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I saw him, kissing another girl. Brushing it, as if he was memorizing every curve of her lips. He caressed her fondly- unobtrusive audience in his eyes. My breath hitched when they both smiled from ear to ear- an apiece. I tried to step away, but all I could hear was the storming, raging, echoes inside of me. I wish I could escape from it, I would gladly run incessantly, but to where?

I was weak-  incapacitated in my own physique. I tumbled down- latched to a bristly surface. I shut my eyes, a hazel haze of twilight, to endure the pain but in a flash, I saw him; it made it worse of the worst. I caught myself breathless. 

I was unable to shift any part of my body- except the tears that were streaming continuously like a river. A complicated tale of woe.

Slowly, I stood up with a heavy heart. Thousand of puzzling questions popped but one was above- Is this what love is? 

I groaned again from the pain. It was electrifying. 

An osculation between the two of them overpowered my thinking. My heart was in deep ache. I dropped to my knees again, the pain was so unbearable that I couldn't help but cry my heart out. 

A loud thunder began, and then it rained. It poured down uncontrollably. The vicious rain cried with me. And for a moment everything went a blur, I screamed without a voice. Everything that had been veiled inside the sweet and innocent me had finally been out. 

It broke my heart into million pieces, maybe more. 

My heart was a confounding puzzle. A puzzle that was hard to solve- mystified heart, that even the most intelligent man in the universe would not possibly fathom. Then how about me? A mere dot in this universe solving this mystified heart? - I know for a fact, I wouldn't. Impossible! because if I did solve it, the last piece of my heart would be missing, 'cause it will always be him. It would always be him... 

I gave my whole heart to him, but in return, he ripped it, broke it, and did everything that would hurt me. 

I loved him so much, so much... that I lost myself... 

Umiling ako into believing that this is just a dream. A bad dream, A nightmare, Yes! indeed a nightmare. 

What made our relationship go through this? Ako ba? Was there something wrong with me? Was my love not enough? Am I not enough for him? Did I do something wrong? A mistake? Pangit ba ako? Am I... not good?

We fought together... We did everything we could to save this relationship... but It was my version before. Now I know for sure, that he's waiting on his throne to hear the news that I had perished from this ferocious war.

I hesitated when he saw me, electricity flowed unto me, looking at his beautiful dark brown eyes. I thought my heart was already numb, but when I saw him kiss her. Again. made an evident proof that it wasn't.

I gasped for air, wanting everything to end. 

He shut his wistful eyes, and held her with his arms- trapped, she widened her eyes in surprise when he planted a rich and passionate kiss on her soft and sweet lips. Him, kissing another girl broke me more than I could ever imagine. 

I hate to admit it, but I am jealous. Tears slid past my lashes.  Crying, I stood there like I was stuck, and even if I want to move and run, I just couldn't. I just simply couldn't.

I looked at her, the girl that betrayed me. It was someone very close to my heart. Someone I knew, someone I trusted, someone I loved, someone whom I cherished, someone that I cared for. It was my best friend. 

Smiling as she looked at the other half of me... My boyfriend. No, Sapphire, This is pure evidence na wala na kayo. 

I looked around with no intent to. I had a sight of a dreamy blue theme- special color to both of them. It was clearly an engagement party. People were present, smiling while clapping their hands out, but it felt like I was the only one there. All of the people were imperceptible.

I gathered a breath. A surge of sadness ran throughout my vision.

I walked myself across the room and even fell. It caused noise from the audience, eyes were sticking to me- pairs of pure disgust eyes. And in a second whispers encompassed their lips.

My hands brushed my dress, I looked at it in an instant; It was ripped, muddy, and worn out. I smiled, my dress wept, as I did. 

"Who's that? The Vergara's shouldn't invite some filthy poor people!" rinig kong sambit nila.

"Her hair is distracting me! so messy!" sabay turo pa nila sa'kin.

"Why wear a white dress when it's dirty?" sarkastikong tawa nung isa sa kanilang bisita.

"Her bruises... It's making puke!"

My lips stretched and made a faint smile. Their security guards came up to me na para bang alam nilang darating ako. Hindi na sila nagsayang ng oras at 'di nag atubiling hinila ang braso ko, nagpumiglas ako, they held me tighter, dahilan kung bakit mas lalong dumugo ang mga sugat ko. 

I didn't mind any of it. I didn't want to cause any more fight.

