"Stop fucking following me." Jamie told CiCi walking down the stairs.

"Did you forget the terms? It's been three months-"

"Bitch, you wanted me away from Aspen so I got her to hate me. I'm not having sex with you so stop fucking hitting me up and randomly popping up."

"I wonder how Aspen's going to feel knowing we've been messing around this whole time." CiCi smirked putting her finger on her chin. "Who you think she gon hate more? Me or you?"

"Imma act like ain't shit happen once you come up missing."

"What you gon kill me?" She chuckled grabbing his arm. 

"What the fuck do you want from me son? Like honestly this can't be all about sex, what the fuck do you want?" 

"You."

"But for what? I ain't shit. I'm a broke ass nigga who drive his mother car, Aspen used to buy me shit. Fuck do you want from me?" 

"I want the love you feel for her."

"You'll never have that from me." He shrugged honestly, no female would ever have him like her.

"Until I make you feel what's here then-"

"Bitch the only thing that's here between us is rage, when I see you I think of different ways to kill you."

"Sociopaths need love to, if you just gave us a chance then you'll understand how we got into this situation."

"We got into this situation because you a nut ass bitch who need to be monitored 24/7 taking pills to keep you in check, you not fucking right in the head."

"You can get me right." She smiled rubbing his pants.

"I can get you killed." He told her honestly, tempting towards that option.

"I bet you'll like to know Darius finally took something from you you could never have." CiCi smirked.

"Aspen gon come back in my life one way or another."

"Oh I wasn't talking bout that." She chuckled. "Read this."

Jamie furrowed his eyebrows confused on what she was showing him, he read the text messages between her and Aspen which they was talking about her losing her virginity. His heart dropped as he checked the contact to see if this was the right number, he even called just to hear her childish ass voicemail. His heart was more than broke, it was shattered and he felt like everything just left in his body.

"You know Aspen still naive when it comes to the dating stuff, I think I said something along the lines if you love him, you should give him all of you." CiCi smirked watching Jamie eyes water until a tear eventually dropped.

"Watch out." He cleared his throat trying to not put his hands on her as she continued poking the bear.

"I got you out her life, I got India out her life, next is the rest of y'all and then it'll just be Aspen and I."

"Fuck out my way before I go to jail for murder." Jamie told her seriously, his hands was twitching and he was gon beat her like a nigga.

"Get the fuck out his fucking way." Ky spoke coming down the stairs seeing her cousin crying and CiCi smirking. 

"We were just talking."

"Bitch, I don't give a fuck. He said get the fuck out his way so move before I punch ya head through the glass door."

CiCi moved and Jamie wasted no time walking in the office, he had to leave he couldn't be here for another three more hours. Ky was going to follow him but she knew he wasn't the best person to be around when he's mad, she just texted him then went to class.

"Jamie, I got some papers for ya mother to sign. Step in my office." Dawson spoke making Jamie silently sigh. 

He walked in the office seeing Aspen laying on the couch eating candy while she scrolled down her feed, he squeezed his fist real tight, he had so many words for her but he couldn't say shit. Dawson looked through his papers then sighed.

"I left them in my upstairs office, just wait right here Jamie." Saying his name made Aspen look from her phone.

"This important? I got shit to do."

"It ain't gon take no more then ten minutes, just wait right here." Dawson walked out the office.

He stood there with his head running a hundred miles per second, right now in his head he was hating Aspen. He was hating everything about her, he hated how much he love her, he hated he was in love with her, he hated he depended on her so much, he hated even walking up to her the first day he saw her. He hated her guts right now and he needed to get out her presence.

"Here." She tried to hand him a tissue, he backed up wiping his face his self.

The way he was staring at her was making her feel something, he was looking at her as if he stepped in dog shit in some new shoes. It held so much hate and distress in the stare and honestly it scared her. She's never had someone look at her like this, especially him.

"Are you okay?" She asked to get ignored. "I know we left on a bad note but you can always talk to me about anything, I don't hate you."

"I hate you." He spoke catching her off guard.

"Wh-what?" She stuttered coming closer to him off instinct. 

"I hate that I ever involved myself with you, I hate you ever existed." He said with his lip shaking, his heart was so hurt even though it shouldn't have been, this hurt more than watching his brother die.

