Roman's POV

Seth and I have been at the club for about 3 hours and I'm about drunk as shit. I can't get Nikki out of my head and it's wrong I know but fuck I need her.

"Seth I still love her man." I slur. "Why can't I just forget about her, she hurt me," tears start building up and I take another shot. Seth is just as drunk as me as he has his own problems with Paige. The music feeling my ears. I look to my left as I hear laughing, my eyes finding her. She's with Paige, I look over at Seth and he seems just as amused as me.  We keep looking as they start dancing.  Come on man look away.

"Roman man let's go." I shake my head no and continue watching. My mouth was parted, as I stared at her in awe, I wanted to go over there and make everyone watch me fuck her.

She was the devil disguised an angel.

My smile dropped as I saw some guy approach her and start dancing with her. My jaw clenched as I saw him whisper something to her making her laugh,I needed to get out of here. She seems to notice me and her smile drops' she pushes him away and looks at me sadly. "Come on Seth let's go."

"Alright man." We get up and push our way past people. She's already dancing with someone else again and I shake my head again. It's like she wants me to hate her. 

At the hotel....

Sasha was already sleeping, I take of my shoes and my clothes and carefully get in bed. "Roman?"

"Shh baby go to sleep." He nods and lays her head on my chest. I need to forget her, I have Sasha now and she makes me happy. Is it possible to love two people at the same time? Maybe

What Nikki told me this morning was true I've moved on, maybe she should too. And the thought of it bothers me but now I have to deal with it too. It's been two years but it still hurts like a bitch, I lost my best friend and the woman I claimed to love. I wish I can give her my pain just for one moment. Not so I can hurt her, but so she can understand how much she actually hurt me.

Its funny because It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't, but it's even harder to pretend you don't love someone when you really do. That is what I feel right now I love Sasha, but I'm not in love with her.

"God help me."

2 years ago....

"Why are you being like this Nicole, what did I do to deserve this huh?" She laughs coldly.

"You see Roman, I'm tired of being questioned. Why don't you just leave me alone!"  I shake my head and tell my self not to cry.

"Why is it so surprising to know that I love you?" She laughs. "No it's not surprising, what surprises me is that you thought I loved you back."

I could literally feel my heart into pieces. "YOU KNOW WHAT NICOLE FINE! YOU WANT ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE? FINE BUT LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING THAT TITLE AND THIS JOB AREN'T GONNA BE THERE FOREVER! Don't come crawling back to me when shit goes down hill for you, because if will be to late then."

That night was the night I had officially given up, and it was like a huge weight was lifted off me. I was so done being treated like shit.