Kahit na gusto kong sumbatan sila, 'di ko magawa.

I am tired... Tired of everything. 

Nilunok ko ang luhang nagbabadya, ngunit sumaway ito. Dumaloy ito, agad ko itong pinunasan.

I want to utter a word but all I could hear was my breath hitching. 

I looked at Seus, millions of memories rushed. "S-Seus," I uttered his name. It tasted so familiar. 

I opened my lips to speak, she cut me in an instant.

"Why are you here?!" she shouted in a thunderous manner.

I lifted my gaze but dropped. I couldn't help but question myself. Why am I here?

Inangat ko muli ang aking mga mata, agad itong dumayo sa mukha n'ya. His face... looked so beautiful... even if it's pitched black, even if the anger was evident in his face, even if his lips were in a straight line. I missed that face...

"Are you here to take my fiancé away from me? Huh?!" she shouted like I could have Seus running back into my arms.

Tita Chandra went up to her and calmly said, "Hija, calm down," she looked at her sweetly.

The Mother of Perseus, as always, looked very beautiful. We had a good relationship, but with these past few weeks, It was slowly fading. 

I've been living in a world full of lies because growing up, I always believed that love conquers all. Well, sorry to break it to you, but it doesn't.

Bumaling si Tita sa'kin, She looked differently at me. "Please Leave. You're hurting my daughter-in-law; you're hurting the unborn child! I'm sorry to break it to you but they're bound to each other. Nakakasama ang isang tulad mo, ang isang Merritt, kaya umalis ka na! Leave!" sigaw ni Tita Chandra at itinuro ang labas. Tita Chandra kept professional but her emotions says otheriwse.

I took a step, but I fell, again. I looked at my wound, It was bleeding, I held it. The pain was nothing from this. It was far from this.

Agad akong kinakaladkad papalabas ng mga security guards nila.

Thousand of questions ruled inside my head. Thoughts of mine broke me. She's pregnant? Who's the father? 

Umiling ako sa napagtanto ko, Si Seus...

Siguro tama sila 'di na dapat ako nag aksaya ng panahon kay Seus, siguro I was blinded by love.

I shouldn't have risked it, I shouldn't have risked my love.

I looked at them once again. I saw Perseus' motioning his hands to the security guards; with no doubt, they stopped touching me. And for a moment, I saw hope in the tragic tale of woe. He walked to me and said the most devastating sentence I've ever heard in my life, "Amara, I didn't love you." 

Even if I was shaking, I managed to utter the words to him. "I'm breaking up with you. With all our connections to each other, don't ever come near me, don't ever be beside me, cause I don't want you no more, Seus," and left. I never looked at him back again.

Why did he cheat on me? Why didn't I hear any sorry from him? Why did he hurt me? 

Why? A single word, yet making me feel I'm in somewhat hurricane.

I ran as fast as I can, leaving this place, running away from the memories we've done. Leaving Nueva Vizcaya, the place where it all started.

I will never ever come back to this place again. 

My wavy hair flowed as I ran. Water flowed in my beautiful hazel eyes, It blurred so much that I couldn't even see where I am heading towards.

I've never thought this could happen. I heaved for air, choking, desperate for it but none dared to venture into my lungs. I wanted to end the pain but not like this. 

I slipped, my wounds started to bleed once again. I looked up when I felt something, It was the rain, It started to pour again. I smiled, only the sky knows how much I've tried. I fell and drowned in my own pool of tears, every taste of it was misery. 

I haven't hated any single thing, but when I met him everything changed. And now that he's gone, I know now what I hate. It was my mouth, tasting every tear that streamed. It was my ears hearing every crying sound I made, It was my eyes, looking at the girl with puffy haunted eyes, hollow cheeks, and tears streaming down her face full of agony and sadness. It was my reflection that I don't even recognize.

Siguro nga kailangan magtira ng pagmamahal sa sarili mo, siguro nga masyado akong nagmahal, siguro nga dapat itunuon ko ng pansin ang sarili ko bago ang iba. 

But in the end, this wasn't what I wanted, this isn't what I was fated for, and this wasn't what I deserved. Never.

This love can tear you down, break you, and can even kill you. This love is what you call, The Overflowing Love.

〰〰〰〰『𖤣𖥧𖡼..✎ ..𖡼𖥧𖤣』〰〰〰〰

With love, Sofia