felix's inexperienced hips rolled rather freely over his boyfriend's bulge, low moans bypassing his lips when the older pulled away from the kiss to leave kisses and licks along the narrow expanse of smooth skin along his neck and collarbone, shivers vibrating along his spine as those veiny hands remained with a firm grip on his bare waist, lips almost drawing blood from the way his teeth stayed latched upon them, fighting to keep back loud moans and whines at the sensation of the warm tongue coursing his flesh.

¡!

"Let's go to your room," Chan whispered against the boy's skin, smiling at the mess of a blonde seated in his legs before gripping those uncomfortably clothed ass cheeks, getting them both off of the sofa and into the single bedroom, faces sloppily molded together during the older's slurred, corrupt steps forward.

Laying Felix gently against the made bed, Chan hastily pulled his own sweater off, not once breaking eye contact with the unknowingly skeptical boy laid out on the bed before him, a sheepish green widening from the smirk boasting his dimples. "They look much better in person, don't they?" He spoke lowly, both their breaths echoing the small space as he took a hold of the younger's hand to place on his chest, soon releasing and watching as Felix drew the palm down so knowingly, his lower, already swollen lip trapped in between his teeth.

Chan took a moment to admire the younger below him; how the boy's blonde strands were so frizzy and scattered on his head, how his lips were so spit stricken and swollen from such mediocre foreplay, how his chest heaved up and down so restlessly- cravingly.

It was all so overwhelming- so unbelievably breathtaking, almost sending the artiste crazy from just the dirty ideas forming in his mind for both present and future sexual activities with his partner. "You look, beautiful sweetheart," he mumbled before diving in for another kiss, lips soon trailing down over the wider swathe of skin along Felix's torso, smiling at each purple and red stain that remained after his teeth and tongue would claim another spot to mark their territory.

He kissed lower, and lower, until he got to the waistband of the younger's shorts, biting on the edge teasingly for a few seconds before looking up at a rather flustered, entranced Felix, the sight traveling straight down to his irritatingly uncomfortable pants. Pulling the clothing off of those slim legs with both his mouth and hand, Chan smirked at the boy's leaking member that was already soaking his boxers; an adorably small size, was what he thought before pulling the last piece of clothing off completely, the needy moans and gasps leaving his boyfriend's lips being enough to praise and promote his actions.

Too caught up in his own head, Felix missed the moment when his boyfriend's breath ghosted his lower half missed the moment when Chan climbed off of the bed to free his own strained dick from its clothed confinement, and only gained awareness of such action when three fingers met the sensitive skin of his lips, as well as a sternly instructed "Suck," from the older.

"S-suck?" Was all Felix could mutter in between breaths, the small glimpse he had stolen of his completely bare lower half as well as that of the latter's forcing him to obey instantly. He sucked on each digit sensually, eyes, however, still stuck on the impressive girth of his boyfriend, the only other concern populating his head being, "How will that fucking fit..."

Feeling content with the level of moisture around his fingers, Chan pulled back his hand from the younger's mouth, smirking at the way each one left with a string of saliva connecting them to the boy's tongue. "Okay this might sting a little, but I promise it'll feel good in no time." He tried to sound comforting, sitting up so that he'd be kneeling in between the younger's lifted, parted legs, the way Felix's back arched at just the slightest touch of a finger near his entrance being enough confirmation that the older should carefully insert just one.

Watching intently at the freckled face, Chan left the digit for a few seconds without moving for the boy to adjust, only starting slow thrusts when a small nod could be noticed despite still shut eyes and a scrunched up face. Chan then added in another finger, the foreign feeling frustratingly painful to the squirming boy beneath him, but anytime he'd stop, Felix's hand would still find his to resume the action. He started to scissor the younger open, brows lifting in question at the way the boy was so easily stretched open, the question of if it really was Felix's first time pausing the need for desire in his mind.

"Lix, have you done this before?" He asked hesitantly upon adding another finger, the way the walls clenched and stretched around his fingers seeming so reflexive as if they were made to stretch open easily at such unusual contact. But Chan brushed those thoughts aside when Felix's responded with a hum, a nod, and a verse of broken moans when the older's fingers found his spot. And Chan could only smile at what he was witnessing- smile at the realization that such a beauty was his- such pleasure was his to receive at any time without even worrying about the burden of fatherhood. "Are you ready now, Lix?"

With shaking thighs, swollen lips, and a hard length sprung up against his lower abdomen, Felix choked out a repetitive chorus of "Yes," whimpering a little when the three digits slid out of his hole so effortlessly, leaving it clenching and unclenching around nothing.

Assuming that no lube was available in the small apartment since it was both their first times with a male, Chan spat into his palm a few times, mixing it up with the pre-cum and stroking his dick up from the base until it felt moist enough before scooting closer up in between the thighs he so lustfully adored. Still applying soft strokes along the length, low groans leaving his lips before he bit down on them, Chan pressed the tip in cautiously, leaning forward and pressing a trail of kisses up his boyfriend's cheek, one hand staying at the side of the blond's head while the other wiped a few tears off from underneath his eye.

Chan kissed his boyfriend softly, and Felix kissed back, teeth desperately latching onto the older's lower lip when he felt the increasing stretch in his bottom. Finally entering all the way, Chan paused before thrusting, the tightness around his dick forcing his own moans out into their kiss, only the easing of his boyfriend's clawing against his back after a few seconds indicating that he could move. "You sure you ready, princess?"

"Mhm," Felix muffled against the man's lips, jaw slacking and more water forcing out of his closed eyes when the burning sensation soon subsided into pleasure, quicker than he'd expected actually, as if his walls were built to naturally adapt to such large foreigners between them- sort of how a woman's was built to automatically stretch for the passage of an unborn. But it felt good, so there was no room for complaint.

The feeling of Chan pounding into his spot repetitively while broken moans and praises left his throat- the feeling of the older's lips, teeth and tongue against his sensitive skin- the feeling of a veiny yet tender hand gripped so gently on his waist; they were all so sinfully enjoyable, so overpowering that no sense of self and reasoning could prevail in his clouded mind- no sense of rationalization was available to persuade him to at least take precaution and tell the older to pull out whenever he was close.

Instead, Felix's legs lifted to wrap around Chan's waist, holding him in the small range of movement, ensuring that everything would go in when he climaxed. "C-Chan," he choked out before releasing over both their stomachs, gasping when the older still kept his steadily patterned movements. "Fuck..."

With sloppy, slowed thrusts, Chan mouthed his own swear as he came inside of his boyfriend, both panting and whining as they came down from their highs. The older dove in to take his boyfriend's lips into his once more... so tenderly... lovingly. "I love you, Lix," he mumbled as he pulled out, the younger's eyes widening at the recognition of those three words. "Come let's go shower so I can take care of you..."

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"Y-you love me?" Felix questioned lowly, chest heaving up and down rapidly, and mind still too crowded to think over the probable consequences of what had just happened between them. "You mean that, Channie?"

Words still somewhat flowing out of a shallowing pit of lust, Chan repeated the phrase, kissing the boy again before making his way off of the bed, taking Felix in his arms soon after. "And sorry for judging you wrongly, Lix. Sorry for automatically assuming that you were a hermaphrodite before asking... I just thought it'd be best to apologize."

Arms clung around his boyfriend's neck, Felix nuzzled his face next to the older's, the guilt coursing his veins drawing thankful cries from his weakening knees that they were held up in secure brace by the male's arms. "It's okay, Chan. And I- I love you too."

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| Yang Jeongin | 20 years old |
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