At that moment I yelped.

I fucking yelped.

But no that's not all I banged my my head against the wall behind me while attempting to move away from the railing gap. As if things just couldn't get any worse.

Just because I don't want to live doesn't mean I want to die.

Now in hindsight it wasn't that loud but considering that the room was completely silent just the second before quite a few head turned around. Well shit-

"I know where the key is" I heard a new voice speak up, extremely loudly.

"Quite Gerard" Captain Way's said followed by a sigh. But I couldn't focus on the voice.

My heart was beating at the speed of light. As I stared at the stairs waiting for a bunch of heavily armed sea men to march up and kill me. But what felt wasn't fear, more like regret for wasting my days away.

"No let him speak" Captain Stump's voice came up.

They're coming up.

He'd told them he saw me, the raven haired boy. I heard sounds play at the back of my mind. I knew they were talking. Was it about me?

I slowly attempted to move my hands. I needed to get out to run away. Here's another opportunity in my life I'd fucked up. Nothing big. Just lost my last hope at a life of choice.

"Trust me I'm telling you"

The noises were getting louder. Were they coming closer? Are they here? I wasn't able to focus. I felt myself move making a lot more noise than before. It didn't matter.

"How do you know it's with the-?" that were the last words I heard before collapsing outside the roof. Maybe I lost consciousness for a while but mostly for the part that I remember I just sat there and breath for a while and then I calmly climbed down the way down and adjusting my scarf and merged in the crowd of the Dark Market.

I lost myself in the mindless maze, blending in rather than fitting in. Just hiding.

Hiding from myself.

I'd fucked up. Again.

***

As I kept walking my breathes became more stable. I knew I shouldn't have let my thoughts wander around until I'd reaches somewhere safe but somewhere safe doesn't exist anymore. Somehow I managed to smile. Thrilling yeah?

But the smile disappeared when I thought of Pete. Shit. Pete.

Amid the heat of the meeting I forgot about the fight Pete and I had. We never fought before. We were usually too good at ignoring people, even each other. It's just that we never cared about each other enough to correct each other.

But now...I don't think he'd come back. But that's okay Pete was just an accomplice. I've always been alone. This wasn't different.

It was. It felt like it.

Maybe I'll try to find him now. It's not like I have something to do now...or anything to do at all.

I'd ran away to the heart of the town. As I was taught no one searches in plain sight. Maybe for a while I considered returning to Madonna. Maybe she didn't notice I was gone. But of she did I didn't want to know what would happen. When I was leaving I didn't consider about coming back because I wasn't supposed to, remember?

But if anyone did saw me there which is absolutely plausible after what happened did I really wanted to risk going back? Certainly not.

But I didn't had that much time to think because he was here. I spotted the guy with the raven haired roaming through the crowd of the market. He seemed like a calm and collected guy but it felt like he was searching for something or rather someone.

Gerard Way. The name came together. I'd heard about him. Son of Captain Way.

He looked towards me. I didn't move.

As the boy with the hazel eyes approached, I visibly shivered. Did he saw me? Is he gonna kill me? It was likely. He didn't look particularly murderous. But it was Gerard Way. Literally the son of Captain Way. It'd be nothing but pure foolishness to think he isn't capable of killing.

The crowd kept moving but stood frozen at my place.

This was the moment I should've ran away. I didn't. Instead I tried to think of all the things I wanted to do before I died. I didn't found any.

My life didn't flashed before my eyes. But I was terrified. As my breathing slowed down enough to be non existent felt sweat trickling down my back. I wasn't sure whether I was more shocked or terrified. Maybe I did anticipated being caught at some level. Maybe I had been lying to myself all this time for Pete's sake. Maybe I wasn't as good at hiding as I'd been priding myself.

Pete was already gone. I wondered if he'd care if I died today. I hope so.

As he came and stood in front of me I couldn't help but look at his eyes. They were hazel, hazel eyes. They seem to be sparkling like they held all the secrets of the world. To my surprise instead of reaching for his revolver he reached out his hand.

"I'm Gerard Way " he said and then he smiled. It looked nice on him. He looked nice.

I didn't notice it before but he had a really soft voice. It wasn't exactly sweet but it felt sweet to hear. Up close his features seemed to soften too. I craned my neck up a bit to meet his eyes.

I just stared back. His lips broadened into a grin. "And you are?" He said withdrawing his hand back to his side realizing I won't be able to shake his hand not now.

"Are you going to kill me?" I said instead of replying my name. Gerard Way's smile didn't help my paranoia.

"Wh- no" I watched as his eyes widened I'm surprise "why'd you think that?"

Great I shouldn't have said anything now I'm expected to reply. "Uh umm you know we- I was you know I was eaves dropping at the clan meeting and...." I trailed off.

"Yeah I get it I hid there during the last meeting us know I was a kid and curious so...well anyways can you give me a tour of the town?" he said smirking slightly.

You tell me what the epic fuck was I supposed to say.

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