Sorry for the late update i promised of posting on Sunday and i got busy so as a treat it's the lengthiest chapter up to now.
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Let's begin....

Ragini smiles stretching her lips:wh.. what?
After listening to him. For a moment she was blank, totally blank. Not realising how to react to such a situation.
Ragini:You want Suhaan's accusations to turn true?
She smiled hiding the burning turmoils in her, where the voice inside her had started to debate.

Sanskar:Ragini it isn't about the accusatio...
Ragini nods in no and interrupts:No.. stop please(she requested) I didn't had a thought..
She nods in no bending her head: I didn't had a thought that me sharing my pain would turn out like this as you had to take this step.i just thought you as my best friend with one whom i can share anything and everything.i didn't knew that you would sympathize on me in such a way!
She told it softly but that was enough to get Goosebumps for him.this was the fear that he had stored in his mind that she would take it such a way. For a moment he regretted that he shouldn't have spoken to her now about this.. but the other part of him said that now today or tomorrow he gotta have to ask her!

Jaya:Ragini.. think in calm mind see do you think we would sympathize..
Ragini looks straight to her:if it's not a sympathy then what it is? Sanskar have come just 3 months back and suddenly he thinks of marrying me by giving a life to me and my kids.. (She literally sobbed)but we don't want it!
She covered her face with her palm and literally rubbed the tears from her eyes and cheeks but those were not in control how much she wiped. it increased more.
Ragini looks at him:i never thought you will also do this... Don't make me feel low by asking such things with me.i don't know what made you think like that but i cannot.. don't worry we won't bother just some days until my kids complete the exams!
She moves passing by Sanskar.

Sanskar:you know what?whenever you are angry don't speak anything and stop overthinking,which actually is the root cause!
She stops with her steps
Sanskar he didn't turn but he fixed he gaze on to the painting hanging on the wall though it was not in his concentratiom:first of all,i am not turning the accusations true.because people's words doesn't define our character, specially about those who don't even matter to us.Secondly,if i had to sympathize on you i could have got better than the best proposals for you but I don't want it to happen at all.why?because I don't want to sympathize and push you out of our family,you mean to us lot more than you think.thirdly you told burden,do you know such word gives the burden to us.even it was not your necessary to look after us right,you were free but you still stayed and looked after us?why? don't you think we were burden then?
Ragini:i couldn't..that was different,it wasn't the burden!
Sanskar:how it is different?and you called the relation of us as a best friend because you shared so much about you with me,there were the things that you would have not told to anyone,i have even seen you broken which you were not successful by hiding those in between your smile in front of me.then why it's not..
Ragini:so these reasons are enough for you to take the decision?

He turns and looks straight into her eyes
Ragini:you and me, it's never..i cannot even think like that?
Sanskar:why?because i am Suhaan's brother?so you get scared that you might get dumped again?
Ragini:i am not talking about that?
Sanskar:oh there might be something that you do not trust me with the kids.i might harm them?
She knew where he was taking the conversation!
Ragini:stop such questions Sanskar!
Sanskar:then stop naming it as a sympathy!
She nods her head:you don't understand it!
Sanskar:each time i tried my level best to understand you, if you think that I didn't.. then say no.even you have understood me and my family every times.
Ragini: it's waste to talk to you!
Sanskar:why?i need the answer.it might be something that you are straight away rejecting.am i a ill-mannered? I don't respect you or i have been intolerable with you?
Ragini:just stop all those...(her face had turned red and she left out a deep breath)how i should make you understand?
She turns to Jaya:Maa please I don't want to...i cannot be able to face myself then.some relations are best to be known as friends.no such pairing should be done.(she turns to sanskar)there is a way too ahead to go in your life.am..i..i am just not counting on your life.let's just stop this here and let's continue...
Sanskar interrupts:how can you say this that you gave up? aren't you the one who told me that don't say successful because life has many things in store.
Beeji:Accept it Ragini,the way you are in our family nobody else could take that place.
Ragini nods in no:No i cannot and i will not.please please i request!
She just moves and enters inside the room closes the door!

Surbhi:she doesn't want to agree!
Jaya:She will agree..she will definitely!!
All looks at her.
Jaya:give her sometime!
While Ragini just cried silently..never in her dreams she thought there would be such situations!

