Chapter Fourteen

Oh, you tell me to hold on

But innocence is gone

And what was right is wrong

"Why haven't you told Zayn?" I finally asked Liam, letting out a long and heavy sigh as I glanced towards the front room.

"Because we weren't supposed to have any more kids Harry... its life threatening for me... and I just... I don't want him to be angry at me anymore." Liam bit his bottom lip, shaking his head a little as he looked at me.

"I don't know what to do Harry... I literally feel like we're one conversation away from getting a divorce... and I don't want that. I don't want to lose him." Liam looked at me sadly, a few tears falling down his cheek as he shook his head.

"I'm still failing to see why you're telling me all of this Liam." I sighed.

"I don't either I just.... I really don't want to be like my parents Harry. I don't want Zayn and I to hate each other..."

"Well to be quite fair Liam, they weren't your real parents."

"They still raised me Harry... and I don't want to be like them."

"Then don't be. Tell Zayn about the baby, I highly doubt he'll be upset about it." I said, folding my arms over my chest.

"How are you so sure?"

"I'm not." I looked back towards the living room, wanting nothing more than to have this conversation over with.

"Harry... are you okay?" Liam asked quietly, the distress from earlier turning into concern. I sighed as I shook my head.

"No... I'm not. I feel like absolute shit right now and I just... it's hard to explain Li."

"Try me... I haven't seen you this upset since you broke up with Alex." I cringed at that.

Memories I didn't want to deal with flashing quick.

I wasn't proud of my past actions.

"Like I said... it's difficult to explain Li... I did something really f ucking stupid and I'm probably never going to forgive myself for it. You know how you're so scared of being like your parents? Well I'm in the same f ucking boat." My voice broke into a whisper after that, the fear of Niall hearing what I was saying.

I hadn't said these things to him.

I wasn't planning on it either.

"Harry..."

"I'm losing him Liam. I know I am... and it's completely my fault. I'm such a f uck up that it isn't even funny." I chuckled darkly, even though it was contradicting myself. I could feel tears pricking at my eyes but I refused to let them fall. I felt sick to my stomach, my chest tightening as I found it hard to breathe.

"Sometimes I feel like... I feel like it would be better if I just left him. If I gave him a chance to start over... maybe things would be better... but I can't leave, I'm selfish like that... I can't lose him yet all I've been doing is pushing him away." Niall and I met eyes for a moment as he looked towards the kitchen. He forced a smile at me while I gave him a smile of my own.

"One of us is going to walk out that door Liam someday and never come back... I'm f ucking terrified that it's going to be me." I admitted, looking away from Niall again as Liam gave me a sad smile. He didn't say anything, instead he pulled me into a tight hug.

"Daddy! Daddy!" Jemma came running into the room at that moment, pulling at my pants as I pulled away from Liam. I gave her a tight smile before bending down to pick her up.

"What is it princess?" I asked.

"I miss you." She said, pouting a little as I carried her into the other room.

"I was just with you."

"But I miss you." She whined, holding onto my neck tightly. I tried not roll my eyes out of fondness for my daughter.

"I miss you too princess." I said, kissing the side of her head before sitting down next to Zayn. Zayn had somehow gotten Audrey away from A.J. and was now playing with her as she giggled.

"So what have you guys been up to? It's been a while since we've all hung out." Zayn broke the sudden silence that came over us, an oblivious smile on his face.

"Just been taking care of the kids... You know... Same old same old." Niall answered, his voice quiet. He played with Jonah's hair as the little boy sat down in front of him, running his fingers through the light brown hair.

"You guys are always so boring. Now I remember why we don't all hang out."

"Zayn." Liam warned, crossing his arms over his chest as he arched his eyebrows.

"I'm just being honest." Zayn shrugged, earning a glare from Audrey who didn't really appreciate the fact that Zayn had moved.

"It's fine Liam... We really aren't that entertaining." Niall said, giving a tight smile. I went to deny what he just said, but there was a knock on the door.

"Now who in gods name could that be?" I said, getting ready to answer it but A.J. had already rushed to the door. I stood up and followed him, standing behind him as he answered the door.

I frowned when I saw two cops standing on the doorstep.

"Can I help you?" I asked, placing my hands on A.J.'s shoulders.

"Yes. Are you Harry Styles?" One of them asked.

"Yeah..."

"You're under arrest for the attempted rape of Ashton Irwin. You have the right to remain silent...." but I didn't hear anything else, a ringing in my ears drowning them out.

"You're gonna regret this Harry. I'll make sure of it!"

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So.... how is everyone?

Good I hope?

None of you guys feel the sudden urge to kill anyone right?

Hopefully not...

Harry kinda opened up to Liam... thoughts on that?

Thoughts on Ashton's little scheme? lol

Character ask questions should be up probably tomorrow :)

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