He calls me lovely

He calls me special

He calls me different

He calls me unique and wonderful

I know he means every word he says

But my brain can't seem to grasp his words

And I start to question myself

Are these words really true?

Or are they just a joke?

Are these words from his heart?

Or they just come out of his mouth?

I look into the mirror

 And try my best

To see myself how he sees me

But then those words replay in my mind

Over and over again

They call me ugly 

They call me stupid

They call me worthless

At this point, I don't know who to believe

I don't know which is actually true

I'm left with this question

The search for identity

Am I who he calls me?

Or am I who they call me?