Over the years I been with my grandma just having fun when I grew up...I was happy to have her until we have out ups and down but soon in time she got very sick..I was worried about her ..I couldn't stop worrying about her but one day before I could go to my job..my dad came up to me and said " grandma passed away" right there I felt broken that wont be fixed ...I lost her and I cried cried everyday until when I saw her body laying there peacefully..my heart was empty without my grandma ..I missed her so much ...when I walked off I just want to vomit bit cried instead and breathe heavy ...then when I see her room she is not there ..I'm scared to be alone without her ....but I Know I love my grandma very much....wished she was alive now ..wanted it badly ..hated it that family dies...I wish could have a power to stop death ..but knowing she is in my heart and soul guiding me in my life...I will be okay ...but right now ..I. so hurt want to be alone and cry in a room ..just hide from everyone ...but I just listen to music kept everyone put of my head and relax...I miss her now..and will always ....what can I do to help my self more ?...what do I do?