"Don't say that Jamie." Aspen mumbled.

"I swear to God, I hate you Aspen." He shook his head putting his fist to his mouth trying not to cry, she didn't deserve to see his vulnerable side anymore.

"Jamie, please stop." She spoke softly making him back up.

"You satisfied with hurting me like you wanted to?" He asked. "You said it'll be me hurt this time and I ain't believe you but you a genius I should've known you were always two steps ahead of me. I hope that nigga deserved your virginity, I hope he deserved you."

"Jamie I-" She stopped to sigh. "I-"

"I don't wanna hear it Aspen!" He yelled making her jump as she put her head down. "When I say I hate you, I mean that shit with my whole heart and I put that on my brother."

"Here go-" Dawson stopped seeing Jamie in tears and Aspen looking down.

"Thanks." Jamie snatched all the papers out his hand walking out the building without looking back.

"I'm going to go home." Aspen grabbed her bag nodding, she was confused but also very angry.

~

"I'm confused." Memo spoke looking at her daughter while she ran her hands through her hair.

"Did you lose your virginity or not?" Mulan asked.

"No, not at all." Aspen shook her head. 

"Did you tell Ky or India anything about this? You know that's their cousin and they gon tell him everything." Remy told her. 

"No!" Aspen said in frustration. "India and I aren't even talking."

"Y'all not talking after she just beat that girl up for you like that?" Mulan asked.

"We just had a argument and I told her how she was a bully and she wasn't down for me."

"You know she getting a charge for hitting her, right?" Mulan asked. "Aspen, she can get up to three years in jail just for defending you and you talking bout she not down for you."

"I didn't know that." Aspen shook her head, everything was just going wrong. 

"How did this conversation of her not being down even occur?" Ny asked.

"We were talking about her boyfriend and CiCi said something and they all just started coming for her as always. She's my friend and it's like every time she comes around they find some new reason to dislike her because she has a reputation. It's annoying because I can't defend her without actually picking sides."

"Why don't they like her?" NeeNee asked.

"They say she's not really my friend, she's in competition with me and she wants Jamie, it always comes back to Jamie." She sighed.

"Sound like she your Journee." Memo said.

"Huh?" 

"Journee was my best friend since diaper days but you know were rich and she wasn't so she would take my kindness for granted and always was jealous. I used to spends thousands of dollars on her but it still wasn't enough, she just had to have everything I had."

"Including ya father." Mulan chuckled. 

"We told Memo from 8th grade to 11th that Journee wasn't her friend but she had to find out herself when she slept with ya father while they was still together." Remy shook her head.

"But you and Journee are still best friends?" Aspen questioned confused. 

"Yes, we're friends now because I always had a big heart. I gave her a second chance and she haven't fail me."

"We're not saying CiCi isn't your friend but if everyone in your life is saying she a snake, don't brush that over your head." NeeNee advised. "They may know something you don't or even see shit you don't Aspen."

"You not dumb, no where near it so stop acting like it." Mulan told her.

Aspen started thinking and she remembered she only spoke to CiCi about her virginity lately, she knew someone would have to tell Jamie because he was never like that towards her. She believed it when he said he hated her but surprisingly it didn't hurt like it should of, she was angry more than hurt. 

"How do you know when you over someone?" She asked.

"When that person isn't on your mind anymore, when you could just walk past them without thinking about the good memories, seeing that person with someone else." Nyasia said.

"You think you over Jamie?" Remy asked.

"Four months ago if he would of told me he hated me we would of been having a different conversation but now it's like okay life goes on." She shrugged. "I'm a little bothered by the strong choice of words but not heartbroken."

"This not my daughter." Memo shook her head, she still had her savage mode turned on.

"This that King blood coming." Remy smirked. "She finally done being smart and polite Aspy, she bout to turn into Alyssa."

"Oh God, I hope not." Memo sighed making them laugh. 

"I'm here for savage Aspen." Mulan chuckled.

~

"So where Jamie?" Zayyir asked Gee and the rest of them as they sat in the studio.

"His phone keep going to voicemail, his mother said he not in the house, we honestly don't know." Gee answered.

