▸ 关于我  Chapter One. . . ❀︵︵

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Nomi pov

Putting on my eyeliner carefully, while jamming out to the Beatles " Here come old flat-top, he come groovin' up slowly" I mumble slightly trying to not mess up my makeup, grabbing my false eyelashes I put them in front of me, I sing more lyrics "He got ju-ju eyeball, he one holy roller He got hair down to his knee" I start fanning my eyeliner with paper "Got to be a joker, he just do what he please"

Before I could into my favorite part, my so called father walks in, his face painted with hues of red, I shrug my shoulders placing glue on my eyelashes then applying them to my own.

"Where do you think you're going?" He asks
"I'm going out with my friends, is there a problem?" I say looking at him in the mirror, grabbing my matte lipstick and applying it to my lips evenly.

"You're going out with that boy again? What was his name again Asher?" He growls
"Asher is my baby father, how dare you call him that boy" I smirk zipping up my boots, and taking off the hair clips out of my hair. "Don't stay you to late for me okay? I may spend the night there"

"no, youre staying here, to eat with me and jade" he says pushing me on the bed almost aggressively

"why?! so i can hear her brag about her kids and you let her talk down upon me?!" i yell back standing up to walk arounf him but he grabs my wrist throwing me aganist the wall making me yelp in pain, then my head gets dizzy, I feel the need to faint.

"end of discussion, youre staying!" he yells "so give me your phone" he says in a hostile tone as i slide down the wall shaking, i pull my phone out my pocket handing it to him, he jerks it out my hands then walks out towards the hallway. i wipe my nose feeling a wet sensation, but once i look at my fingers they're coated in red liquid. hurriedly i walk to my vanity mirror seeing the blood mixing into my lipstick color, my arms full of fingerprint bruises that are already blue. i shake uncontrollably as i grab a tissue to wipe my nose, i grab my ripped leather jacket to cover up my bruises as i grab my actual phone. texting asher to meet me at the campus. avoiding his questions and concerns.

i cant ruin his christmas by telling him my many deep dark secrets.

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Seokjin's pov

"i swear every Christmas we all argue about what were eating and drinking"

"who is arguing about drinking? i'll take whatever and ill mix whatever" jimin speaks

"of course we bought the alcholic" hoseok jokes

"nah, just a fun drinker theirs a difference" jimin argues back, i just shake my head then open the fridge, debating what to cook for these childern, because if it was up to them, we'd be ordering something or eating like the scene from the peanuts thanksgiving special.

"jin is going to cook for us" jungkook smiles

"yes because who else would?" i reply with a sarcastic answer

"grubhub" yoongi counters my sarcastic answer, i look at him through squinted eyes and all he does is just stare back at me, i roll my eyes in defeat pulling out all the ingrediants needed for this meal

"im cooking now, get the fuck out the kitchen"

"alright grinch jesus" namjoon jokes

"that's literally him, hes the grinch" jungkook adds

"keep talking shit and i'll posion your plate" i joke, jungkook squints his eyes walking out of the kitechen backwards, shaking my head in dissaproval, i turn back towards the food.

"where should i start" i sigh

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after give or take thirty minutes the food is done, the desserts are in the oven baking, i open the door towards the living room "food is ready childern" i say in an old person tone

"oh my god thank you grandma" jungkook says jumping up and skipping towards me he hugs me for a couple seconds, then grabs a plate

"lord, who knows how much food will be left after he comes out the kitchen" jimin jokes

"dude, i hope he doesnt take everything, we all know he eats like a blue whale" hoseok comments standing up walking towards the kitchen. are we ever nice to jungkook? sometimes, but he's worse towards us , way worse towards us.

that child literally came from hell.

"hey thanks jin for cooking the food, but also thank you for being our friend" namjoon says patting my shoulder

"oh trust me i only intended to befreind you i dont know where the rest of these weridos came from"

"busan" jungkook answers smiling

"ill break you fingers, you know what that means no more overwatch"

jungkook runs over towards the dinning table at a careful but fast pace, i am thankful for them, i love them with every fiber in my body, even though we fight, we dont see eye to eye, we are brothers at the end of the day, we will always come back and talk to each other, we will always be there for each other. cause thats just what we do for each other. i snap out of thoughts when hoseok tells me he made a plate for me knowing how tired i am, so I thank him sitting with them at the dining table as taehyung pours us wine in the cups.

"Wow, this year has gone incredibly fast" taehyung says putting the wine the back on the table
"Agreed, and soon were all going to be graduating" Jungkook replies
"And onto our auditions" I add, we all clink our wine glasses together smiling. Christmas is the most amazing holiday in the year, it's when all the memories come out come together we talk about the laughs, the pain, the happiness. Everything and anything.

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Nomi pov

Sitting on the swing in asher's backyard with a blanket wrapped around me, "nomi? Can you please tell me what's been going on, I know you're not okay" Asher says softly "you've been trying to distract whatever is floating around in your life for the longest"

"It's really deep asher, I don't wanna do this on Christmas Day" I answer not daring to give him eye contact. "But I promise tomorrow,we can talk about this"

"You promise?" Asher pushes softly
"Would I lie to my bestfriend?" I bump him, "so are you ready to have your ass beat in overcooked?"
"Excuse me?! I have you know I'm a chef!!"
"Oh okay, let's go then!" I yell hitting him softly we both get up and the same time running towards the slide door, I almost trip over my one boots, I literally nosedive on the couch hitting my elbows on a controller.

"Ah fuck" I yelp, Asher just laughs at me turning on the PlayStation
"Get ready for your ass whooping"
"Oh yeah we'll see about that"

Christmas was okay for me, but Asher made it all up for me, what I'm not ready for is the can of worms that I have to open for him. Asher isn't the type to forget anything. Especially when it comes to me. Asher is literally my best friend. And keeping this secret for so long from him, pains me. But it pains me more to tell him.

I hope you don't see me any different. I hope you don't see me as a liar either. I wanted to become a better person.

🖇💌 author's note ꒱
Merry Christmas, happy holidays. To all of y'all, hope your day was safe and full of love and happiness, just know that you've done great this year, even when you think you didnt, because guess what? You got through it, that's doing great on it's own!. Now it's time to make next year the best year, the year to keep getting happier and happier. Every year you learn new things new experiences. So anything bad leave it in the past where it belongs. Remember you are worth it and you are loved. I love you and be safe

: ̗̀➛ A picture is worth one million words but music touches a billon hearts.