Taehyung's POV
Aish Yoongi... Why are you so complicated? Why is everything so complicated?

Why was I hurt? Why was my first instinct to go home? I thought I don't have feelings for you.

Aghhh what is this!!???

I checked the clock, 4 a.m... And the worst thing is that I can't sleep.

I heard a knock on my door.

I opened it slightly just to be hit in the face by someone opening it wide.

''Yoongi?!'' I asked in total shock.

''Tae, why are you on the floor?'' He looked at me confused.

''Yoongi... Are you drunk..?''

''No.''

''You reek of alcohol. I could smell it from the bathroom... '' I tried to get up alone but he helped me before I could.

I shouldn't talk to him... But he is drunk and it's 4 a.m.

''Thank you...'' He didn't anwer instead he kept on staring at me.

Then his expression changed and tears started to form in his eyes.

What.

''Yoongi... W-why are you crying?'' then he hugged me tight.

''T-taehyung, I- I messed up. I-Im sorry I'm not as p-perfect as J-Jungkook is, I'm s-sorry that you have to live in the same h-house as m-me. I k-know you don't l-like me and I-I'm sorry. '' he took a big breath and then continued '' But why are you like this? W-why are you messing with my h-heart? My feelings aren't anything for you? I love you, b-but you don't even like me!'' He cried hard, my shirt getting wetter each second.

I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't even hug him back, he always comforted me but I never did. I didn't know how.

''I-I do like you, Yoongi'' he then got up and looked at me with his gorgeous eyes, somehow they held a lot of emotions. I only managed to think of hope? But, hope for what?

''A-As a friend...'' I then continued making his face that had so many emotion turn into a blank one.

He let go of me and sat at the end of the bed.

''I'm sorry Yoongi. I still love Jungkook, and I always will. I'm sorry for giving you false hope.'' afer saying this Yoongi started shaking.

''I tried to get over my feelings for him but... He's so perfect. His smile, his eyes that are always melting me, his soft voice... Everything'' I said not knowing how much pain it made the other person in the room feel. I could see him clenching his hands.

''It'll always be Jungkook.''

He stopped clenching his hands. He then faced me, looking at me for 5 seconds wondering if I was just kidding.

After realising that I was serious. He stood up and with shaky legs went to the door.

''W-where a-are you going?'' I asked him grabbing his hand.

I never knew how much words could hurt before hearing what he said.

''I give up.''

''I tried Taehyung, I really did. Guess it wasn't enough. I'll stop talking to you as you wish.''

I wanted to stop him, to make him stay, to hug him, to take care of him especially since he wasn't in such a good condition.

But it was like my body acted on his own.

I did nothing to prevent him from leaving, even thought in my mind I was screaming for him to stay.

He looked at me one more time before nodding and getting out.

The moment when I heard the front door close, was the moment I broke down.

Getting on my knees I started crying my heart out.

Yoongi's POV
Stupid, stupid, stupid!!

I confessed for the 10th time and all it brought was pain.

Fuck rejection.

Fuck these feelings.

Fuck my life.

Why doesn't he just step on my heart? Or rip it off? How about stab it? It's basically the same.

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Getting out of the house my vision blurry because of tears, I made my way on the streets.

''Yoongi? Is that you?'' I saw Jungkook coming after me with that useless girl. Hate them both... But then again, it's my mistake so I won't blame them.

I stopped in my tracks still not facing them.

''Are you drunk?'' I scoffed. Of course I'm not that drunk. I have a high alcohol tolerance.

''Congratulations...'' I said not turning back. I don't want them to see me like this... Yet I could imagine the confused look on his face.

''What?'' a simple question yet it made me so mad.

''You won...'' I said still managing to stay calm.

''Yoongi what the hell are you talking about? You're drunk, go home!'' he said annoyed.

''No Jungkook, I'm not fucking drunk!! Stop thinking you know everything! What part of YOU WON don't you fucking understand??! You made it, Taehyung likes you! No, no... He loves you!! So go ahead, make a party, celebrate it! 'Jungkook won Taehyung's heart Yoongi is a piece of shit' ! '' I said then chuckled.

''What am I even saying? It was yours from the start... stupid me...

I guess it really is true.

... It'll always be you, Jungkook''

I looked one more time at him, expecting him to be happy, smirk and tease me. Instead he was confused, still not understanding the situation and shocked because of my reaction.

I can't take it anymore.

I walked away, feeling even worse than I did before. Until a hand grabbed my wrist stopping me.

''Let.go.'' I said through gritted teeth.

''Yoongi, are you alr-''

''Are you deaf let go!'' I yanked my arm out of her hand and walked away. I could hear her crying... If everything wasn't so messed up, I would feel guilty... It wasn't her fault at all, it was all mine. But my brain wasn't working that good at that moment so I didn't give a shit.

'Fuck y'all'

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I basically felt guilty because I started this story on 1st January 2018 and up until now I managed to make only 12 chapters (with this one 13) so I'll try to post more.

You can add questions about this chapter as well. I'll answer them tomorrow.

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Thank you! ❤