A/N:

I would just like to say that before you start reading, there is a trigger/content warning for self-harm, an eating disorder and mentionned purging. I'd also like to say that self-harm is not just cutting. It's multiple things. Now, that isn't a promo to self-harm, I'm not saying you should self-harm, you should never do that and if you do or know someone who does, please tell someone, it isn't healthy and they can probably help. Also if you accidentally hit yourself or accidentally cut yourself, it is NOT self-harm, so shut up emily (no offense to emilys who don't do this). Also please do not joke about self-harm because you can trigger someone, and if you do joke about, then you're just a dick (when I say that I mean it when someone who doesn't self-harm or doesn't put a trigger warning). Also eating disorders aren't just anorexia. Theres a lot of them, also if you skip one meal it doesnt mean you have anorexia, also eating disorders are mental disorders too. They mess with your mental health. And they can also trigger people and cause them to relapse. So don't joke about it if you don't have it or don't put a trigger warning. If you do joke about it and don't have one or don't put a trigger warning, eat shit and die. That can trigger people. Also don't purge. It's not good for you. And if you don't know what purging is, it's when you make yourself throw up. So please don't do that. Anyways thats all, thank you and stay safe <33

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Atsumu was laying down in bed, he had just finished taking his anger out on himself, this time it was cutting. He wasn't sure what made him angry or why he was angry. He just was. He felt as if he deserved it. And it didn't help the fact that his other ones were fading. If they faded, it would bother Atsumu, and it would make him feel like he didn't have a problem. He knew he did, it just, he doesn't know.

He doesn't have a specific reason as to why he does this to himself, if you asked, he would probably either deny it, lie or tell the truth depending on who you are. If you were a stranger, he would deny it, if you were a friend, he would lie, if you were his brother, he would tell the truth. Mainly because his brother knows whether or not he's lying. 

Atsumu quickly put on a pair of pants and left his room to go get some food. He decided on bagels and cream cheese. It was the only thing he had been eating recently. He did only eat for one meal though. And it's not like it's hurting anyone. If he eats more than that, he'll hate himself. He'll want to purge. 

He remembers the first time he purged like it was yesterday, he also remembers the first time he self-harmed. It all happened on the same day. He had hit his temples multiple times then a few hours later after supper he decided to throw it all up. He's not very proud of this moment in his life, but oh well, what can he do? It is out of his control after all. Well, not really, but he knows he can't stop.

Atsumu goes into his room with his food, planning on eating there. He decides to put on a movie in the background so he doesn't have to deal with the negative thoughts. He might text Kiyoomi after the movie, to see how he's doing. They are dating after all.

After the movie Atsumu texts Kiyoomi to see how he's doing. He doesn't expect an instant reply, but he gets one. He is surprised but in a good way.

Me: -1:29 PM

hi omi hru :)

Kiyoomi<3: -1:29 PM

Hey Atsumu, I'm good, how about you? Plus I was just about to text you lol.

Me: -1:30 PM

OMG ACTUALLY?? Plus im good

Kiyoomi<3: -1:31 PM

Yeah, well it's good to know that you're doing well, I was wondering if you wanted to come over this weekend? My mom was actually asking, she wants to meet you, though you'll have to ask your mom. <3

Me: -1:32 PM

YEAH I WANNA COMW OVER LET ME GO ASK MY MOM

Atsumu got off his bed and ran to where his mom was. He was really happy that Kiyoomi's mom wanted him over to meet him.

"Hey ma, is it alright if i go over ta Tokyo ta meet Kiyoomi's ma?" Atsumu asked.

"Well I would have ta speak ta his Ma first." She replied. She has met Kiyoomi's mom a few times, they text a lot, so she knows she's a good woman. She just wants to clarify with her.

"Yay ok thanks ma!" Atsumu replies and hugs his mom. He then runs back to his room to text Kiyoomi.

Me: -1:37 PM

SHE SAIS SGELL HAVE TO TALK TO UR MOM :)))

Kiyoomi<3: -138 PM

Yay okay, let me know what happens next <33

Atsumu is so excited to know what happens next, he really wants to go over to Kiyoomi's place, he wants to meet his mom (in person). He's honestly very exited.