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Sujal' arms around her.

Its what she found out when she first opened her eyes. And that very instant she started to wiggle out of his grasp. Cause Sujal is an addiction. And her heart is as fragile as her body. Damn! She has to run...now or it will be never.

'Where do you think you are going?' His foggy voice next to her ear...calm yet dangerous.

That voice. It is like the demon she is running from. But the path is circular. She is where she started from. In this bed. With him. Stuck in his arms. Naina curses her fate once again. Seriously this fate has some kind of rivalry with her. A moment of peace is inaccessible Let alone be happiness.

She struggles more to go out.but he seems to be more powerful than her. This failure just pushes her again...

The pain evokes. And that sadistic pleasure she gets when she blames herself for everything and feels pathetic. Feeling like this is the only thing she can do. Her eyes flowing rivers of tears and the loss of them making her happy in most bizarre way.

'Stop. Struggling. Naina. And Sleep.'

Sujal once again orders her. Her movements though never stops. The struggle increases. She whines. She throws her limbs but seems like nothing is gonna hurt him today. Why he is so powerful! Why the hell he keeps such a hold over her!

Hold on! Isnt this what she let him do that night!

Hold her...when she was falling.

Naina. Its your mistake. You are guilty.

So guilt trip begins. Amd the attempts of running away from him.

Sujal never budged and she suddenly loses the battle. It hurts her.losing one more battle against him. The way she had decided she would never return to this room but in the end she is here in this room, on this bed and once again lying besides him. The horror it evoke in her suddenly dissipating. Her treacherous heart crying for that somber sleep she had last week. But it is forbidden. She has not been worthy. She is pathetic.

'Leave me. SUJAL.'

'I said leave me.why dont you leave me! I said stop holding me. I dont need you...God damn you!'

She attempts to bite him and gets successful. He has flinched but suddenly he stopped reacting. Though blood has oozed out and she has tasted it. It scares her...tidbit.

What a dangerous game she is in!

What a nonsense and complicated life she is having.

Why doesn't this man leave her and let her go!

What does he want from her!

Ohhh..

'You...you want to fuck me again! Right! Thats why you are not letting me go. I so knew it. Kitne gire huye ho tum tumhe sharam nahi aati..Chhee sujal. Look at you. You would stoop to any low for your satisfaction!'

Something crosses his face and Naina knew she has pressed right button.

'Don't you have a love of your life! Mrs kashish raheja! And you..so called true lover is trying to get your way into some one else' pants! Wow. What kind of love do you have! Is the love limited to some audible words and the company only! Being loyal doesn't count? Wow. Wow. You are impressive. Sujal..seriously.'

His eyes is getting dark. For a second she is scared. Scared that in anger he would cross the lime and then she with him will be swallowed......Happily. Her attemlts at escape will be futile. The urges and her deep dark demons will prompt her to yield and she will. The swing they will take together is not what she wants.... A slop to pit..of darkness and nowhere..

Naina has decided to go alone. No matter what happens. No matter what it takes. Sujal whom she thought her passage to Naveen' innocence actually proved to be pathway of her own doom. The more she'll stay with him she is going to deviate from her destination. What she long ago had accepted silently will be denied thoroughly with his constant company. No. She cant take this risk. Her destiny is pale sunset. But Sujal is trying to tell her that its in actual dawn. Sun is actually just rising up. He tells her that she is mistaken. She can sleep night without a nightmare. And it scares her because her nights have never been without nightmares.

She feels his grip tight as before. Her resilience is breaking slowly slowly. In the end she will give up bit hanging between that comfort and her fear of being left out as always. Her life will be sabotaged and she will be consumed in that trench.

So she has to attempt to push all his buttons..who knows which one will work.

'You said...you loved Kashish. Where is that love, mr. Grewal? When you hold me and beg me to turn so that you can be inside me! Is this what your love that culminates with fucking me! The height of your love is less than my legs. And the moment they are spread you forgot your love! I must say. This is new. The so called love..and those confessions...wow. I must be way good-'

Suddenly her breath stops. Sujal' lips are on her sucking her life force. Attempting to suffocate her. But It would be a lie if it isnt pleasing. His hand tearing her shirt and harshly cupping her breast. His nails digging in.

