Dear dreams,

What are you? I'm currently in a very confused state because I don't seem to know you anymore. I used to dream about being a novelist. Then because of discouragements and insecurity, that kind of died down and transitioned to wanting to publish a novel of my own someday.

But as life became busier and busier, I lost sight of you. What exactly are my dreams? What do I truly want to achieve? I mean, yeah, I still do want to publish a book of my own. But I don't seem to be motivated enough to work towards that anymore. I don't write as often because it tires me out. I don't know if this even is a dream I should keep having.

It saddens me that I no longer have a clear goal or dream anymore.

I'm sorry I disappointed you, my dreams.

For now, my dreams have shifted. My lifetime goal at the moment would be able to find peace with myself. I don't have big dreams but I guess I will start with that. I want to live a simple, peaceful life where I can be surrounded with my loved ones. Yeah, that will do for now.

And while I'm doing that, I'll keep searching for something I can dream about and hold onto. I won't abandon my older dreams though, but I will have to put it aside for now. 

I hope I'll find you soon again.

Much love,

Jas