Two month and Six days.

She keeps counting days. They are increasing. Like plague. Multiplying like hydra. And keeps haunting her. She is trying her best. But under too many scrutinizing eyes she is unable to make her way. She has to act normal to lay her hands on what she desires. A key to Naveen' innocence. That's what she wants and waits for.

Seventh day goes by and she is still empty handed. She has not been home since past three nights. As if anybody cares but she has not slept well too. And that matters. All for seeking a chance to go in forbidden territory and check some documents. she grabs another file and sits on her desk to seek an opportunity to go and search that deserted room. she waits..

Thats the only thing she has been doing for time...for long time.

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Sujal has been on a roller coaster. For Kashish keeps sending him into frenzies. First she doesn't give two shit that he married someone. Then she puts a facade of being all homey and happy with Piyush. And then two days back she met him in his office and queried him about his marriage!

Why? what does she want? if she wanted him why didnt she stop her marriage! sujal clutches his head. its start of migraine. another pain she gives him and he happily have it. 

sitting here in his cabin what he is paying his most attention is happening in next cabin. cabin of piyush raheja. perhaps she will be trying to wave him off. perhaps she will be....

paperweight falls from desk giving him a shock. he looks at his hands. the ring she gave him is still there. she is still in his life as she was before. but her mild laughter erupting from neighbour room is alien to him. a signal that he is perhaps no more in her life but....he loves her. he loves her way too much. sujal has this idea that he slaughters his self respect everyday for this love. being a retard. being some kind of psycho who takes pleasure in being humiliated and keeps comig bakc for more and more. his sadism is reaching another height everyday and he explains his situation by citing his undying love for kashish. 

wasnt it love that pulled him from his darkness? 

wasnt it the same love from same girl that he learnt how to walk, how to smile! 

so what bad in this, now! 

why kashish wont accept him? why she doesnt come back to him. he will accpet her in evryway, in every form. 

a tear rolls down. and just then kashish enters. holding a lunchbox. 

'wo...aunty ne diya tha.' she keeps it on table. 

she is about to leave. sujal calls her.

'kashish! dont you see i am dying here. everyday little by little. why dont you put an end to it! ya to tum meri ban jaao ya ohir mujhse hamesha ke liye door ho jaao. kya chahti ho tum! yu is tarah mujhe kyu maar rahi ho!'

kashish takes a turn.

'sujal. dheere bolo. piyush pados ke cabin me hi baitha he. aur hum is baare me bat kar chuke he na! i am married to piyush. i am his wife. i am wearing his nuptial chain. this forehead is imprinted by his red. main ab tumhari kabhi nahi ho sakti....kabhi nahi. tum kyu meri ushkile bada rahe ho!'

she leaves him. in pieces. breaking even more. sujal keeps looking on her. her retreating form. his every fiber has changed in some ridiculous way cause he still wants her. 

he buries his head in his arms. consoling himself. telling himself that kashish will one day recognize his love.

all this time forgetting how he has come from broken to shattered. and he still has that hope which instead of being medicine is his slow poison. he is shifting to zombie...his mind processing only one thing that he loves kashish. nothing matters beyond it...

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another week passes by and naina gets much and much hyper. she keeps telling her daily that one day she will get her hands on ti. one day she will get what she wants but in the end when she sits on her desk empty handed it is all zero. zero is something she hates so much. she keeps hanging between naveen and naveen her world has shrunk to one name. she keeps reiterating those promises forgetting she also needs a promise. to be made to her.. to be thwere for her.

her walls are too high. but her building is too small. only naveen echoes in it. 

she is losing herself slowly slowly. running alone...very fast speedily keeping no track of where she can end up. 

she has started taking anti depressant recently because just few weeks ago she was unable to control her irrational mind. her insecurities grew to extent that she was unable to eat and sleep. at one point her mind stopped her from breathing. and then she recognized that she needed help. help led to doctor. doctor gave her prescription along with some precautions but she heard only medicines. the pills which can keep your demons at bay. which can make your mind function monotonously. thats what she wants. thats what she needs. her body her soul needs only one thing. naveen' innocence.

naina has stopped looking in mirror. it makes her cringe. those lifeless eyes makes her question her method. yes, it is right but not to every extent she wants to pull it. she is working like crazy. going to every option available. and that makes her abnormal. she knows and thats why she barley goes out. she barely goes RG mansion. she barely faces sujal. she has no intention of dealing with something that does not involve naveen. 

they married for pure business. he married her because he wanted to teach kashish a lesson. kashish learnt her lesson or not, she doesnt give a damn but she is here in delhi HQ and that matters. she has no idea how he'll ask her to repay but it sure wont be backing out from naveen' case. 

but there beneath all these zombie mind and monotone soul lies a girl. young girl of twenty six who lost her umbrella in storm and is now too scared to seek new one. she keeps drenching and has no intention of accepting help. sujal is the only person she has been talking with like a sane person. without no fear. as he never mentioned her being sister of naveen let alone be traitor. she is afraid of being mocked for being sister of a traitor. her friends distanced themselves from her and she made a pact with herself to not have a friend again. when she is alone her insecurities and issues haunt her and that's why she has drowned herself in work too much that she doesnt want to surface.