a/n: monsta x's new english song is such a bop, so i had to write a oneshot for it

middle of the night by monsta x, suggested by ALLI-ALLIGATOR- (you said any monsta x song so―)

also stan i.m, please and thank you―

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❝ 'cause i can't lose everything i know
i hate sleeping alone
i'm picking up the phone

...and i'll be on the way in the middle of night
'cause i can never wait for the morning to rise
we're kissing in the car underneath all the light
you've got me
you've got me

...and i'll be on the way in the middle of night
it's something in the way you've been running my mind
if you want me to stay for the rest of my life
you've got me
   you've got me ❞

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It was lonely at the top. 

Kai Chisaki, young head of the Shie Hassaikai, had grown to become accustomed to the feeling of loneliness. It sank its cold, freezing jaws into his body wherever he went ― causing the feeling of dread and sadness to always follow him around like a rain cloud.

It was a sickening feeling, to feel so alone when in actuality, he had everything. 

He had loyal subordinates ― in particular, a childhood friend of his, Hari Kurono. That man was so loyal ― willing to lay down his life if necessary for his boss. 

He also had the full control over a Yakuza empire: one built up by Pops.

But still, the feelings of loneliness clung to him, like desperate leaves trying to withstand a strong, fierce breeze on a quivering tree. 

You might say that his loneliness could be easily cured by a partner ― someone to hold at night. If only Kai had someone to love, someone to rely on: then perhaps he wouldn't feel so lonely.

But no ― no. He wasn't interested in a relationship. He didn't want someone to cuddle him at night and love him. 

All Kai wanted was to succeed. But it seemed that life didn't have those plans for him. After all, those ice-cold feelings persisted, no matter what he did. They closed on him, until he was gasping for air, chest heaving.

Kai never thought he'd need someone by his side.

But you proved him wrong.

A childhood friend of his like Hari, you were the one who approached him after the first meeting with Shigaraki. You were the one who touched him on the shoulder, fingers feather-light as they grazed over the dark fabric of his dress shirt. You were the one who wasn't afraid of him.

You were the one who was willing to support him and love him.

Then, everything afterward happened in a spiral.

All of a sudden, the iron-tight grip loneliness had on him vanished. His thoughts were now filled with you, and you only. To his surprise, he now constantly longed to see you. And at times in the middle of the night when he felt lonely by himself in his bedroom, he'd swipe open his phone and let his thumb hover over your contact name. 

It comforted him to know that you were always a call away.

But Kai knew that he shouldn't get so attached. Attachment only lead to broken hearts and aching bodies, but he couldn't stop himself.

He loved you. And for some reason, he felt that he needed you.

He decided that he would stay. 

For the rest of his life.