I grew up convinced that I'm not capable of loving or being loved in return. Maybe because I had such a strong mindset that I could never even feel. So how could I possibly give my all to another soul when I've got nothing to even give to myself? How could I possibly see beauty in them and make myself fall for them? How could I possibly indulge myself in another human being and satisfy all the rules of love? I could not because I was not made for that. That was until I did just all that and realized I was right all along. Love? Hell, even feelings are not for me as all they did was break me and whatever sanity I had left in me.

-E