When we learn, we try to learn by heart. The same is true with love. If we are trying to love another person we learn him by heart. Everything about him, every detail from what he likes to how he speaks. Learning a language is the same as learning love. To be in love you need to feel the person and bond with him.

The bond connection might be this strong it feels psychic. It might scare some people to see how two people are intensely chained to each other. The connection shall not be broken if two people are willing for it to stay. No matter how hard it is, no matter how many obstacles are thrown in the way if the people are willing to love one another the bond will stay on.

We learn love by senses. Taking everything in by smell, sight, taste and touch gives into consideration what love for another person is.

As a train of thought, I like to think of myself as not a romantic person. The way I always talked about love was purely theoretical. To know something you need to have practice. I was so clenched to my romance books as a teenager, that I imagined love in so unreal way. I wanted to be loved hard by someone who has a bad personality. I wanted the other person to treat me badly and not care for me, and something wrong in me wanted that. Being mistreated seemed attractive to me. Feeling not being cared for felt so necessary and familiar to me, that as it was a familiar feeling, it felt safe and kept me being drowned in it.

As time passed, learned that love is something more than my perception of it. It grew to have more expanded definition in my brain. But what I learned by heart was that I can't even fully describe what love feels like and so can't another person. This feeling is out of the world if experienced in full

blow.

As it is something that strikes in the middle of nowhere when you least expect it. It is the most magical thing ever in the world. As I thought finding love a second time would be hard for me, since first love is always the hardest one to bear, it wasn't. It was once again purely situational. As I didn't think it would come to this I would feel the same again but this time with different circumstances.

What matters the most is not if it is the same as it was in terms of how it looked, but if it feels similar or even more. To be fair if love was easy no one would ever want it. Love is outbound to overcome any obstacle if it's felt the right way. If two people are capable of truly showing it with no remorse, and no sugarcoating then there is no space left for doubt. It will and can survive. Even if circumstances tell them no, even if overthinking tell them it won't work in the long run. We tell our minds then to shut down and keep the thoughts for tomorrow, and for today, here and now, we shouldn't care what tomorrow or the next week brings. We focus on what matters the most, the feeling we have towards each other.

As lovely as it goes, as hard as it is perceived.