Taehyung's POV

"Merry Christmas" she said while smiling.

"I love you" I replied. She rolled her eyes playfully and laughed.

I pulled her close to me and stared at her. She stared back smiling.

I leaned in and pecked her lips.

"Merry. Christmas. I. love ---"

"You. So. Much" she continued.

Napabuntong hininga ako.

It's been 7 months, without her. 7 months 24 days 13 hours 15 minutes and 45 seconds to be exact. 7 months since we called it quits. Pitong buwan simula nung huli kaming magkita at magka-usap. At sa loob ng pitong buwan siya lang lagi ang iniisip ko. Iniisip ko kung kumusta na ba siya, kung kumakain ba siya ng maayos? , kung namimiss niya ba ako? , kung mahal pa ba niya ako? kung ako pa ba.

Umiling ako at natawa sa sarili ko. Ang kapal naman ng mukha kong isipin na ako pa rin. Pagkatapos ko siyang iwan? Pagkatapos kong makipag hiwalay? Pagkatapos kong tapusin ang mahigit limang taong pagsasama?And for what reason?stupid fucking Dating Ban.

Alam kong hindi na siya nagtanong pa, hindi na niya ipinaglaban ang gusto niya. Dahil alam niyang pangarap ko ito.Alam kong nasaktan ko siya, and the thought of her crying because of me, breaks my heart a million times. And because of this dream of mine I lost the love of my life.

She was with me all throughout my journey to achieve this dream. Sinuportahan niya ako mula pa nung trainee palang ako. She was with me through ups and downs. And I'm such a stupid jerk for breaking up with her.

Pero wala na eh. Its been said and done. All I can do now is hope for the best for her.

Maybe hindi pa kami para sa isa't-isa sa ngayon. Maybe someday, when the time is right. We'll fall back to eachothers arms. We'll find a way back into love.

"I will always be your number one fan."

What she said when she left that night still echoes in my mind every single time. Yun ang nagpapalakas sa akin. I know she's out there still supporting me.

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at itinago ang litrato niyang kanina ko pa pinagmamasdan nang may marinig akong kumakatok.

"Hyung? Tara na sa labas. Ikaw nalang hinihintay" sabi ni Jungkook na nakasilip sa may pinto.

"Oh what's that?"

I snapped my head to where he's looking. Kinuha ko ang maliit na kahon at binuksan iyon. I smiled while staring at it. This was supposed to be my anniversary gift for her. Isinara ko iyon at bumuntong hininga bago ko iyon itago sa closet.

" Tara na"Aya ko kay Jungkook nang maitago ko iyon.

" Ano iyon hyung? singsing? Para kanino yon? "Nagtatakang tanong niya.

" For my number one Fan"I smiled and patted his back.

Dumiretso na kami sa sala kung nasaan silang lahat, katatapos lang ng Christmas Eve After Party at naisipan naming ituloy dito sa Apartment namin.

Kaming magkaka grupo lang naman ang nandito kasama ang mga kaibigan ni Jungkook.

"Merry Christmas!!!" Sigaw nila sa akin nang makarating kami don.

"Nagmumukmok ka na naman?" tanong ni Jimin at umakbay sa akin. Umiling lang ako at napangiti.

"Oh bat wala si Eunwoo?" tanong ko sa kanila.

Nagtinginan silang magkakaibigan at nagkibit balikat.

"Alam niyo ba na ang weird niya netong mga nakaraang buwan?" Tanong ni Jungkook sa kanila. Nakikinig lang naman kami sa usapan nila.

"Yeah he's a little weird" sabi ni Bambam.

"Hindi na siya masyadong sumasama sa atin tuwing may free time siya"

"Tapos laging may kausap sa cellphone na lagi pang nakangiti"

"Wala din siya sa After Party kanina, nung tinanong ko mga kagrupo niya. Nagmamadali daw umalis nung may natanggap na tawag eh"

"Baka may girlfriend na?" Namjoon hyung said butting in on their conversation.

"Woah! Kaya pala!" Jungkook said snapping his fingers.

"Napanuod ko yung interview nila, The interviewer asked him what would he choose between Love and Career---"

Tatayo na sana ako para kumuha pa ng beer pero napantig ang tenga ko sa sinabi ni Jungkook at patuloy na nakinig.

