"What do you think?..........i don't like her . I love her." I heard him saying that sternly I could tell that he's serious. I trust him I saw it in his eyes. I smiled to myself hearing him and Jimin just sighed in relief. I chuckled at my friend who is worried about me.

"I told you now let's go." I whispered to Jimin and he just told me to be mute by placing his finger on his lips.

"I still don't trust you! And I want my sister to be safe and I don't want her to be hurt like she did in past and I would rather die than being a reason of her tears. But I'm the reason for her past break up. And I don't want to be the reason of her tears anymore." I frowned upon hearing my sister. She knew that? But I didn't tell anyone except Jimin about my sister being the reason of my past break up. How?

"I saw her!" it's Jungkook now. What is he talking about? Saw me?

"I saw her crying in the alley after her break up. She cried her heart out thinking she's alone but I kept watching her. Tears fled out of her eyes as she wept and that's when I thought of protecting her. She looked so weak and light like a feather whom I wanted to make strong." his reply caught me off guard. And for a second my mind went blank.

He saw me crying? He saw me weak? He saw me breaking down? He saw me being vulnerable? And he thought of protecting me? Is that the reason why he met me? Is this the reason why he talked to me? Is this the reason why he praised me? Calling me pretty? beautiful? Is this the reason why he said "I love you " to me? Is this the reason why he kissed me? It was a help?

Oh my God! How can I be so stupid? It wasn't love............................... It was PITY all along.

He pitied me by watching my weak self and wanted to help me which I mistook it as love. He pitied me? He didn't love me? But I thought - right! That's why he called me pretty to make me feel better.

PITY I hate that word. I have never ever cried in front of anyone except my sister and Jimin. I'm afraid that people would pity me watching vulnerable and they might show concern. A concern coming from watching you weak isn't love. And I'm stupid enough to think that a man as perfect as Jungkook would love me.

All the things he said, all the things he did, all the lovely moments we had flashed through my mind. I thought it was love but he did it all out of pity. My heart just sank as the realization hit me hard and it was hard to stand as I felt my legs being weak but thanks to Jimin's support. He caught me by grabbing my shoulders. Without realizing my cheeks got damp by my tears.

I clutched onto the tiny box which I bought for him. As It was hard to breathe while crying. My throat hurts as I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I loved him. For the first time ever in my life I have loved someone so hard that I dreamt about getting older together with him. I never had any feelings for my ex nor my other crushes. But Jungkook is my first ever love whom I loved genuinely. And now it hurts worst as the relationship itself is made of pity.

He's a good man and he proved it. I should have known when he offered me to stay with him. He pitied that I didn't have any place to stay then.
I clenched my fists into balls and dailed a number.

"Hello, Mrs. Hess. Is that room still available that you told me this morning?" I asked trying not to show that I'm crying like a Godzilla.

"Oh you're lucky sweety it's still available. I guess you want it tomorrow am I right?" she asked giggling a little but I'm not in a mood to giggle with her I would probably sound like a chipmunk having a sore throat.

"Is it available right now?" I asked sternly. I don't want to live on someone's mercy.

"umm..........like right now? Uhhh, yeah it is when will you come? I will text you address actually I knew the landlord very well so it's okay." she concluded. I really want to hug her right now.

"Thank you Mrs. Hess, you've done a lot for me." I hung up my phone after talking with her and made my way to them. My sister and him. Jimin just followed me silently.

"You could have told me Jungkook!" I said being hurt and my eyes got wet again after seeing him who stood there surprised by my presence. I gulped down the lump forming in my throat.

"Y/n! I -"

Even before he could say anything I gestured him to stop from coming closer.

"So it was pity all along huh? I-I was stupid enough to think that you love me. But it was pity all along." I said between my sobs.

"No y/n! It's no-"

"No Jungkook! Y-you didn't love me. You just pitied me. A w-weak and vulnerable girl crying all a-alone in an alley. You felt sorry for me. That's not love Jungkook." he tried to come closer again but I moved back while showing him my palm to stop.

"You saw me at my worst and thought of helping me. It was a charity that I didn't remember asking you. Actually I haven't. You're a good and kind man who thought of helping a weak girl like me and you chose to help me by showing me pity which I mistook for love." My voice came out like a whisper as I couldn't stop my sobs.

"I-I feel so pathetic right now. I would have taken it if it's something else because I trusted you, I loved you. But realizing my love just pitied me to make me happy really hurts. I feel like an easy desperate girl trying to be loved whom you helped." at this point I just I don't want to take care about me being a mess due to my outburst.

"No y/n, it's not what you think. It's just that-"

"It's not you, it was me who is at fault. Don't worry it's just one sided love I will get over it soon. I'm not good enough for you. Let's end this right here. You're too good for me." Jungkook ran towards me in panic and held my shoulders by hearing my words.

