Out of the blue

Chapter 26:

When your eyes linger

Note: This is the chapter book cover for chapter 26.

Note: This chapter is the counterpart of chapter 23 entitled "The first time I call you by your name" and Chapter 24 entitled "The game of affection"

Note: This chapter is Joseph's back story.

[P.O.V] Joseph Sebastian

Everything happens for a reason, a reason that brings about change, a change that even I myself have a hard time dealing with.

At the age of eight, in an unexpected turn of events, my mother and father passed away suddenly due to a car accident, and because of the tragedy that unexpectedly came into our lives, my older brother and I were suddenly forced to move out to our auntie's house but my brother and I don't want to be a burden in our aunt's house so my older brother and I were forced to work at a young age to help my auntie with the daily expenses.

But even fate isn't always rosy for us, my older and I were brother always work together and stay together, even though I accidentally found out that we were just half-brothers.

I chose to love and respect him because he's the only one left close to my heart.

but the bond of our brotherhood suddenly broke apart when my aunt and I were found out that my older suddenly expelled from his university because of a crime and after a week of being expelled to his previous university, my older brother suddenly acts so strangely and because of his weird actions, someone from his previous university put my older brother in a mental facility and at that time, my aunty and I were so confused why my older brother needs to be under treatment from a psychiatrist but the person who put my older brother in the mental facilities told us that my older brother is a dangerous person who needs to be hospitalized in a mental facility and the person who put my older brother in mental facilities was Mr. Lawrence de Guzman, the father of Benjamin de Guzman... Benjamin's father is a rich entrepreneur who has many connections in the business and non-business industry that's why because of poverty, my aunty and I did nothing to help my older brother but before my older brother left us, he whispery told me that Benjie's father is a fucking liar because the who stole the university answer key was Benjamin de Guzman.

That's why my older brother told me that I need to study at his former university so that I could take revenge on him against Benjamin de Guzman. 

After a year of dedication and hard-working, I was able to successfully passed the scholarship program at my older brother's former university where Benjamin de Guzman was studying as a 10th-grade student.

At first, I had the courage and dedication to make my evil plan against Benjamin so that he would pay for what he did to my older other but every time I saw how powerful he was inside and outside the university, I learned to accept the fact that I couldn't defeat him and no one can beat a monster in his own territory.

And to keep my peaceful life as an ordinary 9th-grade student, I keep myself away from others, I would prefer to be by myself rather than with others because I'm not used to talking to other people because all my life, I've been used to talking only with my parents, I am really close to them and in my whole life, I live in their sunshine but when they passed away, the happiness of my heart suddenly disappeared and broke into pieces.

But out of the blue, my heart suddenly lit up again like a sunrise when I met someone, a person who makes my heart feel eases and that person was always looking from far away.

To be honest, I have no intention of knowing his name and I don't know why he is secretly watching me from far away but every time I noticed that his eyes linger on me, he quickly looked away from me.

Even though that guy makes me feel uncomfortable but at that same time, his eyes taught me to fall in love with him but after a year passed, the world between us suddenly changed when my older brother was freed from mental facilities.

After two years of staying in a place where he doesn't deserve, I confessed to my older brother that during the two years he was imprisoned, I don't have the courage to fight Benjamin because I know in myself that I won't win against him but instead of he understands my feelings, my older brother angrily scold me and that's my first time I saw him extremely angry with me that's why he ordered me to steal his university ID from the student affairs office and at those times I could do nothing but follow what he commanded to me even if it was against my will but this isn't about my will... I follow his order to me because he knows in himself that he needs me and as his younger brother I understand how he feels.

After two days, I decided to do what my older brother ordered me, and as I secretly entered the university at midnight, my heartbeat suddenly skips a bit when a student inspector caught me sneaking inside of the student affairs office and that person was one of my classmates and his named was Third Alcantara, the guy who secretly stalking me a years ago.

As I stare into his eyes, my body starts to stiffened and the memory of my heart suddenly came back that makes my heart feels nervous but unexpectedly when Third saw me become pale, he didn't arrest me and he didn't tell his co-student inspector that I illegally entered our university at late night.

At that moment, while my heart beats fast because of the nervousness I felt, my phone suddenly rang, and at that time, I quickly grabbed my phone in my pocket to check my notifications and after I saw my older brother's texts, I immediately went out to the university but before my feet move away, Third suddenly asks me about what I am doing here at university in late-night but because of my hurriedly, I didn't answer his question.

[Ten hours passed]

[Lunch-break]

Since I illegally entered our university at midnight, I didn't get much rest in my aunt's house so I thought to take a nap at my study desk and while my face was lying on the surface of my desk, the sunlight suddenly penetrated through the window of our classroom.

And because of that, I suddenly felt heat on my face so I woke up and looked out the window and when I glanced out the window where the sunlight was, I suddenly saw Third's reflection from behind me.