"He said He doesn't have to choose between the two because he can continue his career while having the love of his life by his side"

Wow. I wish I had the same mindset as him.

"Oh yeah, I remember that. They even asked him kung may Girlfriend ba siya o special someone" Mingyu said.

"And he answered that he has a person that's special to him. Right?" Jaehyun added.

Nagtawanan sila. "He's in Love!" sabay sabay nilang sabi.

"let's call him" suggest ni Jungkook. "they might be together right now"

"Wow these guys are something" Yoongi hyung said, tumayo siya at pumunta na sa kwarto niya.

"It's 4am give him a break" Hobi hyung told them.

"It's ringing! It's ringing!" Excited na sabi ni Jungkook.

Nakailang ring din pero hindi sinagot ni Eunwoo, maya-maya pa ay bumukas ang pinto.

"Why are you guys calling me?" Eunwoo asked. Everyone was shocked,suot parin niya ang stage outfit niya na ginamit nila nung nag perform sila.

"Merry Christmas hyung" He smiled to us. "Merry Christmas"

"san ka galing? bat suot mo parin yan?" tanong ni Jungkook.

Nahiga siya sa couch at ngumiti. "Heaven's side."

Nagtawanan naman kami, he's really in love.

"Aren't you afraid?" Tanong ko sa kanya. Napaupo siya at tumingin sakin. "About what hyung?"

"About.... what would your fans think?"

Ngumiti siya. "If they really love me and truly supports me, they have to understand that I'm human too. I fall in love too" He shrugged.

Wow. I truly wish I had his mindset. Napalunok ako, If only I was as brave as him.

"So inaamin mo na may girlfriend ka?" Tanong nila sa kanya. He chuckled and put his hands up.

"Wala akong girlfriend"

"I don't believe you, show us her picture"sabi ni Jaehyun sa kanya.

" Wala nga---"he answered pero nakuha na ni Jungkook ang phone niya.

" Oh? who's this? "Tanong ni Jungkook habang nakatitig sa cellphone ni Eunwoo. Pati ako ay nakiusyoso na rin at nakitingin.

It was the cutest baby I have ever seen. Napangiti ako she was like an angel.Napakaamo ng mukha niya.

Inagaw ni Eunwoo ang cellphone niya at ngumiti." She's cute, isn't she? "

Napanganga ang mga kaibigan niya habang nakatitig sa kanya.

"Don't tell me---"

"That child is yours?"

Bumuntong hininga siya at ngumiti.

"I wish she was, but she isn't" malungkot na sabi niya, bumuntong hininga siya at naupo ulit sa couch.

"what do you mean? care to explain? and who is this girl?" tuloy tuloy na tanong ni Jungkook.

"I didn't know she was pregnant at first, I asked her out but she declined a million times. Pero napilit ko rin---" he stopped and smiled. "Nung nagkita kami nung araw na iyon, she told me she was pregnant right away, sinabi rin niya na tigilan ko na ang kahit na anong balak ko....I don't know, I was shocked but I can't leave... I liked her since the first time I met her---"

"Wait how about the childs father?" Tanong ni Jimin na katulad ko ay curious din.

"They broke up...and she didn't have the chance to tell him about her pregnancy"

Napanganga kaming lahat.

"So hindi alam nung tatay nung bata na buntis yung ex niya?" Umiling si Eunwoo.

"I dont even know who the guy is... All this time that I was with her, he never came or he never call or texted her... Guess he was happy living his life" He shrugged.Bakas sa mata niya ang galit sa lalaking iyon. Napabuntong hininga na naman siya.

"But I still envy him though"

"And why is that?" Tanong ni Bambam.

"She still loves him---"

"So why don't you just leave and find someone else? ---"

"Because I'm not like his ex, who chose to leave her to chase his dreams. Tanga na kung tanga but I'm willing to wait until she's ready." Eunwoo answered cutting Mingyu off.

"but what if bumalik yung tatay?" tanong ni Jungkook.

"I won't give up without a fight"

"Wooooh the atmosphere is getting heavy! It's time to change topic!" Sigaw ni Hobi Hyung.

"You know what, You're a real man. And I hope one day she'll accept your love" sabi ko at tinapik si Eunwoo sa balikat.