Dear Laura,

Every interaction I have with you makes me hate myself more and more. I can't do anything right! Somehow, I always find a way of hurting you and I can't take myself anymore. I wish I knew how to talk to you. I wish I knew what to say so that I can protect you and not make you hate me. I wish that I could just learn from my mistakes, but somehow that never happens. I always screw up.

After the hospital, I went home and cried. The tears were already starting to leak out of my eyes as I walked through the door. By the time I reached my bed, the water works had begun. I curled up into a ball and let the pain wash over me. I deserved it.

Laura, my dear where have you been? I had dreaded returning to school, for I would see you and fuck up again. I stayed up all night, dreading the morning. I knew that as soon as I would see your beautiful face, I would say something moronic. I was wrong. You never came to school. Today, I wandered around, actually looking for you! Yesterday I hadn't wanted to see you in fear f screwing up, but today I searched for you, worrying about your wellbeing.

I questioned whether you got to school alright. There was bad traffic this morning. Perhaps there was an accident. I am not a religious man, but I prayed that it hadn't been you.

I questioned whether Josh got to you before I saw you. He was in a good mood today. Once more, I prayed to any god listening that he was happy about something else and that you were alright.

I questioned whether something bad happened to Ray. How were his test results? Did they find something worse than a broken bone?

I questioned my sanity and disregarded all sense. I lost faith in all that is good and mighty. 

I cried for you once more. 

Love,

Hayden

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Chapter Ten, yahoo! This is a short chapter, sorry. I just didn't really think that it needed more. But, this means that I will be writing more soon XD. Guys, I am officially in my third week of the 30 day writing challenge! This is exciting!

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