Time passed it was a gloomy morning for everyone in the home and everyone are silent.
And there were the kids getting read for their oral exams they were shouting the poems with the bright smile on their face.who were not aware of anything,their innocence were bringing the smile on everyone.
Ragini was feeding them ,like everyday she used to welcome with smile and talks,this day she didn't speak to anyone neither she smiled!

Sanskar comes out of the room looking at a file actually all night he was awake and he moved talking over the phone and the kids see him and shouts "Chaachu".there was the ping in her heart of discomfort.
Yes,the importance siya soha give to Sanskar was something now disturbing her.
He smiles at then and continues to speak.he was all normal!
After the call.Sanskar moves to dining table.
Ragini who was standing there putting the tie on them.moves from there avoiding him.
Sanskar looks at her.
But he smiles at kids:all set for exams?
Soha:yes.
Siya:chaachu,come to pick up after the exams.today we don't want to come in bus!
Sanskar smiles: definitely why not?
And they smile and he kisses both of them and hugs them:All the best!

Ragini gets their bag:Siya Soha..come..
And they runs to her and she takes them along outside as the school bus would be there in sometime.
After sending them she enters inside and places the breakfast for everyone on the table..
All looks at her. She wasn't even looking at anyone and then she moves inside the room.
Beeji:She didn't even speak to me!
And Ragini comes outside with a bag and moves to door.
Surbhi:bhabhi are you going somewhere?
Ragini stops and looks at her and simply nods.
She didn't wait for further questions.

After sometime...

She was sitting at the ghazal period of one of her master.
She can only get peace here at this place after whatever happened!
After the class the teacher prathap simh, her maths teacher in her school,who lost his wife in a accident after an year of their marriage and later started up with his music school. literally he knew everything about her.
Ragini looks at him.
He smiles at her:what happened beta?
Ragini:i am lost again!
He sits on the 2 seat away from her.
Ragini smiles:You might think that every time i come here i say the same!
Prathap smiles:No..today is not like always today ummm..
He looks at her face: something different!
Ragini: I don't want to remember it!
Prathap nods.
Ragini:you know what I don't know why my life is pushing me constantly. How i would make one understand that ...
She looks other side..
Prathap smiles:Ragini..either you should tell me everything or you should not make me curious!
Ragini smiles:sir!!!
Prathap:yes it's me!
Ragini smiles
Prathap:Ragini things becomes easier as the way you see it. You know there's a 2 routes as the option positive and negative.indeed we do select negative without a thought.so i tell you before doing anything i would tell you to think think and think positive only!
Ragini:Sir,if it's restricted to think like that!
Prathap:what i told positive,not negative restriction belongs to negative!
Ragini:so you won't listen until i don't tell my problems!
He smiles.
Ragini explains the thing happened and he listens to it keenly!

Prathap:yeah it's complicated!
Ragini:and i am confused!
Prathap:i told it's complicated but not confused.yes i agree the fact that he is your brother-in-law and you have seen him only that until now so it's difficult for you to expect this from him.but if i think according to him,he is no wrong too!
Ragini looks at him.
Prathap:before you say that i support him.i surely not supporting him but i am saying he is no wrong everyone have their own reason.now it's upon you just tell him that you don't like him and i am sure he would understand it!
She nods:but he asks for the reasons....
Prathap:then stay silent don't speak to him.then he would understand within himself!
Ragini:i am doing the same!
Prathap:Go ahead then!
Ragini:i am feeling light now.
Prathap:but the word restrictions is just a word you create in negative route!

Prathap:now let's make your mood...
She plays the sitar and smiles.
Prathap sings:Kuch paa kar khona hai kuch kho kar paana hai jeevan ka matlab tho aana aur jaana.
He signs her to sing.she smiles and continues:Dho pal ki jeevan se ek umr churani hai zindagi aur kuch bhi nahi teri meri kahaani hai!
Prathap smiles:Ek pyaay ka nagma hai.
Ragini:in your melodious voice mine a shaky and worst voice!
Prathap:nothing like that but yeah needs so much practice!
Both laughs.
Prathap:these lyrics gives so much meaning to our life.isn't it?
Ragini looks at him.
Prathap:i wish i could steal a moment to live again with my wife!
Ragini: it's hard to get a person like you sir who would love their wife like anything!
Prathap:but i think..you can get that if you..
Her smile vanished.
Prathap:this is why I don't say anything just simply support you though i personally restrict it.you know what Ragini we get the life once we don't know what is in the store for tomorrow so it's best to live as much for today that tomorrow you will not regret for it.though my wife left me but her memories are still alive with me that's enough for me to live for rest of my days.you know I don't regret if i die today.whatever i had to do in this life i did...if life had written to live for more year then also i am happy that i have memories of my wife to cherish all those times!
Ragini smiles.
Prathap:kids will grow up and catch their own route what you have in your life to cherish then?
Ragini looks at him and smiles: memories with my kids!
Prathap smiles and nods:you are insane!
She smiles: don't i know why you are saying this?
Prathap:Give sometime Ragini and understand him sometimes some deserve a chance you deserve a chance and your kids deserve a chance and Sanskar deserves a chance!
Ragini smiles:No.. no point of chance here when there's no such relation.