"Y'all better find him, y'all gotta meet with y'all tour manager and without Jamie being here he can't talk to both. No Jamie equals no tour."

"He's coming up now." Ky spoke making them sigh in relief just as the tour manager walked back in.

India met Jamie in the hallway seeing he was stumbling and barely walking straight, his face had some dried up tears on it and more tears were replacing it. Her heart dropped confused, she grabbed her cousin pushing him in the men bathroom.

"Take this shirt off, come on." She told him as he held his hands up taking off the dirty white shirt. "You stink Jamie, God."

"How many pills you gotta take to die?" 

"I don't know, how many did you take stupid?" 

"I stopped counting after fifteen." He chuckled.

"Why are you bleeding Jamie?" She asked panicking looking all over his body. "Why are you bleeding? Where are you bleeding from?" 

"Once I realized how stupid I was trying to commit suicide I tried throwing up but that shit ain't work so I cut my wrist trying to bleed the drugs out." 

"Are you fucking stupid?" India asked with tears coming to her eyes as he leaned his head back hitting it against the mirror hard. 

"I never pictured a life without Aspen and I guess this is why." He said leaning over. "I love her so much, I was willing to take me out the equation just to make her life better. Why can't I hate her?"

"Please don't get up, I'll be right back."

She walked back in the room seeing them talking and playing, they looked at her looking through her thinking Jamie was going to come behind her but he didn't.

"Where he at Indi?" Ky asked.

"He has to go to the hospital, I need help carrying him downstairs," She looked at them making him get up.

"What's wrong with him? Did he do it again?" Zayyir asked making India nod. "Jorge, we're going to have to reschedule this meeting for another day. Let's go talk details." 

"Where he at?" Gee asked storming out the office as India pointed to the bathroom.

When they walked back in, Jamie was laid flat out in a puddle of his own blood. India screamed going to smack him feeling he had no pulse, Dell picked up his brother throwing him over his shoulder. He couldn't even wait for no elevator he ran down four flights of stairs running out the building to the car.

"Nigga, you better not die." He chuckled scared out of his mind. "You heavy as fuck, you done got blood all over the fit, if you die Imma kill you bro."

"KC drive." India threw him the keys.

"I know that light looking beautiful, you probably seeing all the dead homies but this just a visit, you can't stay with them cousin." India told him. "Listen to my voice, no one else. How you feel about signing your first autograph? You felt like Jay Z? I know you look up to that nigga. Saheed would of been proud, you see Saheed?" 

"I can't see nobody cause you distracted me from going to them." Jamie mumbled making her laugh through her tears.

"She always been the cockblocker, right?" Dell asked.

"Couldn't be around no bitch around her." 

"Wasn't no bitch good enough to be around you." India spoke as Dell took off his shirt.

"You passed out from losing too much blood but you ain't cut ya self deep, you just hit a vain." Dell told him wrapping his shirt around his  wrist. "You gon be good, what you pop?"

"Some Motrin." Jamie laughed. "A nigga ain't really wanna die, my heart was just hurting. I tried to make that pain go away, I'm some lil dumb nigga."

"We gotta fight." Ky spoke. "Got me ruining my beat ass face."

"You still beautiful sousin." He smiled weakly.

"Nah nigga we gotta fight." Dell told him. "Niggas ran down four fucking flights with ya heavy ass, if I knew you was gon wake up I would of fucking waited for the elevator."

"You was Clark Kent for a moment." India said making them laugh.

Gee didn't find shit funny, he was in the front seat pissed the fuck off. This the third time Jamie did shit like this and he was happy about not burying his brother but he wasn't happy bout the feeling he get every time he see Jamie like this.

~

"You were the only one I said anything to about that Cienna." Aspen told her. 

"Okay but Jamie read the text messages, I didn't show him it's a difference."

"Since when are you and Jamie cordial?" Aspen folded her arms across her chest.

"We're not, you know none of them like me. He walked up to me asking about you and did your number change because he could never reach you. He grabbed my phone and I guess he read the messages, I didn't purposely show him."

"He was just so mad." Aspen shook her head.

"Yeah, he dropped my phone." She lied. "I could tell it really got to him."

