The first thing that I did was to rent a cab into the nearest motel. Doon ako magpaplano kung ano ang gagawin ko matapos kong iwan nang basta lang ang mga taong nagtatrabaho para sa akin.

I want them to know that I did this on purpose and not because I just practically jumped the gun. I don't want them to lose their jobs because of my unprecedented actions, lalo na at mabuti naman silang mga tao at maayos naman ang kanilang pagtatrabaho para sa akin.

The cab that I rented pulled into a stop in front of a motel named Scarlet Inn. It was practically an inn, but based on my phone's map navigation app, it was listed under the nearest motels.

I payed the cab driver who didn't care about me, probably because I wasn't familiar to him, or maybe it's just the disguise that I was trying to pull off.

I was wearing a random cheap-looking cap, a black sunglasses, and a blue jacket paired with my grey jogging pants. Classic.

I went to the motel, asked a room to the receptionist who treated me the same way as the cab driver did, and was helped to reach the vacant unit for that night.

Sa umpisa, hindi ako nasanay sa itsura ng kuwartong ibinigay sa akin. It was spacious enough for a lonely person yet it looked crowded for a group of five people.

Either way, I sat down on one of the beds and pulled out my phone.

I'm not surprised. Marami na nga akong na-receive na text mula sa manager ko. Miss Magnaye kept asking me where the hell I was but I just smiled and replied back, "Don't worry about me," not knowing that my smile slowly turned into a grin.

Bumuntong-hininga ako at saka humiga sa kama. Malambot iyon at kumportable sa pakiramdam. I felt like I was being carried by a cloud, too soft, but enough to put you to a comfortable sleep.

If this motel has a rating system. I'll give it a five star. I'll definitely leave a note about them afterwards.

Now. After having my first escape. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sunod kong gagawin. Ano bang ginagawa ng mga taong gustong tumakas sa reality?

Kung umuwi akong kasama nila sa condo unit ko, I would probably be spending another hour listening to my next follow-up schedules of my projects from my manager who never gets bored of managing my career.

Sobrang dami pa naman ng mga meeting na kailangang puntahan. Walang sawang guesting na naman sa mga show na paulit-ulit lang ang tanong na paulit-ulit lang din naman ang mga isinasagot ko. It was a total test of willpower and diligence. Kung masama lang ang ugali ko, baka nasagot ko pa yung iba na panuorin na lang nila yung episode nung isang tv show, they asked me the same set of questions anyway.

Ilang taon na rin akong nagtitiis sa mga katanungan nilang paulit-ulit tungkol sa relationships ko. Hindi rin nila palalampasin ang mga tanong tungkol sa past mo, sa kasalukuyang buhay mo, and if they found out that there's 'no  current present.' Questions about what will happen in your future would follow.

At mapapamura ka na lang sa loob-loob mo kung bakit pati ang relasyon mo sa mga taong nakakasama mo, lalo na sa mga babae, ay bigla ka na lang nilang ili-link kung kani-kanino.

I know it's fairly normal for many actors out there. Pero napapaisip lang talaga ako. Why are these people obsessing with other people's love life? Kahit ako na nasa showbiz industry, wala naman akong pakialam kung may namumuo sa pagitan ng mga katrabaho ko. I didn't seem to care about their own lovelife at all.

Umaasa rin ba silang sila ang baka sakaling magugustuhan mo kung sakaling single ka? O baka naman nais lang nilang ipakita sa mga fans mo na may maganda kang girlfriend na siguradong magbibigay ng inggit sa kanila na siyang magiging resulta kung ba't karamihan sa mga kabataan ngayon ay may issue sa kani-kanilang sarili. Sometimes people in front of the cameras are the reason behind other people's insecurities.

They will ask themselves why they looked like just themselves. Kung bakit hindi sila maganda, kung ba't gano'n ang Diyos at binigyan sila ng itsurang hindi kapansin-pansin ng mga taong kagaya ko.

The worst assumption that I know so far is the fact that they probably think they would never reach the level of those women who are lucky enough to be with me.

And all I want to tell them is just, "Everyone is special."

Sadyang sa mundong kasalukuyang iniikutan ko, mga ganitong tao ang makakasalamuha ko. Yes, they are beautiful. They are rich and has a well-known social status.

Pero iniisip din kaya nila na pa'no kung ikaw mismo sa sarili mo ay hindi na natutuwa sa kasalukuyang relasyon na mayroon ka? Maybe you are just here to act as Allendale and not the usual Allan that I was before.

Because to be honest, Allan used to love someone who is probably one of those ladies who would doubt themselves right now.

Her name was Samantha.

Kamusta na kaya siya? I would love to see her again. To lay an eye in that amazing smile, and a face that I would never ever forget.