I don't know why he keeps smiling like that to me but as I secretly glance at his reflection at the glass window, I felt something weird here inside of my chest that makes me weak and light, his smile is brighter than the sunshine makes me paused and blushed.

Since then, Third's smile gives me the light to accept who really I am and to make the right decision, and because of his job as the chief student inspector, I choose won't follow what my older brother wants me to do.

As the days went by, while I was waiting for the rain to stop because I forgot to bring my umbrella, I was suddenly surprised when Third approached me to invite me to share his umbrella with him.

At that time as Third and I were walking in bad weather, I couldn't bear to look at him as our hands were holding the handle of his umbrella, my heart keeps beating so crazy and I can't stop thinking about him, but unexpectedly, while Third and I were walking in the rain, my older brother suddenly arrived and called my name behind my back but that moment, I didn't listen to my older brother so I continued walking forwards just nothing happens but unfortunately, my older brother angrily pulled me up just to go with him and at that time, Third tried to save me against my brother but in the end, Third did nothing but look at me while I was walking away with my older brother and at that moment, just like the rain, I couldn't stop my tears from dripping because my heart can no longer bear the heaviness of what I was experiencing in life.

After that incident, I decided to stay away from Third because I didn't want him to get involved in the mess of my life but out of the blue, he suddenly acts so strangely because he always approaches me to invite me to eat at the university cafeteria, and every time he invites me, he always gives me a smile that my heart becomes light and in those moments, I decided to embrace my feelings towards him and as Third and I were eating at the university cafeteria, he suddenly asked me about the last night that he caught me sneaking at the student affairs office and that time, I confessed to him that my older brother ordered me to get his university ID at the student affairs office but I didn't tell him what was the reason why my brother wants to get his university ID.

Honestly, I want to help my older brother but I don't have the courage to help him, I baldy want to help him to take revenge on that stupid monster (Benjamin) but I am so weak and I am nobody, I am just a piece of shit that lives like a human in this unfair world because this world is an inherently unfair place that makes us want to wake up from the nightmare.

Later on, after my older brother found out that I didn't follow his order, he always picks me up outside of the university just to beg me to steal his confiscating university ID.

At that time, I honestly told my older brother that I wasn't able to get his University ID because the student inspector (Third) caught me sneaking at the student affairs office but my older brother didn't believe me so he didn't hesitate to beat and scolds me up outside of the university.

As other students were passing by the side of the road near the outside of our university. My older brother was mercilessly beating me on the other side of the road and at that moment, the people who witnessed that incident had nothing to do but just watch me suffering but out of the blue, while I laying on the ground, my older brother was suddenly knocked down due to a blow and the person who punched my older brother was none other than Third.

At that moment, without any hesitation, Third immediately punch my older brother to save me, and after my older brother knockdown on the ground, he suddenly stood up with a smirk and after seconds, he left me just like a piece of trash.

After my older brother left the area, Third immediately call his colleagues to clear the area around us and tell the student who was watching the incident to leave the area and after Third gave the order to his underlying student inspector, he immediately approaches me to give me a hand to stand up and after that, I slowly walk away, I don't know where I go because I was afraid to go home because of my older brother but unexpectedly, as I slowly walk away with sorrow in my heart, Third suddenly call my name for the first time and he invites me to his condo unit at that moment, I suddenly stop walking because of what I heard from him and when I stopped walking away from him, he approached me and suddenly, he nailed down in front of me and pull his handkerchief into his pocket to rid the blood from his leg and after he used his handkerchief as a gauze bandage my wound, he suddenly invites me to ride his back but I quickly deny his invitation but I can walk by myself but tt that moment, Third didn't listen to me so I forced to carry me behind his back towards his condo unit, and as he was carrying me behind his back, there were people on the road who suddenly looked at us so I suddenly felt ashamed of myself but while Third carrying me, I could see in his eyes that he didn't care what other people were thinking of us.

Later on, Joseph and I finally arrived at my condo unit and when we step inside my condo unit, Third decided to treat my wound on the leg and face made by my older brother and after he treated my wound using his medicine kit, I went to his sofa to take a nap, but as I preparing myself to sleep, Third suddenly approaches me asked me "Why does your older brother want to get his university ID at the student affairs office?"

At that time, I told Third the whole story of why my brother wanted to get his ID at the university, In fact, because of what Benjamin did to my brother, I felt sorry for my older brother, I wanted to help him avenge Benjamin but I can't beat Benjamin and no one can defeat a monster in his own territory.

A week passed by, as I sitting on my chair while looking outside through the window in our classroom, I expect to see Third with his co-inspector patrolling nearby, it seems that Third was busy lately with his job as a chief student inspector, and because of that, I suddenly felt lonely these past few days and now, as I look at Third through the window in our classroom, some suddenly approach Third, a girl with a pink envelope in her hand, at that time, the girl who suddenly approached Third suddenly handed him a love letter.