"N-no, y/n it's not like that. I love you. Please don't say this to me." he looked into my teary eyes and I can see hurt and panic in his dark brown doe eyes.

"Y/n! Just hear him once." my sister adviced.

"No Jungkook, you don't love me. You can't differentiate between love and pity. I hope you can get a better girl whom you will love rather than pitiying. And I don't like to take charity's. I just thought of gifting you this but- I will just pay for this dress late- or you can just cut it from my salary." I placed the tiny box in his hands who kept looking at me with hurt in his eyes.

I can't see him being hurt. It pains but still I think it's better this way, he will just thank me in future making him realize that what he has for me is just a pity thing not even close to like or love.

I ran off from the place and I exited the venue and to my luck it's raining. I kept walking straight carrying my heels in my hands as I didn't care about the heavy rain hitting me. I hate rains but today it seems like my I changed my mind. The rain just covered my tears and it's one of my favorite things till now. I don't want anyone else to see me like this. I don't want any other person to pity me.

I'm not angry, I don't blame Jungkook for this. But I just feel like I'm a begger for love and he just threw a dollar to me which was named love. If you give money to a beggar it doesn't mean that you love him it means that you pitied his state. I know the reason is stupid. It must be lame. But still I think what I have done just now is right! I don't want someone to be sorry for me.

I want someone to love me. I'm blaming myself for not having a clue about his concern towards me. And again who is he to help me? I didn't ask him for it. Then why!? It is not necessary for him to do the whole act like introducing himself as my sister's ex.

He is my sister's ex but still he lied to me about everything getting my sister back and all. That's why he never ever tried to get my sister's attention. I wish shouldn't have just said my insecurities at the time in the bar where I met him. My mind went to that day when I met him at first. It's so confusing. Is it coincidence that he met me or it was all planned?

*Honk*

I flinched hearing a car 's horn and I know who it was. I forgot about this dork.

I heard Jimin's voice as he kept driving the car along with my pace keeping his passenger seat's window down. "Y/n! Get in!" he yelled but I kept walking.

"Y/n please, don't be like this. You know I don't want to see you like this." he said and I sighed turning my head towards his car which is right beside me.

"Come in y/n!" I heard another voice coming from the back seat and I saw Hoseok sitting there. God I don't want another guy to pity me.

I opened the door harshly and placed my ass on the passenger seat and closed my eyes leaning back against the seat implying that I don't want to talk about anything right now.

..................

"Will you please talk now? You are staring at the cup since an hour." Jimin yelled out in frustration.

I took my stuff from Jungkook's house and left the key with the watchman. And now I'm at Jimin's flat with all the packed bags of mine lying next to him where he sat on the couch. This scene looks familiar to me.

"Jimin! Stop yelling at her!" Hoseok commanded and Jimin just rolled his eyes. Hoseok got to know that Jungkook's my boyfriend well now ex boyfriend and he understood the whole situation. Mainly he got know that Jungkook isn't a gay.

"It's OK y/n! You can get over it. And I have been there too, I used to be like you. I see myself in you. Trust me it hurts at first but you can get over it soon." Hoseok's calm and polite tone made me to look at him with a sad smile.

"Oh come on now! Let's go to a club and I will let you hook up with a dashing guy who's far better than Jungkook." I glared at Jimin's comment. Now that's what we call a bullshit advice.

"Jimin!" Hoseok said sternly.

"Hoseok hyung!" Now it's Jimin turn.

"PARK JIMIN!" hoseok voice came out a bit loud warning him not to irritate me with his stupid advices.

"HOSEOK HYUNG!" Jimin said with same intensity.

"Guys, you are not at all helping. Go and conduct your concert of yelling somewhere else." I leaned back onto the couch massaging my temples.

"Y/n you can take my room. I will be in Jimin's 's room for Tonight." I sighed hearing Hoseok's words. Mrs. Hess called again and informed that I could able to move in tomorrow not today as it's pretty late.

"So....... What are you even thinking of doing now?" I sat straight with determination hearing Jimin's question.

OK y/n! You're just 21! There's a lot of life ahead. Do I need a partner? No! Do I need someone to lean on? No! I can be by myself. Me, my dog, my house are more than enough! Yeah it's not a cat, I told you I don't like cats anymore as a cat almost bit me. I have decided what I wanted to be.

I sprinted up from the couch with fire of determination and my hands were balled into fists. I lifted my chin up as I felt a whole hola behind my head and I spoke in stern and serious voice. I'm angry on myself.

"I will be a Nun!" I raised my fist in the air and I could hear a background music of inspirational song playing in the background.

