EUNWOO'S POV

I groaned while opening my eyes. I couldn't see anything since it was too dark, but I sill squinted my eyes and looked around. I feel like my heads about to explode. But atleast I sill made it home last night.

I pulled out my phone. "am I asleep the whole day?" I asked myself after I saw the time on my phone. I dialled jungkook's number, I know he's not that drunk he's like the most responsible out of all of us so.

"Yo! What's up?"  he said when he answered.

"My heads killing me" I laughed.

He laughed. "alam ko, You're pretty wasted last night.... And soooo close to crying" he laughed again.

"Ha! no way!.... Atleast I still made it home---" I felt my body and kumpleto naman ako. "and in one piece"

"Bro you got K.O'd last night" he said.

That's exactly why I wanted to go out and drink. I wanted to get so wasted that I don't have to think of anything else.

He laughed again. "man, si Namjoon hyung at  Taehyung hyung and nag uwi sayo kagabi" sabi niya. "since hinatid din namin ni Jimin hyung sina Bambam at Yugyeom" tuloy niya.

I closed my eyes again and groaned. "thank them for me Bro" sabi ko.

"Oh! I will" he said. "ah! The hyungs said you almost cried last night" panimula niya.

"I didn't"

He laughed again. "I couldn't imagine you crying over a girl though.... Man love really hit you"

I couldn't imagine myself too. Not until I met Kara.

"hmm.. I did" I sighed. " Don't worry.... Just give her time, she'll come around"

"I hope so"

After that night I really hope I can still talk to her the same as before, I still hope that nothings changed between us. Right now all I can do is hope.

May sinabi pa si Jungkook pero hindi ko na siya narinig dahil masyadong masakit ang ulo ko. "I'll talk to you later man, I'm gonna cure this hangover first"

Pagkatapos naming mag-usap ni Jungkook ay dumiretso na ako sa bayo para maligo. Akala ko talaga nakauwi akong ako lang mag-isa. I need to thank Taehyung hyung and Namjoon hyung  for taking me home last night, and I just hope I didn't do or said anything embarrassing.

What if I accidentally said Kara's name last night? I hope not. Hindi naman siguro ako naging madaldal kagabi. I groaned again, I really can't remember anything.

Pagkatapos kong maligo at makapagbihis ay lumabas na ako. Lumabas din siguro ang mga ka grupo ko dahil wala silang lahat dito. Nag iwan nalang ako ng note sa may ref.

I went to a nearby restaurant that sells hangover soup. My head is literally killing me right now. Masyado talagang naparami ang nainom namin kagabi.

But atleast kahit sandali ay nakalimutan kong na basted ako. I pulled out my phone remembering Kara. I sighed when I saw my lock screen. It was me, Kara and Celine pero syempre naka cover yung mukha ni Kara baka kasi may makakita.

Napabuntong hininga uli ako. Not a single text or even a single missed call. I understand though, she might still be shocked at my sudden confession.

"I should just go and see her" I mumbled to myself. I paid my bill and went out. "should I just play it cool? Do I just pretend like her rejection isn't a big deal and that it didn't hurt me at all?" I asked myself.

If I don't want to lose her just like that, then maybe it's best for me to just play it cool. But what if she still feels awkward?

And it's not easy to pretend that it didn't hurt at all. Because it hurts too much. I was sure she'll say yes. But I guess my hunch wasn't right.

We we're fine but these past few weeks she changed, I just felt like Somethings odd about her. We we're fine, everyone keeps saying how great we look together as a couple.

I don't know what happened but  just hoped she's not seeing anyone behind my back, especially not her ex.

" Should I act like my usual self? act silly and make corny remarks? To make it less awkward? "

" Right! That's what I need to do" I  mumbled to myself. I wouldn't lose Kara just like that, just because she rejected me once means I'm giving her up.

She didn't just reject you once though, she rejected you many times already.

"shut up" I told my brain. Though its true, but this is like the time she really did reject me sincerely. But thats nt gonna stop me from pursuing her. I love her and I won't give up that easily. I already told her that I wouldn't give her up without a fight.

"anong sasabihin ko sa kanya pagdating ko don?" tanong ko uli sa sarili ko. Seriously what will I tell her? should I apologize? But why would I apologize? It's not like I regret everything, because I don't.

I just want her to know how I feel. And... And I just really wanted her to be mine.

Kung hindi ka kasi sana nagpadalos-dalos edi sana hindi ka namomroblema. My subconscious mind told me.

I groaned. "I know! I'm literally the biggest idiot" sabi ko sa sarili ko.

I can fix this I can make us okay again. I should  just joke around and make corny remarks, that'll make her laugh for sure. So we won't be awkward.

Malapit na ako kina Kara nung mapansin ko ang sasakyan na nakapakada sa harap ng bahay nila.
Napakunot ang noo ko, that's clearly not Tito Dominique's car or even Kayden hyungs.

"Do they have a visitor?" tanong ko. Itinigil ko muna ang sasakyan ko sa gilid, malapit na ako at tama lang ang layo ko para makita kung may tao.

The car still has its lights on meaning there's still someone inside. After  few minutes the lights turned off and someone went out from the drivers seat. His back is facing me but I clearly see him carrying two bouquets.

I'm guessing one for Kara and Tita Serenity. "Who is he?" tanong ko sa sarili ko. I don't want to assume things such as Kara's suitor or ex because I'll clearly hurt myself.

"maybe he's just a friend who's just visiting" I shrugged. He looks nervous even from the back, and he looks familiar too, his build, his height.

Napailing ako.He really looks familiar, I  just couldn't point out who.

I watched as he pressed the doorbell and after a few minutes Kara opened the gate smiling at him. They didn't get inside though they're just standing there. Then the guy gave Kara the other bouquet and I can see Kara giggling from here.

I think Kara is telling him to go inside with her but he just stood there, it means it's is first time there.

Don't tell me he's really Kara's suitor? That'll explain the flowers and he even bought one for Tita Serenity.

"He's trying hard" I shrugged. Alam ko namang boto sakin sina Tito Dominique at Tita Serene. And even Kayden hyung.

Kara looked around as if she's checking if anyone's around. And I'm hoping she'd look my way Iknow she'll recognized my car. But she didn't. And when she checked that no one was indeed around, she tilted her head and kissed him.

My mouth open to say something but no words came out. I felt my heart break as they stayed like that.

Well I really didn't expect that.

It wasn't long but it sure feels like forever for me. They pulled away away and  I can still see Kara smiling. The kind of smile I never saw before.

The kind of smile she never showed me. She looks genuinely happy. Why can't she look at me like that? Why can't she look at me with the same fondness?

What's with that guy that I do not have?

I felt like my hangovers already cured. And my headache isn't killing me anymore. What's killing me right now is the pain I'm feeling in my chest.

Magkahalong selos, sakit at napakaraming katanungan ang nararamdaman ko. "who the fuck is that guy?"

They turned to  leave but the guy pulled Kara in and kissed her again.

"What the fuck" napamura na naman ako. I can't do this anymore, this is too much. If I could just go out right now and pull him away from Kara I would.

Pero anong karapatan ko? Kara isn't mine. And I knew it since day one.

I started my car and started to drive before I start crying here. I watched as they pulled away. Kara grabbed his hand and led him inside. And just when the guy turned to close the gate,

I felt my whole world collapse.

I saw him.