I watched as Jungkook and Tae walked out of the apartment together.

He's going to stay with Tae...

Which probably means that they..

It felt like my heart was being broken over and over again.

I deserved this and I know I did.

I had broken Jungkook's heart and now he was breaking mine back.

As much as I was terrified to admit it, it's because I didn't just like Jungkook,

I'm in love with him.
-
Jungkook
I take in a deep breath once we exit the apartment.

Seeing Jimin again was hitting me a lot harder then I thought it would.

"Are you okay?" Tae asks, glancing at me with a look of concern.

"Lets just go." I say as I stand up straight and walk towards his car.

I didn't want to be here anymore, it's too hard.
-
Once we get back to Tae's place he shows me the extra room I was going to be staying in for a bit.

He said I could sleep in his room but I didn't want that.

I wanted to be alone.

Finally, once everything is unpacked from what I brought, I fall back into the bed.

Just seeing Jimin today had taken a lot out of me.

I really thought things were going well then within an instant everything had ended so horribly.

Right now I was so heartbroken that I couldn't even think about Jimin let alone see him.

I just wanted all of these hard times to end.

Truthfully, I wish Jimin had never found out about my sexuality and about my feelings for him.

Maybe then things wouldn't be how they are now.

At least I would still have my best friend.
;
A couple days later I had started to feel a bit better.

Of course my heart still hurt but there was nothing I could do.

Tae was trying to help as best as he could but there's only so much he could do.

After all, it isn't easy to mend a broken heart.

"What should we do today?" I ask as I walk out into the living room.

"I work today..maybe when I get home we can hang out." Tae says with a sad smile before grabbing his things.

"Okay." I mumble as I watch him walk out.

I plop down on the couch with a sigh.

Everything seemed to be negative towards me.

Nothing good was happening to me.

It's like I was meant to be lonely all my life.

Groaning, I pull out my phone and look through my camera gallery.

My heart feels heavy as I look through all of my photos.

I then stumble upon a photo album that I had in my phone labeled "My love❤️"

Hesitantly, I opened the album and my heart sank.

There was so many pictures of Jimin and I together.

Even the recent photos from Japan.

There was even photos of Jimin and I from when we were little that our parents had sent to me.

We had so many memories together..

What hurt the most was knowing that I've loved him through every single one of them and he's only thought Of me as a friend.

I hated that reality.

Quickly, I close the gallery.

I didn't want to see anymore.

It hurt too bad.

Knowing the guy I love will never love me back is enough to break my heart a billion times.
;
Later that night when Tae came home he cooked dinner for us.

"I'm sorry I had to leave earlier." He says as he takes a bite of his food.

"Don't be. Work is work." I shrug as I poke at the food.

He watches me then smiles.

"I can make it up to you after this." He says but I'm fast to decline.

"I'm Tired." I say and he pulls his lips in and nods.

"How was your day?" Tae asks, changing the subject.

"It was eh."

That seemed to be my reply a lot lately.

"You're still upset, I get it, but you shouldn't dwell too much over this. If he can forget about you so easily then you should try to forget about him too." Tae says, his eyes following me.

I take in a deep breath and stand.

"That's the problem, even when he broke my heart I still can't get over him. I've never been able to and I never will."

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Ooof sorry for the late update I've been busy 😅