As I look at them from far away, my chest suddenly feels aches that make my heart break into pieces. 

I don't know why but I hate the feeling that I felt right now... It feels like that all the butterflies in my heart just died, honestly, I never knew I'd end up liking him this much, I never knew that it could feel so much pain, but it seems that I've no right to be hurt because Third and I don't have any kind of relationship, we are just strangers who know each other's name, a stranger with some memories.

For the past two days, I decided to keep myself busy just to forget my feelings for Third, I decided to know my position in his life, I decided to stop loving him because this is the right thing to do, I don't want to lose Third in my life so my heart prefers to be friends with him rather than lose him in my life.

and now, as I walking in the university hallway towards my classroom, the students with whom I was walking down the hall were suddenly surprised at what they saw in the sky.

At that time, all the students on the campus were suddenly surprised when they saw hundreds of papers falling from the rooftop of the university and while the papers continuously falling from above, I immediately picked up and looked at one of the mysterious papers that had fallen from above and when I looked at the paper I was suddenly surprised when I read what was written on the paper.

The written on the paper is a student petition letter against Benjamin to expel him from the university and because of that, I felt so lucky because someone who has the courage to fight Benjamin de Guzman.

Because of what I discovered,  I immediately ran towards our classroom to fill up the student petition letter against Benjamin but as I was running with a smile on my face, I didn't realize that someone was also running on my path, and because of that, we bumped into each other and knockdown on the floor.

As the both of us lay on the floor, I immediately stood up to help the girl I bumped to but unfortunately, she immediately stood up and ran away with mixed joy in her eyes.

Honestly, I didn't know her but suddenly, I felt something strange here in my heart that gives me joy and blush... I think I was in love at the first sight with her... I want to meet her again soon.

After the past two days trying to search for the mysterious girl, I bumped from the other day... unexpected news suddenly came out from the student council office that the student petition against Benjamin was suddenly canceled because the main complainant of the student petition had withdrawn his decision to expel Benjamin from this university and as a result, I felt upset and pissed off because the chance that I might be able to retaliate against Benjamin suddenly disappeared, so I thought of going to the university rooftop to get rid of my anger a little bit but when I open the door at the university rooftop, I suddenly heard someone crying and that shedding of tears was coming from a saw girl and that girl was the one I bumped from the other day.

At that moment, I don't know why she is crying but as she is crying, I saw that she crumbles in her right hand and when I started that paper, I immediately recognize the paper was the student petition letter against Benjamin so I thought to ask if she was crying because the main complainant suddenly canceled his decision about student petition against Benjamin.

"Yes, I am crying because I want Benjie to be expelled from this university but I don't expect that Kaito Frederick Almasen withdraws his petition against Benjie." (Mysterious girl said as wiped his tears.)

"Who is Kaito Frederick Almasen?" (I asked the mysterious girl.)

"Based on the humor I heard around the campus that guy is Benjie's childhood best friend and Benjie's first love and also, he's the main complainant of the student petition letter against Benjie that's why I want to make Benjie suffer through expelling from this university, I want Benjie to feel embarrassed just like he did to me but he's freaking childhood friend is getting my nerves!" (The mysterious girl told me as he feels annoyed with Benjamin's childhood friend.)

As the mysterious girl talking to me, I can't take my eyes off her... I don't know why but I think I like her so much because she absolutely pretty and I want her to stop crying so while I stare at her beauty, I suddenly spoke to her without my sense.

"Do you want us to work together so we can beat Benjamin?" (I ask the mysterious girl.)

After I said that question to her, she suddenly paused a little second and said;

"Are you crazy?" (The mysterious girl told me with her serious face.)

"To be honest, I don't have any idea how we can beat Benjamin but If I could find a way for us to beat Benjamin, Did you want to join me?" (I told to the mysterious girl with a smirk.)

At that moment, the mysterious girl suddenly laughed at me because of what I said to her.

"By the way, I'm Irene Amores, a 12-grade student and... Yes, if you can think of a way for us to beat Benjie then I will not hesitate to help you wholeheartedly." (Irene told me as she approached me to shake my hands with a smile on her lips.)

From then on, I'm trying my best to find a better way to help Irene against Benjie, and by helping Irene, I can also give justice to my older brother.

As I thinking of a way how to defeat Benjamin, I suddenly grab my textbook under my desk, and that time, as I grabbed my textbook, a piece of paper suddenly fall from my desk and that piece of paper was the student petition made by Kaito Almasen against Benjamin.

At that time, when I saw the student petition letter on the floor, out of the mountain of despair. A light suddenly appeared in my heart that can help me change the fate of this university.

*Joseph's evil smirk*

To be continued...