I panicked as I threw my hands over myself.

"Why are you in my house?" I ask as I stare up at Jimin.

"I got bored so I figured I'd wait for you to come back." Jimin shrugs.

I stand up quickly and shuffle towards the bathroom.

"I'll be right back." I say and hurry inside.

Stupid fucking Taehyung.

My best friend, and need I remind you, the love of my life, just saw that I had a boner.

He's gonna ask questions and what am I supposed to say?

Yeah the guy you just saw earlier gave it to me?

There's no way in hell I could say that.
..
Once I took care of my business, aka thought of vaginas, my boner was gone.

Sadly, I'd still have to say why I even had one to begin with.

I definitely couldn't tell Jimin the real reason.

There was no way in hell I could do that.

I take in a deep breath before heading back into the living room.

There I find Jimin sprawled out on the couch flipping through channels.

Once he sees me he smiles and sits up.

"You were with a girl, weren't you?." Jimin grins as he sits up.

"No, I-"

"You don't have to lie. You used that guy as a cover to go hang out with girls. Did you lose your virginity?" Jimin asks, smiling from ear to ear.

I watched him as he spoke.

His hair was fluffy today and somewhat curly, it looked adorable.

He was wearing a light blue sweater and black joggers.

I was in awe.

"Are you listening to me?" Jimin asks as he pouts.

"What were you saying?" I ask and he facepalms.

"So who was she? Who did you lose your virginity to?" Jimin asks as he nudged my shoulder.

"I didn't- never mind. What are you watching?" I ask to change the subject.

"Uh, I Don't know, nothing good is on." He says as he flips through the channels again.

"Let me see that." I say as I take the remote from his hands.

I turn on Jimin's favorite movie, admiring the huge smile that takes over his face.

"I'm so excited!" Jimin grins as he adjusts himself so that he's sitting right by my side, our shoulders touching.

I look over at him and admire his face.

Everything about Jimin was absolutely perfect.

His skin was flawless, his eyes always shined, his adorable nose, and his lips..

Don't even get me started on his lips.

I wanted nothing more than to lean over and kiss him.

Suddenly, the sound of a phone going off pulls me from my thoughts.

Just as I went to reach for my phone Jimin snatched it up.

"Oo, who is T?!" Jimin asks, his eyes big.

My eyes widen as my heart launched out of my chest.

"Woah, that is one dirty text message." Jimin says and I yank my phone away, terrified.

I look at the screen and my eyes widen as I read the message.

I miss you, baby. I miss your naked body. I wish you were here so we could play. -T.

My throat seemed to close off, making it impossible to speak.

"So then you did lose your virginity! Who is T?! What does it stand for? Is she cute? Can I meet her?" Jimin asks.

I was mentally sighing in relief at the fact that Jimin wasn't even considering that it may not be a girl.

"It must be the wrong number." I lie through my teeth.

"Yeah right! Nobody gets a text like that from a random number." Jimin scoffs then leans closer to me.

"Come on, you can tell me. We are best friends after all." Jimin grins.

I hated the word best friend.

It was as if he was telling me "We're absolutely never going to be together."

"I told you, it's the wrong number." I say then stand up.

"I'm tired. I'm going to sleep." I say and Jimin whines.

"Why? I just got here."

I look down at him to see him frowning.

"I'm tired." I say, which wasn't a complete lie.

Jimin looks at the tv and shuts it off.

"Then I'll sleep too. Last one to the bed is the big spoon!" He yells and darts past me.

I watch as he goes.

Although Jimin was as straight as straight gets, he loved to cuddle.

It didn't matter who it was with, he was always up for cuddling.

Of course when he and I cuddled he thought nothing of it but I on the other hand always savored those moments.

I slowly made my way to my room where I found Jimin already laying on my bed.

It was going on 10:04pm and I was tired.

Today had been a long day and I couldn't take much more of it.

"You got here last so you're the big spoon." Jimin says as he lays down.

"Yeah yeah." I mumble as I crawl into my bed and shut the light off.

I move closer to Jimin and wrap my arms around him.

Instantly, I felt a twinge of guilt on my end.

Technically, I was dating Taehyung now.

Shouldn't I be rejecting cuddling?

I wouldn't know because I hadn't ever dated before.

"I bet T is a great person." Jimin says out of nowhere.

I glance down at the top of his head and let out a slow breath.

"Why do you say that?" I ask.

"I don't know. I just haven't seen you around a lot of girls or anything so I'm happy for you. You deserve to be happy." Jimin says in a soft voice.

"Thanks." I mumble as I stare out into the darkness of the room.

"Goodnight, Jungkook." Jimin says.

I mentally sigh as my heart hurts in my chest.

"Goodnight, Jiminie."
-
When I woke up the next morning I saw that Jimin was gone.

I sighed as I sat up and ran my fingers through my hair.

Grabbing my phone, I see two texts.

Sorry I left, Rei wanted to meet up. Let's hang out later, okay! -Jimin.

Hey baby boy, let's meet up today. Don't be late. -T.

I wasn't sure which text I should be more excited about.

Taehyung is my boyfriend now but Jimin is the man I love.

It's definitely selfish, but I want both of them.

You could never ask me to choose just one.

Yet if I was left with that choice, time and time again, I would always pick Jimin.

Then another text comes through.

I'm not asking, I'm telling. -T.

I swallow and set my phone down.

I had to face the reality that I was with someone now.

As hard as it's going to be, I have to try to forget whatever fantasies I have of Jimin.

Taehyung isn't Jimin.

That being say, I shouldn't be a bad person and act like he is.

I stand up and make my way towards the shower.

That's right Jungkook, Taehyung is your boyfriend.

You should at least try to move on.

No matter how hard it is.
...
"You came." Taehyung says when I get to his house later that day.

"Did I have a choice?" I ask and Taehyung makes a face before pulling me inside.

"You didn't." He confirms.

When we get inside he pulls me down on the couch.

"You never replied to my text last night." He says, his voice amused.

Fuck.

I had completely forgotten about that because I was too busy with Jimin.

"I'm sorry, I forgot." I say, which wasn't a complete lie.

"Why is that?" Taehyung asks, his eyes on me.

"I fell asleep."

Once again, wasn't a lie.

Taehyung watches me for a moment then drops it.

He doesn't really say anything after that.

When I glance over at him I see him looking lost in thought.

I wonder what even goes on inside that head of his.

"I missed you." He says suddenly without even looking over at me.

I was a bit taken back at that but not surprised.

He was usually this forward.

"You did?"

He looks over at me.

"I did." He confirms as he slowly shifts closer to me on the couch.

"Oh." I say as I bite my bottom lip.

"You didn't miss me?" Taehyung asks, still so close that I could feel his breath on my neck ever so slightly.

I bit down harder on my lip.

I didn't want to tell him that I hadn't even thought of him once while Jimin laid there, cuddled up, asleep in my arms.

"Are you not going to answer me?" He asks, his voice deeper.

"I did." I lie right through my teeth.

What comes out of his mouth next makes my mouth dry.

"Liar."

His voice was angry and scary.

Just as I go to apologize, he leans forward and grips my jaw.

"You know what happens to liars, right?"

I gulped.

"They get punished."

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