Chapter Thirty-Eight

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

I don't wanna ever love another

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

"Harry... I don't think you should go alone." Niall voiced the next morning. We were currently standing in the kitchen as I made breakfast and he fed Audrey. A.J. and the twins were still fast asleep which was typical for a Monday morning. I sighed before turning to look at him for a second.

"I can't exactly bring someone with me. He won't talk unless it's just me, you know that." I said, earning a very nervous look from Niall.

"You don't know what he's capable of."

"And you do?" I asked, earning a somewhat offended look from Niall but he dropped the subject. I knew it was a low blow, mainly due the fact that Niall probably did know what he was capable of.

"Just... Promise me you'll be careful okay?" Niall finally whispered, looking at me sadly.

"I always am."

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I met Ashton at the diner, his lanky form leaning on a car as I pulled up. He instantly brightened up the second he saw me, pushing himself off his car. I took a deep breath before climbing out, giving him a forced smile as he threw his arms around my neck.

"I've missed you." He said, kissing my cheek. I tried not to cringe when he did that, his lips on my skin instantly making me feel sick to my stomach.

"Let's head inside." I said, pushing past him and walking right into the diner. Ashton let out a giggle before following me, going to grab my hand. I was quick to move it away, sitting down at a table. Ashton pouted before sitting down in front of me. I tried not to be disgusted by him, knowing that if he knew why I was really here he would start shit.

I couldn't afford that.

"How are you baby? I've missed you." Ashton smiled at me sweetly, his eyes twinkling in the light.

"I'm good. How's Laci?" I asked, wanting to get this done as soon as possible.

"Why do you care?" Ashton retorted, tilting his head to the side as he studied me curiously. I swallowed, suddenly feeling very nervous.

Niall was right.

I didn't know what Ashton was truly capable of.

"She's my kid." I said, and I didn't miss the flicker of Ashton's eyes or the drop of his smile for just a second. Ashton cleared his throat before he began to play with his hands, his eyes no longer shining.

"She's fine." He said, his voice no longer chirpy either. He looked almost angry...

Maybe guilty.

"I would like to see her again. Possibly catch up on all the time we've missed. Do you think I can take her off your hands for the weekend?" I asked, watching Ashton's reaction. Ashton physically stiffened, his face becoming hard.

"Why?" He asked, his eyes narrowing at me.

"Because I want to get to know my daughter again. This is our chance to be a family Ashton... just like you always wanted." I said, the words bitter in my mouth. I smiled at him the best I could, but something told me he wasn't falling for it.

"You told me that you'd never leave Niall." He said, crossing his arms over his chest as he looked at me.

"Well... I realized you were right. I realized that we were meant to be together... I love you Ashton, not him... it's always been you." I said quietly, mentally cursing myself out as I looked at Ashton. Ashton finally seemed convinced though, his hard expression softening as he looked at me.

"You really mean that?" He asked, hope in his eyes. After I nodded he went off about how perfect our life was going to be.

And for a second I almost felt bad for him... he was so desperate that it hurt to see him like this.

But then I remembered all the shit he had put me and my family through.

And the scared look on Laci's face when I had seen her last.

"We can finally be happy Harry... Just the three of us." Ashton gushed, his eyes sparkling again and a smile brighter than the sun on his face.

"Yeah... I just have one question Ashton." I said, biting my bottom lip. Ashton's reaction could go one of two ways... he would answer me truthfully or he would do something rash.

I was really hoping for the first.

"Okay. Ask away." Ashton smiled, grabbing my hand that I had placed on the table. I had half a mind to take it back, but I needed to know.

"Is Laci actually mine?" I finally asked, looking at Ashton intently. Ashton actually giggled as he looked at me, shaking his head as did so.

"Of course not silly. We never even slept together that day. I just told you she was yours so you'd finally be with me. And it worked. We're going to be a family!" Ashton gushed.

I couldn't decide if I was happy or angry.

I didn't really know how I felt.

All I knew was that Ashton was f ucking crazy.

"If she's not mine... Who's is she?"

"That boy Alex's! I figured if that freak got you, I could have the one who wanted him. It wasn't the best trade being since I got knocked up, but it all worked out in the end." Ashton grinned, almost as if he was proud.

"You're crazy." I whispered, not believing what I was hearing right now. Ashton's smile faded, a sad expression now crossing his face.

"What?" He asked, his voice vulnerable.

"Nothing." I said quickly, almost too quickly. Ashton's mood instantly changed, his expression from earlier covering his face.

"You liar."

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