" Do you want to be swallowed by the hatred for yourself ? "

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𝕵inyeop didn't belong .

Not in school or anywhere else . Not even in his own goddamn house .

His parents never knew anything but perfection, drilled him into it until he couldn't keep up the facade anymore . Until he crumbled into pieces and lost everything that made him truly him .

Now he was just existing in his own misery , his parents still drilling him more and more , thinking the once so complaint boy would just come back like that . Like they hadn't destroyed that version of him a long time ago , losing any sense for his own being and feeling towards his own body .

He drowned in a cycle of self - loathing , something making him want to get rid of anything that reminded him of himself . Rip off his flesh and throw it to the beasts , making himself bleed .

Was it for a attention ? Or a sense of feeling alive again ? Jinyeop wasn't sure, but he wanted it , needed it even . Another broken nose or black eye for every time his parents screamed at him for trivial things . Form every bruise he got from his father came another bruise to his skin by another guys fist . Losing the fights he initiated on purpose without ever hurting anyone but himself .

Towards himself , he was rotten , no feeling , no compassion , as he deserved . As his parents made him believe he deserved .

A family like a rotten apple . Withered from the two most important pieces .

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" What is even left when your own parents destroy your being ? "