I was at school and found out that one of my best friends was moving. he is such a friend but I'm sad he's going :'(. I only have a few friends that know I have cut and I wanted to tell him but couldn't. until today. I told him and he just kinda. talked to me a little and then I went away and almost cried because I thought he didn't care. I told him I was emo and he just said well no cause u haven't cut. I told him I wanted to kill myself before and he just says no don't. I wish someone would actually sound like they care. he just kinda does it with a little laughter in his voice.

Sometimes I just don't think anyone cares but I know some do. just sometimes I think about being with my mom. she died 2002 and I just don't know much about her. I do self-harm buts its been about two months since I've cut. its been really hard. I didn't cut with a razor, I cut with an earring. i know. its stupid. "oh your not a real cutter if u use an earring, fake". I know that's what your thinking. i just wonder how much fun it will be in high school. I just want a guy best friend so bad. yeah, he is like a bestfriend but I mean a better friend.

I didn't know what to put in here but here u go. I'm sorry ifu don't like it.