Waking up the next morning was hard.

My eyes felt heavy and I felt exhausted.

Yesterday was crazy and I knew we would have to face the consequences today.

I hated myself because I knew I would need to end things with Taehyung.

It's the only way to stop the pain I'm causing him.

"You're still here." I hear and look down to see Taehyung waking up in my arms.

His face was bruised and busted, his lips cracked.

I could still see the tear stains on his face too.

"Of course." I say as I sit up, causing him to sit up too.

He was still in a lot of pain but that was to be expected.

We look up at each other for a moment and no one says anything.

Then, I speak.

"We should talk today." I say.

"About?" Taehyung asks even though the look on his face showed that he already knew.

"Us."

As soon as I say it he squeezes his eyes shut.

Just as I go to speak he forces himself to stand up.

"Let's eat first, okay." He smiles before limping out of the bedroom.

I sigh as I watch him walk away.

This definitely wasn't going to be easy for either of us.

It's already bad as it is and I knew once I saw the hurt in his eyes, it would kill me even more.

Of course I had feelings for Taehyung but I knew they'd never be feelings of being in love.

That's what made me feel the shittiest.

Standing up, I make my way out to the kitchen.

Upon getting there I see that Taehyung has already starting cooking.

I pull in my lips and walk over to him.

"Here, let me do it." I say as I go to take the package out of his hands.

"I can do it." He says but I insist again.

"Just let me do it. You're hurt so please-"

"I said I can do it!" Taehyung snaps as he jerks his hand away from mine.

I stare at him with wide eyes at his sudden yelling.

"I'm sorry, I just-" but before he could finish his words he broke down crying.

"Why are you still being friendly? I know you're going to end this so why are you acting like you care?! I know you feel pity towards me because I'm in love with someone who will never love me back. Well guess what, you have no fucking right! You've spent this whole time in love with someone who will never fucking feel the same way you do!" Taehyung snaps, his face red as tears ran down his cheeks.

I stared at him, shocked.

Once he realized what he said he put the package down then turned, his back facing me.

"I'm sorry." He says, his voice defeated.

"Taehyung.." I say as I reach for his shoulder.

"Please, just go."

My heart fell at his words but I understood.

"Take care of yourself, okay." I say as I pull in my lips and head for the door.

From behind me I could hear Taehyung start to cry again.

My heart ached for him, not only because I cared about him but because I knew the exact pain he was feeling.

Loving someone who will never love you back.

...

When I finally got home I fell into my bed, too drained to move even a muscle.

My head was swarming and my chest felt heavy.

I was carrying so much guilt that it's probably not safe to do so.

I felt bad that I had to end things with Taehyung.

The feeling of being in love with someone who won't love you back was a feeling I knew better than anyone.

Then I went and made someone else feel that pain.

I'm a horrible person.

All I did was hurt Taehyung when he was trying so hard to make me love him back.

The sound of my bedroom door opening pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Hey! You're home!" Jimin says happily as he jumps down onto my bed.

"Yeah, what's up?" I ask as I sit up to face him.

"Wow, why do you seem so down?" He asks, a frown taking over his features.

"I'm just tired." I lie.

Jimin looks at me for a moment before leaning his face closer to mine.

I swallowed as he left his face only inches from mine.

I could hear the pounding of my heart in my ears.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

Jimin looks up into my eyes and smiles.

"I have the perfect idea to get rid of that frown on your face." He says before poking my cheek.

"Huh?"

"Let's go hang out for awhile! It'll get your mind off of whatever is causing you to feel this way. Plus you'll be with me so it'll be fun." Jimin says, his bright smile making my heart flutter.

I watch his smiling face and I feel guilty all over again.

"I should stay here and just sleep it off." I say but Jimin isn't haven't that.

"Too late, I already have the whole day made up in my head!" Jimin says and wraps his arm around mine, pulling me upwards.

I don't object as he starts to pull me towards the door.

He was right.

I need to get my mind off of this and try not to think about it.

Thinking about it will only cause me to feel more guilt, as I should, but I couldn't bare that feeling.

I hated knowing I was hurting Taehyung but this is the way it had to be.

"Well, come on!" Jimin says, smiling from ear to ear.

As I looked at Jimin's big smile I felt my heart warm.

That's right, Jimin is the man I love.

From day one, it's always been Jimin.

"Okay, let's go."

...

Jimin and I ended up going to a couple different places.

First we went to get coffee, then we walked around outside for a bit, then somehow we ended up over at Jimin's House.

Not that I minded.

"So, How are things going with T?" Jimin asks as he plops down on his couch.

Hearing that made all of my guilt I was able to forget about for a slight moment come rushing back.

"There actually isn't anything anymore." I say, biting the inside of my cheek.

"Why?! What happened?" Jimin asks, his mouth hung open.

"We just didn't work out, I guess."

Jimin looks over at me and gives me a sad face.

"Are you okay?" He asks.

Those three words broke me.

"It's all my fault." I say as tears fall from my eyes like a waterfall.

"Oh, Jungkook." Jimin says as he leans over and pulls me into his arms.

I cling to him as I cry.

"It's my fault." I say through sobs.

"I don't know what happened but I'm sure it's not your fault, okay. Please don't blame yourself. Sometimes things just don't work out." Jimin says as he rubs his hand up and down my back to calm me down.

"He hates me now." I whisper.

Jimin's hand stops moving as he pulls back slightly.

"He?"

My eyes widen as I realize what I had said.

"I said she, my voice cracked." I lie.

Jimin looks at me for a moment before pulling me back into a hug.

Clearly, he believed me.

"I'm so sorry. Everything is going to be okay. I'm sure she'll come around and see how great you are." Jimin says and I mentally sigh.

He didn't even know the whole story and I was too afraid to tell him.

I didn't want to lose him if he decided he didn't like the fact that I was gay.

I don't think Jimin is like that but I really can't risk it, not now and not ever.

"Thank you, Jimin." I sniffle as I lay my head on his shoulder and cling to him.

"For what?" He asks softly.

"For always being there for me. Just thank you." I say and he hugs me back.

"Of course. I'll always be here for you. I love you." Jimin says.

His words hurt because I knew he meant as a friend.

There was no way he would ever love me back but I couldn't give up.

Not when the love I felt for him was this strong.

"I love you too." I say as I cry harder into his shoulder.

I cried because my 'I love you' was genuine and his was a way to make me feel better.

That in itself was enough to hurt for a lifetime.

...

When everything finally calmed down Jimin and I decided to watch tv.

"How do you feel about your graduation being so soon?" Jimin smiles from beside me.

"I'm actually kinda nervous." I admit.

Jimin laughs and nods.

"Yeah, I was nervous too. It'll be okay though!" He says.

"If you'll be there, I'll be okay." I say in a hushed voice.

Jimin smiles and leans his head onto my shoulder.

"Of course I'll be there. I'm never going anywhere." Jimin says.

This is it.

This is all I could ever need right here.

All I need is Jimin.

[...]

— A/n: Are y'all smut deprived Bcuz I am😱😱😰 but fear no more, my children..

Soon. 👀👀👀😈