Jungkook—

My eyes nearly popped out of my head at Taehyung's confession.

"You What?" I ask, trying to make sure I heard correctly.

"I said I love you, Jungkook." Taehyung repeats, just as confidently as before.

"Taehyung, I-"

"No. Don't tell me that you don't feel the same way because you love Jimin. I understand that but I know I can change your mind. Just let me show you. I know I can be the better man for you." Taehyung says, his voice strong.

I stared up at him, my heart doing flips.

My mind and heart felt stuck.

I love Jimin, I always have, but I also have new found feelings for Taehyung too.

I know I can never have Jimin and I also have this guy in front of me who loves me for me.

To have to choose makes this so hard.

I know it's selfish but I don't want to choose.

On the other hand, since I know I stand no chance with Jimin it means I should try to make things work with Taehyung, right?

So why does it feel so wrong?

I was having an internal conflict.

"Please, just give me a chance. Try to fall in love with me too." Taehyung says, his eyes full of hope.

I had never seen this side of him before and I felt bad.

I wanted to return the love he felt for me but with Jimin in the picture, there's just no way that was possible.

Regardless, I have to try.

"Okay." I finally say.

"Okay?" Taehyung asks.

"Okay, I'll give it a shot." I say.

Without warning, Taehyung picks me up in his arms and twirls me.

I was taken back but at the same time, my heart seemed to flutter.

"I promise you won't regret it." Taehyung says, a soft smile on his face.

Naturally, my heart was melting.

Taehyung was showing me a side of him that I had never seen before and or had only gotten small glimpses of.

That why, I felt horrible for thinking about Jimin in this situation.

How would Jimin react if I told him I was gay and in love with him?

Would he want to stop being friends with me all together?

Would he feel disgusted?

Or would he be able to love me back?

There was so many hopes I had and I knew I should let them go.

Not just for me, but for Taehyung too.

If I'm really going to try with Taehyung I need him to know that I don't think of Jimin when we're together.

Only problem being, that's easier said than done.

...

After Taehyung and I decided to leave Han river, he took me home.

The car ride home was silent except for the radio that was turned down low.

Neither of us said anything to one another.

We both seemed pretty lost in thought.

I wonder what Taehyung is thinking about right now...

Is he upset with me because he knows my head isn't in this 100%

Honestly, I'm upset with myself too.

Taehyung is a good guy and I'm not even giving this my all.

"We're here." Taehyung says and I snap out of my thoughts to see that we're sitting in my driveway.

I look over at Taehyung who's spaced out once again.

Come on Man, you have to give this your all.

You have to try, for Taehyung.

"Thank you for tonight, it was nice." I say.

Taehyung looks over at me and smiles.

"I'm glad you had fun."

I pull in my lips and unbuckle my seatbelt.

"Get home safely." I say.

Taehyung nods and waits for me to get out of the car.

Just as I go to reach for my door handle I take in a breath.

Remember, you have to give this your all, no holding back.

"Goodnight, Daddy." I say and hurry out of the car, nearly falling in the process.

I rush inside and up to my room.

Once I'm safely inside I let out a breath I had been holding in.

I had really just said that freely.

Who knew I could actually do that without Taehyung igniting anything.

In a way, I felt proud of myself.

I wonder if Taehyung is happy.

The thought made me happy too.

Smiling to myself, I walk over to my bed and sit down.

Today was fun and there was no denying that.

I really do have a lot of fun with Taehyung, so who knows, maybe one day I will be able to fall in love with him..

Looking over, I see Jimin's bedroom light on.

My eyebrows raise as I see a small frame lifting a shirt over their head.

Then comes another body, doing the exact same thing.

My heart sank as I pieced two and two together.

I grit my teeth and yank my curtains shut.

Now wasn't the time to think about Jimin and his girlfriend.

Right now there's only one thing I need to focus on.

Taehyung.

...

Taehyung —

I sat there, shocked, as Jungkook freely called me Daddy.

I watched as he darted into the house, tripping up the steps but catching himself.

For the first time in awhile, my heart was racing and stomach was filled with butterflies.

This was the affect that Jungkook had on me.

It's like he's awakening something within me and I know that something is love.

Smiling to myself, I make my way home.

...

As I laid in bed that night I was surprised when my phone went off with a text.

I smiled instantly at the name.

Thanks again for today. -Baby boy♡

He was making the effort to text me first..

Now I was smiling like an idiot as I reread the text over and over again without fail.

It was my pleasure. -Taehyung.

What are you doing now? -Baby boy♡

Wishing you were here. -Taehyung.

Honestly, same. -Baby boy♡

It was as if I was dreaming.

I smiled and replied.

I love you. -Taehyung.

After a moment, a text comes through.

I love you, too. -Baby boy♡

Although it wasn't meant in the same way I meant it, I'd take it for now.

Rest, okay. I'll talk to you tomorrow, baby boy.- Baby boy♡

The reply I get back makes me smile from ear to ear.

Okay. Goodnight, Daddy. -Baby boy♡

I set my phone down and turned over in my bed.

Although I knew Jungkook was trying very hard, I knew it was merely a trial.

If he couldn't fall in love with me he'd crawl right back to Jimin.

That's why I had to make sure he'd fall In love with me too.

I'll make sure it happens, even if it's the last thing I do.

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A/n: Maybe I'll update again today?? Idk I just love this book so much. 😩

— Have a great day, ily so much!! ☀️❤️🌙☁️