At evening..
Ragini was about to enter the home
Sanskar: what's the time now?
It was 5:30 in the evening.she went out without telling anything and also didn't pick any of their call which actually scared them.
Sanskar:do you even have an idea of how much worried we were?what would have happened if you had picked the call and let us know that you are fine!
She passes by him..
When he held her arm.
And he pulls her:Ragini..
Ragini tries to free her hand.
Sanskar:stop being stubborn!
Ragini:then what you want?i should accept for your stupidity!
Sanskar didn't say anything.
Ragini: let's just stop and tell me that you changed your mind and all those were just a misunderstanding..
Sanskar:when it's not a misunderstanding then why should i tell you that besides that no matter what i won't change my mind.
Ragini:so will you force me now?
Sanskar:i won't!!
Ragini:if you assume something it won't happen!
Sanskar: I don't know if it would happen or not but this is my determination!
She sees the kids coming out so she simply frees her hand and moves in.

At night...

Everyone waited for Ragini to join for the dinner.
Ragini was simply engrossed with kids in name of teaching them.
She avoided the breakfast and they don't even know she had her food or not!
Everyone just simply sat on the dining and nobody was touching the food.

Time passed...

Ragini came out and no one was present and everyone was sleeping and she went to kitchen and takes the water and drinks it and her eyes falls on gravy there.she moves and opens it.it seemed as untouched.and she opens the hot box to find it full.
She moved out and saw beeji sleeping.
She bends to her:beeji..
Beeji sees her.
Ragini: didn't you had the food?why?
Beeji didn't answer her.
Ragini:you cannot tolerate hunger right then why everyone didn't...
Beeji:did you have the food?
Ragini looks on.
Beeji:then how can we?
Ragini:your health would be affected right?
Beeji :my health would be affected only if you didn't speak to me!
Ragini just hugs her.
Ragini:i will get everyone!

She arranges the food on table and moves to jaya' room where she and surbhi were sleeping.
She wakes them up.
Ragini:Maa please eat dinner!
Jaya:until you don't decide to not to stay upset with us!
Ragini:i was upset maa,because I don't like those...but you should not be upset on food..come!
Jaya holds her hand:you think i am wrong?
Ragini:you might be right but for me it's wrong!
Jaya doesn't answer and she moved and Ragini turns to surbhi:Surbhi chal..
And she make them sit on the dining.
Jaya:Sameer and Sanskar..
Ragini:i..i will call them..
She moves to room and sees Sameer staying up as he was really hungry.
Ragini:if you cannot tolerate then why did you stay hungry!
He looks at her:May be it might show you that what importance you take in our life.
Ragini didn't reply for a moment but then smiles:Come have dinner.
Sameer smiles.
Ragini:Sanskar?
Sameer:He was ..i think he went to hotel side since he wasn't sleepy!
Ragini:Call him yoo..
Sameer:Bhabhi do you think he will come if i call him?
She just looks on.
Sameer:now only you can convince him.he didn't have anything since morning!
He moves.

While on the other side Sanskar was sitting on the chair.he was blank,he didn't knew this would bring such changes.everyday he was been habituated of talking to Ragini.

Ragini comes there from behind:Sanskar.
He turns but again faces front.
Ragini:have dinner.everyone are waiting for you at the dining table!
He doesn't react.
Ragini:Sanskar please!!
Sanskar: Thankyou but i am not hungry!
Ragini:then no one will touch the food so please.. don't be stubborn like a kid!
Sanskar: Don't sympathize on us now.