"I'm sad I don't care like I should." Aspen sighed. "I should care that someone who's literally been my whole life says he hates me, he basically told me I shouldn't exist." 

"Everybody always told you he would be so hurt when you start getting serious with someone else, now he's missing everything about you wishing it was him. You can't fall for his trap again."

"I can't go there with him no more, I love Darius." Aspen smiled making CiCi smile.

"I'm happy for you best friend." CiCi continued fake smiling.

"What happened to your lip and neck?" Aspen asked looking at the bruises.

"I was attacked earlier." CiCi lied.

"Oh my God, are you okay?" 

"I will be after I place this police report, I'm on my way there now."

"Which one are you going to? I'll meet you there."

"The one in mid town Atlanta, I'll send you my location."

~

"I can't believe someone did this to you." Aspen shook her head eating her Chinese food while still trying to drive.

"I didn't even tell you, he raped me." CiCi spoke sadly. "I wasn't going to do anything with him but he was in an aggressive mood that he started choking me and hitting me, he told me if he wasn't going to get what he want he was going to take it."

"I was wondering why we were going to the hospital." Aspen shook her head sadly. "You won't have to go through this alone, I'm going continue being your friend through this. Whoever did this to you will pay."

"Thank you best friend, you're the only one I can depend on." She sighed getting out the car as they walked to the receptionist desk.

"I'll just wait while you do you." Aspen said making her nod.

Aspen walked to the waiting room but she furrowed her eyes seeing all her friends and two of her uncles, she walked faster to them wondering what was going on. Two people she didn't notice was Jamie and India, she continued looking for them.

"Who called you?" Ky asked furrowing her eyebrows.

"I was already here, what happened? Where's Jamie and India?" 

"Jamie's alright." Zaydrien spoke since none of them was answering her. "He popped some pills and tried to bleed out but he's good and India back there with him."

"Again? Why didn't anybody call me?" 

"When we supposed to call you?" Nay asked making her look confused.

"After you take your head out of CiCi ass or your boyfriends?" India asked sitting down. 

"We've been calling for two weeks now, what makes you think we knew you was gon answer this time?" 

"He don't want to see you." India spoke up. "His mother and his doctors thinks it's best he don't see you either so ain't no reason for you to be here."

"Why are y'all acting like this?" Aspen asked lowly kind of hurt.

"Because we don't know you anymore." Lay told her. "We've known Aspen all our lives but this person not her and if it is, I'll rather not know you."

"There's no other person, I'm me."

"You not though." Nay spoke up. 

"You know I watched you ignore my phone call two days ago? Just so you can call CiCi?" Ky asked actually hurt. 

"I had to speak to her about Darius, we were planning another date I meant to call you back but I just-"

"I was crying because my real mom stole my credit cards and I just wanted to talk to my best friend but planning a date was more important." Ky looked at her. 

"I-" Aspen stopped talking not knowing what to say.

"Aspen, we're done." CiCi spoke then stopped seeing everybody.

"Bitch what you do to my cousin?" Ky asked. "You was the last person he was with before you did this shit, what the fuck you do to him?"

"No no!" Zayyir yelled grabbing India as she kept trying to lounge at CiCi.

"I'm going to kill you, Imma blow up ya dusty ass house but Imma make sure that baby you been hiding not there. He'll be much better with a better mom than you ditsy bitch, I'm going to kill you." India stated. 

She was almost out Zayyir grip until Zaydrien grabbed her pulling her out the waiting room, Dell got up knowing he had to follow.

"Excuse my girlfriend, we're waiting on her mental evaluation now. Pray for us." Dell told the strangers who were looking with a smile following them.

"Aspen, come on let me walk you to ya car." Gee shook his head not really caring about CiCi.

Aspen nodded not saying anything else, she was just sad of the accusations. She knew she haven't spoken to her friends in a few days but did those days really turn into weeks? She sighed. As she was getting closer to Darius and CiCi, she was losing the people she trusted with her life.

"Don't let them get to you." CiCi told her friend making her nod.

"I'm not."
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Thoughts?

This not going to be long like my other stories, probably like seven more chapters left.

Sleepy asf, excuse any mistakes.