I felt awkward and lowered my fists realizing that Hoseok and Jimin were gawking at me with their mouths wide open. There's a pin drop silence in the room until hoseok spoke.

"Umm,.....y/n I think that's a little umm,-"

"Crazy, are you nuts y/n! A nun? Seriously are you kidding me?" Jimin cut off Hoseok's words and started dissing my wonderful future plan.

"what's wrong with it? I will earn money now, and after I turn 25 I will be a nun, help poor take care of sick people and do social welfare. And lastly I will be with my dog in my house peacefully." I voiced out my perfect plan.

"I agree with you Jimin she's a nut case." Hoseok spoke.

"Nun? Then everyone will call you sister. Are you OK with that sister y/n? I felt insects crawling all over body when he called me that! Ewwww.

"Eww don't call me that! Idiot" I flared at him.

"Yes, you will be a nun for sure the devil nun valak from the "movie nun" see ." he displayed a picture on his phone and I flinched watching that photo. It was a nun in black clothes looking creepy.

"You know what! I used to be a nerd in my school, with round glasses and braces." my attention turned towards hoseok who exhaled deeply as he continued.

" Who wouldn't want to get friends. But nobody wanted to be with an ugly nerd like me. Nobody bullied actually. But I was the one who used to be desperate teenage boy and I followed the popular boys in my school. I just wanted attention. I clearly remember we were close to our graduation. I even got graduated but roamed around with those popular boys. " he chuckled as if he's recalling his memories. I can relate. I saw Jimin listening to hoseok curiously as I am.

"Later I got to know the boys with whom I'm being with were into alcohol, drugs, vandalism, fights and all. It took time for me know that. You know how slow I am."

"Yeah, slower than a snail." Hoseok just laughed at Jimin's words.

"You know what I did after that? After knowing that I'm being with bad people." He asked me but I just kept mum.

"I did nothing. Instead I felt it interesting and exciting. I changed completely forgetting about my old self. I got a tattoo too, actually tattoos." he said while removing his upper coat and I can see his tattoos on both of his hands as he's wearing a black shirt which is half sleeved.

"Woah! Damn that is really cool hyung!" Jimin said it out loud and it was like a squeal of a fan girl. Honestly I would do it too. That's why he always wears full handed shirts to work. I thought it was because of his ethics at work.

"I was completely influenced by them. I thought the boys with whom I'm being with are cool. Girls, alcohol everything I did everything except for drugs. Everything was fine until one day a huge fight occurred due to drugs thing. Police got involved and it was my first time being behind the bars." I gasped in shock so did Jimin but Hoseok just continued.

"I have been interrogated, and the others escaped from the prison after blaming everything on me. I have been there for a few years. Like 2 years or so I guess. Thank God I graduated even before I got arrested. I have a degree with me but no one wants to offer a job to an ex convict." he exhaled deeply.

"I regretted being with them, following them. It's my fault totally. Even though I knew they were bad I still kept following them. That's when I realized I changed for gaining attention from people. I lost myself trying to be popular. I went back to my old self, removed my contact lenses and went back to nerdy glasses. I felt happy. Being myself." he smiled while keeping his gaze down to the floor.

"I went for job trials and again the same thing happened. I've been rejected. And then I sat alone in a cafe where I met someone who changed my life."

"who?!" me and Jimin asked curiously at the same time leaning our bodies forward.

"I told you I've been investigated. The guy who interrogated me was younger than me. he did a background check on me as he was told to do. I met him coincidentally that day and he assumed what would have happened as he saw my gloomy face and a file of my certificates beside me." with a smile on his lips hoseok continued.

"I was first surprised when he told he left his job as a cop and is working in his family business. And i was too shook when he offered me a job. All the people around me either pitied me or looked at me with disgust. I thought he offered me the Job out of pity. But no he really wanted me to work for him as he said I'm perfectly qualified for the Job. That's how I'm here. As a secretary." he said while pointing himself with his open hands.

Let me tell you I'm impressed.

"So y/n! Don't loose yourself. Just hang on there, you will get what you deserve in the end. And don't take any decisions out of anger. If you add "D" to Anger It will be Danger remember." he smiled politely and I just felt like a little girl under his gaze. And that's how I got a new best friend. If Jimin is a annoying friend, Hoseok's a friend who will guide you through your life. My new best friend. Hoseok.

"Hoseok?! Who's the guy that appointed you as a secretary?" again me and Jimin asked curiously.

" You guys know about Secretary Kim right!" he smiled and left us totally shook.

Namjoon?! It was Namjoon? Woah!

A/n : That's a very long ass chapter. So yeah that's how they broke up and it is Hoseok's past.

Hoseok with tattoos. That's how he looks.

In case you don't know. She's Valak in the movie the nun.

Next chapter is going to be in Jungkook's pov. Yay!

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