Ragini moves in front of him:think before you say something Sanskar.
Sanskar:what i have to think more?i am thinking just one thing in my mind for last 4 years then how can i change it..
Ragini looks on.
Sanskar:you might find it's a childishness or foolishness but do you know how i respect you.
Ragini:yes it's the respect sanskar which haves between the best friends try to understand!
But soon she smiles trying to make him understand calmly:you know what there's lot of things in hold Sanskar just you gotta meet someone who is the better life partner then anyone,create memories fall in love...there is something also called as love at first sight,cherish every moment of life.may be not now but in sometime you will meet your better half who is only made for you and let's just forget everything happened last night and start a new.

Ragini moves with a smile:Come come dinner will get cold now..
She turns:Sanskar come..
Sanskar smiles: I don't believe love at first sight..
Ragini smiles:okay first come and have dinner.
Sanskar:love at first sight is same lame as that i will get better life partner than you.
He stood and turns to her.
She looks at him:Not again Sanskar!
Sanskar:the better half i only have one in my mind and the memories are so many these days then think how would be the life for the rest of the life.yaadein unko chahiye hota hai jo yaadon mein jeena chahte hai.......na ki unse jiske saath ek ek pal rehna bhi dil ko sukoon aur khushi deta hai!
(Memories are required for the one who wants to live in memories...but not for the one with whom,living each of the moment gives peace and happiness)
Ragini interrupts:Sanskar..
He smiles at her:according to me,a couple whose base is strong with understandings no then there will be no misunderstandings.what you think kisiko ek nazar mein dekh liya tho woh pyaar hai?kisika smile ek baar accha laga tho woh pyaar hai?kisike saath ek baar baat kar liya tho kya sab samaj liya?kya yeh pyaar hai?nahi..yeh pyaar hai tho mujhe bilkul bhi nahi chahiye.Pyaar tho har pal jeena hota chahe jitne waqt bhi ho use samajna... mujhe tho woh chahiye jisko samajne ke liye mein apni poori zindagi aise hi barbaad karne ke liye tayyar rahoon sirf usi ke liye.jisko jitni dafaa dekhu tho mann mein uski khairiyat ke liye duaa nikle.jisko har pal aur zyada jaan ne ka dil kare.jahan har pal ek dusre ke liye izzat ho.shikhast tho woh hai yeh baat use kaise samjaye!
(Once you saw then you fell in love?you like someone's smile for once then it's love?and with someone you spoke once and you understood everything?is this love?no..if this is love then I don't want such love.love is living which might take long time,i want someone for whom i want to understand even if it takes whole life i am ready to destroy myself. The more i see her my heart would only pray for her wellness. And whom each moment i want to understand more and more.and where every moment there is respect for each other. But i failed at this that how would i make her understand?)
She looks at him.
Sanskar:and it's you.may be not love but it's something unexplainable!
Ragini:and that's what i am telling you there's no Love!!
Sanskar:Love is living with whom you are most comfortable with...
Ragini:and i am not comforta...
Her words literally stopped.

Ragini:Sanskar, don't do this please.you won't get anything by doing this.i realised it lately but to move on from one person's betrayal I don't need another person to heal it.yes i told you that the plans,but it was not what i want..when i am enough for myself and my kids then I don't need any person in my life, even if i agreed for my kids then it would be a deal a compromise, that's all.i don't want to hate you so i am telling that please just let these go.it doesn't have value in my life!
Sanskar:the fact is you don't know what you exactly want!
Ragini:Can you be able to live with me without anything in return? Can you be able to? There would only be a responsibility nothing more. For words it's easy but the reality is much difficult sanskar. We don't get whatever we think for!
Sanskar:okay... If i say i am ready for it. And I don't want to take it as a responsibility but a duty of mine. And i want to make the reality is easier. I can prove you wrong.
Ragini:Just stop these nonsense.i thought that you are sensible but you are not!
She turns and moves
Sanskar: I won't back off listen that carefully!

She turns and moves back to him:you know why you are doing this?it's normal for any guy to have such a thought because may be you shared much time with me.but it's just a crap!
He looks straight into her eyes and smiles:aise tho meine bohoth se ladkiyon se mila hoon but do that mean i should make them my life partner?this is a crap!
Ragini just dips her face on to her palms.because for each and everything there is a reply from him!
Ragini:Sanskar...this is not any movie going on everyone has the life and own choice.
Sanskar: that's what i am saying consider me as a choice,give me a small place in your life!
Ragini moves without speaking anything.
Sanskar:Please!!!!!
Ragini stops on her step..

*Should Ragini give a chance to Sanskar?do you think she will give one? what will happen next?*

To be continued......

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