▸ 关于我  Chapter One. . . ❀︵︵ ↴

My eyes adjust to the brightness in my room, everyday it seems like the lights get brighter and brighter. As if I'm getting closer and closer to the golden gate, or if you not religious. To wherever we go after we die.

Most people are afraid of death, but at this point I'm ready to go, I'm over the pain. I'm over the sympathetic looks. I'm over the pity.

I clear my throat wiping my nose of the blood that had dripped out, I open my drawer pulling out the first outfit. Trashed shirt and ripped two toned color jeans.  A knock on the door causes me to avert in that direction.

"Why do you dress that way?" He growls "why can't you wear make up, or bows, something cute?"

"I am cute, just never was a daddy's girl cute huh?" I smile then get out the bed, I slip my feet into my fuzzy slippers.

"You never care about anything I try to say, I am trying to help you"
"Or you're just trying to make me be the way you want me to be, or the way you want me to be before mom died" I slam the bathroom door heating up the heater. I sit on the counter looking at me hair.

"Shit, i need to re dye my hair, my old color is coming back, aka my past is trying to come back and haunt me" I think to myself sighing softly.

I stick my finger on the water seeing that it's really warm now "thank god im freezing" I strip out of my clothes slowly to tame the dizziness. I get dizzy very frequently. It's annoying.

After my long shower. I might as well.

I'm late as fuck for school anyways. I've been kinda late to school lately but the teachers here really don't care, and I kinda have an excuse for it as well. today shall be a great day! Because after school I'm getting my hair re-dyed

Running downstairs I see my dad sighing at my clothes, he sighs even more at my boots, big thick combat boots, with fake painted blood splats, courtesy of my friend.

"Nomi, can you please change, you just leaving no imagination for the guys mind" he sighs
"Oh! Thank god I was looking for a boyfriend!!!" I click my tongue at him "see you later pops, gotta go paint naked people and write literature"

I normally haven't been taking care of my body, but I really don't care too, I'm going to die anyways I'm just waiting for my time. And I'm just patiently waiting for it to fill up in lungs. Sweeping my car keys off the table and sweeping the Apple as well I take a bite of it then walk towards the door.

Hi my name is nomi, and I live with my single father and an older brother. My mother? She passed away from cancer when I was in middle school. She was literally my twin. We loved the same thing.

Scary movies.gorey anime. Cosplaying. Boots. We loved to be grunge. Listening to the 1975, nirvana. The Beatles, Pink Floyd. Queen.

So much grunge. I remember she called me her goth queen, and she was the grunge princess, because she said I was smarter and more lively than she ever was at the age. Putting my car in ignition I begin to head to college.

Sighing as I put my car in park, I swing the seatbelt off of me bruising my fingers I whence of pain, I look down at my fingers and see the bruises that already have formed " damn looks like I need some milk" I chuckle at myself, before I could open the door someone opens it for me and my first instinct was to swing, but my fist is stopped Buy a strong set of hands.

" what the fuck Asher you scared the hell out of me" I screeched at him all he does is giggle and help me out of the car " what gave you that bloody idea to scare me like that?"

" I figured I would we are almost in the month of October"
"Asher you do realize we're in August?" I ask, he grabs my bag off my shoulder and holds it in his hands.

"So what you've been up to? I know you came here early" I nudge him. "Trying to strum up the courage to talk to that girl!!" I cheese at him.

"Nomi!" He yells as the roses blush on his cheeks
"What? I know you like her, maybe I can talk to her for you hm" I raise my eyebrows
"You may even steal her" Asher squints his eyes at me
"She is beautiful I must admit that, but I'm not a homewrecker I promise you that, but I mean if you guys are down for a threesome I mean...."
"You are really disgusting you know that?"
"Yeah I mean who doesn't have a nasty side to them? Who is all innocent and no kitten play?" I smirk "but seriously I'm not going to do anything bad, if it goes bad she didn't deserve you"

Asher throws his arms around my shoulder "are you ready to draw today?"
"I'm ready to hear this damn professors mouth, I swear she has a hit out for me"
"Nomi, you're an amazing artist please, ignore her comments"

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Seokjin's pov

I've changed my major maybe three times already to finally realized that music and film is my calling. I loved directing and taking pictures of people and nature. It was my calling.

" hey! Stop thinking so much" jungkook yells at me
"Hey! Don't be worrying about me!" I yell back at him, jungkook scoffs "don't you know how I operate? I worry about everyone" jungkook smiles

"That is true, you need to worry about yourself sometimes too jungkook, you come first sometimes" I smile back "sadly we're here" namjoon says almost sounding like her threw up.

" hey don't think of it as something bad this could really be great for you you've always wanted become a rapper!!! This is one step to achieving your goal" taehyung chimes in

" we're all one step to achieving our goal" yoongi adds, yeah we all are achieving our goals one at a time even though we have separate hobbies are one hobby that brings us together is no other than .

music.

" One day we're going to be touring so many continents and countries" Jimin speaks
" oh god somebody pray for hoseok!!" Jungkook screams dramatically.  Namjoon Park the truck and we all get out one by one walking into the building to go to our music class. Namjoon clicks his car Keys to make sure that the car is locked, then he follows pursuit behind us. As we were walking to our class we hear a girl anand a guyunning throughout the halls Jungkook tapped my shoulder to show me something I turn around to look at it and in a split-second a body runs into me causing both of us to fall.

"Oh my god I'm sorry are you okay?" I ask very cautiously I get up and offer my hand to her as she smiles sheepishly and stand up on her own two feet. She clears her throat and nods her head at me

" sorry for being a kid I didn't mean to run into you" she smiles
" whoever said there was something wrong with being a kid?" I question
" fathers" she shrugs her shoulder, we both turn look in the directions hearing her name being called.

"Where the fuck did you go?! Sheesh you run too fast" he says next to her "catch up mustard" she says slapping his back.

"Well thank you for helping me up and I'm sorry for bumping into you" she smiles "Cmon slugger!! We gotta get in the auditorium before the next class starts!" And like that she was gone like a gust of wind.

"She's so grunge it's so cool" jungkook smiles
"Well why don't you chase her and ask her out" I wink at him which just causes his cheeks to become rosy.

"JUNGKOOK HAS A CRUSH ON A GIRL?!!" Jimin yells "omg jungkook is falling for someone?" Everyone starts picking at him which causes him to walk ahead of us as we're back here laughing in his embarrassment.

She did seem pretty cool but she also seemed pretty hurt under all that humor.

🖇💌 author's note ꒱

First off happy birthday to Kim Seokjin, what a role model he is he is literally the most savage person I have ever seen in K-pop besides GD. He has inspired me to really not care what anybody has to say about me or to not care what anybody thinks about me. He's inspired me to just eat and not really care about how much I weigh now I've gotten to the point that I want to way bigger I want to be thicker so that's what I'm gonna do.  So much thanks to seokjin. But also how do you guys like the story so far it's going to get deeper so don't think that it's always going to be this happy and lovey-dovey.

: ̗̀➛ A picture is worth one million words but music touches a billon hearts.