The fire is alight. Oh my God! Harsh and rogue fire sure does feel magnificent. And she sure has been transported from abyss to heaven.

It doesn't take long to Sujal to stop kissing her and looking at her with dark sinister eyes. Reprimand in those eyes. Those lios land on her again. With same vigour and intentions of hurting her..

A miracle happens and his lips touches her in most careful way. Feels like he is afraid if she will break with his harsh lips. Afraid if she will crack open with his fingers and scared if she will subsume with his entangled legs. He gently nibbles her lower lip taking it in his mouth very slowly. Caressing it wetting it and his tongue enters in her mouth with such an etiquette. The previous touches who burnt her suddenly breaks her in flames this time cold ones. His fingers has found her nipples and they are flickering them. It is more painful and good than his harsh mouth. His mouth descends and tenderly kisses side of her lips. Then her chin and trying to locate her pulse. Then they stop. His lips rest at her neck. His warm breath colliding with her burning cleavage. The end of his journey is beginning actually.

She relishes it. And suddenly breaks into sobs. Crying bitterly..searching for his hand and crying more when she doesn't find it. Suddenly she is crushed in his arms...leading to her scatter like a window pane struck with lightening. She keeps on crying and He keeps on holding her.

And finally......confessing her crime. The only one she committed....by seeking Sujal as a companion. That led to a dangerous ending. She a well described loner now has no heart of getting away from Sujal....

'I dont want to be alone. I dont want...

Before Naveen bhaiya' death I could not sleep at nights with every damn facility being provided in my room. I was unable to sleep alone. On being posted alone I used to call him. Daily. But when he died....I lost a huge part of me. without mom and dad i learnt to live with bhaiya..and now..when I am all alone...I have no courage left to look up for anyone else. I am afraid..of being alone.....

Stop holding me Sujal. Agar mujhe tumhari adat ho gayi to....
Main nahi chahti ki mujhe tumhare kandhe ki adat ho. Leave me at my state. I'll take care of myself or if couldn't I'll succumb to it. But...pleasee....stop holding me.' she fights back just bit more and cries. Hoping he would go away..

But She feels his arms still around her and it makes her believe tonight that she can cry...so she does. Without any hesitation.

She feels him cuddling her. Like he is the sun and he wants to take her cold form in...to warm her. Her somber heart suddenly so alight. Her tears flow all night but his grip doesn't go loose.

When she sleeps after tiring her Brain out by crying his mind has noticed the warmth. When she wakes up next morning She finds Sujal wrapped around her. For a second she feels same as she did one week ago. Bit jovial amd homey. But this is different morning and she is also different. However a groggy Sujal beats her in getting up. Leaving her alone....and wondering if thid is what she wanted...or if this is what she hates.

Being alone in this room....

She gets up and does her morning chores. Her mind brittle...at brink of breaking up..everything chaotic. Her issues.. her problems...but somewhere a question about this relation what made Sujal bring her back here. What forced her to take her in and treat her like he really has some respect for this lame relation. Damn! This is all messed up.

When she comes out she finds Sujal with a breakfast tray. Before she can turn back she is pulled by him. Sujal makes her sit and gives her coffee.

'Eat this. You have to have meds after breakfast.'

Hearing him she stands up. Turns her face and with a shallow breath goes on with her insecure blaming...

'Mujhe nahi khana..Aur tum ye sab kyu kar rhe ho? I dont need your charity.i can handle myself very well. Stop making me feel worthless. Tumhe jo karna tha mere liye..tum kar chuke. Its been done. Your part has been done for good. Now its my life. I have to take care of my issues myself. The business is over. Let me pack my bags and leave...and stop being who your not.

You are not the guy.....who will come out of his zone and look at something beyond himself.'

When she looks at him after shouting her heart out....she is surprised to see him composed and calm...same as before. Instead of giving her peace of his mind he comes to her and hands her coffee. His eyes...different....

And then Something in her heart holds her back. She silently sips her coffee and have that sandwich which he has made for her. If it is complex...perhaps it is for both of them. Naina' eyes sting but her heart feels serene. After a long time...her soul doesn't question her. For once her questions subside...Because Sujal' eyes doesn't show any reprimand.